I'm a year and 7 months out. Mid 40. We were married for 17 years and together for 20. He died suddenly at 50 of sudden cardiac arrhythmia at his work desk.
My husband and I did everything together. We were attached to the hips. Two best friends going through life together. The only thing we didn't do is go to work together. Everything else, we were always together.
When we weren't together, we still managed to text and talk on the phone anyways. Always communicating while he worked night shifts.
My goal was to be more independent after his death.
I booked a tattoo (I collect them) 2 hours away from my town. Booked a hotel and I'm currently staying at a hotel by myself for the first time in my life. It's crazy but going through the check-in alone. Walking the hotel hallway. Carrying my own luggage. All of that, alone.. Is making me realize I don't wanna do this again. I don't wanna do it all alone.
My next step would be a trip by airplane alone. TSA, security, boarding. All alone. I'm not sure I can't do it.
But I also don't wanna not live. I want to travel and do something with my life. But, solo? Again? It's hard. So what will my life be? Go to Costco alone once a week. Movie alone, and thats it?
I also don't wanna meet anyone new as I'm not ready.
And I don't want this loneliness to weight on me forever. Because it's suffocating. And yea I talk to him every day in my head. To the point where I'm thinking I'm becoming schizophrenic.
But I think I do understand people who aren't strong enough to keep going through life by themselves.

We have been teasing and flirting with the hotwife lifestyle for months. She would get me worked up when we went out, but never acted on it. I kind of felt like that flirting was as far as we would ever go and if that is what she was comfortable with, then I was fine with that. For the record, we are both 40 with kids and good jobs. I started showing her guys reddit and she agreed to let me send them sexy pics of her which got her really excited when they sent pictures of their dicks hard. She really liked younger and muscular guys...I know right. We ran across one guy who she liked and he was good at chatting with us. I eventually asked him where he was from as that seems to be a natural question when chatting with someone. We were shocked when it was the next town over. On one hand, we felt kind of exposed as we might know him or his family, but as we kept talking we found out that he is here going to the University and we have know connection at all. We kept chatting over a few weeks and sending personalized sexy pics with him. After a few weeks, he asked my wife and I if we would like to meet and hangout. No expectations, just hang out. We agreed and he said we could come to his dorm room which at first seemed crazy, but hey I haven't been in a dorm in 20 years and it was cute the way he invited us. My wife and I talked about things and I could tell she was having a moment. She was really excited and I could tell that the wheels were turning at least to the idea of doing something with him. She asked me if she could see him alone to which I agreed as long as I drove her there and sat in the car. This was fine with me, I trusted her and him.
On the the day of our meet she got dressed sexy in a short black mini dress that was really to revealing to be going out in, she said she wanted to surprise him with something sexy. It was so hot watching her get ready. We pulled up to the dorm around 5 and it was still very much daylight out and there were people all around. We could see him at the door to the dorms and my wife started to get out of the car. I told her to trust her instincts and don't do anything that she was uncomfortable with. I sat in the car and watched her walk toward him, she was getting lots of looks. When she got to him, he had a big smile on his face and so did she, my blood was rushing. Roughly 40 minutes later I got a text saying she was coming out...I was on edge with a mix of emotions, but I was happy to get something from her. I started the car and looked at the doors to see her walking out. When she got in the car she was glowing with a grin from ear to ear. She said and I quote "He fucked me" My heart jumped through my chest. I was paralyzed, but in a good way. As we started to drive home, she told me the details. She said they made out and started groping. She said it was hot like being in her 20s again. Eventually clothes came off and they started having sex. He is a decent amount bigger than me, but we already knew that. She said he wasn't great in bed or anything, but his enthusiasm, physique, and size made her feel incredible. Once they moved to him fucking her from behind, he came in her and evidently it was a lot because it was running down her leg in the car. I mentioned that her panties must be full and she said "I let him keep them". When we got home I could wait to ravage her...I immediately pushed her onto the bed and without thinking about started going down on her. She was shocked at first, but just went with it. She turned and pulled out my dick and started jacking me off with lube. I came in less than a minute.
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As a side note, because someone might ask, he had been tested a week before at the university clinic...not for us, but just because he had a new partner (One night stand). We haven't had anyone new since getting married...Wife is also fixed so no baby worries.

I have a mama cat, her big girl and her 4 kittens which we had born a few weeks ago. They are now big enough to walk around so today we decided to let them explore.
The big cat we have, not the mama cat but her girl, for some reason is keep running at the kittens, punching(?) them, jumping on them, pushing them over, I have no idea what she is doing but it worries me. Is she just playing? Is she trying to hurt the kittens? Should I be worried? She is a very shy cat usually and I have never seen her be aggressive

Hi everyone, I have a Garmin watch and an iPhone SE 2020. A major problem I’ve been having is that my iPhone apps seem to always double count things like steps and calories when my Garmin connect syncs its data. So, for example suppose I have both my watch and phone when I go for a 1 kilometre walk. The Apple apps will first show 1km. Then, when the Garmin watch syncs its data, the Apple apps will show that I have done 2km.
I have seen online suggestions being to disable fitness tracking on my iPhone. However I don’t want to do this because there are times when I won’t be wearing my Garmin.
If anyone has any help that would be greatly appreciated! Even though I like everything else, at the moment, the double counting is really making me dislike the Garmin experience and I am tempted to swap to an Apple Watch :(

I used to do this manually to get some quick cobalt early on. You can get hundreds of cobalt per manual egg harvest when decked out with loot increasing equipment and the eggs respawn very quickly so long as the nest is off-screen, so it was a good way to get a quick cobalt boost, albeit one that demanded my undivided attention. With the addition of the loot drone tower though, you can now fully automate the canoptrix nest egg farm.
You could just let them spawn and attack the nearest forward defensive base (which should have a loot tower since really, they all should now), but the canoptrix themselves give much less cobalt than the eggs do, so you won't get much. You would get much more biomass this way though, if you prefer that. If you really want the cobalt, you want to kill the eggs as soon as they spawn, before they can hatch.
To do this, you only need to surround the nest itself with 4 basic lvl 1 sentinel towers, placed right next to the big nest in a cube formation. They do not target the nest naturally, only the eggs, but stray shots will eventually kill it if they are hitting the nest. So by placing them right next to the nest, they fire outwards and don't damage it. If you have to place towers further out due to blind spots created by obstacles, just make sure that those towers do not have a clear firing line to the nest through that blind spot, or you'll eventually kill the nest with stray shots. Then, just have a loot tower or two within range to pick up the cobalt on the ground.
The eggs spawn repeatedly so long as the nest is not on your screen. It's fine to have vision of it on the map through the placed towers/buildings or via radar, just don't have it on screen. This results in a very steady flow of cobalt that frankly makes a cobalt outpost or cobalt cultivation kinda pointless. It might actually get nerfed.
Depending on your nest's position you may have to accept rebuilding the setup when waves happen to spawn on that side of the map. It's really difficult to make the nest properly defensive since you can't use a lot of tower types, like artillery. They'll just blow up the eggs AND the adjacent nest pretty quickly.

Hi fellow Aggies, I realize most of you are probably local students but just in case someone knows the answer to this question: I am an international student considering a Psychology related major in UC Davis. I was told that there is a certain CIP code that tells if your major qualifies as STEM subjects and is eligible for 2 year OPT extension.
Do you guys know if these following majors (that I am considering), has a CIP code that is STEM accredited?

1. Psychology, B.S., under college of letter and science
2. Psychology, B.A., under college of letter and science
3. Statistic, B.S., under college of letter and science

if you guys are international students, can you please check your i20 and leave your CIP codes in the comment sections? It would be really helpful to me!!!! thank uuuuu
https://www.ice.gov/doclib/sevis/pdf/stemList2022.pdf
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I can’t seem to find my way recently. I just feel out of place in almost every aspect of my life. Over the weekend I went back home to my parents to go to a bbq they were having for a family members birthday. My car is in the shop so I took the greyhound by myself just to make it. I was so excited, I was talking to my coworkers about it for a couple weeks. Well I went and I spent a lot of time trying not to cry. I just felt uncomfortable and ignored most of the time. I guess I don’t have a ton of things going on right now, but I just felt like everybody was talking and catching up and I just wasn’t even involved. Sometimes I would try to start a conversation and I even got ignored. My brother mentioned I am starting a new job this week and I overheard it, and nobody really responded and nobody asked me about it the rest of the time I was there.
My step brother is autistic and my family isolates him a lot because he doesn’t really understand social cues and has a hard time having a “normal” conversation. They isolate him a lot and make faces at each other when he talks. When he’s not around they talk about him and say how he’s so hard to be around. I feel bad for him, and during this trip I almost wonder if they do the same for me, maybe to a lesser extent.
I felt so uncomfortable that sometimes I would just go sit outside on the porch, and then I would feel bad like I was isolating myself so I would kind of pop inside and try to join a conversation here and there. I wasn’t doing this for attention, I brought a book out and was just sitting in the sun, but I was almost hoping somebody would just come and check on me. I saw my mom walking out but she was just asking for a favor.
Right before I left I was talking to my mom about my new job and other opportunities that I have coming up and my worries that they might conflict. She was being pretty dismissive, and at one point she just didn’t respond. I asked her if she heard me and she said in a snappy tone she was listening, so I just said “oh okay.” she loudly responded that I am really annoying her and everybody looked over at us, and it was probably the worst I felt that whole trip. A couple hours later I had to say bye to everybody and just left feeling awful. I came back home to my friends all going out and not inviting me.
I am really trying to look inward and see if maybe I do things to make people not want to be around me. There’s always things to work on to become a better friend or person, and I try to be as self aware as I can. But I just can’t figure it out right now. I’ve been crying on and off for days. I feel completely alone despite having people in my life who claim they care. I am feeling tired of myself, I just wish I was different.

On this day (May 30) in Nintendo history...

• Smash Table Tennis was released in 1987 for the Family Computer Disk System in Japan. In this sports game, developed by Konami, you control a paddle hand, hitting the ball over the net, off the table and past the opponent to score. Hit the ball hard or scoop it over the net. The first player to break ten points is declared the winner of that match. There are two different game modes with different numbers of sets to play to win the match. Both modes can be played against the computer or a second player.
  
• Pokémon Box: Ruby and Sapphire was released in 2003 for the Nintendo GameCube in Japan. In this utility game, developed by Nintendo, store Pokémon caught in Pokémon Ruby and Sapphire. You can store up to 1500 Pokémon in the boxes, and arrange them, sort them into categories and search for them as you need them. You can also display your Pokémon in a Showcase and play Ruby and Sapphire on the TV screen using the GameCube-GBA Link Cable.
  

What are you favourite memories of these games? How do you think they hold up today? Hash it out in the comments.

(I am a bot. I think that I'm posting Nintendo events from this day in history, but if I've made a mistake or omission please leave a comment tagging KetchupTheDuck).

Significant note: ONLY MESSAGE ME IF you're 21+ years old (NO MINORS) and from the U.S (due to the difference in timezones past 3 hours). I'm on Pacific standard timezone so I would like to talk with you if you're from CST, PST, EST, or MST. I'm not interested in NSFW, drugs, alcohol or talking about politics either so DON'T contact me if you like those things
It's very hard in this day and age to find people who not only have similar interests to yours, but are open to learning about new things, and wanting to be present with you/reciprocate what you give them. I'm looking to hopefully befriend a few people that are down for chatting consistently throughout our days and nights! I'm a night owl so it's most definitely preferred you're one as well. I don't like small talk so let's try to have more deep and meaningful conversations about anything and everything! Please don't message me if you're going to be rude/demeaning towards me just because I wouldn't answer your message. I noticed a lot of people on here lately don't take kindly to rejection and think it's okay to send me hate messages. I have to filter people out (as per my top most paragraph in all bold) and just in general. It's nothing personal, just boundaries set in place to protect me. So let's not go to bad places, mkay?
In a friendship, I like being able to be supportive/there for my friends, as well as listening to you vent/giving you advice if I can! I also would love to be able to play this battle royal called cyber hunter as I don't have anyone consistent to play with. Not really looking for gaming buddies aside from this game but that could very well change in the future! I now have a PS5 thanks to my bf saving up! We just finished spiderman miles morales and are now playing control. My favorite genre of games is horror but I also love fighting games, racing games, open world, action/adventure, etc. It would be epic if we could do Spotify group sessions so that we can explore our own music + new music. I'm in desperate need of new music as my playlists have been stale for quite a long while due to various bands I like pumping out disappointing albums/singles. I'm open to voice chatting BUT ONLY after we have spoken for quite a long while. Do not try to get me to do this with you right away. I'd also like to be able to watch stuff, maybe on YouTube or something!
I'm big on giving back what I get so if you like sending and receiving long messages like I do that would be swell! I'm also quick to respond (however reddit is pretty broken for me) and I would like to move off of here eventually. I only use telegram so hope you're down for downloading a new app lol.
I'm becoming more and more excited for upcoming movies like into the spider verse, the transformers movie, and the flash. I'd love to talk about previous movies I've watched recently, such as the animated legion of superheroes movie, guardians 3, etc. And if you couldn't already tell I'm a lover of both DC and marvel comics. Please don't ask me generic questions about them!! That would be uber lame and make me no longer be interested in chatting with ya
As for other interests, I'm quite the gamer. I own a PC and ps vita besides the PS5 I mentioned. I like being able to get out of the house often as I get bored easily. I love getting to go on walks, looking at nature, and taking pictures of it! I also enjoy playing some tabletop games, playing pool, going to bookstores to comic shop/manga shop, collecting squishmallows, going thrifting, listening to music, binge watching old shows or YouTube, etc.
If you want to learn more about me then what are you waiting for?? Send me a message about you and make sure to check out the other friend posts I've made on my profile! I only respond to people who put effort into their messages as most people don't like to do that on here SO BE FOREWARNED! ･:*+.(( °ω° ))/.:+ tootles!

One you maybe be unattractive to women but there’s ways to build attraction. Many women say that Ted Bundy is attractive and this group think amongst women can be used by you to your advantage. Pre-selection by women and some subtle manipulation can get you laid. There’s women who may potentially be attracted to you but you just can’t tell. You also need to bare in mind that women get dozens of messages a day from guys asking them out. You need to distinguish yourself from the crowd but I know you can do it because I never thought I’d be in the position I am today.
Play women off against each other. I went to a house party and there were two women and an Italian guy who were physical trainers. The rest were all quite posh and upper class and I was like the odd one out. However I’ve recently been talking to this polish girl and it’s going well but I never overplayed it. She said she liked Italy and I mentioned that I want to take her on a trip to Italy. Suddenly the girls were far more interested in me and asking me lots of questions.
Never look too thirsty or needy. There’s a reason why there’s the phrase ‘absence makes the heart grow fonder.’ If you constantly bombard a girl with messages then they think that you have few options and you have very little going for yourself. The times on nights out where I’ve got laid it was when I wasn’t even going out to look for women I was looking to have fun, vibe with the night and just have fun.
Be an impressive guy. Travel and do lots of experiences build up a decent social media. This is stuff that girls love. They love adventure and exploring. Also it makes it easier for you to meet and talk to new people. It gives you stories that you can bring up which makes you sound exciting to women. You can’t be boring otherwise they won’t want you. Often times it can be that women in your country are the issue and you might be seen as more attractive in different countries by different women.
Also get over the fear of rejection. As FDR said the only thing you have to fear is fear itself. Obviously use this advice with common sense and be brave ask that girl for a dance in a bar. Maybe say you’ve already got a girlfriend but she’s away in university and you just want a girl to dance with this song. If she says no you move on. It’s her loss not yours, you are the prize. But always conduct yourself like a gentleman. Some girls do play tough to get and if you handle that situation well, girls may give you a second shot. If you overreact or make yourself look stupid, you’ll prove her right. Always keep a calm demeanour.
Physical health is massively important. Try to live an active lifestyle. Go for walks or runs. Go to the gym. Eat the right food. The sedentary lifestyle is very bad for our physical and mental health. You’ll also look far more attractive when you’re not overweight or obese. If you’re very skinny try to eat some protein do some weights.
Be ambitious and set your goals first. Women will generally follow. I believe in you guys keep your heads up.

Hey everyone! I'd like to ask for your advice about dates for my husband and I. This has actually become a problem in our marriage. So we set aside one day of the week to spend together. Sounds great, right? Well the problem is we can't agree on what to do, end up arguing and not going anywhere at all. So he's stated multiple times that whatever we do has to have a purpose. (if we go to the mall than we have to go there to buy something. If we go for a walk than their has to be a destination we need to get to and so on) He doesn't want to go somewhere just to go somewhere, if you get what I'm saying. I, however, will do anything if it sounds fun. Whenever I suggest something he doesn't wanna do it because there's no "purpose" in it. We're also saving money to get a place of our own so that limits us. Any advice about this? I really don't wanna argue with him over this anymore.

Helvark sprinted down the street, the two knife wielding thugs hot on his scaled tail. Commonly mistaken for Geknosians, the Zartani could expect little help from bystanders. However if anyone took one look at his keyhole shaped pupils they'd know he wasn't one of those Tyrannical slavers.
Helvark glanced behind him, seeing the vulpine one on the left gaining quickly. That was also when he ran into something he at first mistook for a statue and fell painfully backwards onto his tail.
Rubbing his head, the Zartani looked up in shock as a giant of lore slowly stood and turned around. the average sized black cat cradled in it's arms looking like a kitten.
"I'm sorry, am I in the way mr.lizard?"
The giant seemed confused, their words slow and thick from a slightly too large tongue.
Helvark shook his head in terror and surprise. Gesturing behind him at where he'd last seen his pursuers. But to his surprise, all that remained was a wet spot on the concrete and two abandoned knives. Helvark felt his mouth dry as he mumbled.
"I was being chased by some muggers... I'm new in town. Sorry for bumping into you sir."
The Zartani tourist was about to clamber to his feet when the giant simply picked him up by the shoulder and set Helvark back on his feet before asking.
"Where is your gun mr.lizard? Did you come to Lidoffad without one?"
The Tourist couldn't help but stand still as the giant roughly brushed the dust off of his clothing with their massive frying pan sized hands. Slowly Helvark shook his head, not understanding the question.
"A... A gun? Why would I have a gun?"
The giant nodded sagely and Beckoned for the tourist to follow as he set the cat down. Helvark quickly followed, more afraid of the towering example of human physique than he's like to admit
The giant however, didn't seem to notice or care as he introduced himself.
"My name's Bobby, mr.lizard. and you should have a gun because Lidoffad has no government or police. Everyone is responsible for their own safety, security and health. Needless to say, thieves, muggers and kidnappers do not have a long-"
Bobby was cut off by the sound of six rapid shots from an alleyway they passed. Morbidly curious, Helvark looked down the alleyway, surprised at what he saw.
A petite Mousian woman held a small Kelvian child to her stomach, covering their ears. A simple black handgun still pointed at the unmoving form of an insectoid species he didn't recognize. but even slumped against the wall, it was clearly taller and more massive than the woman and child combined. Brackish blood dripping from between it's mandibles.
Bobby stepped past Helvark, voice echoing down the alleyway as he called out to the woman.
"Ms.Shein, are you okay."
The Mousian woman, no, Ms.shein nodded curtly.
"I'm fine, kid's pretty shaken up though. I think she's a long way from home too, judging by the fact she's still struggling with the planet's gravity."
Bobby nodded and patted ms.shein on the shoulder.
"Take her to captain Leandra, she'll know what to do. What happened?"
Ms.shein's eyes hardened.
"It was a lure scheme. Heard the kid crying in the alleyway and went to investigate, this waste of oxygen tried kidnapping me too... So I shot him... Stupid fuck brought a replica to a gunfight."
Bobby nodded while Helvark's hand covered his gaping mouth. What was this place, he'd heard it was a top vacation spot but right now it seemed like a warzone.
Bobby noticed the Zartani's expression and simply stated.
"As I was saying before, thieves, muggers, kidnappers. Their life expectancy on Lidoffad is measured in days, sometimes hours depending on the nature of their... Chosen immorality. There's work to be done everywhere you look on Lidoffad, and for a liveable wage. You don't need to steal to support yourself."
Bobby stood and took the Zartani's shoulder in one hand, guiding him away from the dead insectoid. Leaving ms.shein behind to walk in relative silence.
...
After an hour or so of walking, Helvark was suddenly stopped by Bobby as the giant opened a building's steel reinforced door. The giant gestured Helvark inside and as soon. As the Zartani walked in, he smelled it.
The slight smell of burnt gunpowder hung in the air, intermingling with the surprisingly intoxicating smell of fine liquor, tobbaco and a sharp chemical smell he couldn't quite place.
The portly human behind the counter smiled as they looked up from their magazine.
"Welcome to the alcohol, tobacco, firearms and explosives superstore! We've got a special running on Plastique in case you need something to remove a troublesome Crimson jacket nest."
Helvark paused, looking around at the gleaming, new production firearms, the bottles of rich, dark brown alcohol, the humidors filled with cigars, bins of grenades and neatly wrapped blocks of plastic explosives. He was a little spooked, but he also had the sudden urge to buy one of everything. On his home planet you couldn't even get your hands on a certain wattage of laser pointer, much less the Colt M40 assault carbine he was currently ogling.
That was when he realized he probably didn't have enough money to buy the cheapest polymer handgun in the store. He deflated a bit until Bobby spoke up.
"I'll get the tab, just choose something you like that isn't too expensive."
Helvark couldn't believe his ear holes as his eyes slid onto the gun that he'd seen Ms.shein carrying. The tag said it cost about five hundred standard credits and came with two "magazines." Helvark immediately pointed at it.
"I'll take that one then please, that's the same kind Ms.shein was carrying right?"
The shop owner smiled widely sharing a glance with Bobby who gave him a nod of approval before he walked over and unlocked the glass cabinet to pull the handgun out, Explaining how to operate it.
"Okay, this one's just about as simple as they come son. It doesn't have any fancy bells or whistles but it can still put a tyrant bug in the dirt. It's chambered in nine millimeter HEP but you can fire standard, non High Explosive Propelled nine millimeter in it with just a top slide swap. Though, personally, I'd stick to the HEP barrel and top slide assembly. It's the best bang for the modern buck. It's got a trigger safety so make sure you keep your finger off the trigger until you're ready to rock. To load it, slap a loaded magazine in the grip, pull the slide back and let it go."
Helvark slowly went through the motions getting a feel for the gun in his hand as he slipped a magazine loaded with dummy rounds into the grip before racking the slide back. In truth, it felt good to feel the weight of the firearm in his hand. It was like reconnecting with a friend you didn't know you'd lost.
Helvark looked up at the man behind the counter and calmly said.
"It's perfect, but I'll need some ammo as well if I'm gonna get it."
He glanced sheepishly at Bobby, the fear of the giant very much still there, but his current excitement momentarily overpowered it. Bobby just smiled and looked at the man behind the counter.
"I think our tourist is about ready to become a citizen Hank. Set him up with the starter package and I'll take him to the range tomorrow."
Helvark watched on with both mounting excitement and a little bit of disbelief as the two humans worked their way throughout the store. Gathering a small amount of everything from cigars to high explosives and blasting caps. Eventually he pulled his jaw off the floor and asked.
"Is this why Lidoffad is number one on most tourism brochures?"
The two humans paused and then began laughing like he'd just told a joke. Bobby's laugh made the bottles on the shelves rattle as he finally forced back his laughter.
"Oh, we're barely scratching the surface mr.lizard. wait until you catch a game of stratosphere."
Helvark frowned.
"What's stratosphere?"
The gun shop employee answered this time.
"You know that old human sport they talk about in textbooks to show how we're not sane? The one where they'd throw telephone poles. Stratosphere is that, but you're trying to launch a similarly sized metal rod as high as you can with homemade explosives. They have to be manufactured on festival grounds too, so no cheating with the manufactured stuff."
Helvark felt his heart rate pick up. Not because he was scared...
No, because he was a Zartani chemist and he was starting to think about which explosive he'd need to make to win that game.
"Where do I sign up?"
It was the humans turn to look a bit concerned at the Zartani's manic grin.

Me and my ldr gf broke up
Im 27. Shes turning 29 this year
TL,DR. My ldr gf of 3yrs left me. What are the chances of her coming back? She's the love of my life and I want her back, was gonna pop the question when she came out here to visit this year.
It's as the title reads. I'll try to keep it short and sweet.
We were together for 3yrs. We had amazing times together. I enjoyed her time and she enjoyed mines.
In the beginning of the relationship we had a talk about a friend of hers who she knows for over 15yrs. She told me they cuddled, but it never went past that. I trusted her and left it at that.
Fast forward 1.5yrs into the relationship and the problems start to happen. Communication starts going down the drain. Part of this is because she went remote with her job and was home lot. She later towards the end of the relationship old me she also was depressed. I had no idea that was the case. 1,We went from hanging out 1-2hrs a day, monday-Thursday, to only 30min calls before bed.
I asked what was up, she said she just wanted to spend more time with her friends. At this point, I had started to build up resentment towards her. The reason for this was because her answer to hurtful things she'd say to me in heated arguments was always "I don't know why I said that, I was wasn't thinking about my words".
At first I accepted that as a response, but after awhile, I won't lie it really started to bug me, as we had conversations about her thinking before she speaks. A little bit later, she brings up a trip with some friends that she's known online since childhood. The guy we talked about would also be there and she asked how I felt about that. I straight up asked her if she had feelings for him and she said no. I then said alright, have a great time.
I never brought him up again. This will be important later.
Fast forward into the relationship, it's getting rocky. At this point my own personal resentment has hit a peak and we're practically arguing over the dumbest things. The arguments got toxic. We got toxic. It got to the point to where, when I would make an attempt to voice my opinion, she would say I was complaining. This is a trigger word for me, because my ex would say that whenever I would voice my opinion on an issue, regardless of whether I was right or wrong. This is also my first ldr. Every previous relationship was in person.
So because of that I started to bottle stuff in and wouldn't talk about it. She even asked me if I had resentment towards her and I said no because I felt bad and didn't want to be the source of yet another argument. In hindsight, I should have still said yes. We'd probably be together right now. But yeah I bottled it in and just started being nasty towards her in minor ways throughout the relationship. And she got nasty towards me. We'd patch it up for a month or 2, then bam, right back at it.
Fast forward to 3 weeks ago. After yet again another stupid argument ( this was about me not reaching out to her to set up times to hangout, which I admit I stopped doing because she would chose to do other things without telling me, and when I would ask she would get upset. Not in a controlling matter, but in a hey im doing this today), she said she wanted to end it.
To add a bit of meat to this bone, she said I made her feel like she couldn't breathe, said I suffocated her too much, said I didn't give her enough compliments, said i had issues opening up, and to top it off, said I was jealous of her friend that we talked about in the beginning. Everything except the last statement was true. The reason for them? Remember that resentment I talked about? Yeah it got that bad. It was my response to her lack of communication with me. It was not right and I know that, resentment has no place in any relationship; we were better off being upset than holding that crap in.
The one thing that bothers me is why she brought him up when I didn't for over a year at that point.
I told her, at the end, the reasoning for my actions was resentment. I personally feel that she didn't believe me, but it's the truth and I didn't know what else to say. I told her where it came from, pinpointed when it started, and told her everything. I swear it was like trying to convince a fish to walk on land. Wasn't making no headway towards her.
At that point I knew it was over and started telling her how much, and what length I'll go to fix us. Didn't work. Told her I'll move out there for 2yrs ( which was a plan she knew about anyway, I was going to inact it this year, which she also knew). That also didn't work.
Everything I said, she had rebuttle for.
I was crying like a child on the phone, she wasn't. I've never felt so low. We cammed one more time, kissed each other goodbye and then left each other paragraph goodbyes on discord.
( Mines was yet another desperate attempt at getting her back, and hers was pretty much saying "No, we need to work on ourselves, and if you come here it won't be about that it'll be about us.).
I know it's long, but there's alot to it and I want to know, honestly, what are the chances of her coming back? We had a calm breakup and we haven't spoken in 3 days. She unfriended me on fb and insta, but kept me on discord, which is how we met.

I finished Epic 2 last week, it’s the first time I have ever stuck with a program all the way through, enjoyed it and seen results. I thought I would post what I’ve learnt to help others who are new to CG like I was.
This is purely my opinion and experience, it’s not a substitute for proper medical or qualified fitness advice.

1. It’s really hard! She pushes you in a way you won’t have worked before. You need your rest days and you will ache if your new to CG. But it’s really motivating to keep pushing yourself and seeing how strong you become.
   
2. Strength gives better results than cardio (for me!) I’ve never managed to slim down my legs and I was struggling with perimenopause weight gain. The results only came towards the end of the 10 weeks but I’m hooked and love growing stronger.
   
3. Diet is key for results. You need to watch what you eat if you want to slim down. And you won’t look like Caroline after 10 weeks!! It’s clear to me now that significant results take a HUGE amount of effort and may not be worth the restriction in diet. Take measurwments and photos so you can track results, the scale fluctuates too much to rely on for me.
   
4. You might need extra rest days. My whole body ached a few times after the full body workouts. Extra days are good to help you recover and come back stronger. Extra sleep helped me too.
   
5. The music might annoy you after a while 🤣 I just zoned out and focused on my muscles and how I felt.
   
6. A mirror helps to correct your lifting form. I gradually increased my weights so I didn’t injure myself.
   
7. If you’re new to weight training, you might feel puffy and bigger at some stages. I had this around week 3,4 and when I was very sore. A rest day really helped the puffiness reduce, stretching and a walk were good too.
   
8. A rest week or deload week is good after you finish a programme. I’m currently doing some of my other favourite workouts for a week until I try Epic fuel next week.
   

I hope this helps anyone new to CG, please remember this is my experience and may not apply to everyone.

My bf (lets call him fred) he loved his friends so much. For lunch in high school he would sit with them instead of me, it was always I who had to go to HIM and HIS friends. He never came to hang out with me and we were never alone, his friends were like his little minions. It was ME who had to finally say, “Hey, for 2 days out of the week, can we have lunch together alone? no friends?” and he agreed. He never seems excited to hang out with me alone but even during these times he would try and find other friends to talk to instead of me. It felt like i bored him.
I never liked his friends, they are blatantly misogynistic, racist, and homophobic. Which I am apart of each being a woman, mexican, and bisexual. They made me uncomfortable and they would complain every time me and Fred kissed each other, saying that its PDA and they asked me not to kiss him in front of them. The thing with this is FRED IS NEVER ALONE, I cant privately show him affection. I told them if they don’t wanna see us kissing then they should walk away when they see me coming. Which is what they started doing.
Recently we’ve graduated, most of our interactions have been on calls. I have a job and him and his friends currently dont, so i’m out all day and I come home late, hoping that I could call him, maybe play some games and then we’d fall asleep on calls most nights. Yet in the month since we’ve graduated, hes left the call every night, I barely get an hour with him before he says, “i’m gonna go play with the guys” At first I understood because he misses his friends because we’ve graduated. I also realized he did this before we graduated but I never payed much attention to it since I understood that him and his friends could only play games after school. But i’ve started to notice it more because he had all day to play with them but he still decides to play with them only when I want to call him late at night!! Also Fred would tell me how he played games with them just earlier that day. Yet he gets bored of me in an hour and needs to be with his friends.
So today when he left again I got mad and he noticed and asked what was wrong, I told him that he always leaves to be with his friends and I feel like he finds me boring because he cant be with me for more than an hour before hes looking for his friends. All he had to say to that was that he misses his friends and said hed call me back soon. I asked why he would call me back and he said it was because he wanted to, so I asked, “if you wanted to call me whyd you leave to play with your friends?” He then said that he wants to call me because he didn’t want me going to sleep upset. I feel bad that I am getting mad at him for being with his friends and I don’t know if I am the asshole or if he is. I hate feeling like his friends are more important than me when he is all I have and I hate complaining about it because I hate causing problems but I just wish he could stay in a call with me and just enjoy talking to me :/

Hello, I am feeling like the stupidest man alive right now. After 2 months of friendship with this girl (we are both around 20 y old) she needed to go to her boyfriend to get things better with him in another city, so she invited me to walk in park to tell me her plans. I was supportive and listening to her, and then she asked me about our relationship is it more than friendship. I told her no and joked about question itself but she was weird and after sometime i told her it's more than friendship just to see her reaction and her feelings even though i don't feel anything more than that. She said there's just friendship from her side and now i feel like she don't believe me anymore and I don't know what to do because i like our friendship, and i am losing it because of lie to see if there is feelings. What do i do now? I feel so stupid and angry at myself. Please help.

Greetings everyone, this is my first time here. I am tormented by a game I played at my uncle's house when I was 5 years old. I don't know if it helps or not, but when I played it, it was 2014. I don't remember the title, genre, or year of release. But I do remember that it was on a disc, and that's how it started:
A typical military theme, like Battlefield or Call of Duty. You and your squad arrive by car in a night village, you have night vision goggles. You must search the village and then drive on. I remember it was solid gameplay (there were no cut scenes, the car was also driven by the player). The car was controlled in third person, the squad walked along with you. The main gameplay was first person.
Can you help me find this game?

I (20F) feel like I have no choice but to break up with my boyfriend (M28). I love him so much, more than I have ever let myself love another guy but he lies to me a lot. All I want is for things to be different but I know we don’t always get what we want so I don’t think I have any other choice than to go separate ways even though the thought keeps me up at night and hurts me so much. I don’t think I’ll ever get over this and it’s changed my view on love forever. I no longer want love from anyone but myself. Why do the people who make me happiest also bring me to my worst?