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Close to the Sun
Worms Rumble + Worms Rumble - Legends Pack
The Slater
Styx: Shards of Darkness
Hellpoint
Sid Meier's Pirates!
Beyond the Wire
WARSAW
Plane Mechanic Simulator
Motorcycle Mechanic Simulator 2021
Construction Simulator 2015
Sid Meier's Civilization: Beyond Earth
Pure Farming 2018 - Deluxe Edition
Farmer's Dynasty
West of Dead
Relicta
KEO
Shadwen
Lacuna: A Sci-Fi Noir Adventure
Rebel Galaxy Outlaw
Warhammer: End Times - Vermintide
XCOM: Chimera Squad
Dark Devotion
Pizza Connection 2
Red Solstice 2: Survivors
Jurassic World Evolution
Iron Harvest
Call of Juarez: Bound in Blood
John Wick Hex
Duke Nukem Forever
Sacred 2 - Gold Edition
Killsquad
S.T.A.L.K.E.R.: Shadow of Chernobyl
Iron Danger
Cities: Skylines
Rogue Heroes: Ruins of Tasos
Elderborn
Warhammer 40,000: Gladius - Relics of War
Chicken Police: Paint It RED!
Total Tank Simulator
ATOM RPG Trudograd
In Sound Mind
Dead Island Riptide Definitive Edition
Middle-Earth: Shadow of Mordor
Seven: The Days Long Gone
Victoria II
Panzer Paladin
Black Book
Tyranny (Deluxe Edition)
Sundered (Eldritch Edition)
Die Young
Ghostbusters: The Video Game Remastered
Outcast - Second Contact
Automobilista
Dishonored Definitive Edition
Gauntlet
DESOLATE
The Bard's Tale IV: Director's Cut
Grow: Song of the Evertree
AO Tennis 2
Gamedec
7 Days to Die
Overpass
ECHO
Breathedge
TransOcean: The Shipping Company
WRC 8 FIA World Rally Championship
NASCAR Heat 5 Ultimate Edition
GreedFall
BioShock: The Collection (EU)
Siege Survival: Gloria Victis
Baldur's Gate II: Enhanced Edition
Road 96
LEGO The Incredibles
Monkey Island: Special Edition Bundle
Aliens: Fireteam Elite
Dead Island Definitive Collection
Resident Evil 3
Monster Prom 2: Monster Camp
Hot Wheels Unleashed
Daymare: 1998
Fallout: New Vegas
Lego Batman 2: DC Super Heroes
Bendy and the Dark Revival
Spiritfarer: Farewell Edition
Gravel
LEGO Jurassic World
LEGO: Marvel Super Heroes
Metal Gear Solid V - The Definitive Experience
DOOM (2016)
Truck Mechanic Simulator 2015
Jagged Alliance: Rage!
Get Even
WWE 2K Battlegrounds + Ultimate Brawlers Pass DLC
In Other Waters
Between the Stars
Command & Conquer Remastered Collection (ORIGIN)
Spellcaster University
Genesis Noir
EMBR
STAR WARS: Squadrons (ORIGIN)
Phoenix Point: Year One Edition
Call of the Sea
SUPERHOT: MIND CONTROL DELETE
Legend of Keepers: Career of a Dungeon Manager
Yes, Your Grace
Gas Station Simulator
In Sound Mind
Mind Scanners
Omno
Forgive Me Father
INDUSTRIA
Shapez + Shapez - Puzzle DLC
Epic Chef
Railroad Corporation (EU)
Golf Gang
Shadow Tactics: Aiko's Choice
UnMetal
Raji: An Ancient Epic
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes
Wasteland 3
First Class Trouble
Backbone
Where the Water Tastes Like Wine
Blade Assault
Super Magbot
Encased: A Sci-Fi Post-Apocalyptic RPG
OlliOlli World - Rad Edition (EU)
Conan Chop Chop
Hokko Life
The Serpent Rogue
Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous
Fallout: A Post Nuclear Role Playing Game
Thronebreaker: The Witcher Tales
Shady Part of Me
Scourgebringer
Fobia - St. Dinfna Hotel
Five Dates
BIOMUTANT
Edge Of Eternity
Hero's Hour
Rogue Lords
Demon Turf
Golden Light
Monster Crown
Rollerdrome (EU)
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante
Revita
Founders' Fortune
Operation: Tango
Windjammers 2
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery
The Invisible Hand
Two Point Hospital (EU)
Yakuza 0 (EU)
Metro Last Light Redux (EU)
Shadow Warrior
Ember
Golf With Your Friends
Deus Ex: Human Revolution Director's Cut
Space Hulk: Deathwing Enhanced Edition
Deep Rock Galactic
Ridge Racer™ Unbounded Bundle
Company of Heroes
Company of Heroes: Opposing Fronts
Flockers
Sheltered
Aven Colony
Ageless
The Escapists + 3 DLCs
Worms Rumble + 4 DLCs
The Walking Dead + 400 Days
The Walking Dead: Season Two
The Walking Dead: Michonne - A Telltale Miniseries
The Walking Dead: A New Frontier
One Finger Death Punch 2
Slap City
How to Survive 2
Dead in Vinland
The Wild Eight
Knights of Pen & Paper 2
Miscreated
Lead and Gold: Gangs of the Wild West
GRIP: Combat Racing + 4 DLCs
We Were Here Together
Kyle is Famous: Complete Edition
LEGO Batman 3: Beyond Gotham
Talisman: Digital Edition + 3 DLCs
The Amazing American Circus
White Day: A Labyrinth Named School
White Day VR: The Courage Test
The Painscreek Killings
Magicka
Dungeon of the ENDLESS
Brothers: A Tale of Two Sons
Peppy's Adventure
Red Faction: Armageddon
Hamilton's Great Adventure
Heat Signature
Styx: Shards of Darkness
Aragami
Sid Meier’s Civilization VI + 2 DLCs (EU)
Sid Meier's Starships
Sid Meier's Ace Patrol: Pacific Skies
Sid Meier's Ace Patrol
Sid Meier's Colonization (Classic)
Sid Meier's Covert Action (Classic)
DRIFT21
Supraland
Popup Dungeon
Wandersong
Expeditions: Viking
Vagante
Brothers: A Tale of Two Sons
Radio Commander
SUPERHOT
Kingdom Two Crowns
Tooth and Tail
Dear Esther: Landmark Edition
Fury Unleashed
Out of Reach: Treasure Royale
Slinger VR
EarthX
Telefrag VR
Say No! More
We Are Alright
Going Under
Broken Age
XCOM 2
Ticket to Ride
Farming Simulator 17
System Shock Enhanced Edition
System Shock 2
Worms Rumble
911 Operator
112 Operator
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack
Zombie Driver HD
Space Crew: Legendary Edition
Lust from Beyond - M Edition
Stygian: Reign of the Old Ones
Firegirl
XEL
Little Orpheus
Detached: Non-VR Edition
The Inner World
Soulblight
MirrorMoon EP
Cris Tales
Accident
SimAirport
Super Meat Boy Forever
Pine
Bartlow's Dread Machine
Stories Untold
RAD
Super Meat Boy
Saturday Morning RPG
Sudden Strike 4
Railway Empire
Spacebase Startopia
Dungeons 2
Dungeons 3
Commandos: Behind Enemy Lines
Commandos 2 - HD Remaster
Parkasaurus
Orcs Must Die! 2 - Complete
Plebby Quest: The Crusades
Ember
Field of Glory: Empires
Strider
Bionic Commando
The LEGO Movie - Videogame
LEGO Ninjago Movie Video Game
The Technomancer
The Surge
Hood: Outlaws & Legends
Adventure Time: Pirates of the Enchiridion
TRANSFORMERS: BATTLEGROUNDS
DreamWorks Dragons: Dawn of New Riders
My Friend Peppa Pig
JUMANJI: The Video Game
Paw Patrol: On A Roll!
Drone Swarm
Resident Evil 6 (EU)
Intruder
Brigador Deluxe Edition
Perfect Heist 2
The Almost Gone
X-COM: COMPLETE PACK
XCOM: ULTIMATE COLLECTION
Railroad Tycoon 3
Railroad Tycoon II Platinum
Sid Meier's Railroads!
Duke Nukem Forever Collection
WWE 2K Battlegrounds + Ultimate Brawlers Pass
CivCity: Rome
The Golf Club 2019 featuring PGA TOUR
Sid Meier's Civilization VI
STAR WARS - Knights of the Old Republic
STAR WARS Jedi Knight - Jedi Academy
STAR WARS Jedi Knight II - Jedi Outcast
STAR WARS Knights of the Old Republic II - The Sith Lords
Full Throttle Remastered
Grim Fandango Remastered
Pinball FX3 - Star Wars Pinball: The Last Jedi
Guts and Glory
Let Them Come
Cardpocalypse
Wintermoor Tactics Club
Hitchhiker - A Mystery Game
Totally Reliable Delivery Service
Mayhem in Single Valley
Hand of Merlin
Viking: Battle For Asgard
Medieval: Total War Collection
Total War: Shogun 2 + Rise of the Samurai DLC
Planescape: Torment Enhanced Edition
Icewind Dale: Enhanced Edition
Serin Fate
Kitaria Fables
Forager
Stranded Sails - Explorers of the Cursed Islands
Len's Island
Spirit of the Island
Yonder: The Cloud Catcher Chronicles
Lake
Winkeltje: The Little Shop
Summer in Mara
Luna's Fishing Garden
Townscaper
Supraland Six Inches Under
PowerSlave Exhumed
Prehistoric Kingdom
The Long Dark: Survival Edition
Volcanoids
SurrounDead
Starsand
Euro Fishing + 3 DLCs
Fishing Sim World: Pro Tour + 6 DLCs
Bassmaster Fishing 2022 + 9 DLCs
The Catch: Carp & Coarse + 2 DLCs
Praey for the Gods
Hellblade: Senua's Sacrifice
Batora: Lost Haven
Sable
Dreamscaper
Call of the Sea
Labyrinthine
The Blackout Club
Them and Us
Nickelodeon All-Star Brawl
Cobra Kai: The Karate Kid Saga Continues
My Little Pony: A Maretime Bay Adventure
Ben 10: Power Trip
PAW Patrol the Movie: Adventure City Calls
Nickelodeon Kart Racers 2: Grand Prix
Little League World Series Baseball 2022
Gigantosaurus The Game
Fast & Furious: Spy Racers Rise of SH1FT3R
Killing Floor 2 Digital Deluxe Edition
The Anacrusis
Zombie Army Trilogy
Back 4 Blood (EU)
Borderlands 3 Super Deluxe Edition (EU)

Daily Modifiers

Vanguard

• Arc Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Arc damage.
• Void Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Void damage.
• Stasis Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Stasis damage.
• Void Threat: 25% increase to incoming Void damage.
• Power Level Disabled: Combatant difficulty is set at a fixed level.
• Lightning Crystals: Arc and Stasis abilities recharge faster, but you receive more damage from both elements.

Dares of Eternity

• MA-75 Multipurpose: Guardians deal increased damage with Auto Rifles and Grenade Launchers.

Salvage

• Void Threat: 25% increase to incoming Void damage.
• Arc Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Arc damage.
• Void Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Void damage.
• Stasis Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Stasis damage.

Deep Dives

• Deep Dive Rules: Successfully complete as many randomly chosen timed encounters as you can before being caught by the foes hunting you! Reach the sea floor to turn the tables, turning the hunters into the hunted! Power Level: Player Power levels are fixed. Each depth activates a new modifier for the remainder of the activity and increases all combatant Power levels over player Power levels. Asha's Gifts: Choose one of two random gifts from Asha at each depth to enhance yourself for the remainder of the activity before taking on the Darkness. Wrathful Predator: Final blows on these unique combatants will reward your fireteam additional time on the objective timer. Rewards: Victory at each depth increases the rewards and challenges of the next. Opt in with your entire fireteam to trigger Pressure Trial versions of activities for even greater rewards!
• Join In Progress Disabled: Your fireteam cannot be joined while in an activity. Return to orbit to add fireteam members.
• Classified: Keep it secret. Keep it safe.
• Blasts: Combatant splash damage is increased. Activates at the Midnight Depth.

Seasonal

Legend/Master Lost Sector

Exotic armor drop (if solo): Helmet

K1 Logistics: Legend

• Legend Difficulty: Locked Equipment, Extra Shields
• Champions: [Shield-Piercing] Barrier, [Disruption] Overload
• Threat: [Void] Void
• Shields: [Arc] Arc, [Solar] Solar
• Modifiers: Hot Knife

K1 Logistics: Master

• Legend Difficulty: Locked Equipment, Extra Shields
• Champions: [Shield-Piercing] Barrier, [Disruption] Overload
• Threat: [Void] Void
• Shields: [Arc] Arc, [Solar] Solar
• Modifiers: Hot Knife

Neomuna

Terminal Overload: Ahimsa Park

• Weapon: Basso Ostinato (Shotgun)

Misc

• The Wellspring: Attack Weapon: Come to Pass (Auto Rifle)
• Altars of Sorrow Weapon: Apostate (Sniper Rifle)

Guns & Materials

Banshee's Featured Weapons

Name	Type	Column 1	Column 2	Column 3	Column 4
Chroma Rush	Kinetic Auto Rifle	Extended Barrel // Smallbore	Alloy Magazine // Flared Magwell	Feeding Frenzy	Wellspring
Nezarec's Whisper	Energy Glaive	Supercooled Accelerator // Low-Impedance Windings	Appended Mag // Swap Mag	Tilting at Windmills	Adaptive Munitions
Cantata-57	Energy Hand Cannon	Arrowhead Brake // Fluted Barrel	Accurized Rounds // Tactical Mag	Rapid Hit	Rangefinder
Threaded Needle	Heavy Linear Fusion Rifle	Fluted Barrel // Full Bore	Particle Repeater // Projection Fuse	Rangefinder	Thresh
Tears of Contrition	Kinetic Scout Rifle	Corkscrew Rifling // Full Bore	Alloy Magazine // Flared Magwell	No Distractions	Opening Shot

Perks re-roll at midnight UTC, so check his inventory twice per day!
Note: Fixed perks on weapons are not displayed

Master Rahool's Material Exchange

• Purchase Glimmer (10000 for 10 Legendary Shards)
• Purchase Glimmer (10000 for 10 Dark Fragment)
• Purchase Glimmer (10000 for 10 Phantasmal Fragment)
• Purchase Glimmer (10000 for 25 Herealways Piece)
• Enhancement Prism (1 for 10 Enhancement Core & 10000 Glimmer)
• Ascendant Shard (1 for 10 Enhancement Prism & 50000 Glimmer)

Bounties

Commander Zavala, Vanguard

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
Pride Before Destruction	Defeat powerful combatants. Defeating Champions grants additional progress.	10 Powerful combatants	XP+
Vanguardian	Defeat combatants while in Vanguard playlists.	50 Targets	XP+
The Inner Storm	Defeat combatants with Arc damage in Vanguard playlists.	25 [Arc] Arc	XP+
Finish Them	Defeat combatants with your finisher in Vanguard playlists.	5 Finisher	XP+

Lord Shaxx, Crucible

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
By the Code	Defeat opponents.	10 Opponents defeated	XP+
Void Sampler	Defeat opponents by weakening or suppressing them with Void.	6 [Void] Weakness and suppression	XP+
Into the Light	Defeat opponents using your Super.	1 Super	XP+
Cast Early, Cast Often	In Mayhem, cast your Super.	7 Supers	XP+

The Drifter, Gambit

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
All Right, All Right, All Right	Complete a Gambit match.	1 Gambit matches	XP+
Elite Executioner	Defeat challenging enemies in Gambit.	10 Challenging combatants	XP+
Blind Spot	Defeat Arc blinded targets in Gambit. Defeating Guardians grants more progress.	30 [Arc] Arc blind	XP+
Evanescent Emptiness	Defeat targets in Gambit by making them volatile with Void. Defeating Guardians grants more progress.	30 [Void] Void volatility	XP+

Banshee-44, Gunsmith

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
Auto Rifle Calibration	Calibrate Auto Rifles against any target. Earn bonus progress with precision final blows and against opposing Guardians.	100 [Auto Rifle] Auto Rifle	XP+ & Enhancement Core & Gunsmith Rank Progress
Hand Cannon Calibration	Calibrate Hand Cannons against any target. Earn bonus progress with precision and against opposing Guardians.	100 [Hand Cannon] Hand Cannon	XP+ & Enhancement Core & Gunsmith Rank Progress
Machine Gun Calibration	Calibrate Machine Guns against any target. Earn bonus progress against opposing Guardians and for additional targets defeated without reloading.	100 [Machine Gun] Machine Gun	XP+ & Enhancement Core & Gunsmith Rank Progress
Void Calibration	Calibrate Void weapons against any target. Earn bonus progress using Power weapons and against opposing Guardians.	100 [Void] Void weapon	XP+ & Enhancement Core & Gunsmith Rank Progress

Nimbus, Neomuna

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
Frozen in Motion	In Neomuna, defeat combatants affected by Stasis. Shadow Legion combatants grant additional progress.	60 [Stasis] Stasis	XP+ & 50 Neomuna Rank
Vexing Void	In Neomuna, defeat combatants with Void damage. Vex combatants grant additional progress.	60 [Void] Void	XP+ & 50 Neomuna Rank
Long-Term Dedication	In a single life, defeat combatants in Neomuna with Pulse Rifles, Bows, Trace Rifles, or Grenade Launchers.	20 Targets	XP+ & 50 Neomuna Rank
Terminal Rewards	Open chests after completing Terminal Overload.	3 Chests opened	1 Terminal Overload Key & 50 Neomuna Rank & XP+

Sonar Station, H.E.L.M.

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
Deep Storage	Open a Deep Dive Chest.	1 Deep Dive Chest opened	XP+
Kinetic Aquanaut	Defeat targets with weapons in the Kinetic slot. Defeated Guardians or combatants defeated in Salvage or Deep Dive award bonus progress.	100 Kinetic weapon	XP+
Precise Aquanaut	Defeat targets with precision final blows. Defeated Guardians or combatants defeated in Salvage or Deep Dive award bonus progress.	100 [Headshot] Precision	XP+
Fires in the Deep	Defeat targets with Solar or Strand damage. Melee abilities award bonus progress, as well as defeating Guardians or defeating combatants in Salvage or Deep Dive.	100 Progress	XP+

Daily Modifiers

Vanguard

• Arc Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Arc damage.
• Void Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Void damage.
• Stasis Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Stasis damage.
• Void Threat: 25% increase to incoming Void damage.
• Power Level Disabled: Combatant difficulty is set at a fixed level.
• Lightning Crystals: Arc and Stasis abilities recharge faster, but you receive more damage from both elements.

Dares of Eternity

• MA-75 Multipurpose: Guardians deal increased damage with Auto Rifles and Grenade Launchers.

Salvage

• Void Threat: 25% increase to incoming Void damage.
• Arc Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Arc damage.
• Void Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Void damage.
• Stasis Surge: 25% bonus to outgoing Stasis damage.

Deep Dives

• Deep Dive Rules: Successfully complete as many randomly chosen timed encounters as you can before being caught by the foes hunting you! Reach the sea floor to turn the tables, turning the hunters into the hunted! Power Level: Player Power levels are fixed. Each depth activates a new modifier for the remainder of the activity and increases all combatant Power levels over player Power levels. Asha's Gifts: Choose one of two random gifts from Asha at each depth to enhance yourself for the remainder of the activity before taking on the Darkness. Wrathful Predator: Final blows on these unique combatants will reward your fireteam additional time on the objective timer. Rewards: Victory at each depth increases the rewards and challenges of the next. Opt in with your entire fireteam to trigger Pressure Trial versions of activities for even greater rewards!
• Join In Progress Disabled: Your fireteam cannot be joined while in an activity. Return to orbit to add fireteam members.
• Classified: Keep it secret. Keep it safe.
• Blasts: Combatant splash damage is increased. Activates at the Midnight Depth.

Seasonal

Legend/Master Lost Sector

Exotic armor drop (if solo): Helmet

K1 Logistics: Legend

• Legend Difficulty: Locked Equipment, Extra Shields
• Champions: [Shield-Piercing] Barrier, [Disruption] Overload
• Threat: [Void] Void
• Shields: [Arc] Arc, [Solar] Solar
• Modifiers: Hot Knife

K1 Logistics: Master

• Legend Difficulty: Locked Equipment, Extra Shields
• Champions: [Shield-Piercing] Barrier, [Disruption] Overload
• Threat: [Void] Void
• Shields: [Arc] Arc, [Solar] Solar
• Modifiers: Hot Knife

Neomuna

Terminal Overload: Ahimsa Park

• Weapon: Basso Ostinato (Shotgun)

Misc

• The Wellspring: Attack Weapon: Come to Pass (Auto Rifle)
• Altars of Sorrow Weapon: Apostate (Sniper Rifle)

Guns & Materials

Banshee's Featured Weapons

Name	Type	Column 1	Column 2	Column 3	Column 4
Chroma Rush	Kinetic Auto Rifle	Extended Barrel // Smallbore	Alloy Magazine // Flared Magwell	Feeding Frenzy	Wellspring
Nezarec's Whisper	Energy Glaive	Supercooled Accelerator // Low-Impedance Windings	Appended Mag // Swap Mag	Tilting at Windmills	Adaptive Munitions
Cantata-57	Energy Hand Cannon	Arrowhead Brake // Fluted Barrel	Accurized Rounds // Tactical Mag	Rapid Hit	Rangefinder
Threaded Needle	Heavy Linear Fusion Rifle	Fluted Barrel // Full Bore	Particle Repeater // Projection Fuse	Rangefinder	Thresh
Tears of Contrition	Kinetic Scout Rifle	Corkscrew Rifling // Full Bore	Alloy Magazine // Flared Magwell	No Distractions	Opening Shot

Perks re-roll at midnight UTC, so check his inventory twice per day!
Note: Fixed perks on weapons are not displayed

Master Rahool's Material Exchange

• Purchase Glimmer (10000 for 10 Legendary Shards)
• Purchase Glimmer (10000 for 10 Dark Fragment)
• Purchase Glimmer (10000 for 10 Phantasmal Fragment)
• Purchase Glimmer (10000 for 25 Herealways Piece)
• Enhancement Prism (1 for 10 Enhancement Core & 10000 Glimmer)
• Ascendant Shard (1 for 10 Enhancement Prism & 50000 Glimmer)

Bounties

Commander Zavala, Vanguard

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
Pride Before Destruction	Defeat powerful combatants. Defeating Champions grants additional progress.	10 Powerful combatants	XP+
Vanguardian	Defeat combatants while in Vanguard playlists.	50 Targets	XP+
The Inner Storm	Defeat combatants with Arc damage in Vanguard playlists.	25 [Arc] Arc	XP+
Finish Them	Defeat combatants with your finisher in Vanguard playlists.	5 Finisher	XP+

Lord Shaxx, Crucible

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
By the Code	Defeat opponents.	10 Opponents defeated	XP+
Void Sampler	Defeat opponents by weakening or suppressing them with Void.	6 [Void] Weakness and suppression	XP+
Into the Light	Defeat opponents using your Super.	1 Super	XP+
Cast Early, Cast Often	In Mayhem, cast your Super.	7 Supers	XP+

The Drifter, Gambit

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
All Right, All Right, All Right	Complete a Gambit match.	1 Gambit matches	XP+
Elite Executioner	Defeat challenging enemies in Gambit.	10 Challenging combatants	XP+
Blind Spot	Defeat Arc blinded targets in Gambit. Defeating Guardians grants more progress.	30 [Arc] Arc blind	XP+
Evanescent Emptiness	Defeat targets in Gambit by making them volatile with Void. Defeating Guardians grants more progress.	30 [Void] Void volatility	XP+

Banshee-44, Gunsmith

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
Auto Rifle Calibration	Calibrate Auto Rifles against any target. Earn bonus progress with precision final blows and against opposing Guardians.	100 [Auto Rifle] Auto Rifle	XP+ & Enhancement Core & Gunsmith Rank Progress
Hand Cannon Calibration	Calibrate Hand Cannons against any target. Earn bonus progress with precision and against opposing Guardians.	100 [Hand Cannon] Hand Cannon	XP+ & Enhancement Core & Gunsmith Rank Progress
Machine Gun Calibration	Calibrate Machine Guns against any target. Earn bonus progress against opposing Guardians and for additional targets defeated without reloading.	100 [Machine Gun] Machine Gun	XP+ & Enhancement Core & Gunsmith Rank Progress
Void Calibration	Calibrate Void weapons against any target. Earn bonus progress using Power weapons and against opposing Guardians.	100 [Void] Void weapon	XP+ & Enhancement Core & Gunsmith Rank Progress

Nimbus, Neomuna

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
Frozen in Motion	In Neomuna, defeat combatants affected by Stasis. Shadow Legion combatants grant additional progress.	60 [Stasis] Stasis	XP+ & 50 Neomuna Rank
Vexing Void	In Neomuna, defeat combatants with Void damage. Vex combatants grant additional progress.	60 [Void] Void	XP+ & 50 Neomuna Rank
Long-Term Dedication	In a single life, defeat combatants in Neomuna with Pulse Rifles, Bows, Trace Rifles, or Grenade Launchers.	20 Targets	XP+ & 50 Neomuna Rank
Terminal Rewards	Open chests after completing Terminal Overload.	3 Chests opened	1 Terminal Overload Key & 50 Neomuna Rank & XP+

Sonar Station, H.E.L.M.

Name	Description	Requirement	Reward
Deep Storage	Open a Deep Dive Chest.	1 Deep Dive Chest opened	XP+
Kinetic Aquanaut	Defeat targets with weapons in the Kinetic slot. Defeated Guardians or combatants defeated in Salvage or Deep Dive award bonus progress.	100 Kinetic weapon	XP+
Precise Aquanaut	Defeat targets with precision final blows. Defeated Guardians or combatants defeated in Salvage or Deep Dive award bonus progress.	100 [Headshot] Precision	XP+
Fires in the Deep	Defeat targets with Solar or Strand damage. Melee abilities award bonus progress, as well as defeating Guardians or defeating combatants in Salvage or Deep Dive.	100 Progress	XP+

October 1519
As ever peace can become restless. After two years of peace from the Treaty of Novgorod, there has been seemingly little contact among the members of this treaty of eternal peace. Even between the allies of the Malbork pact, a cool stillness seems to have settled.
For Landmeister Wolter Von Plettenberg this did not sit well. Peace had been signed, and even families joined! Now all the royal families of these Kingdoms in the east had been joined, and yet a lingering malaise seemed to remain. To the Landmeister it felt less like peace and more like the tumultuous precursor to a terrible storm.
A remedy must be found! And the needs of the Menagerie at Riga provided just the opportunity in the mind of Von Plettenberg. As the year 1519 began to come to a close, Wolter Von Plettenberg would make both a proclamation to the Brothers of the Sword and seperatley dispatch letters to the Kings of the East.
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'To all Brothers of the Sword, Sergeants, and fine Hunters of Livonia! Glory and good cheer, for all, are invited to a hunt in the Spring of 1520 to display their skill, and celebrate the great peace of Novgorod! Landmeister Wolter Von Plettenberg is opening choice hunting grounds during this coming time for the capture, alive, of the following animals. Prizes shall be offered for those who capture these animals alive and unharmed, and greater prizes for those who are able to capture breeding pairs!!'
'Bison, boars, moose, lynxes, and wolves. Any man who is able to capture a living brown bear will be granted land in Ingria, and if a man is able to capture a breeding pair he shall be given a princely sum as well!'
'For the duration of the celebration restrictions on hunting on lands held by the brothers shall be relaxed so that all may prosper most generously! A certain portion will remain restricted so that the finest guests of the Brothers may ensure their own hunts, but all people are encouraged to otherwise enjoy the fruits of peace and prosperity!'
​
[M: Wolter Von Plettenberg is expending One Hundred thirty thousand Civilian Florins to prepare for a Grand Hunt in the Spring of 1520! Invitations are dispatched to the Kings of several Eastern and North-eastern realms to attend this grand affair. Ground will be reserved and prepared, men hired to ascertain the best lands on which to host this hunt, a grand camping ground will be constructed, and all preparations made so that daily feasting, hunting, and celebration may be partaken in! As well artists are hired and commissioned in preparation to create art of the coming event, as well as performers of all kinds! It will be a truly wondrous affair!]

I am working some things out on paper regarding my garden since the deer seem bound and determined to always destroy my grapes and strawberries despite having 3+ acres of excellent browse and fruit to choose from including an entire scuppernong arbor. I really need to suck it up & take my hunter safety course & learn to use a bow.
ANYWAY. I'm considering moving some of the productive gardening close to the house & fencing it off with two 4' fences about 5' apart.
1) Will I need to build two gates (one in each fenceline) in order to maintain the barrier? Surely the answer is "yes" but I'm crossing my Ts and dotting my Is here.
2) Does it matter what the two fences are made of? Would it be reasonable to have a welded wire fence and then a 4 or 5 strand high tensile wire fence for the other? Or should they "match"?
3) does anyone have advice for installing a double fence against deer in hilly or mountainous terrain? The area I'm looking to use drops off steeply at the back towards our pond & it most closely resembles Appalachian foothills or mountains in terms of steepness, tree root density, & rocks.

My boyfriend is white, I am Black. My parents do not support this at all, especially my mom, who refuses to ever speak to him solely for the reason that he is white. My dad is a little less militant about it, but he recently told me that you'll "find somebody that looks like you" eventually, so he doesn't take it seriously either.
I already met my boyfriend's family when they came to town for his graduation from university, and they were really nice to and supportive of me and our relationship. My boyfriend said he really wanted to meet my parents, and I basically told him that he couldn't: not because I don't want him to if he wants to (even though I honestly don't if this is the way they -- two adults -- are choosing to behave), but because (my mom at least) outright refuses to ever meet or speak to him. I just don't think it's going to happen. I tried to tell my mom that it was getting serious and he wants to at least speak with her, but she said she doesn't even want to see a picture of him and she doesn't have to do anything she doesn't want to do, which includes meeting him.
How do I get around this? I honestly don't want to introduce them because it's obviously such and offensive chore to say "hello" to your daughter's boyfriend to whom they're engaged (forgot to mention this). My mom has always made it clear to me that she would never accept my partner unless they are Black -- preferably African American -- yet she raised me in a culturally white area and so I grew up surrounded with white people, and dating primarily white men. If I KNOW that she isn't going to change her mind, AITA for even asking her to meet him? I know her proclivities and I know that if I married him she probably wouldn't even attend the wedding, so why bother asking?

Hey everyone,
I will be traveling to RMNP in two weeks to do some hiking. I currently don't own nice base and mid-layers because most of the hiking I've done in my life has been in warmer weather, so there hasn't really been a need. I know it will be pretty cold still, especially at higher elevations (which we plan on doing at least one "bigger" day hike.
With that being said, I'm looking into getting at least one base and one mid layer for the trip. I'm not trying to break the bank, so anything over $200 is probably out of the question for me. These were the couple mid-layer jackets I had picked out on REI and wanted to see if I was in the right ballpark, or if anyone else had other suggestions.
https://www.rei.com/product/140125/patagonia-diamond-quilted-insulated-bomber-hoodie-mens?sku=1401250111
https://www.rei.com/product/154167/rei-co-op-650-down-jacket-20-mens?sku=1541670002
https://www.rei.com/product/210281/smartwool-smartloft-jacket-mens?sku=2102810002
https://www.rei.com/product/194122/fjallraven-abisko-trail-fleece-jacket-mens?sku=1941220007
Also need a few base layer options, was thinking I might just go with an REI brand base layer, maybe something like this:
https://www.rei.com/product/153824/rei-co-op-lightweight-base-layer-long-sleeve-crew-top-mens?color=TERRA%20FIRMA%20HEATHER
Let me know if anyone had any other ideas or suggestions, thanks!

Men, I’m thinking of going out tonight for a drink or two at a bar or pub alone. What’s the best way to get a guy’s attention if I find one I fancy. I’m really shy and normally just spend days at home but I’m trying to get out of the comfort zone.

Both are just as bad and similar. They were both design to keep people separate and people would be like "Black people would mug or rape you if you get too close to them". No different how people think trans men and women will hurt their kids or women. And yet, I bring those two up, I had people get angry at me and telling me that I'm stupid. I do feel like current America is a modern day Jim Crow for Trans people.

TW: sexual assault
About two weeks ago I (24F, almost 25) was sexually assaulted by someone I considered a trusted friend (27M).
Before the assault: We used to talk every day. He was always so sweet and caring towards me. For example, he was always really supportive when I would tell him about creepy men hitting on me at work. Also, one time I was talking the train home really late (known for lots of mugging and shootings in my area), and when I told him not to pick me up (he would've had to rent a car), he insisted on staying on the phone with me the entire time I was on the train and the entire walk home from the station. About a week before the assault we both confessed we had feelings for each other but agreed to stay friends. We were generally touchy (hugs, cuddling, piggyback rides) but had never kissed or been otherwise physically intimate.
During the assault: I'll spare the details, but basically I said no multiple times, and he kept escalating physically. We had both smoked weed, but I remember clearly telling him to stop, and him ignoring me and even restraining my hand when I tried to move his hand out of my pants. He didn't rape me, but I didn't even want him to kiss me let alone anything beyond that.
After the assault: At first I didn't really process that what he did was sexual assault, but the next morning I told him I was uncomfortable with the way things happened. He apologized and admitted he was in the wrong. At that time I said I still believed he cared about me and wanted to stay friends. Later that day I realized it was sexual assault and couldn't stop crying. I've experienced a range of emotions since then including sadness, indignance, disgust (at him, not myself), and emptiness. Not only did he physically violate my boundaries, but he also betrayed my trust. I haven't spoken to him at all since that day. I don't necessarily want to be friends with him right now, but I still get the urge to reach out to him, just to see if regrets what he did and if he feels pain from losing me. I also feel like there's such a noticeable hole in my life without him. I don't know if I miss him specifically or just the companionship and affection, but either way it hurts so much. The emptiness I feel may even be more painful to deal with than the assault itself. In general I have a wonderful and full life that I'm really grateful for, but I can't stop thinking about this.
In summary, someone I really trusted and cared about sexually assaulted me, and now I feel empty without him in my life. :(

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Chapter Thirteen - Bridge Over Swift Water (Part I)
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‘Almost there, Wil.’
The pony snorted, eyeing the bottom of the low hill distrustfully. Ren rolled his eyes.
‘Stop complaining.’ he told animal, patting his flank, and looked back over his shoulder. The emerald grass of the South Realm was laid out behind him in the midday sun like the face of a great green canvas, folding around gentle hills and low valleys, laced with brushes-strokes of silver water. Cottages, farmsteads, thickets full of ash and birch and oak. An endless (or so it seemed to Ren) collection of slow-moving, slow-talking life. They had been riding most of the morning; the farm was a long way behind them, and though the thought filled Ren with a giddy kind of excitement, even he had been hard-pressed to tell the dif-ference between it and the half-dozen other farmsteads they’d passed on their way. There was another rider coming his way across the grass, flicking sparkling dew into the air behind him. The sun was hot today, and Ren could see sweat gleaming on his forehead.
‘Come on, Trin!’
‘She’s going as fast as she can!’ Trin replied, panting. Beneath him, Pol snorted steam, grumbling. Ren smiled, turning back to the hill.
‘Let’s go, then.’ he said to Wil, tightening his grip on the saddle. He shook the reins and the pony snorted, lurching forward. Ren leaned into the slope, putting one hand on the pommel of his saddle, and the hill began to slide past him. The sun was warm against his cheeks, and Wil's hooves beat at the dirt, sinking softly into the turf. Halfway there. The pony began to slow, but Ren squeezed his heels gently against the beast's flanks, clicking his tongue.
‘Almost there.’
Ren closed his eyes for a moment, feeling the air streaming gently past his cheeks, listening to the rhythmic beat of the pony's breath, the drum of his hooves against the soft loam. He remembered, not for the first time that day, why he was so fond of riding.
Then they were there, and the sunlight burst over the hilltop, sweep-ing across the fields to the north, setting the pale line of the Swiftwater aflame as it streaked across the grass. Beyond, the grasslands tumbled on, interminable, towards the sea, or the edge of the world; whichever came first. Ren sat there, quietly, contemplating the world beyond the grasslands on his panting steed, until Trin pulled up beside him a few minutes later. Pol snorted irritably. She was a little smaller than Wil, a ruddy brown in colour, and rather plump around her flanks. Both she and her rider were panting alarmingly.
‘Well that's a sight.’ Trin murmured in spite of himself, breathing hard. Ren smiled, tracing the line of the Swiftwater from east to west, squinting into the brightness. There was a thick swathe of trees squat-ting against the far bank, dark and brooding.
‘There!’ he said suddenly.
‘What?’ Trin asked, confused.
Ren pointed. Directly north of them, there was a small building pressed against the south bank of the river, dipping its toes in the crys-tal waters. A trail of smoke rose from its roof, swept this way and that by the breeze, dissolving in the midday air. Beside it, a narrow stretch of stones bridged the frothing water, disappearing into the shadows of the trees on the far bank.
‘The mill?’ Trin frowned. ‘I thought you didn’t like Ted?’
But Ren barely heard him. His eyes were fixed on the river. How far was it? A mile? Two, more like. He lifted the reins expectantly. Not far. Just a short canter across the fields. They'd be back before dark, still, and his grandparents would be none the wiser.
‘Wait... You mean the bridge? Your grandfather said-’
‘Yah!’
Ren shouted suddenly, snapping his reins, and Wil lurched forward down the slope. For a moment the rush of air filled Ren's eyes with wa-ter, dissolving Trin's red face into a ruddy blur, then they were away. Wil whinnied happily, wind streaming through his pale mane, and Ren clung tight to the saddle, watching as the grass raced by, savouring the rush of the wind on his face, the tug of it in his hair. He snatched a glance back over his shoulder. Trin was hurrying after him worriedly, doing his best to coax Pol into a reluctant gallop as he clung, ungainly, to the saddle. Ren looked back at the river, the mill, the bridge, and de-cided his friend would be fine without him.
They were at the foot of the hill in moments, and Wil set about eat-ing up the fields in great hungry bounds, hooves whirring over the grass. He remembered his grandfather's lessons, and let himself move with the pony, sighing into the saddle. He listened to Wil's hot breath steaming into the autumn air, the solid thump of his heart vibrating through his back. Ren had always thought there was a deep calm in the rhythm of riding. The speed of it. He found himself smiling. The mill was not far now. He dare not look back over his shoulder again, lest he fall, but he knew Trin was somewhere behind him, struggling to keep pace. He was starting to make out the cottage ahead, leaning lopsidedly against its great wooden wheel, churning frothing, foaming water through spokes big as men. Couldn’t see anyone though. Not that it mattered. Wil's steps drummed against the ground, and the river drew closer. Closer. Until the mill was beside them. Behind. Ren barely looked up as they shot past it, bound for the bridge beyond.
‘Whoa.’
He pulled hard on Wil's reins. The beast dug in his hooves, and they skidded to a halt a few feet from the start of bridge-stones. The water whipped by, rumbling. It was suddenly, eerily quiet, without the sound of the wind in his ears. He listened breathlessly for a few moments, staring at the shadows of the trees on the far bank, then glanced back over his shoulder. Trin was still a fair distance away across the fields, swaying unsteadily in his perch. He never had been a great rider. Ren turned back to the wooded far bank, watching the leaves shifting in the breeze, shadows shifting through thick boughs. He slid slowly from the saddle, and his boots landed on the soil with a faint thud, wet earth squelching softly underfoot. Wil snorted quietly, and he put a hand on the pony's nose.
‘Stay, Wil.’
The river was foaming around the stones of the bridge, and a fine spray was floating over the walkway, shifting and turning like mist. Ren took a step. He looked over at the far bank, and hesitated in spite of himself. The trees were taller than he had thought, their shadows deeper. Darker. An open doorway. Licks of silver flame.
He shook himself. He was being foolish. He glanced back at Wil, but the pony was stood obediently where he had left him, looking back at him with large, dark eyes. One step. Then another. Just a few more. His boots left the grass, and the stones pressed against the balls of his feet, hard and unyielding. He felt the spray of the river against his cheek, ice cold, and he almost shivered, blinking at the mist. The shad-ed trees seemed to shift and blur, trunks twisting. Another step.
‘Hey!’ Trin shouted behind him. Ren started, but did not turn back. ‘Where are you going?’
Ren ignored him.
‘Ren!’ Trin called. ‘Come back!’
This time he looked back. Trin had dismounted, red-faced and breathing hard, waving at him franticly from the bank. He was standing as close to the bridge as he could, without touching the stones, and Ren knew he wouldn’t follow him.
‘Just having a look!’ he called back, turning away from his friend again. The spray parted around him as he stepped forward, peeling back the grey blur from the faces of the trees. They seemed stark and black in the sudden clarity, and shadows moved through the branches, twisting and turning in the breeze. He was past halfway, now. Just a few more steps.
‘Ren!’
Ren barely heard him. The word was swept away in the rumble of the river, the soft sigh of the wind over the trees, creaking. His feet were still moving, gliding, floating over the stone. The wind was pick-ing up, and the shadows quickened, whirling through webbed branches.
‘Ren!’
His feet touched the grass, and he drew up short, suddenly still. Fro-zen beyond the spray, staring into the boughs. It seemed to him that the shadows were taking shape, black faces leering back at him from the dark, grins flashing in the dappled sunlight. A black mask. Silver flames. Gold eyes. The fortuneteller’s tent closed in around him, press-ing at his shoulders, and he almost fled, but realised he couldn’t move. The shadows drew closer, grinning as they came, reaching out to him, and something knotted in his belly, something cold as ice. The nightglass pendant was heavy around his neck. His head ached. Eyes blurred. Were those lights, in the trees?
‘Boy?’
There was a hand on his shoulder, pulling him back. He flinched away from it, frowning. But something caught his heel, sending him sprawling, tumbling. Back into the dirt. He hit the ground hard, and the breath went out of him in a gasp. Faces in the trees. He shook his head, blinking. He was on his back, half-blind from the sudden gleam of sun, and there was a dark figure leaning over him, light flooding over his shoulders. He squinted, half-dazed, at the axe-head gleaming in the man’s hand, and froze. Then he spotted the stack of firewood under his other arm, and exhaled hard, rocking back on his elbows.
‘Temur's teeth boy!’ the man exclaimed. He was wearing a thick, worn tunic, stained brown from use, and his boots were caked with wet grass. ‘Jumpier than a rabbit in a wolf den.’
Ren took a deep breath. His heart was slowing. He looked up at the trees again, but the sun seemed a little brighter now, and the shadows were nowhere to be seen. He exhaled hard, hesitating, then squinted up at the newcomer, blinking into the sun.
‘Ted?’
‘Well, fuck me.’ the miller grumbled, laying the firewood down at his side and running a gloved hand through his red hair. A face of deep lines, belly more than a little rounded, hair shot through with grey. The scar across the side of his neck had always made Ren shiver; long and puckered, tugging at the corner of his throat like a fishing line. ‘Derin's boy. What you doing out here?’
‘I… We’re just out for a ride.’
‘Your Grandda know you’re so far from home, then?’ the old miller asked him, raising an eyebrow. ‘Come on, let's get you up.’
Ted held out a hand, and Ren took it, letting the older man help him to his feet.
‘When d’you get so big, boy.’ the miller told him, grunting with ef-fort. ‘Still running off, then?’
'Sometimes.' Ren admitted, more than a little bashfully.
‘Sometimes, he says.’ Ted mumbled through his grin, scar tugging at his throat. ‘You eaten? Werla’s got some stew on the boil.’
Ren hesitated, glancing at the trees again, then back at the miller. ‘I could eat.’
Ted chuckled. ‘Come on, then. Wouldn’t take no for an answer, an-yways.’
Ren nodded politely, looking back over the bridge. Trin was almost hopping with anxious energy on the far bank, but he hadn’t yet worked up the courage to set foot on the stones. Ted frowned at the red-faced youth as he reached down to pick up his bundle of firewood.
‘What's got him so excited?’
Ren shook his head. ‘No idea.’
Ted raised an eyebrow at Trin. ‘South Realmers.’ he muttered, in an accent thick as farmer’s milk, tucking the wood underneath his arm and setting off over the bridge. Ren shot one last nervous look back towards the trees behind them, then followed close behind.

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Chapter Thirteen - Bridge Over Swift Water (Part I)
‘Almost there, Wil.’
The pony snorted, eyeing the bottom of the low hill distrustfully. Ren rolled his eyes.
‘Stop complaining.’ he told animal, patting his flank, and looked back over his shoulder. The emerald grass of the South Realm was laid out behind him in the midday sun like the face of a great green canvas, folding around gentle hills and low valleys, laced with brushes-strokes of silver water. Cottages, farmsteads, thickets full of ash and birch and oak. An endless (or so it seemed to Ren) collection of slow-moving, slow-talking life. They had been riding most of the morning; the farm was a long way behind them, and though the thought filled Ren with a giddy kind of excitement, even he had been hard-pressed to tell the difference between it and the half-dozen other farmsteads they’d passed on their way. There was another rider coming his way across the grass, flicking sparkling dew into the air behind him. The sun was hot today, and Ren could see sweat gleaming on his forehead.
‘Come on, Trin!’
‘She’s going as fast as she can!’ Trin replied, panting. Beneath him, Pol snorted steam, grumbling. Ren smiled, turning back to the hill.
‘Let’s go, then.’ he said to Wil, tightening his grip on the saddle. He shook the reins and the pony snorted, lurching forward. Ren leaned into the slope, putting one hand on the pommel of his saddle, and the hill began to slide past him. The sun was warm against his cheeks, and Wil's hooves beat at the dirt, sinking softly into the turf. Halfway there. The pony began to slow, but Ren squeezed his heels gently against the beast's flanks, clicking his tongue.
‘Almost there.’
Ren closed his eyes for a moment, feeling the air streaming gently past his cheeks, listening to the rhythmic beat of the pony's breath, the drum of his hooves against the soft loam. He remembered, not for the first time that day, why he was so fond of riding.
Then they were there, and the sunlight burst over the hilltop, sweeping across the fields to the north, setting the pale line of the Swiftwater aflame as it streaked across the grass. Beyond, the grasslands tumbled on, interminable, towards the sea, or the edge of the world; whichever came first. Ren sat there, quietly, contemplating the world beyond the grasslands on his panting steed, until Trin pulled up beside him a few minutes later. Pol snorted irritably. She was a little smaller than Wil, a ruddy brown in colour, and rather plump around her flanks. Both she and her rider were panting alarmingly.
‘Well that's a sight.’ Trin murmured in spite of himself, breathing hard. Ren smiled, tracing the line of the Swiftwater from east to west, squinting into the brightness. There was a thick swathe of trees squatting against the far bank, dark and brooding.
‘There!’ he said suddenly.
‘What?’ Trin asked, confused.
Ren pointed. Directly north of them, there was a small building pressed against the south bank of the river, dipping its toes in the crystal waters. A trail of smoke rose from its roof, swept this way and that by the breeze, dissolving in the midday air. Beside it, a narrow stretch of stones bridged the frothing water, disappearing into the shadows of the trees on the far bank.
‘The mill?’ Trin frowned. ‘I thought you didn’t like Ted?’
But Ren barely heard him. His eyes were fixed on the river. How far was it? A mile? Two, more like. He lifted the reins expectantly. Not far. Just a short canter across the fields. They'd be back before dark, still, and his grandparents would be none the wiser.
‘Wait... You mean the bridge? Your grandfather said-’
‘Yah!’
Ren shouted suddenly, snapping his reins, and Wil lurched forward down the slope. For a moment the rush of air filled Ren's eyes with water, dissolving Trin's red face into a ruddy blur, then they were away. Wil whinnied happily, wind streaming through his pale mane, and Ren clung tight to the saddle, watching as the grass raced by, savouring the rush of the wind on his face, the tug of it in his hair. He snatched a glance back over his shoulder. Trin was hurrying after him worriedly, doing his best to coax Pol into a reluctant gallop as he clung, ungainly, to the saddle. Ren looked back at the river, the mill, the bridge, and decided his friend would be fine without him.
They were at the foot of the hill in moments, and Wil set about eating up the fields in great hungry bounds, hooves whirring over the grass. He remembered his grandfather's lessons, and let himself move with the pony, sighing into the saddle. He listened to Wil's hot breath steaming into the autumn air, the solid thump of his heart vibrating through his back. Ren had always thought there was a deep calm in the rhythm of riding. The speed of it. He found himself smiling. The mill was not far now. He dare not look back over his shoulder again, lest he fall, but he knew Trin was somewhere behind him, struggling to keep pace. He was starting to make out the cottage ahead, leaning lopsidedly against its great wooden wheel, churning frothing, foaming water through spokes big as men. Couldn’t see anyone though. Not that it mattered. Wil's steps drummed against the ground, and the river drew closer. Closer. Until the mill was beside them. Behind. Ren barely looked up as they shot past it, bound for the bridge beyond.
‘Whoa.’
He pulled hard on Wil's reins. The beast dug in his hooves, and they skidded to a halt a few feet from the start of bridge-stones. The water whipped by, rumbling. It was suddenly, eerily quiet, without the sound of the wind in his ears. He listened breathlessly for a few moments, staring at the shadows of the trees on the far bank, then glanced back over his shoulder. Trin was still a fair distance away across the fields, swaying unsteadily in his perch. He never had been a great rider. Ren turned back to the wooded far bank, watching the leaves shifting in the breeze, shadows shifting through thick boughs. He slid slowly from the saddle, and his boots landed on the soil with a faint thud, wet earth squelching softly underfoot. Wil snorted quietly, and he put a hand on the pony's nose.
‘Stay, Wil.’
The river was foaming around the stones of the bridge, and a fine spray was floating over the walkway, shifting and turning like mist. Ren took a step. He looked over at the far bank, and hesitated in spite of himself. The trees were taller than he had thought, their shadows deeper. Darker. An open doorway. Licks of silver flame.
He shook himself. He was being foolish. He glanced back at Wil, but the pony was stood obediently where he had left him, looking back at him with large, dark eyes. One step. Then another. Just a few more. His boots left the grass, and the stones pressed against the balls of his feet, hard and unyielding. He felt the spray of the river against his cheek, ice cold, and he almost shivered, blinking at the mist. The shaded trees seemed to shift and blur, trunks twisting. Another step.
‘Hey!’ Trin shouted behind him. Ren started, but did not turn back. ‘Where are you going?’
Ren ignored him.
‘Ren!’ Trin called. ‘Come back!’
This time he looked back. Trin had dismounted, red-faced and breathing hard, waving at him franticly from the bank. He was standing as close to the bridge as he could, without touching the stones, and Ren knew he wouldn’t follow him.
‘Just having a look!’ he called back, turning away from his friend again. The spray parted around him as he stepped forward, peeling back the grey blur from the faces of the trees. They seemed stark and black in the sudden clarity, and shadows moved through the branches, twisting and turning in the breeze. He was past halfway, now. Just a few more steps.
‘Ren!’
Ren barely heard him. The word was swept away in the rumble of the river, the soft sigh of the wind over the trees, creaking. His feet were still moving, gliding, floating over the stone. The wind was picking up, and the shadows quickened, whirling through webbed branches.
‘Ren!’
His feet touched the grass, and he drew up short, suddenly still. Frozen beyond the spray, staring into the boughs. It seemed to him that the shadows were taking shape, black faces leering back at him from the dark, grins flashing in the dappled sunlight. A black mask. Silver flames. Gold eyes. The fortuneteller’s tent closed in around him, pressing at his shoulders, and he almost fled, but realised he couldn’t move. The shadows drew closer, grinning as they came, reaching out to him, and something knotted in his belly, something cold as ice. The nightglass pendant was heavy around his neck. His head ached. Eyes blurred. Were those lights, in the trees?
‘Boy?’
There was a hand on his shoulder, pulling him back. He flinched away from it, frowning. But something caught his heel, sending him sprawling, tumbling. Back into the dirt. He hit the ground hard, and the breath went out of him in a gasp. Faces in the trees. He shook his head, blinking. He was on his back, half-blind from the sudden gleam of sun, and there was a dark figure leaning over him, light flooding over his shoulders. He squinted, half-dazed, at the axe-head gleaming in the man’s hand, and froze. Then he spotted the stack of firewood under his other arm, and exhaled hard, rocking back on his elbows.
‘Temur's teeth boy!’ the man exclaimed. He was wearing a thick, worn tunic, stained brown from use, and his boots were caked with wet grass. ‘Jumpier than a rabbit in a wolf den.’
Ren took a deep breath. His heart was slowing. He looked up at the trees again, but the sun seemed a little brighter now, and the shadows were nowhere to be seen. He exhaled hard, hesitating, then squinted up at the newcomer, blinking into the sun.
‘Ted?’
‘Well, fuck me.’ the miller grumbled, laying the firewood down at his side and running a gloved hand through his red hair. A face of deep lines, belly more than a little rounded, hair shot through with grey. The scar across the side of his neck had always made Ren shiver; long and puckered, tugging at the corner of his throat like a fishing line. ‘Derin's boy. What you doing out here?’
‘I… We’re just out for a ride.’
‘Your Grandda know you’re so far from home, then?’ the old miller asked him, raising an eyebrow. ‘Come on, let's get you up.’
Ted held out a hand, and Ren took it, letting the older man help him to his feet.
‘When d’you get so big, boy.’ the miller told him, grunting with effort. ‘Still running off, then?’
'Sometimes.' Ren admitted, more than a little bashfully.
‘Sometimes, he says.’ Ted mumbled through his grin, scar tugging at his throat. ‘You eaten? Werla’s got some stew on the boil.’
Ren hesitated, glancing at the trees again, then back at the miller. ‘I could eat.’
Ted chuckled. ‘Come on, then. Wouldn’t take no for an answer, anyways.’
Ren nodded politely, looking back over the bridge. Trin was almost hopping with anxious energy on the far bank, but he hadn’t yet worked up the courage to set foot on the stones. Ted frowned at the red-faced youth as he reached down to pick up his bundle of firewood.
‘What's got him so excited?’
Ren shook his head. ‘No idea.’
Ted raised an eyebrow at Trin. ‘South Realmers.’ he muttered, in an accent thick as farmer’s milk, tucking the wood underneath his arm and setting off over the bridge. Ren shot one last nervous look back towards the trees behind them, then followed close behind.

I've basically been dissecting my entire life over the past few years to figure out how the hell I ended up here. Every year, every decision, every relationship etc. One of the big realizations is about why my relationships haven't worked out, with one in particular standing out. We'll call her J.
When J and I met it was magical. It was probably a bit of limerence, but also a lot of rare genuine chemistry. We were both smart and funny people that came from broken homes and if you know what that's like, there's a level of connection there that's only possible when both of you "get it". I haven't met anyone else like her and I doubt I ever will.
Without going into too much detail, we had a very messy relationship. We met a few months before I was leaving the province for a year and there was a ton of turbulence over the next few years. I think I broke up and we got back together 5 times. But each time was a serious breakup, like we didn't plan to get back together. I can take responsibility for my impulsive decisions and running away when things got tough, but the truth is that it was the fault of both of our traumas. But she was always willing to remain in the relationship where I was often the one to get fed up and lose my feelings. At the time, I didn't know any better and just figured I was broken since I would have such strong feelings for this person that would slowly erode over time. But now I understand what was happening.
Anytime I'd try and express my feelings about something, whether I was upset or hurt or angry, she would always make it about her (probably unknowingly). She would take it as a criticism, and would make it my fault for making her feel bad. These big emotional reactions to me sharing my thoughts or feelings were super uncomfortable for me. It was exactly what I went through with my mom. She always held the emotional microphone and it was up to us kids to manage her emotional state. So with J, as time went on I would just bottle these feelings up or pretend to agree with her, or even sometimes legitimately agree after being gaslit for so long. Basically I would just fawn to restore peace in the relationship and calm her down. From her perspective, she had gotten her emotional release and everything was fine, but I was stewing on the inside and slowly growing to resent her. I wasn't completely aware of this, as I would forget about the specific instances. But that feeling of being invalidated or minimized or punished for expressing my feelings is a huge trigger for me because I was invalidated constantly for the first two decades of my life. That would just slowly fester until I lost all attraction and desire to be in the relationship. Add in a few trust issues, like her constantly being suspect of me and requiring me to prove my feelings, and my side of the relationship would slowly die.
The problem is that by the time it would get too much and I'd end things, all the little "cuts" would be a distant memory and so I wouldn't really have any justification. I'd just say that I didn't feel how I should. I'd tell her that I love her, I'm just not in love with her. Which was true, I always cared so much about her and hated that I was ending things, but I couldn't ignore the resentment that had built up inside of me. I never told her about this resentment, because I didn't want to hurt her more than the breakup was already going to. But by not telling her the truth, she had no reason to reflect on our relationship or work on anything in our time apart. So I'd fix some of my issues during my time apart and get back together hoping this next time would work, but she still had the same issues because I never told her what they were or why we were breaking up.
All these years later and I finally understand. I wish I could go back and speak up for myself more. Tell her that my feelings were legitimate and that she can't make it about her everytime. Tell her that she needs to listen to me when I share my thoughts instead of debating my experience and putting the blame on me each time. I wish I could have told her the truth about why we broke up all those times. Because as far as she's concerned, she was always willing to keep trying and it was me who gave up on us. It was me who didn't want to be with her, and it was me who was broken and had all the problems. So all this time while there was something she could have legitimately worked on/fixed, I just treated it like there was nothing that could be done, took the blame and broken heart, and went on my way. Now it feels like I lied to her. Fawning is basically just "well-intentioned" manipulation, and it feels like I manipulated her for years by not sharing my true feelings.
I'm just so upset about it all. Angry at my mom for conditioning me to always put others' feelings above my own. Angry at my parents for punishing me for speaking up. Upset at myself for being so unaware of what was going on inside of me. Frustrated that I used up all my chances with this person before I even knew what the real problem was.
The worst part is that I still have to see J. I see her on dating apps, and we pass each other on the paths in our city sometimes. And it kills me that we have two totally different views of how things went. From her perspective, I'm someone who hurt her many times and never really gave a reason why. I can't imagine what it would be like to be rejected by someone 5 times, despite loving them and wanting to make a relationship work. From my perspective, I loved this person so much but was always in the dark as to why I would lose feelings and she wouldn't. Why she thought things were okay and why would end up stewing in resentment.
It feels like such a perversion of reality that I'm stuck with. Now that I understand it, I want so bad to correct the record. To explain what was actually going on. Because I know her perspective isn't right, I'm not just some broken guy who can't get it right. But she has no reason to question her perspective, as I played into it and fawned every time. So I'm left with this burning distortion and she is none the wiser. I'd like to think that clearing it up would help her too, because I know our relationship really messed her up and maybe the clarity would help her heal. But obviously this is just speculation, my desire to correct the record is mostly based on my frustration with the whole thing. But I know she is never going to reach out because again, as far as she's concerned, she did everything she could and this was all on me (because I told her that/agreed with her).
Is it crazy to think about hashing things out 5 years after this started (2 years since we were last involved)? I'm kind of at the point now where I either have to leave it forever or say something now, because I need to move forward with my life either way. It just feels wrong to leave it as is. Feels like I really manipulated a situation and now I'm just leaving it twisted. But it's always been hard for me to leave things be, I keep thinking I can make it better "if I could just explain." My feelings on this are probably also influenced by the fact that my life has gone completely downhill over the last 3 years and I'm stuck ruminating on all the mistakes I've made.
Thoughts? Advice?

A lot of times the question is asked here: what sex is the soul?
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The other day moreover, someone asked whether the Soul or Spirit is the deciding factor. Perhaps the answer to these and more questions lies in the clarification of what a soul is and then leaving others to discern for themselves whether or not what has been described resonates with what is felt inside of themselves.
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We have several cultures to draw answers from, but none more relevant to our moment of asking than the Greek culture; because the 'gods' were last familiar to men during the time of the Greek culture.
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The soul is characterized by two qualities according to the Greeks. Nous (νοῦς), and Logos (λόγος). Intelligence and articulation. So I think it is clear that almost all humans possess a soul, even those called hylics or NPCs.
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It's a part of the slow process of remembering to ask questions about the sex of the soul because the soul had none initially. The soul had none because it was completed by a spirit, and in its form as a soul-spirit matrix, it had the wholeness that is now experienced as incompleteness in the phenomenon of sexness.
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The biblical story of Adam and Eve in the second chapter of the book of Genesis is exclusively about the condition of Men in this form in which they were whole, spirit (EVE) and Soul (ADAM).
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Genesis 2:21. "And the Lord God (Yaldabaoth) brought a trance upon Adam, and he slept: and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man’s ribs (he took out the spiritual portion of man, EVE) and then closed up the place with flesh (spiritually lobotomized man).
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As he is, Man is terrestrially distracted by the need and struggle for survival and that struggle is defined by the need for sexual companionship. The trap is sex, because the cleavage (spiritual lobotomy) was through the appropriation into sexes.
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When human beings remember the place from which they came outside this universe, they will also come close to that wholeness which the story of ADAM (all humans, male or female) and EVE (their spirits, if they have one) is all about if looked at beyond the surface.