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2010.11.03 18:01 mmmyum Slowcooking: Slow and Steady Wins the Race
Slowcooking is a food-related subreddit for sharing ideas, recipes or pictures in which a "Crock-Pot®" style slow cooker was used. Slow cooking is an ideal method for cooking less expensive portions of meat to make them more tender and tasty than by other forms of cookery. Vegetarian and vegan dishes can also be made via slow cooking. - crockpot, slowcooker, crock
2008.09.29 21:00 Liverpool FC: You'll Never Walk Alone
A subreddit for news and discussion about Liverpool FC, a football club playing in the English Premier League. Liverpool are one of the most decorated football clubs in all of world football, with 19 English League Titles and 6 European Cups.
2011.10.02 07:59 Anna Kendrick
2023.06.03 01:08 Sv329 ANY GIVEAWAYS?? FOR 8/9
I’m looking for tickets for closing night (8/9). I live in MA so it would mean travel which is fine (I’ll deal with my husband later). I’ve been looking and entering any and every contest I can to win tickets but wanted to know if any of you know of any I might not have seen! Obviously it would need to be open to anyone within the US so that’s the only specific rule about the contests I need to find. I don’t care if it includes travel stuff I just want to win tickets lol
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2023.06.03 01:08 Riagi [EU Settlement Scheme] Converting from pre-settled to settled from abroad / valid start of residency period questions
Hello, I am very close to hitting the 5 year continuous residence in the UK and want to convert my pre-settled status to settled asap. I have some specific questions that I was hoping to get clarification / advice on and could not find answers online. Any information you have regarding these is greatly appreciated.
1.) What counts as starting the residency period?
I properly moved to the UK start of September 2018 - i.e., started my job, got NI number, bank account, rental agreement, paid tax, etc. etc. However, I have traveled to the UK on a few occasions in the few months prior for in person interviews / events with the company I ended up working for. This meant that I was technically present in the UK in some form since late May 2018.
Could I claim May 2018 as the start of my residency period? Or does it legally have to be tied to something like having rental contract? Even tho I was absent for the majority of May-Sep 2018 period, I would not break the 180 days absence in a rolling period between May 2018 - May 2023, the only concern I have is if I can claim that the period started this early.
From my personally view point - I was in the UK physically and had a signed contract with a UK employer albeit I have not actually started at the job yet - so I am hoping that if I state May as the starting point this would not be seen as supplying false information??
2.) Applying from outside the UK / any issues with claiming previous 5 year period after long absence from the UK
This is my major concern and why I even asked the question above to see if I can get the status right now. For a combination of family/personal/some other reasons I will be (hopefully temporarily) leaving the UK soon. However, despite this absence, I will not break the 180 days absence rolling period requirement by the time September comes around, so I will just narrowly have a valid 5 year period from Sep 2018 - Sep 2023 that I am certain is 100% valid. Now the issue is that after this I will start breaking the requirement e.g. Oct18-Oct23 would not be valid and so on going forward.
If I apply in September and it takes them long to process my application for whatever reason, would the fact that I am now over the limit hinder me in any way?
What period do they check - is it 5 years back from the date of application? Or 5 years forward from the start of your residence you specify there?
Can I even apply from abroad after leaving the UK if I have the qualifying period? Or do I need a valid UK address at time of application?
I intend to return to the UK at some point in the future so I am really hoping I can get the settled status which allows for a longer absence and then come back without needing visas.
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1.) What counts as starting the residency period?
I properly moved to the UK start of September 2018 - i.e., started my job, got NI number, bank account, rental agreement, paid tax, etc. etc. However, I have traveled to the UK on a few occasions in the few months prior for in person interviews / events with the company I ended up working for. This meant that I was technically present in the UK in some form since late May 2018.
Could I claim May 2018 as the start of my residency period? Or does it legally have to be tied to something like having rental contract? Even tho I was absent for the majority of May-Sep 2018 period, I would not break the 180 days absence in a rolling period between May 2018 - May 2023, the only concern I have is if I can claim that the period started this early.
From my personally view point - I was in the UK physically and had a signed contract with a UK employer albeit I have not actually started at the job yet - so I am hoping that if I state May as the starting point this would not be seen as supplying false information??
2.) Applying from outside the UK / any issues with claiming previous 5 year period after long absence from the UK
This is my major concern and why I even asked the question above to see if I can get the status right now. For a combination of family/personal/some other reasons I will be (hopefully temporarily) leaving the UK soon. However, despite this absence, I will not break the 180 days absence rolling period requirement by the time September comes around, so I will just narrowly have a valid 5 year period from Sep 2018 - Sep 2023 that I am certain is 100% valid. Now the issue is that after this I will start breaking the requirement e.g. Oct18-Oct23 would not be valid and so on going forward.
If I apply in September and it takes them long to process my application for whatever reason, would the fact that I am now over the limit hinder me in any way?
What period do they check - is it 5 years back from the date of application? Or 5 years forward from the start of your residence you specify there?
Can I even apply from abroad after leaving the UK if I have the qualifying period? Or do I need a valid UK address at time of application?
I intend to return to the UK at some point in the future so I am really hoping I can get the settled status which allows for a longer absence and then come back without needing visas.
2023.06.03 01:07 ViralMedia007 Biblical Healing: Discover Christ the Healer, with 100 Christian Quotations on healing, Prevent Sickness and Diseases, overcome 9 Hindrances to Healing, Bible Study Guide for Staying Healthy
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2023.06.03 01:07 ViralMedia007 Biblical Healing: Discover Christ the Healer, with 100 Christian Quotations on healing, Prevent Sickness and Diseases, overcome 9 Hindrances to Healing, Bible Study Guide for Staying Healthy
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2023.06.03 01:07 TheMortalQuoyle A strange calm
Day 9 on 10 mg of Lexapro. I've (51M) been anxious in the mornings and a little drowsy during the day. Today, after work, I laid down to meditate and possibly nap. I opened my eyes an hour later and felt a calm that I've never really felt before. It's almost eerie. Is this normal? Is it the meds? Is this how people without anxiety feel?
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2023.06.03 01:06 Bubbly_Direction_799 Looking for a "unicorn" 🦄
I've been told I'm looking for a "unicorn."
I'm a lazy barista. I am tired of dumping out grounds and tamping for every cup of coffee. I'm ready to press a button and get my espresso hassle free!
However, I love steaming my own milk. I want to be in control of the texture and temperature.
So the machine I'm looking for is a good quality automatic bean to cup espresso with a professional seeming wand. Does this exist?!
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I'm a lazy barista. I am tired of dumping out grounds and tamping for every cup of coffee. I'm ready to press a button and get my espresso hassle free!
However, I love steaming my own milk. I want to be in control of the texture and temperature.
So the machine I'm looking for is a good quality automatic bean to cup espresso with a professional seeming wand. Does this exist?!
2023.06.03 01:06 blackberry_55 Possible Spice or Laced Weed Trip Report
For context the time of this trip report was during my 9th grade year, which was about 4-5 years ago
Back in grade 9, I went out to the woods behind my school during lunch to sesh (smoke) usually a good 50+ people was out there partyin at lunch. Anyways, I seen my plug takin a toke so I approached him and asked to cop a gram or two (of weed) he said “yo fam I got you lemme just go grab that from ____ he just over there”
so he goes and comes back and hands me this little pink plastic circular container (looks sort of like a small grinder) I open it up and it looks quality fosho, solid nugs not much leaf but it did have an odd colour so I asked if he knew the strain. He said “nah but trust me this shit good” Being 14 and stupid I was like yeah bet fuck it and grabbed my plugs pisser to toke out of. (a pisser is pretty much a gravity bong, will include a pic here: https://ibb.co/n7cjBBg)
I pack the bowl pretty fat, rip my toke and immediately start dying coughing which lasted a good ten minutes nonstop. People around me started to notice and was asking if I was okay I was like yeah i’m bless dwbi. Eventually one of my friends approached said it’s time to head to class, so I stand up. That’s when the nightmare officially begins.
As soon as I stand up my vision goes completely wavy and I got really dizzy. I said to my buddy I need to sit down so I found a log and sat down. Once I sat down again, I lost all feeling throughout my body I was paralyzed. I put my head in my hands and was immediately transported to a different reality that I was trapped in.
My hearing went fucked and everything started changing in tone and pitch and was muffled. I was seeing myself from 3rd person but also seeing hallucinating inside my mind at the same time. It felt like I truely vanished from earth and that my soul was in another realm. I had this horrifying visual that kept replaying and it was a clown face with its tongue sticking out and I was running on the tongue while some sort of object chased me and while this happened all I could here was this fucked up frequency going up and down in pitch. (According to by standers I was literally crying and “screaming for my mommy” and was screaming “please make it stop someone please make it stop” for a good 10 minutes)
Then for a few seconds I was able to see and hear again, I looked up and 20 or so people were surrounding me just staring at me in shock like “yo wtf…..” All I remember saying is “what’s happening? someone please help me” and then I was sent right back into this nightmare realm. Eventually everyone must have left because I came back to reality a bit later and was accompanied by 4 stoners I had never met. I asked them to call my mom since I couldn’t move.
They did their best to keep me calm and grounded, played some music which helped distract me. Eventually my mom came and had to carry me out of the woods. In the car ride home I clocked out again and felt like I was in a spaceship hurdling towards a brick wall so each second I braced myself for death (which at that point was nearly relieving as I was ready to commit suicide to stop the high which in my mind was never gonna end)
When I got home my mom helped me inside and i layed on the couch. she got me some water, after about an hour of me staring into nothing my body began to seize. No, I did not have a seizure as I was fully awake and conscious… My body literally began to violently shake uncontrollably and I just stared at my mother and begged her to make it stop, she said I can’t i’m sorry. I then spent 10 minutes pleading with her to end my life to stop the suffering I was in (The whole time I was in a state of pure fear and discomfort. I was helpless and the most vulnerable i’ve ever been. I have never truely wanted to end my life more)
After that I had worked myself up so much I just passed out and the rest is a blur. I’ve had to go therapy after that as it caused me to develop derealization at random times especially when being around weed smoke. Therapist said it’s most likely PTSD. Im obviously past it now (4-5 years later) but for a good year or two I couldn’t even touch weed. I know now that it was 100% not weed, but even to this day the most I will smoke is a couple hits off a joint.
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Back in grade 9, I went out to the woods behind my school during lunch to sesh (smoke) usually a good 50+ people was out there partyin at lunch. Anyways, I seen my plug takin a toke so I approached him and asked to cop a gram or two (of weed) he said “yo fam I got you lemme just go grab that from ____ he just over there”
so he goes and comes back and hands me this little pink plastic circular container (looks sort of like a small grinder) I open it up and it looks quality fosho, solid nugs not much leaf but it did have an odd colour so I asked if he knew the strain. He said “nah but trust me this shit good” Being 14 and stupid I was like yeah bet fuck it and grabbed my plugs pisser to toke out of. (a pisser is pretty much a gravity bong, will include a pic here: https://ibb.co/n7cjBBg)
I pack the bowl pretty fat, rip my toke and immediately start dying coughing which lasted a good ten minutes nonstop. People around me started to notice and was asking if I was okay I was like yeah i’m bless dwbi. Eventually one of my friends approached said it’s time to head to class, so I stand up. That’s when the nightmare officially begins.
As soon as I stand up my vision goes completely wavy and I got really dizzy. I said to my buddy I need to sit down so I found a log and sat down. Once I sat down again, I lost all feeling throughout my body I was paralyzed. I put my head in my hands and was immediately transported to a different reality that I was trapped in.
My hearing went fucked and everything started changing in tone and pitch and was muffled. I was seeing myself from 3rd person but also seeing hallucinating inside my mind at the same time. It felt like I truely vanished from earth and that my soul was in another realm. I had this horrifying visual that kept replaying and it was a clown face with its tongue sticking out and I was running on the tongue while some sort of object chased me and while this happened all I could here was this fucked up frequency going up and down in pitch. (According to by standers I was literally crying and “screaming for my mommy” and was screaming “please make it stop someone please make it stop” for a good 10 minutes)
Then for a few seconds I was able to see and hear again, I looked up and 20 or so people were surrounding me just staring at me in shock like “yo wtf…..” All I remember saying is “what’s happening? someone please help me” and then I was sent right back into this nightmare realm. Eventually everyone must have left because I came back to reality a bit later and was accompanied by 4 stoners I had never met. I asked them to call my mom since I couldn’t move.
They did their best to keep me calm and grounded, played some music which helped distract me. Eventually my mom came and had to carry me out of the woods. In the car ride home I clocked out again and felt like I was in a spaceship hurdling towards a brick wall so each second I braced myself for death (which at that point was nearly relieving as I was ready to commit suicide to stop the high which in my mind was never gonna end)
When I got home my mom helped me inside and i layed on the couch. she got me some water, after about an hour of me staring into nothing my body began to seize. No, I did not have a seizure as I was fully awake and conscious… My body literally began to violently shake uncontrollably and I just stared at my mother and begged her to make it stop, she said I can’t i’m sorry. I then spent 10 minutes pleading with her to end my life to stop the suffering I was in (The whole time I was in a state of pure fear and discomfort. I was helpless and the most vulnerable i’ve ever been. I have never truely wanted to end my life more)
After that I had worked myself up so much I just passed out and the rest is a blur. I’ve had to go therapy after that as it caused me to develop derealization at random times especially when being around weed smoke. Therapist said it’s most likely PTSD. Im obviously past it now (4-5 years later) but for a good year or two I couldn’t even touch weed. I know now that it was 100% not weed, but even to this day the most I will smoke is a couple hits off a joint.
2023.06.03 01:06 Diligent-Tie-5500 There Are Levels To Prayer. Focused Faith.
And this is the confidence that we have in Him, that, if we ask any thing according to His will, He hears us: And if we know that He hears us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of Him. (1 John 5:14-15)
Prayer is so important and powerful. There are ascending levels of prayer. We can pray while walking up the street, sitting in a crowded room, or even while watching a movie. The baseline level of prayer is simply to have Yah on our minds, acknowledge His ever-presence, meditate on His Word and the Good that He does for us daily. Focusing on having this constant mindfulness of Yah is what makes Paul’s saying “Pray without ceasing” realistic.
Striving to have a constant mindfulness of Yah from the moment we wake up to the moments we drift asleep is a great way to get closer to Him and serve Him better. Still, mindfulness is not enough, and we must commit ourselves to more focused prayer multiple times every day. Such prayer is best done in isolation, separated from technology and distractions.
When you pray, enter into your closet, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father in secret; and your Father that sees in secret will reward you openly (Matt 6:6)
I used to be someone who prayed entirely in my mind. This is most suitable when in public, but when we are in private I think it is good to use our voices. Such isolated and vocal prayer is very powerful.
Death and life are in the power of the tongue: And they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. (Prov 18:21)
When we sleep, we are very close to the spiritual realm. Furthermore, one of the most important times to pray is just before we decide to sleep. Naturally, we are tired before going to sleep, so it can be tempting to be a bit lazy in focused vocal prayer. I have made this mistake before, and noticed that when I do, I am more likely to be attacked in dreams, or wake up feeling doubtful and discouraged. We should strive to pray with great focus and faith as much as possible, but especially before sleeping.
Watch and pray, that you enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matt 26:41)
Pray for other people, especially those who are seeking to walk the Righteous path and are under heavy spiritual warfare. But do not forget to pray for yourself. There is nothing bad about praying for yourself, so long as your prayer is rooted in being a better servant to Yah. When our prayer and focus is rooted in becoming more Righteous and obedient to Yah, He will give us everything we need.
But seek first the kingdom of Yah, and His righteousness; and all these things will be added to you (Matt 6:33)
You ask, and receive not, because you ask amiss, that you may consume it on your lusts. (James 4:3)
Remember, Yah will give us anything we ask for if it aligns to His will. Still, we must be willing to take the steps forward ourselves. Yah will create opportunities and open the door for us, but it is our job to have the faith to leave our comfort zones, walk forward through the open door, and fulfill our prayers.
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Luke 11:9)
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Prayer is so important and powerful. There are ascending levels of prayer. We can pray while walking up the street, sitting in a crowded room, or even while watching a movie. The baseline level of prayer is simply to have Yah on our minds, acknowledge His ever-presence, meditate on His Word and the Good that He does for us daily. Focusing on having this constant mindfulness of Yah is what makes Paul’s saying “Pray without ceasing” realistic.
Striving to have a constant mindfulness of Yah from the moment we wake up to the moments we drift asleep is a great way to get closer to Him and serve Him better. Still, mindfulness is not enough, and we must commit ourselves to more focused prayer multiple times every day. Such prayer is best done in isolation, separated from technology and distractions.
When you pray, enter into your closet, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father in secret; and your Father that sees in secret will reward you openly (Matt 6:6)
I used to be someone who prayed entirely in my mind. This is most suitable when in public, but when we are in private I think it is good to use our voices. Such isolated and vocal prayer is very powerful.
Death and life are in the power of the tongue: And they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. (Prov 18:21)
When we sleep, we are very close to the spiritual realm. Furthermore, one of the most important times to pray is just before we decide to sleep. Naturally, we are tired before going to sleep, so it can be tempting to be a bit lazy in focused vocal prayer. I have made this mistake before, and noticed that when I do, I am more likely to be attacked in dreams, or wake up feeling doubtful and discouraged. We should strive to pray with great focus and faith as much as possible, but especially before sleeping.
Watch and pray, that you enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matt 26:41)
Pray for other people, especially those who are seeking to walk the Righteous path and are under heavy spiritual warfare. But do not forget to pray for yourself. There is nothing bad about praying for yourself, so long as your prayer is rooted in being a better servant to Yah. When our prayer and focus is rooted in becoming more Righteous and obedient to Yah, He will give us everything we need.
But seek first the kingdom of Yah, and His righteousness; and all these things will be added to you (Matt 6:33)
You ask, and receive not, because you ask amiss, that you may consume it on your lusts. (James 4:3)
Remember, Yah will give us anything we ask for if it aligns to His will. Still, we must be willing to take the steps forward ourselves. Yah will create opportunities and open the door for us, but it is our job to have the faith to leave our comfort zones, walk forward through the open door, and fulfill our prayers.
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Luke 11:9)
2023.06.03 01:06 adoringbride What does a Non-Desi Hindu bride wear?
I’m sorry if this is not the place to ask this question.
I’ve recently decided to convert to Hinduism (I understand that there is no formal conversion process).
I’ve spoken to a couple of Hindus online about how this might possible affect my engagement and they gave me many resources about Vedic ceremonies and told me who I can talk to at my local temple. I was also provided with links to articles about the 13 steps.
The only question I haven’t received a proper to answer to, is what do I wear?
I was told sari or lehenga is proper but I’m not Desi. My family is Latino/Caribbean. Fiancé is French/Italian. When I asked if it was cultural appropriation I didn’t really receive any answer.
So the question is, what do I wear?
(The only thing I could find was this blog from 2013.)
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I’ve recently decided to convert to Hinduism (I understand that there is no formal conversion process).
I’ve spoken to a couple of Hindus online about how this might possible affect my engagement and they gave me many resources about Vedic ceremonies and told me who I can talk to at my local temple. I was also provided with links to articles about the 13 steps.
The only question I haven’t received a proper to answer to, is what do I wear?
I was told sari or lehenga is proper but I’m not Desi. My family is Latino/Caribbean. Fiancé is French/Italian. When I asked if it was cultural appropriation I didn’t really receive any answer.
So the question is, what do I wear?
(The only thing I could find was this blog from 2013.)
2023.06.03 01:06 Classic_Werewolf139 Returning to Polish Mountain Pt. 3 - This time, it's personal : A Simply Saturday stream fundraiser event
It's been 7 years, and Simply's going back to Polish Mountain! 100 layers of nail polish with net proceeds going to a pride-related charity, https://itgetsbettercanada.org .
Saturday, June 3rd 11AM ET / 8AM PT on the Simply Not Logical YouTube channel
Climb milestones
Superchat $50USD or gift 10 Menchie Gang channel memberships and pick a shade for me to apply next as I dedicate this coat to you! (not guaranteed - limited number i.e. 100 dedications available, if there is a backlog I apologize in advance for not being able to dedicate your coat)
Superchat milestones
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Saturday, June 3rd 11AM ET / 8AM PT on the Simply Not Logical YouTube channel
Climb milestones
- 20 coats: we watch OG Polish Mountain video
- 33 coats: Holo Taco Polish Mountain Bundle giveaway 1
- 50 coats: we look at simply community mountains on socials
- 66 coats: Holo Taco Polish Mountain Bundle giveaway 2
- 80 coats: we watch the Clear Polish Mountain video
- 99 coats: Holo Tao Polish Mountain Bundle giveaway 3
- 100 coats: stream ends
Superchat $50USD or gift 10 Menchie Gang channel memberships and pick a shade for me to apply next as I dedicate this coat to you! (not guaranteed - limited number i.e. 100 dedications available, if there is a backlog I apologize in advance for not being able to dedicate your coat)
Superchat milestones
- $1,000 in superchats: Ben eats a banana
- $1,500: Cristine eats hummus
- $2,000: Both my cats on stream at the same time
- $3,000: Ben brings Cristine tea
- $4,000: Cristine touches butter
- $5,000: Ben does a mini polish mountain
- $6,000: Cristine shares unreleased Holo Taco shade name
- $6,500: Cristine drinks coffee
- $7,000: Ben purchases a goat
- $7,500: 50 gifted Menchie Gang memberships for chat
- $8,000: Cristine shares an unreleased Holo Taco swatch
- $9,000: Ben plays guitar & sings a chat-requested song
- $9,500: 50 gifted Menchie Gang memberships for chat
- $10,000: Never-before seen polish mountain footage
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2023.06.03 01:06 Hangukjjang Recovery stage
This is a follow up post I've made last friday after my transplant. Don't get me wrong, I fully understand my position and I am extremely grateful to be in the position that I am in and I really feel and commend people that has been on dialysis for many years, I've only been on dialysis for a year and a half and that was already a huge downhill experience as it is but It's pale in experience compare to some the people here and I truly wish that people get their kidneys sooner than later because this is a ride that no one should experience.
I don't know if anyone is interested in the recovery process or want some information on it since I'm going through with it fresh right now. I got the call at 9:30 PM at friday in regards of a donor and was told to rush to the hospital I was listed at, of course we needed to do all the hospital procedures to get me ready and do all the paperwork to prep me up for the surgery. I didn't go in until 2:30 AM for the actual surgery and they informed me the surgery will take approximately 4-5 hours, the scariest piece of information they provided was telling me that I will have a penis catheter connecting to my kidney and bladder to output urine for the duration of the stay of the hospital. Scary but what can I do, the surgery took place, was hospitalized for total of 4 days and the first day was absolutely brutal, they do not let you sleep the first 24 hours due to vital logging and of course poking you with needles almost every few set of hours. the ongoing days were lessen over time but wasn't as strict as the first day. On the actual day of the discharge the doctors came in and told me that the catheter has to stay in for few more days and I'm telling anyone that will go through this in the future, it is an absolute f**king nightmare. It's painful and uncomfortable and just dreadful but again what can I do, have expectations of A LOT of clinic visits, I am expected to go to clinic and to the hospital multiple times a week and have to stay 4-5 hours at a time waiting on the results of the lab blood work everytime I go in. But otherwise this is the update so far and I'll make another one sometime in the future when I am fully recovered
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I don't know if anyone is interested in the recovery process or want some information on it since I'm going through with it fresh right now. I got the call at 9:30 PM at friday in regards of a donor and was told to rush to the hospital I was listed at, of course we needed to do all the hospital procedures to get me ready and do all the paperwork to prep me up for the surgery. I didn't go in until 2:30 AM for the actual surgery and they informed me the surgery will take approximately 4-5 hours, the scariest piece of information they provided was telling me that I will have a penis catheter connecting to my kidney and bladder to output urine for the duration of the stay of the hospital. Scary but what can I do, the surgery took place, was hospitalized for total of 4 days and the first day was absolutely brutal, they do not let you sleep the first 24 hours due to vital logging and of course poking you with needles almost every few set of hours. the ongoing days were lessen over time but wasn't as strict as the first day. On the actual day of the discharge the doctors came in and told me that the catheter has to stay in for few more days and I'm telling anyone that will go through this in the future, it is an absolute f**king nightmare. It's painful and uncomfortable and just dreadful but again what can I do, have expectations of A LOT of clinic visits, I am expected to go to clinic and to the hospital multiple times a week and have to stay 4-5 hours at a time waiting on the results of the lab blood work everytime I go in. But otherwise this is the update so far and I'll make another one sometime in the future when I am fully recovered
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2023.06.03 01:06 401kind AITAH for being upset with my therapist? Please go easy, I am really hurting.
MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ mention of various forms of abuse including SA, mention of suicide in some detail, mention of death
PREFACE
I understand this is the internet and I cannot expect people to have grace or mercy on me for any of this. All I can do is ask that if you’re going to give me your input, that you try and be as kind as possible. My heart is hurting and I really don’t feel I am in a place to hear that I need to entirely -drop- this therapist right now. My background of abuse and trauma will hopefully explain why that is, but I am not ready to let go. I am mostly posting this to vent, but also hoping that if anyone does have any advice that could help me even just in the short term with coping, that it will be gently shared.
BACKGROUND
I will try and keep this as short and sweet as possible but there’s a whole lot of history here. I am 27F, and I grew up in an unimaginably abusive home. Sex trafficking, severe physical, sexual, and emotional abuse from my father and my older brother (very patriarchal family), and a slew of very complicated and scary health issues including a liver disease and cancer. My family set me up to never be able to move out or live independently because they genuinely have viewed me to be their property. The severity of this can hopefully be summed up in just a few example:
Was never allowed to even get myself a glass of water in the kitchen or learn to cook Was not potty trained and had to rely on my mom to go to the bathroom into my teenage years Drinking only from sippy cups until teenage years Location monitored on my phone Every credit card transaction / finance watched closely Could not move away from college
My brother was allowed and able to do all these things, but I was not. My entire life, teachers and “adults” that were supposed to catch these things did not even bat an eye. They instead placed me in remedial classes and ESL assuming that I just had a learning disability or a language barrier (which I do not). When I told teachers in the past about my abuse, it was handled extremely poorly and no authorities ever got involved. My life felt worthless; meaningless. Like I could scream from the rooftops of my school that I was being abused and no one cared.
This past January, I did the unthinkable. I left my family and got my own apartment. Friends, therapists, coworkers, everyone who remotely knew me has been pushing me to do this for years and I genuinely thought I would die in my situation. I developed severe Stockholm syndrome so a huge part of my lack of leaving was due to my own internal thought patterns. I did it through the help of my current therapist, which is my… fourth? therapist that’s attempted to help. The last ones took advantage of how naive I was and hurt me (one of them has been arrested). This therapist, however, invested everything to get me out. He really wanted to see me free. And I am forever grateful for him.
MY CURRENT THERAPIST & BACKSTORY
I started seeing this therapist early in 2022 when I was still living with my family. I became severely bedridden and could not even go to the bathroom without my mom or dad escorting me. My anxiety and panic were at an all time high. I was on a leave of absence from work, and this therapist was the only reason I had for HAVING to get out of bed and forcing myself to drive, and most days I couldn’t even do that. He was patient, compassionate, and was willing to go to great lengths to help. Though mostly irrelevant, he’s 45M. He got into school for counseling later in life so when I started seeing him, he was just an intern under the director of the practice. At the time, the director of the practice was seeing an old time friend of mine (who happened to recently become my coworker). My friend had gotten concerned about why I wasn’t showing up to work and why I was struggling so much. I didn’t want to open up to her about it because I couldn’t open up to anyone at the time. However, my friend asked the director of the place if she knew anything about me. The director broke into my therapist’s file under the guise of “he is my intern, I can look at his stuff” and then relayed all of that information to my friend. It became an entire case against the state board and I fought tooth and nail to get that director in trouble. In the end, nothing was done and in retaliation, the director fired my therapist and I had to wait until my therapist found a new job in order to see him (he was pre-graduation by just a few weeks so he couldn’t ethically talk to me until he had another practice). During the worst moments of my life, I was without my therapist (no fault of his, and he checked on me frequently), but it was really only for a few weeks. To me that was a lot since I had been going 2-3 times a week, sometimes 4 because of my situation.
THE CRYSTAL AND THE SAGE
My therapist had gone out of town briefly and came back with a crystal he got. He told me when he purchased it he knew he wanted to give it to someone. And he said that it made him think of me and he wants me to have it. He said he wants it to be a reminder that he cares and others care and that it represents my truth to hold close. Months later, he went on another trip and said he got sage that someone gave him that was super special and he wanted me to have it. He was very invested in making sure I felt like he cares and has my back. I was never into spirituality in the same way as him so I respectfully accepted his kindness but kind of scoffed at him. It became more of a joke.
HOW MY BROTHER AND MY THERAPIST STARTED TEXTING
The director of the previous practice had tried to harass me with a fake number, as well as to my therapist. She wanted to try and get us to drop the case, I guess? When I continued to get texts from fake numbers, my therapist asked me to give him the number that was blowing up my phone. It turns out, timing was absolutely terrible. My brother (who moved out of state) was the one who started harassing me. My parents/brother allowed me to go to therapy to “work on my panic attacks” but they began hating the fact that my therapist was helping me become independent. My brother was outraged and texted me anonymously to kill myself. Because I still thought at the time that it was the director of the place, I went ahead and shared the number with my therapist. And that’s how it all began.
THE VIDEO THREATS FROM MY THERAPIST
Things got out of hand over the months. My therapist felt extremely protective of me and a “savior complex” kicked in. The reasoning for this is worth noting / important. My therapist lost his sister to suicide when they were young, and he also lost his father shortly after. His sister apparently had also been assaulted and my therapist had mentioned to me before how he views me as a friend, someone to protect, like a sister. He admitted his struggle with transference and said his main and only concern was to get me to move out of my family’s house. To take a leap of faith. He was desperate to do that. He offered to help me get an apartment near him so he could help me out, he offered to babysit my dog for me (my golden retriever is my emotional support animal that my parents have used as a bargaining chip), he offered to see me in therapy 5 times a week if I just moved. I just wasn’t ready. But my brother would not relent.
My therapist still does not know that I know this, but my brother showed me some of the videos my therapist sent him. Three separate threatening videos. In them, my therapist was shirtless with a ski mask on saying he was part of the FBI and that if my brother didn’t behave himself, that he would have his people come after him. My brother said that I was threatening him and that if I didn’t get this man to stop, it would be trouble. My therapist got extremely activated and decided to take it as a challenge.
My therapist also at some points asked my brother “how to assault me” because he wanted to know what my brother did/wanted him to admit it. But if an outsider saw the texts, it would seem like my therapist was asking to participate in assaulting me. It looked HORRIBLY incriminating.
THE MOVE OUT
I got the courage one night. Drove my dog over to my therapist’s house and moved in with a friend while I apartment hunted. My therapist was incredibly proud of me and poured so much love and care into my dog. I truly felt hopeful and optimistic and I eventually applied for my own apartment and got approved. Because of severe Stockholm syndrome and lack of knowing how to do ANYTHING, I would end up visiting home (somehow, they allowed that and I did not die!)
THE ASSAULT
Long story short (I am not super comfortable going into this part), people from the temple I was sex trafficked in (linked with my family), showed up and assaulted me at gun point in a van. I told my therapist. He was extremely upset on my behalf and called the police. He told me it was essential that I get restraining orders and that I stop going over to my parents house even if I have Stockholm syndrome. He said he could no longer be patient on that because I was actively being attacked. I told him I was still too nervous to go no contact and I could tell he was frustrated with me.
WHEN MY THERAPIST SECRETLY SAT OUTSIDE MY APARTMENT
My brother / someone from the temple decided to start things up once he figured out the person he was texting earlier was in fact my therapist. He threatened my therapist and challenged him to meet up. My brother was bluffing but my therapist took it seriously. My therapist arranged to meet him outside my apartment at 9pm that night. I had a weird gut feeling so I texted my therapist that night and asked him not to do anything stupid, but I had no idea what he had up his sleeve. Without telling me, my therapist sat outside my apartment waiting for my brother (who never showed) to meet him. Why my therapist chose to meet him RIGHT OUTSIDE my new residence was extremely irresponsible.
I went to take my dog out to the bathroom that night and my friend and I were hanging out. She noticed a dark car with someone sitting and staring with a mask on. We walked closer and it was my therapist. I yelled at him because I was so worried he would’ve gotten shot or attacked and that he would get hurt as a result of trying to fight. My therapist apologized and was so embarrassed. He awkwardly said “you weren’t supposed to know about this…” and drove off full force. We hopped in my friends car and followed him to wherever he tried to run off to. He then promised me he would leave. About 20 mins later, my friend and I decide to go out to get food and we see him sitting in another part of my apartment complex still ready to fight. I was so upset that he lied to me multiple times and that he was risking his life. What would’ve happened if he got attacked? But my therapist apologized again and said “I just need to look him in the eye” implying he was ready to kill.
THE DREAMS ABOUT MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER
As my therapist had told me, his sister had passed away from suicide when they were young. He admitted to have transference in a way where he viewed me in a sisterly way. For a while, I continually had dreams about his sister and it was very weird. I told him I don’t believe in a lot of things like crystals or burning sage but that these dreams felt incredibly vivid. In the dreams, her sister was assuring me that my therapist was sent in my life to be the brother I couldn’t have. That he was sent to me as a brother, and I to him as a sister.
THE HOSPITAL
Just within the span of days after he showed up to my apartment, I was hospitalized due to complications with my liver, and I reached out to my family for help. My therapist was upset with me for interacting with my family at all. My therapist even visited me in the hospital and said that I don’t need to call my family for help and that I have him and my other friends who will have my back. After I was discharged from the hospital, I asked my therapist if I could take my dog back for at least a weekend (he took my dog in while I went to the hospital in order to help me. He said he would hang onto him while I recovered and caught up on rest). So when he gave me my dog for the weekend, out of guilt, I took my dog with me to visit my family. I just felt the need to run back. My dad manipulated me a lot about missing my dog so I felt obligated.
MY THERAPIST’S FRUSTRATION
I admitted to my therapist that I had taken my dog to my parents for the weekend (after I already gave him my dog back). My therapist was so upset about it. He had put so much love and time into my dog and helping me, and then I took him back to the hands of my abusers. This is when him pulling back began. He felt like he was doing all of this extraneous stuff for me and I was just taking steps back.
THE SUICIDE METHOD
As he got over his frustration a little bit, I became very suicidal to the point where I purchased a rope and planned it out. I made him the beneficiary of my bank accounts as a thank you to him for everything. He told me he would do what he could to help me. He said I could bring my dog back to him if I just need a life break. He didn’t know I had the rope but he knew I was thinking suicide. When I went back to drop my dog off, I admitted I had a rope. I gave it to him. He realized I was genuinely going to kill myself and was so grateful I told him the truth. He told me he would be there for me to help me through it. Showed me grace and compassion and everything.
THE MAJOR PULLBACK
No warning. No indication. My therapist immediately pulled back. Hard. He told me to call him later that week (I usually have therapy 3x a week but he was out of town), and so I did as he said and called him to update him. He immediately flipped out. “Ugh, I cannot be in anything extra to your therapy space. I am going through things on my own and I need to pull back. I can’t take calls any hour of the day anymore. I can’t take your dog. You don’t even listen to me anyway. You do what you want and go to your parents. So, I don’t know what to say. I am committed to you as your therapist but that’s it. If you feel suicidal outside of that, go to a hospital and get sedated.” I was absolutely crushed and felt so awful and guilty like I did something wrong. I didn’t want to bother him. I didn’t want to lose him. He made me feel loved and cared for (platonically, as a brother) and I felt so safe with him. Until this moment. He was very hung up on the fact that I kept going home to my family despite his efforts.
After calming down he explained how he feels like he needs to step back because his emotions shouldn’t affect my therapy and that he’s doing it to help me. But it felt very selfish. He over exerted himself by showing up to my apartment and sending threatening videos when I never asked for it, all because HE wanted to. And now he pulls back because HE wants to. None of his decisions were based on what I would feel, but what would best serve him.
THE RELAPSE AND THE DREAMS
Because my therapist stepped back so hard, I relapsed and said “screw it” / went back to my parents. I still had my apartment but I backslid majorly.
During this time I was so distraught. This therapist made me feel supported. And no, I didn’t attach onto him in an unhealthy way where he became my only hope. But he did feel like the brother I wished I had, and he felt like such a deep and important part of my life and I was devastated.
I started having dreams again about his sister and I cried. I felt like I was given this gift and then it was taken away.
THE BACK AND FORTH
My therapist began telling me that he thinks I should have additional support in this season especially while he “takes a break from extraneous stuff” with me. He said when he was younger and going through things, he had two therapists.
A week later I told him I found a second therapist and he said: “ummm I don’t know. I feel protective over that. Maybe don’t get a second one. Find a support group but I don’t want you seeing another one.”
I stood my ground and said I might still find one and he said “well then make sure the other one is a woman and is closely in touch with me.”
It felt very wishy washy and he did a lot of similar things like this for a while.
But when I listened to him and decided against a second therapist, he pulled back again. He said he wouldn’t take any more texts or calls outside of session once again and made me feel like an obsessed freak when I wasn’t even really doing much at all. Or asking for anything.
VISITING MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER’S GRAVE
My therapist is a famous author and singesong writer. Online, it’s very easy to find his sister’s name and I did some digging and found out where her grave is located. I was feeling really awful, like I was grieving the loss myself which is so incredibly psychotic. I know. But it more so felt like I was grieving the loss of this brotherly love I once felt from my therapist. But it’s been a couple months at this point and he still refuses to take texts or calls, and is very argumentative and angry in sessions. And I just wanted to take some flowers to the grave in private, not tell him, and just accept that he can’t be what I needed him to be for me.
MY FAMILY FINDS OUT
When I went to the cemetery, the place was huge. So I had to go into the office and ask for the location of his sister’s grave. They gave me a piece of paper with her name and grave location on it and I eventually just threw it in my wallet. My dad stumbled upon my wallet while I was at home one of the days and noticed the last name and asked me if I was still seeing my therapist. They don’t like him for obvious reasons. But I admitted to my parents that I do still see my therapist and that he’s more like family than they’d ever be. They abused me. But I stood in my truth. At the end of the day I will not deny that my therapist DID help me immensely and if that means I have to be abused for the truth, I’ll do it.
MY THERAPIST INSISTS ON INFORMATION
He knew that I was hiding something. I told him my family was abusive again but I didn’t say why. He spent an entire session saying he needs to know what happened. I said no multiple times and that I didn’t want to talk about it. He used language like “you have to tell me before you leave my office” and “if you care so much about me you’ll tell me.” He even told me he was going to take my hand and promise me that he won’t react. He held it and looked me in the eye and promised he’d meet me with compassion. I refused. He then asked me if I’ve been lying to him. Deceptive. It broke me and I felt like it was just such an insult. But I stayed strong and he apologized for bothering me about it.
Last week comes around and it feels like such a hindrance. He’s continuing to be short with me and not answer my texts, not taking emergency calls, and just… is continuing to be cold. I even texted him that I was genuinely feeling suicidal and he told me he can’t help me outside of session. Period.
So then after my latest session, I told him I’d text him what happened because I was too uncomfortable to say it. I told him I visited his sister’s grave, about the dreams, everything. I said I felt really hurt at his pullback and how it felt selfish.
He responded by gaslighting me endlessly and it absolutely crushed me furthermore. He responded as follows:
“Ok crystals and dreams? I don’t believe in them. I don’t believe that was my sister. I don’t know how I feel about you visiting her grave. I am not your brother and I can’t be your brother. And yes it was a nice gesture I guess but clearly you are focusing on the wrong thing. Let’s not talk about the weeds and the details. Let’s focus on you.” And completely shut down any further conversation about it.
In the past I have insisted and begged him to process him showing up at my apartment with me because I am still shaken up. He just always says “I never should’ve gotten involved like that but we are NOT going to talk about this ever again” and has always refused to hear how I felt about it.
He went back on vacation this past weekend and refused to take my call when I needed help, refused to text me, or anything. I called off work two days in a row because I was so devastated at his anger toward me and the gaslighting. It felt so unfair. I wanted to talk to him over the weekend because I was genuinely so hurt and felt like I truly lost him. He didn’t care.
WHERE TO GO FROM HERE?
I had an appointment in person tonight. First in person one since I told him about everything. I am embarrassed and feel so guilty that I visited his sister’s grave behind his back. It makes me feel psychotic. But at least I was honest and didn’t wait until I got caught / did not gaslight him.
I have a major surgery tomorrow and he won’t help me with my dog. I’ve gone back to my parents for now until I am recovered.
I want to tell him how hurt I am but I have tried that. He never understands. I miss him. As a brother.
I ended up going to session and he asked me why I feel off in therapy. He literally said “other than me slightly having to pull back right now what have I really done?”
I don’t know if I ever can get him to see my side or my pain in this.
FINAL THOUGHTS / MISC
I was seeing him three times a week and one day he randomly cancelled my third session, and every week after “something came up” that day and he just kept canceling. Eventually he just exploded and said “I DO NOT work that third day anymore.” Without giving me any explanation or time to adjust or heads up. Like he clearly needed a break.
I was in the hospital just now for my surgery and I wanted so badly to reach out to him for support. I couldn’t. My heart hurts knowing that I once had this brotherly love in my life that I had lost.
Even now in session he uses the analogy of “if you were my sister” or “if you were my wife” after knowing I am clearly struggling with accepting he has pulled back. He used to say I am his friend over and over and now he just acts so cold. I know he’s trying to maintain boundaries. I know. But too late. He screwed with my emotions SO much.
I have horrible, horrible OCD and my brain keeps trying to do stupid things to fix this. I also keep asking myself over and over:
1. Will he ever take my dog back if I really needed him to? (obviously I can find other pet sitters but my brain is so hung up on —— if I asked him in an emergency situation, would he refuse?)
2. Will he ever stop ignoring my texts? I’ve reached out to him about being suicidal. About being in a state of panic. Previously, he would call me and stay on the phone with me while I got through an attack. I AM NOT EXPECTING THIS. I do not expect him to be available on demand. But his SUDDEN extreme pull back makes me think that I was the one that did something wrong.
3.Does this mean he emotionally does not care about me and my situation anymore? Did he just turn his emotions off? Did he ever even care? He would make me send him a text every day listing three things I am grateful for as a means to check in. He would also randomly send me quotes from books he was reading that he thought I could relate to. All facilitated by him. All of this has randomly stopped and it makes me feel like he hates me. Is it at all possible that this is a reflection of him not caring?
4.Is his pullback a temporary extreme and will he readjust and go back to being there for me? Or is this a permanent shift, likely? Can I expect things to even out or go back to him investing care and time? Again I KNOW the focus is on me having to do that for myself. I know I CAN move on from this if needed but I really, really began to love him (PLATONICALLY like family) and having him around. It breaks me so much. It was so important to me to have him.
I have been taking major time off of work and from seeing friend or leaving my house. I have completely self isolated. Refused medical treatment against doctor’s advice. Risked my job by calling off so much. Taking a leave of absence. Become bedridden. I know it sounds like I’ve become obsessed with fixing this situation and that seems psychotic and sad. But given my history with everything I have been through, this therapist had given me hope to feel like someone had my back. Losing him feels like a major major loss that’s soul crushing. Yes I have other people and no he cannot be my focus. But this is how I feel and I cannot help it. I do not want to be shamed for it. It just freaking hurts.
Again I know the majority of people will want to come at my therapist or me for doing wrong things. I know it doesn’t seem like this, but he really isn’t intentionally manipulative or gaslight-y, he’s just trying to regulate himself.
I have grace for him. And for myself. So please, please try and respond with compassion. I don’t want to lose him. But I feel like I kind of am.
What are your overall thoughts, in the most gentle way possible? Was I wrong for telling him the truth about the grave?
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PREFACE
I understand this is the internet and I cannot expect people to have grace or mercy on me for any of this. All I can do is ask that if you’re going to give me your input, that you try and be as kind as possible. My heart is hurting and I really don’t feel I am in a place to hear that I need to entirely -drop- this therapist right now. My background of abuse and trauma will hopefully explain why that is, but I am not ready to let go. I am mostly posting this to vent, but also hoping that if anyone does have any advice that could help me even just in the short term with coping, that it will be gently shared.
BACKGROUND
I will try and keep this as short and sweet as possible but there’s a whole lot of history here. I am 27F, and I grew up in an unimaginably abusive home. Sex trafficking, severe physical, sexual, and emotional abuse from my father and my older brother (very patriarchal family), and a slew of very complicated and scary health issues including a liver disease and cancer. My family set me up to never be able to move out or live independently because they genuinely have viewed me to be their property. The severity of this can hopefully be summed up in just a few example:
Was never allowed to even get myself a glass of water in the kitchen or learn to cook Was not potty trained and had to rely on my mom to go to the bathroom into my teenage years Drinking only from sippy cups until teenage years Location monitored on my phone Every credit card transaction / finance watched closely Could not move away from college
My brother was allowed and able to do all these things, but I was not. My entire life, teachers and “adults” that were supposed to catch these things did not even bat an eye. They instead placed me in remedial classes and ESL assuming that I just had a learning disability or a language barrier (which I do not). When I told teachers in the past about my abuse, it was handled extremely poorly and no authorities ever got involved. My life felt worthless; meaningless. Like I could scream from the rooftops of my school that I was being abused and no one cared.
This past January, I did the unthinkable. I left my family and got my own apartment. Friends, therapists, coworkers, everyone who remotely knew me has been pushing me to do this for years and I genuinely thought I would die in my situation. I developed severe Stockholm syndrome so a huge part of my lack of leaving was due to my own internal thought patterns. I did it through the help of my current therapist, which is my… fourth? therapist that’s attempted to help. The last ones took advantage of how naive I was and hurt me (one of them has been arrested). This therapist, however, invested everything to get me out. He really wanted to see me free. And I am forever grateful for him.
MY CURRENT THERAPIST & BACKSTORY
I started seeing this therapist early in 2022 when I was still living with my family. I became severely bedridden and could not even go to the bathroom without my mom or dad escorting me. My anxiety and panic were at an all time high. I was on a leave of absence from work, and this therapist was the only reason I had for HAVING to get out of bed and forcing myself to drive, and most days I couldn’t even do that. He was patient, compassionate, and was willing to go to great lengths to help. Though mostly irrelevant, he’s 45M. He got into school for counseling later in life so when I started seeing him, he was just an intern under the director of the practice. At the time, the director of the practice was seeing an old time friend of mine (who happened to recently become my coworker). My friend had gotten concerned about why I wasn’t showing up to work and why I was struggling so much. I didn’t want to open up to her about it because I couldn’t open up to anyone at the time. However, my friend asked the director of the place if she knew anything about me. The director broke into my therapist’s file under the guise of “he is my intern, I can look at his stuff” and then relayed all of that information to my friend. It became an entire case against the state board and I fought tooth and nail to get that director in trouble. In the end, nothing was done and in retaliation, the director fired my therapist and I had to wait until my therapist found a new job in order to see him (he was pre-graduation by just a few weeks so he couldn’t ethically talk to me until he had another practice). During the worst moments of my life, I was without my therapist (no fault of his, and he checked on me frequently), but it was really only for a few weeks. To me that was a lot since I had been going 2-3 times a week, sometimes 4 because of my situation.
THE CRYSTAL AND THE SAGE
My therapist had gone out of town briefly and came back with a crystal he got. He told me when he purchased it he knew he wanted to give it to someone. And he said that it made him think of me and he wants me to have it. He said he wants it to be a reminder that he cares and others care and that it represents my truth to hold close. Months later, he went on another trip and said he got sage that someone gave him that was super special and he wanted me to have it. He was very invested in making sure I felt like he cares and has my back. I was never into spirituality in the same way as him so I respectfully accepted his kindness but kind of scoffed at him. It became more of a joke.
HOW MY BROTHER AND MY THERAPIST STARTED TEXTING
The director of the previous practice had tried to harass me with a fake number, as well as to my therapist. She wanted to try and get us to drop the case, I guess? When I continued to get texts from fake numbers, my therapist asked me to give him the number that was blowing up my phone. It turns out, timing was absolutely terrible. My brother (who moved out of state) was the one who started harassing me. My parents/brother allowed me to go to therapy to “work on my panic attacks” but they began hating the fact that my therapist was helping me become independent. My brother was outraged and texted me anonymously to kill myself. Because I still thought at the time that it was the director of the place, I went ahead and shared the number with my therapist. And that’s how it all began.
THE VIDEO THREATS FROM MY THERAPIST
Things got out of hand over the months. My therapist felt extremely protective of me and a “savior complex” kicked in. The reasoning for this is worth noting / important. My therapist lost his sister to suicide when they were young, and he also lost his father shortly after. His sister apparently had also been assaulted and my therapist had mentioned to me before how he views me as a friend, someone to protect, like a sister. He admitted his struggle with transference and said his main and only concern was to get me to move out of my family’s house. To take a leap of faith. He was desperate to do that. He offered to help me get an apartment near him so he could help me out, he offered to babysit my dog for me (my golden retriever is my emotional support animal that my parents have used as a bargaining chip), he offered to see me in therapy 5 times a week if I just moved. I just wasn’t ready. But my brother would not relent.
My therapist still does not know that I know this, but my brother showed me some of the videos my therapist sent him. Three separate threatening videos. In them, my therapist was shirtless with a ski mask on saying he was part of the FBI and that if my brother didn’t behave himself, that he would have his people come after him. My brother said that I was threatening him and that if I didn’t get this man to stop, it would be trouble. My therapist got extremely activated and decided to take it as a challenge.
My therapist also at some points asked my brother “how to assault me” because he wanted to know what my brother did/wanted him to admit it. But if an outsider saw the texts, it would seem like my therapist was asking to participate in assaulting me. It looked HORRIBLY incriminating.
THE MOVE OUT
I got the courage one night. Drove my dog over to my therapist’s house and moved in with a friend while I apartment hunted. My therapist was incredibly proud of me and poured so much love and care into my dog. I truly felt hopeful and optimistic and I eventually applied for my own apartment and got approved. Because of severe Stockholm syndrome and lack of knowing how to do ANYTHING, I would end up visiting home (somehow, they allowed that and I did not die!)
THE ASSAULT
Long story short (I am not super comfortable going into this part), people from the temple I was sex trafficked in (linked with my family), showed up and assaulted me at gun point in a van. I told my therapist. He was extremely upset on my behalf and called the police. He told me it was essential that I get restraining orders and that I stop going over to my parents house even if I have Stockholm syndrome. He said he could no longer be patient on that because I was actively being attacked. I told him I was still too nervous to go no contact and I could tell he was frustrated with me.
WHEN MY THERAPIST SECRETLY SAT OUTSIDE MY APARTMENT
My brother / someone from the temple decided to start things up once he figured out the person he was texting earlier was in fact my therapist. He threatened my therapist and challenged him to meet up. My brother was bluffing but my therapist took it seriously. My therapist arranged to meet him outside my apartment at 9pm that night. I had a weird gut feeling so I texted my therapist that night and asked him not to do anything stupid, but I had no idea what he had up his sleeve. Without telling me, my therapist sat outside my apartment waiting for my brother (who never showed) to meet him. Why my therapist chose to meet him RIGHT OUTSIDE my new residence was extremely irresponsible.
I went to take my dog out to the bathroom that night and my friend and I were hanging out. She noticed a dark car with someone sitting and staring with a mask on. We walked closer and it was my therapist. I yelled at him because I was so worried he would’ve gotten shot or attacked and that he would get hurt as a result of trying to fight. My therapist apologized and was so embarrassed. He awkwardly said “you weren’t supposed to know about this…” and drove off full force. We hopped in my friends car and followed him to wherever he tried to run off to. He then promised me he would leave. About 20 mins later, my friend and I decide to go out to get food and we see him sitting in another part of my apartment complex still ready to fight. I was so upset that he lied to me multiple times and that he was risking his life. What would’ve happened if he got attacked? But my therapist apologized again and said “I just need to look him in the eye” implying he was ready to kill.
THE DREAMS ABOUT MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER
As my therapist had told me, his sister had passed away from suicide when they were young. He admitted to have transference in a way where he viewed me in a sisterly way. For a while, I continually had dreams about his sister and it was very weird. I told him I don’t believe in a lot of things like crystals or burning sage but that these dreams felt incredibly vivid. In the dreams, her sister was assuring me that my therapist was sent in my life to be the brother I couldn’t have. That he was sent to me as a brother, and I to him as a sister.
THE HOSPITAL
Just within the span of days after he showed up to my apartment, I was hospitalized due to complications with my liver, and I reached out to my family for help. My therapist was upset with me for interacting with my family at all. My therapist even visited me in the hospital and said that I don’t need to call my family for help and that I have him and my other friends who will have my back. After I was discharged from the hospital, I asked my therapist if I could take my dog back for at least a weekend (he took my dog in while I went to the hospital in order to help me. He said he would hang onto him while I recovered and caught up on rest). So when he gave me my dog for the weekend, out of guilt, I took my dog with me to visit my family. I just felt the need to run back. My dad manipulated me a lot about missing my dog so I felt obligated.
MY THERAPIST’S FRUSTRATION
I admitted to my therapist that I had taken my dog to my parents for the weekend (after I already gave him my dog back). My therapist was so upset about it. He had put so much love and time into my dog and helping me, and then I took him back to the hands of my abusers. This is when him pulling back began. He felt like he was doing all of this extraneous stuff for me and I was just taking steps back.
THE SUICIDE METHOD
As he got over his frustration a little bit, I became very suicidal to the point where I purchased a rope and planned it out. I made him the beneficiary of my bank accounts as a thank you to him for everything. He told me he would do what he could to help me. He said I could bring my dog back to him if I just need a life break. He didn’t know I had the rope but he knew I was thinking suicide. When I went back to drop my dog off, I admitted I had a rope. I gave it to him. He realized I was genuinely going to kill myself and was so grateful I told him the truth. He told me he would be there for me to help me through it. Showed me grace and compassion and everything.
THE MAJOR PULLBACK
No warning. No indication. My therapist immediately pulled back. Hard. He told me to call him later that week (I usually have therapy 3x a week but he was out of town), and so I did as he said and called him to update him. He immediately flipped out. “Ugh, I cannot be in anything extra to your therapy space. I am going through things on my own and I need to pull back. I can’t take calls any hour of the day anymore. I can’t take your dog. You don’t even listen to me anyway. You do what you want and go to your parents. So, I don’t know what to say. I am committed to you as your therapist but that’s it. If you feel suicidal outside of that, go to a hospital and get sedated.” I was absolutely crushed and felt so awful and guilty like I did something wrong. I didn’t want to bother him. I didn’t want to lose him. He made me feel loved and cared for (platonically, as a brother) and I felt so safe with him. Until this moment. He was very hung up on the fact that I kept going home to my family despite his efforts.
After calming down he explained how he feels like he needs to step back because his emotions shouldn’t affect my therapy and that he’s doing it to help me. But it felt very selfish. He over exerted himself by showing up to my apartment and sending threatening videos when I never asked for it, all because HE wanted to. And now he pulls back because HE wants to. None of his decisions were based on what I would feel, but what would best serve him.
THE RELAPSE AND THE DREAMS
Because my therapist stepped back so hard, I relapsed and said “screw it” / went back to my parents. I still had my apartment but I backslid majorly.
During this time I was so distraught. This therapist made me feel supported. And no, I didn’t attach onto him in an unhealthy way where he became my only hope. But he did feel like the brother I wished I had, and he felt like such a deep and important part of my life and I was devastated.
I started having dreams again about his sister and I cried. I felt like I was given this gift and then it was taken away.
THE BACK AND FORTH
My therapist began telling me that he thinks I should have additional support in this season especially while he “takes a break from extraneous stuff” with me. He said when he was younger and going through things, he had two therapists.
A week later I told him I found a second therapist and he said: “ummm I don’t know. I feel protective over that. Maybe don’t get a second one. Find a support group but I don’t want you seeing another one.”
I stood my ground and said I might still find one and he said “well then make sure the other one is a woman and is closely in touch with me.”
It felt very wishy washy and he did a lot of similar things like this for a while.
But when I listened to him and decided against a second therapist, he pulled back again. He said he wouldn’t take any more texts or calls outside of session once again and made me feel like an obsessed freak when I wasn’t even really doing much at all. Or asking for anything.
VISITING MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER’S GRAVE
My therapist is a famous author and singesong writer. Online, it’s very easy to find his sister’s name and I did some digging and found out where her grave is located. I was feeling really awful, like I was grieving the loss myself which is so incredibly psychotic. I know. But it more so felt like I was grieving the loss of this brotherly love I once felt from my therapist. But it’s been a couple months at this point and he still refuses to take texts or calls, and is very argumentative and angry in sessions. And I just wanted to take some flowers to the grave in private, not tell him, and just accept that he can’t be what I needed him to be for me.
MY FAMILY FINDS OUT
When I went to the cemetery, the place was huge. So I had to go into the office and ask for the location of his sister’s grave. They gave me a piece of paper with her name and grave location on it and I eventually just threw it in my wallet. My dad stumbled upon my wallet while I was at home one of the days and noticed the last name and asked me if I was still seeing my therapist. They don’t like him for obvious reasons. But I admitted to my parents that I do still see my therapist and that he’s more like family than they’d ever be. They abused me. But I stood in my truth. At the end of the day I will not deny that my therapist DID help me immensely and if that means I have to be abused for the truth, I’ll do it.
MY THERAPIST INSISTS ON INFORMATION
He knew that I was hiding something. I told him my family was abusive again but I didn’t say why. He spent an entire session saying he needs to know what happened. I said no multiple times and that I didn’t want to talk about it. He used language like “you have to tell me before you leave my office” and “if you care so much about me you’ll tell me.” He even told me he was going to take my hand and promise me that he won’t react. He held it and looked me in the eye and promised he’d meet me with compassion. I refused. He then asked me if I’ve been lying to him. Deceptive. It broke me and I felt like it was just such an insult. But I stayed strong and he apologized for bothering me about it.
Last week comes around and it feels like such a hindrance. He’s continuing to be short with me and not answer my texts, not taking emergency calls, and just… is continuing to be cold. I even texted him that I was genuinely feeling suicidal and he told me he can’t help me outside of session. Period.
So then after my latest session, I told him I’d text him what happened because I was too uncomfortable to say it. I told him I visited his sister’s grave, about the dreams, everything. I said I felt really hurt at his pullback and how it felt selfish.
He responded by gaslighting me endlessly and it absolutely crushed me furthermore. He responded as follows:
“Ok crystals and dreams? I don’t believe in them. I don’t believe that was my sister. I don’t know how I feel about you visiting her grave. I am not your brother and I can’t be your brother. And yes it was a nice gesture I guess but clearly you are focusing on the wrong thing. Let’s not talk about the weeds and the details. Let’s focus on you.” And completely shut down any further conversation about it.
In the past I have insisted and begged him to process him showing up at my apartment with me because I am still shaken up. He just always says “I never should’ve gotten involved like that but we are NOT going to talk about this ever again” and has always refused to hear how I felt about it.
He went back on vacation this past weekend and refused to take my call when I needed help, refused to text me, or anything. I called off work two days in a row because I was so devastated at his anger toward me and the gaslighting. It felt so unfair. I wanted to talk to him over the weekend because I was genuinely so hurt and felt like I truly lost him. He didn’t care.
WHERE TO GO FROM HERE?
I had an appointment in person tonight. First in person one since I told him about everything. I am embarrassed and feel so guilty that I visited his sister’s grave behind his back. It makes me feel psychotic. But at least I was honest and didn’t wait until I got caught / did not gaslight him.
I have a major surgery tomorrow and he won’t help me with my dog. I’ve gone back to my parents for now until I am recovered.
I want to tell him how hurt I am but I have tried that. He never understands. I miss him. As a brother.
I ended up going to session and he asked me why I feel off in therapy. He literally said “other than me slightly having to pull back right now what have I really done?”
I don’t know if I ever can get him to see my side or my pain in this.
FINAL THOUGHTS / MISC
I was seeing him three times a week and one day he randomly cancelled my third session, and every week after “something came up” that day and he just kept canceling. Eventually he just exploded and said “I DO NOT work that third day anymore.” Without giving me any explanation or time to adjust or heads up. Like he clearly needed a break.
I was in the hospital just now for my surgery and I wanted so badly to reach out to him for support. I couldn’t. My heart hurts knowing that I once had this brotherly love in my life that I had lost.
Even now in session he uses the analogy of “if you were my sister” or “if you were my wife” after knowing I am clearly struggling with accepting he has pulled back. He used to say I am his friend over and over and now he just acts so cold. I know he’s trying to maintain boundaries. I know. But too late. He screwed with my emotions SO much.
I have horrible, horrible OCD and my brain keeps trying to do stupid things to fix this. I also keep asking myself over and over:
1. Will he ever take my dog back if I really needed him to? (obviously I can find other pet sitters but my brain is so hung up on —— if I asked him in an emergency situation, would he refuse?)
2. Will he ever stop ignoring my texts? I’ve reached out to him about being suicidal. About being in a state of panic. Previously, he would call me and stay on the phone with me while I got through an attack. I AM NOT EXPECTING THIS. I do not expect him to be available on demand. But his SUDDEN extreme pull back makes me think that I was the one that did something wrong.
3.Does this mean he emotionally does not care about me and my situation anymore? Did he just turn his emotions off? Did he ever even care? He would make me send him a text every day listing three things I am grateful for as a means to check in. He would also randomly send me quotes from books he was reading that he thought I could relate to. All facilitated by him. All of this has randomly stopped and it makes me feel like he hates me. Is it at all possible that this is a reflection of him not caring?
4.Is his pullback a temporary extreme and will he readjust and go back to being there for me? Or is this a permanent shift, likely? Can I expect things to even out or go back to him investing care and time? Again I KNOW the focus is on me having to do that for myself. I know I CAN move on from this if needed but I really, really began to love him (PLATONICALLY like family) and having him around. It breaks me so much. It was so important to me to have him.
I have been taking major time off of work and from seeing friend or leaving my house. I have completely self isolated. Refused medical treatment against doctor’s advice. Risked my job by calling off so much. Taking a leave of absence. Become bedridden. I know it sounds like I’ve become obsessed with fixing this situation and that seems psychotic and sad. But given my history with everything I have been through, this therapist had given me hope to feel like someone had my back. Losing him feels like a major major loss that’s soul crushing. Yes I have other people and no he cannot be my focus. But this is how I feel and I cannot help it. I do not want to be shamed for it. It just freaking hurts.
Again I know the majority of people will want to come at my therapist or me for doing wrong things. I know it doesn’t seem like this, but he really isn’t intentionally manipulative or gaslight-y, he’s just trying to regulate himself.
I have grace for him. And for myself. So please, please try and respond with compassion. I don’t want to lose him. But I feel like I kind of am.
What are your overall thoughts, in the most gentle way possible? Was I wrong for telling him the truth about the grave?
2023.06.03 01:05 JustRedd456 Who are the top 15 NBA Players of all time? rank
Im interested in knowing everyone top 15 list. Each are the same and some varies. Each Player bring something to the game. It's up to you in choosing the top players my list is
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- Jordan
- LeBron
- Kareem
- Magic
- Bird
- Duncan
- Russell
- Wilt
- Kobe
- Curry
- Shaq
- Hakeem
- KD
- Oscar
- Dr. J
2023.06.03 01:05 Gamer_Geek98 Booking the End of Roman's Reign- Part Two
After International Incident, Roman takes a couple of months off before coming back for a match against Seth Rollins at Survivor Series, as that show will go back to being battle of the brands, and WarGames will get its own pay-per-view in December.
Survivor Series: Before the show, it is announced that there will be 9 matches pitting Raw superstars against SmackDown superstars, with the brand that wins the most matches getting to pick 2 superstars from the other brand's roster. One of these matches features Roman Reigns facing Seth Rollins. Solo and Fatu attempt to interfere on Roman's behalf, but The Usos keep them from doing so. Roman becomes distracted by the fighting on the outside, allowing Rollins to capitalize by hitting him with a Pedigree. 1, 2, 3, Seth Rollins becomes the first person to score a pinfall or submission win over Roman Reigns in nearly 4 years. Roman is irate, and after the match, he goes outside, grabs a steel chair, then goes back into the ring and attacks Seth with the chair. Seth is out cold, which allows Kevin Owens to cash in his Money in the Bank briefcase on Rollins, becoming the new World Heavyweight Champion.
WarGames: After Survivor Series, SmackDown was allowed to pick 2 superstars from Raw to join their roster. One of those superstars was Cody Rhodes. The WarGames match is Roman Reigns, Jacob Fatu, Solo Sikoa, Kevin Owens vs Jey Uso, Jimmy Uso, Sami Zayn, Cody Rhodes. Cody gets the win for his team by pinning Solo, getting revenge on the man who cost him the title at Wrestlemania earlier in the year.
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Survivor Series: Before the show, it is announced that there will be 9 matches pitting Raw superstars against SmackDown superstars, with the brand that wins the most matches getting to pick 2 superstars from the other brand's roster. One of these matches features Roman Reigns facing Seth Rollins. Solo and Fatu attempt to interfere on Roman's behalf, but The Usos keep them from doing so. Roman becomes distracted by the fighting on the outside, allowing Rollins to capitalize by hitting him with a Pedigree. 1, 2, 3, Seth Rollins becomes the first person to score a pinfall or submission win over Roman Reigns in nearly 4 years. Roman is irate, and after the match, he goes outside, grabs a steel chair, then goes back into the ring and attacks Seth with the chair. Seth is out cold, which allows Kevin Owens to cash in his Money in the Bank briefcase on Rollins, becoming the new World Heavyweight Champion.
WarGames: After Survivor Series, SmackDown was allowed to pick 2 superstars from Raw to join their roster. One of those superstars was Cody Rhodes. The WarGames match is Roman Reigns, Jacob Fatu, Solo Sikoa, Kevin Owens vs Jey Uso, Jimmy Uso, Sami Zayn, Cody Rhodes. Cody gets the win for his team by pinning Solo, getting revenge on the man who cost him the title at Wrestlemania earlier in the year.
2023.06.03 01:05 Diligent-Tie-5500 There Are Levels To Prayer. Focused Faith.
And this is the confidence that we have in Him, that, if we ask any thing according to His will, He hears us: And if we know that He hears us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of Him. (1 John 5:14-15)
Prayer is so important and powerful. There are ascending levels of prayer. We can pray while walking up the street, sitting in a crowded room, or even while watching a movie. The baseline level of prayer is simply to have Yah on our minds, acknowledge His ever-presence, meditate on His Word and the Good that He does for us daily. Focusing on having this constant mindfulness of Yah is what makes Paul’s saying “Pray without ceasing” realistic.
Striving to have a constant mindfulness of Yah from the moment we wake up to the moments we drift asleep is a great way to get closer to Him and serve Him better. Still, mindfulness is not enough, and we must commit ourselves to more focused prayer multiple times every day. Such prayer is best done in isolation, separated from technology and distractions.
When you pray, enter into your closet, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father in secret; and your Father that sees in secret will reward you openly (Matt 6:6)
I used to be someone who prayed entirely in my mind. This is most suitable when in public, but when we are in private I think it is good to use our voices. Such isolated and vocal prayer is very powerful.
Death and life are in the power of the tongue: And they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. (Prov 18:21)
When we sleep, we are very close to the spiritual realm. Furthermore, one of the most important times to pray is just before we decide to sleep. Naturally, we are tired before going to sleep, so it can be tempting to be a bit lazy in focused vocal prayer. I have made this mistake before, and noticed that when I do, I am more likely to be attacked in dreams, or wake up feeling doubtful and discouraged. We should strive to pray with great focus and faith as much as possible, but especially before sleeping.
Watch and pray, that you enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matt 26:41)
Pray for other people, especially those who are seeking to walk the Righteous path and are under heavy spiritual warfare. But do not forget to pray for yourself. There is nothing bad about praying for yourself, so long as your prayer is rooted in being a better servant to Yah. When our prayer and focus is rooted in becoming more Righteous and obedient to Yah, He will give us everything we need.
But seek first the kingdom of Yah, and His righteousness; and all these things will be added to you (Matt 6:33)
You ask, and receive not, because you ask amiss, that you may consume it on your lusts. (James 4:3)
Remember, Yah will give us anything we ask for if it aligns to His will. Still, we must be willing to take the steps forward ourselves. Yah will create opportunities and open the door for us, but it is our job to have the faith to leave our comfort zones, walk forward through the open door, and fulfill our prayers.
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Luke 11:9)
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Prayer is so important and powerful. There are ascending levels of prayer. We can pray while walking up the street, sitting in a crowded room, or even while watching a movie. The baseline level of prayer is simply to have Yah on our minds, acknowledge His ever-presence, meditate on His Word and the Good that He does for us daily. Focusing on having this constant mindfulness of Yah is what makes Paul’s saying “Pray without ceasing” realistic.
Striving to have a constant mindfulness of Yah from the moment we wake up to the moments we drift asleep is a great way to get closer to Him and serve Him better. Still, mindfulness is not enough, and we must commit ourselves to more focused prayer multiple times every day. Such prayer is best done in isolation, separated from technology and distractions.
When you pray, enter into your closet, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father in secret; and your Father that sees in secret will reward you openly (Matt 6:6)
I used to be someone who prayed entirely in my mind. This is most suitable when in public, but when we are in private I think it is good to use our voices. Such isolated and vocal prayer is very powerful.
Death and life are in the power of the tongue: And they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. (Prov 18:21)
When we sleep, we are very close to the spiritual realm. Furthermore, one of the most important times to pray is just before we decide to sleep. Naturally, we are tired before going to sleep, so it can be tempting to be a bit lazy in focused vocal prayer. I have made this mistake before, and noticed that when I do, I am more likely to be attacked in dreams, or wake up feeling doubtful and discouraged. We should strive to pray with great focus and faith as much as possible, but especially before sleeping.
Watch and pray, that you enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matt 26:41)
Pray for other people, especially those who are seeking to walk the Righteous path and are under heavy spiritual warfare. But do not forget to pray for yourself. There is nothing bad about praying for yourself, so long as your prayer is rooted in being a better servant to Yah. When our prayer and focus is rooted in becoming more Righteous and obedient to Yah, He will give us everything we need.
But seek first the kingdom of Yah, and His righteousness; and all these things will be added to you (Matt 6:33)
You ask, and receive not, because you ask amiss, that you may consume it on your lusts. (James 4:3)
Remember, Yah will give us anything we ask for if it aligns to His will. Still, we must be willing to take the steps forward ourselves. Yah will create opportunities and open the door for us, but it is our job to have the faith to leave our comfort zones, walk forward through the open door, and fulfill our prayers.
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Luke 11:9)
2023.06.03 01:05 ShadowTerri Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy??
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2023.06.03 01:05 Brief-Food4643 Sharing playlists for non-subscribers/spotify users?
Hello,
I would like to make a playlist and share it with a girl. I believe there is a free tier where they can listen to music with ads, no background listening, etc. So I'm thinking that should work. However, is there a better way if she has Spotify? Not sure if I can convert the playlist to spotify if I have the free version of Spotify, etc. Just wondering what would work best here. Thanks.
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I would like to make a playlist and share it with a girl. I believe there is a free tier where they can listen to music with ads, no background listening, etc. So I'm thinking that should work. However, is there a better way if she has Spotify? Not sure if I can convert the playlist to spotify if I have the free version of Spotify, etc. Just wondering what would work best here. Thanks.
2023.06.03 01:05 Diligent-Tie-5500 There Are Levels To Prayer. Focused Faith.
And this is the confidence that we have in Him, that, if we ask any thing according to His will, He hears us: And if we know that He hears us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of Him. (1 John 5:14-15)
Prayer is so important and powerful. There are ascending levels of prayer. We can pray while walking up the street, sitting in a crowded room, or even while watching a movie. The baseline level of prayer is simply to have Yah on our minds, acknowledge His ever-presence, meditate on His Word and the Good that He does for us daily. Focusing on having this constant mindfulness of Yah is what makes Paul’s saying “Pray without ceasing” realistic.
Striving to have a constant mindfulness of Yah from the moment we wake up to the moments we drift asleep is a great way to get closer to Him and serve Him better. Still, mindfulness is not enough, and we must commit ourselves to more focused prayer multiple times every day. Such prayer is best done in isolation, separated from technology and distractions.
When you pray, enter into your closet, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father in secret; and your Father that sees in secret will reward you openly (Matt 6:6)
I used to be someone who prayed entirely in my mind. This is most suitable when in public, but when we are in private I think it is good to use our voices. Such isolated and vocal prayer is very powerful.
Death and life are in the power of the tongue: And they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. (Prov 18:21)
When we sleep, we are very close to the spiritual realm. Furthermore, one of the most important times to pray is just before we decide to sleep. Naturally, we are tired before going to sleep, so it can be tempting to be a bit lazy in focused vocal prayer. I have made this mistake before, and noticed that when I do, I am more likely to be attacked in dreams, or wake up feeling doubtful and discouraged. We should strive to pray with great focus and faith as much as possible, but especially before sleeping.
Watch and pray, that you enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matt 26:41)
Pray for other people, especially those who are seeking to walk the Righteous path and are under heavy spiritual warfare. But do not forget to pray for yourself. There is nothing bad about praying for yourself, so long as your prayer is rooted in being a better servant to Yah. When our prayer and focus is rooted in becoming more Righteous and obedient to Yah, He will give us everything we need.
But seek first the kingdom of Yah, and His righteousness; and all these things will be added to you (Matt 6:33)
You ask, and receive not, because you ask amiss, that you may consume it on your lusts. (James 4:3)
Remember, Yah will give us anything we ask for if it aligns to His will. Still, we must be willing to take the steps forward ourselves. Yah will create opportunities and open the door for us, but it is our job to have the faith to leave our comfort zones, walk forward through the open door, and fulfill our prayers.
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Luke 11:9)
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Prayer is so important and powerful. There are ascending levels of prayer. We can pray while walking up the street, sitting in a crowded room, or even while watching a movie. The baseline level of prayer is simply to have Yah on our minds, acknowledge His ever-presence, meditate on His Word and the Good that He does for us daily. Focusing on having this constant mindfulness of Yah is what makes Paul’s saying “Pray without ceasing” realistic.
Striving to have a constant mindfulness of Yah from the moment we wake up to the moments we drift asleep is a great way to get closer to Him and serve Him better. Still, mindfulness is not enough, and we must commit ourselves to more focused prayer multiple times every day. Such prayer is best done in isolation, separated from technology and distractions.
When you pray, enter into your closet, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father in secret; and your Father that sees in secret will reward you openly (Matt 6:6)
I used to be someone who prayed entirely in my mind. This is most suitable when in public, but when we are in private I think it is good to use our voices. Such isolated and vocal prayer is very powerful.
Death and life are in the power of the tongue: And they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. (Prov 18:21)
When we sleep, we are very close to the spiritual realm. Furthermore, one of the most important times to pray is just before we decide to sleep. Naturally, we are tired before going to sleep, so it can be tempting to be a bit lazy in focused vocal prayer. I have made this mistake before, and noticed that when I do, I am more likely to be attacked in dreams, or wake up feeling doubtful and discouraged. We should strive to pray with great focus and faith as much as possible, but especially before sleeping.
Watch and pray, that you enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matt 26:41)
Pray for other people, especially those who are seeking to walk the Righteous path and are under heavy spiritual warfare. But do not forget to pray for yourself. There is nothing bad about praying for yourself, so long as your prayer is rooted in being a better servant to Yah. When our prayer and focus is rooted in becoming more Righteous and obedient to Yah, He will give us everything we need.
But seek first the kingdom of Yah, and His righteousness; and all these things will be added to you (Matt 6:33)
You ask, and receive not, because you ask amiss, that you may consume it on your lusts. (James 4:3)
Remember, Yah will give us anything we ask for if it aligns to His will. Still, we must be willing to take the steps forward ourselves. Yah will create opportunities and open the door for us, but it is our job to have the faith to leave our comfort zones, walk forward through the open door, and fulfill our prayers.
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Luke 11:9)
2023.06.03 01:05 venus_flytraps *9 Months Later* Trend
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2023.06.03 01:05 Diligent-Tie-5500 There Are Levels To Prayer. Focused Faith.
And this is the confidence that we have in Him, that, if we ask any thing according to His will, He hears us: And if we know that He hears us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of Him. (1 John 5:14-15)
Prayer is so important and powerful. There are ascending levels of prayer. We can pray while walking up the street, sitting in a crowded room, or even while watching a movie. The baseline level of prayer is simply to have Yah on our minds, acknowledge His ever-presence, meditate on His Word and the Good that He does for us daily. Focusing on having this constant mindfulness of Yah is what makes Paul’s saying “Pray without ceasing” realistic.
Striving to have a constant mindfulness of Yah from the moment we wake up to the moments we drift asleep is a great way to get closer to Him and serve Him better. Still, mindfulness is not enough, and we must commit ourselves to more focused prayer multiple times every day. Such prayer is best done in isolation, separated from technology and distractions.
When you pray, enter into your closet, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father in secret; and your Father that sees in secret will reward you openly (Matt 6:6)
I used to be someone who prayed entirely in my mind. This is most suitable when in public, but when we are in private I think it is good to use our voices. Such isolated and vocal prayer is very powerful.
Death and life are in the power of the tongue: And they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. (Prov 18:21)
When we sleep, we are very close to the spiritual realm. Furthermore, one of the most important times to pray is just before we decide to sleep. Naturally, we are tired before going to sleep, so it can be tempting to be a bit lazy in focused vocal prayer. I have made this mistake before, and noticed that when I do, I am more likely to be attacked in dreams, or wake up feeling doubtful and discouraged. We should strive to pray with great focus and faith as much as possible, but especially before sleeping.
Watch and pray, that you enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matt 26:41)
Pray for other people, especially those who are seeking to walk the Righteous path and are under heavy spiritual warfare. But do not forget to pray for yourself. There is nothing bad about praying for yourself, so long as your prayer is rooted in being a better servant to Yah. When our prayer and focus is rooted in becoming more Righteous and obedient to Yah, He will give us everything we need.
But seek first the kingdom of Yah, and His righteousness; and all these things will be added to you (Matt 6:33)
You ask, and receive not, because you ask amiss, that you may consume it on your lusts. (James 4:3)
Remember, Yah will give us anything we ask for if it aligns to His will. Still, we must be willing to take the steps forward ourselves. Yah will create opportunities and open the door for us, but it is our job to have the faith to leave our comfort zones, walk forward through the open door, and fulfill our prayers.
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Luke 11:9)
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Prayer is so important and powerful. There are ascending levels of prayer. We can pray while walking up the street, sitting in a crowded room, or even while watching a movie. The baseline level of prayer is simply to have Yah on our minds, acknowledge His ever-presence, meditate on His Word and the Good that He does for us daily. Focusing on having this constant mindfulness of Yah is what makes Paul’s saying “Pray without ceasing” realistic.
Striving to have a constant mindfulness of Yah from the moment we wake up to the moments we drift asleep is a great way to get closer to Him and serve Him better. Still, mindfulness is not enough, and we must commit ourselves to more focused prayer multiple times every day. Such prayer is best done in isolation, separated from technology and distractions.
When you pray, enter into your closet, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father in secret; and your Father that sees in secret will reward you openly (Matt 6:6)
I used to be someone who prayed entirely in my mind. This is most suitable when in public, but when we are in private I think it is good to use our voices. Such isolated and vocal prayer is very powerful.
Death and life are in the power of the tongue: And they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. (Prov 18:21)
When we sleep, we are very close to the spiritual realm. Furthermore, one of the most important times to pray is just before we decide to sleep. Naturally, we are tired before going to sleep, so it can be tempting to be a bit lazy in focused vocal prayer. I have made this mistake before, and noticed that when I do, I am more likely to be attacked in dreams, or wake up feeling doubtful and discouraged. We should strive to pray with great focus and faith as much as possible, but especially before sleeping.
Watch and pray, that you enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matt 26:41)
Pray for other people, especially those who are seeking to walk the Righteous path and are under heavy spiritual warfare. But do not forget to pray for yourself. There is nothing bad about praying for yourself, so long as your prayer is rooted in being a better servant to Yah. When our prayer and focus is rooted in becoming more Righteous and obedient to Yah, He will give us everything we need.
But seek first the kingdom of Yah, and His righteousness; and all these things will be added to you (Matt 6:33)
You ask, and receive not, because you ask amiss, that you may consume it on your lusts. (James 4:3)
Remember, Yah will give us anything we ask for if it aligns to His will. Still, we must be willing to take the steps forward ourselves. Yah will create opportunities and open the door for us, but it is our job to have the faith to leave our comfort zones, walk forward through the open door, and fulfill our prayers.
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Luke 11:9)