You are driving me crazy. For nearly one year now I’m searching for these keywords you could use in every possible subreddit you used just to find you. Every single day I’m searching for you, thinking about you, missing you. Everytime I post about you people tell me I should forget you and should accept you wouldn’t come back. Im sure people will respond similar things to this post. BUT I CANT. I can’t forget you or stop trying to find you, even though it’s totally hopeless. Give my soul peace and come back. Please. I need you. I’m begging you. I still love you so much. Why couldn’t you see that we are made for eachother. Why did you have to end it because of your religion. Couldn’t you just lie to me and say it was because you hated me? Instead you told me you loved me and therefore couldn’t be in contact with me anymore. Some made up bullshit keeps you away from me. Some damn stupid book some goofy dude wrote in his mums basement a few thousand years ago to troll humanity. It’s driving me crazy.

Me gusta una chica de mi colegio digamos que se llama M. Pasamos momentos increíbles juntos y éramos inseparables. Sin embargo, cometí un gran error al escribirle una carta en la que expresaba mis sentimientos y decía que quería romper con ella, ya que sentía que era fría conmigo pero alegre con otras personas. Además, esperé casi un año para que me dijera que solo seríamos amigos, lo cual me devastó. Estuvimos sin hablarnos durante dos o cinco semanas, pero finalmente decidí volver con ella y disculparme por lo que hice. Afortunadamente, ella me perdonó y desde entonces hemos hablado con normalidad. Sin embargo, todavía siento un fuerte sentimiento de amor por ella. Esta semana, en su cumpleaños número quince, le dije que la quería y que lamentaba todo lo sucedido, pero ella pareció sentirse incómoda, lo cual me hizo sentir culpable. Además, tengo miedo de que ella comience a gustarle alguien más y que todo lo que he hecho por ella se pierda. Aunque cometí un error al escribirle esa carta, me siento arrepentido. Es importante recordar que todos cometemos errores y lo fundamental es aprender de ellos. A pesar de la situación actual, mantener una comunicación abierta y sincera con Mariana puede ayudar a aclarar las cosas y fortalecer nuestra amistad, o incluso explorar si hay un potencial romántico en el futuro. Además, últimamente he empezado a sospechar que a ella le gusta alguien más. Esta preocupación me ha generado ansiedad y temor de que todo lo que he dado por ella se haya perdido. Aunque cometí un error al escribirle esa carta, me siento arrepentido y deseo fortalecer nuestra conexión. Sin embargo, esta nueva inquietud añade una capa adicional de incertidumbre a mis sentimientos.

Harrold Hardyng, the heir to Robert Arryn's throne, is one of the new characters we'll meet in The Winds of Winters.
He's been introduced by Littlefinger and the Lord Declarant in AFFC, Alayne I. We meet him in TWOW, Alayne I, as he comes to the to the Gates of the Moon, for the tourney for the Brotherhood of Winged Knights.
I think Harry's bound to die in the upcoming tournament in the Vale organised by Alayne and Littlefinger, and in this post I'll highlight some hints that foreshadow Harry's ill fate.
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HARRY IS A KNIGHT OF SUMMER

Harry the Heir is often described as a poor jouster, an upjumped squire who isn't on the level to be a knight.

"Our cousin Bronze Yohn had himself a mêlée at Runestone,” Myranda Royce went on, oblivious, “a small one, just for squires. It was meant for Harry the Heir to win the honors, and so he did.”
“Harry the Heir?”
“Lady Waynwood’s ward. Harrold Hardyng. I suppose we must call him Ser Harry now. Bronze Yohn knighted him."

AFFC, Alayne II
So, Bronze Yohn organised a tourney for him and then personally knighted him, this tells us the tourney was a farce to win Harry to his side by creating a mentor-mentee relationship.
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Lord Belmore laughed. "I never thought Royce would let him come. Is he blind, or merely stupid?"
"He is honorable. Sometimes it amounts to the same thing. If he denied the lad the chance to prove himself, it could create a rift between them, so why not let him tilt? The boy is nowise skilled enough to win a place amongst the Winged Knights."
"I suppose not," said Belmore, grudgingly. Lord Grafton kissed Alayne on the hand, and the two lords went off, leaving her alone with her lord father.

TWOW, Alayne I
Littlefinger himself believes Harry's got no chance in the tourney.
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Near the keep, she ran headlong into Ser Lothor Brune and almost knocked him off his feet. "Harry the Heir? Harry the Arse, I say. He's just some upjumped squire."

Ser Lothor Brune agrees with the feeling as well.

SANSA'S WISH

Sansa, after being offended by Harry, wishes about a situation which may occur during the joust, that sees Harry falling from his horse and hitting his head.

A lady's armor is her courtesy. Alayne could feel the blood rushing to her face. No tears, she prayed. Please, please, I must not cry. "As you wish, ser. And now if you will excuse me, Littlefinger's bastard must find her lord father and let him know that you have come, so we can begin the tourney on the morrow." And may your horse stumble, Harry the Heir, so you fall on your stupid head in your first tilt. She showed the Waynwoods a stone face as they blurted out awkward apologies for their companion. When they were done she turned and fled.

TWOW, Alayne I
This wouldn’t be the first time Sansa wishing harm on someone, and later that wish coming true:

Frog-faced Lord Slynt sat at the end of the council table wearing a black velvet doublet and a shiny cloth-of-gold cape, nodding with approval every time the king pronounced a sentence. Sansa stared hard at his ugly face, remembering how he had thrown down her father for Ser Ilyn to behead, wishing she could hurt him, wishing that some hero would throw him down and cut off his head.

AGOT, Sansa VI
This comes true when Jon, her brother, beheades Janos Slynt at the Wall.

TOURNEY AT ASHFORD MEADOW

We've met an Hardyng knight before. It was ser Humphrey Hardying, one of the knights who partecipated in Dunk's trial of Seven at Ashford Meadow. Considering the parallels Sansa's story and the upcoming tourney in the Vale have with Ashford, Harry's tourney may be a callback to his ancestor's.

ROBERT'S FATE

Possibly a minor detail, but Robert Arryn being constantly described as weak and sick, is what leads many fans to think he'll be still alive for the endgame of ADOS, and id he's alive, Harry doesn't have much space in the story.
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“And I have a tender spot in my heart for cripples and bastards and broken things.”

AGOT, Bran IV

HIS NAME/MONIKER

Harry the Heir's moniker is "Young Falcon". The two other characters presented with a similar nickname, Daeron I Targaryen and Robb I Stark, never saw their 20s. The other character with a similar name, Young Griff, isn't long for the world either. So it surely brings an aura of death with it.
His House name is Hard-dying, knowing GRRM love for ironies that's enough prove for him to bite the dust in a not so hard way.
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HIS BEHAVIOUR

Harry's a smug, arrogant and uncaring young boy, and that's exactly the type of character that GRRM would have die a stupid death.
He insults Alayne for being a bastard, while he hastwo bastards of his own with two different women. He's also abandoned the mother of his daughter Alys, Cissy, because pregnancy made her fat.

Near the keep, she ran headlong into Ser Lothor Brune and almost knocked him off his feet. "Harry the Heir? Harry the Arse, I say. He's just some upjumped squire."
"Come," Petyr said, "walk with me." He took her by the arm and led her deeper into the vaults, past an empty dungeon. "And how was your first meeting with Harry the Heir?"
"He's horrible."

TWOW, Alayne I
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PARALLEL TO SIMILAR VALE KNIGHTS

Ser Hugh of the Vale (another “H” name) at the Hand’s tourney, in AGOT. He was squire to Jon Arryn and knighted prematurely by Robert Baratheon in honor of his late Hand. He is described as “arrogant as only a new-made knight can be.” He arrives at the tourney in shiny new plate and he’s sporting the Arryn colors and crescent moons on his cloak, an association he has no direct claim to as with Harry’s quartered sigil. While facing the Mountain, Ser Hugh meets his end at the tip of a lance to the throat where his gorget was loose. Sansa sees Ser Hugh’s crescent moons soak through with blood.
Sansa notes that no songs will be sung to remember young men like Ser Hugh. Throughout Asoiaf, there’s a recurring sense of wasted youth and potential caused by the pursuit of useless things, like tourneys, as noted by Cat when she meets Renly's host, describing his men as "Knights of Summer". It’s tragic and it fits well with the decadent feasting of the Vale tourney, all on the cusp of a Winter that demands austerity and following a war that, despite leaving the neautral Vale untouched, has destroyed the continent. Ser Hugh’s death almost certainly foreshadows a blood-soaked Vale, and blood will flow during the tourney.
Ser Waymar Royce, son of Bronze Yohn Royce, leads a ranging mission north of the Wall in AGOT, Prologue. He is a young and handsome knight, and he’s Sansa’s first mentioned crush in the series. He’s an arrogant, over privileged, know-it-all teenager who mocks his more experienced companions. Although he redeems his attitude in his death moment by confronting
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SANSA'S PATH

Without going too much in details, while AGOT-ACOK have been her coming up with reality books (already from Sansa II, AGOT, her perspectives change), and ASOS-AFFC her learning books (both in King's Landing and in the Vale), TWOW-ADOS will be the books where Sansa puts in practice her knowledge and ability. She'll have to get out of LF's shadow and end him.
Considering Petyr's plans have almost all gone smoothly till now, it's normal that TWOW will mark an inversion of route for him, and losing Harry in the tourney while poisoning Robert may not be ideal for the relationships with Anya Waynwood and Bronze Yohn.
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TL;DR: Hints that foreshadow why Harry the Heir will meet his end during the joust of the upcoming tourney in the Vale
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Thanks for reading, let me know if you think there are other clues towards or against this theory.

Soy estudiante y siempre en que me gustaría aprender inglés y poder ablarlo con facilidad pero siento que en la escuela no te enseñan bien, aparte de que cada maestro explica a su manera. ¿Cual es una forma efectiva de aprender inglés?

nerf the fcking toxic pea in pvzgw1 , i’m tired of being on a streak and i die from across the map to a toxic pea who’s splash damage is so fcking OP he doesn’t have to hit me at all or near me for that matter cuz somehow his peas still manage to damage me.

Excelente tarde, les cuento. El día de hoy acudí a firmar contrato con una empresa bajo el nombre de Ademosa SA.DE.CV la cual está bien establecida en un parque tecnológico por mi ciudad (Guadalajara) ya había acudido a entrevista y hoy era la firma de mi contrato para comenzar a trabajar el lunes, a lo que al leer mi contrato todo estaba en orden y con el convenio para no divulgar información también, acto seguido de la firma de ambos documentos me presentan un pagaré en blanco que se debía de firmar y se anexaría al convenio de no divulgación como (garantía de la empresa) ¿Que tan legal es esto? Puedo denunciarlo como una actividad fraudulenta? Cabe señalar que no firmé dicho pagaré y destruí los papeles antes firmados de contrato y convenios.

Amada mía, en este atardecer mientras el sol se va despidiendo dejando un cielo de colores te escribo con amor y anhelo.
Tu día ha sido espléndido, lo sé por tu sonrisa radiante, y por la energía que transmites con tu alegría contagiante.
Lucretius decía que el amor es el gran motor de todo ser, y yo sé que es verdad, mi amor, pues contigo lo puedo ver.
No importa la riqueza o la pobreza, ni el estatus social que tengamos, pues lo que importa es cómo actuamos y cómo tratamos a los demás.
Y contigo, mi amada, sé que siempre seré mejor, pues tu amor y tu sabiduría me inspiran a ser una mejor persona.
Así que en este atardecer, te deseo felicidad y amor, y que siempre tengamos la fuerza para enfrentar lo que se nos presente.
Amada mía, eres mi luz, mi sol en días grises, y por siempre te amaré con todo mi ser y mis raíces.

The week went by and everyone kind of just forgot the last session until we all met outside the game shop and saw Barbarian and Druid waiting for us. Seems the weight of the last session had just come crashing back down on them and they were debating on going in at all. Bard and Paladin were already there chatting it up with DM and seeming to have fun. A little talking and we all decided to see where this lead.
Of course as we traveled DM insisted that we roleplay our actions to the extreme as if she wanted a reward for what she did last time. None of us really were in the mood and each explained in their own diplomatic way that we would like to skip to the next town. However Paladin was all up for roleplay. After all we had gotten to explain our backstory so he should get a turn. We agreed thinking it wouldn't take long for him to get on the same page as the rest of us.
Two hours later I have pulled out my laptop to work on some writing, and everyone else is looking at their phones or books while Paladin is still talking. He apparently loves the intense roleplay of describing in great detail all his actions with a hammy over the top way of speaking. His backstory is a line of adventures stolen from his favorite video games. Defeating evil Barron Von Bowser to save Princess Peaches, taking the head of the arch wizard Gannon to lift the curse on a sleeping princess, slaying the evil dragon of the north known as Seath the scalesess to save a blind holy woman, and riding off into the sunset on an axe beak with a young maiden after beating an evil lord named Sephiroth. Just to name a few. This kept on to the point I wanted to remind him he was level two but DM was loving it and on the edge of her seat.
Our saving grace was Bard who spoke up and said that we would break for camp. The next town was two nights away so might as well get one night behind us. Again we got a random encounter roll and again "Oh my this never happens you are all just so lucky, no encounter isn't that great?" The rest of us are angry but we remain diplomatic. Asking, pleading that we have an encounter so we can level up. Everyone wanted to fight the dragons and we needed levels but nope. She had played for FIFTEEN YEARS and THIS WAS THE RULES.
Another hour of stolen game cut scenes from Paladin and we made camp once more. Once again lucky us, no encounter. We begged offering to even roleplay with the enemies having banter and what not. No dice, it was the rules after all and you can't bend the rules... A bit more and we make it to town. At this point we hush Paladin, everyone is ravenous. We are rolling social skills, stopping people, asking questions, anything to get us our next job in hopes that we can level up, anything to further the story. Forget being nice, we were the rudest people you had ever met grabbing any NPC the DM said existed and ganging up on them venomously shouting. "What problems do you have in town?! Anything we don't care even if it's minor. Tell us, we'll even kill rats, got a goblin problem? Kobolds? Seen an undead? Do you just not like someone? GIVE US ANYTHING!"
Barbarian was so desperate he even asked the DM if starting a fight would be survivable and get us XP. She explained that everyone in the entire fishing city was either our level or lower and harming them wouldn't give us any XP what so ever. She went on to say that we didn't find any job hirings, the only thing people were talking about was how the fishing had dried up.
The moment we heard that Wizard, Cleric, and I in unison turned and said "DRUID! You're up. lets get you to the docks." We rushed everyone to the docks, and wanted to hire a ship. The only ship available was a war ship that was docked for resupply. We talked to the captain and paid him nearly every bit of gold we had to rent his ship. So we were out on the ocean and the druid was doing his thing in a small boat while we waited. Calling forth some fish and using a ritual speak with animals to get the information. All of us were very proud of Druid, he came back and we had the answer. Seems some creature had entered into the bay, druid pointed to a sunken single man sailing ship that we could see the mast sticking ten feet out of the water. So fairly shallow water, this is important.
Whatever had scared the fish was there. We sailed over to it and DM goes into her description. Talking about from the ship comes a massive shadow that dwarfs the ship we are on, so large it makes it look like a bath toy. The shadow swims under the ship and it takes half a minute before it is past. As it moves large tentacles are seen breaking the surface of the water.
Druid rolled nature and all of us aided him. He got a fairly high roll and DM informed us that we had just seen a Kraken. I was dumbfounded, how the heck was a Kraken living in a small sail boat when it dwarfed a war ship, and how the heck was it in this shallow of water!? So I asked "We know what it is can I look up the information?" She said ok and I asked what one she was using 3.5 or 5e it was the 5e one so I turned to it and pointed asking "You mean this?" She confirmed the CR 23 monster as the one we had just seen.
Barbarian who only looked at the picture. "Awesome!" Druid "Bet we can take that." Wizard "no we can't. It's CR 23." Barbarian "Cap!" Druid "Does this mean we have to run away again?" DM All smiles "Yep now you have an important second goal! You're so lucky."
Now I will say here I know I am in the wrong for what I did. It is always important to have good communication and talk things out, however we had tried that, I was frustrated, and I wasn't thinking straight. So I became that guy.
DM " When when you run away you have a couple of options you can go to..." Me "Nope we aren't running away. We're gunna fight it." DM "What? You can't." Me "Sure we can, it's here, we're here, we're going to fight it I know everything about them you said so lets see what we can do. Captain how many guns on this ship? Do you have harpoons big ones? How about gun powder you have cannons so how much you got?" Barbarian "So we're fighting it?" Me "Yep we're fighting it! Bring it on you big squid we're having calamari tonight!" Druid "So we can beat it?" Me "Heck no! It's impossible. That thing gets three attacks a turn can hit us on a 2, and will kill us in one hit. Barbarian might survive three hits if he's really lucky and raging. We have no chance." Druid "So why are we fighting it?" Wizard who had just looked up the stats. "Because we're fighting it!" Cleric "Bring it slimy!"
It was amazing, a moment of depression turned to a slight moment of confusion and then everyone was on board even Paladin who didn't get what was going on. Everyone was suddenly excited. Barbarian looked for the harpoons, took three of them and said he was rolling strength to bend them, didn't even wait for the DM to say if he could just rolled and explained how he was making a giant fish hook as his weapon of choice. Taking out rations and spearing them on as bait. Druid Rushed down asking how many barrels of gun powder he could find. Cleric was talking to the crew asking for anything that burned, wood, lamp oil, explosives of any kind. I went about telling everyone this was our ship and we were headed back to town why settle for what the ship had, we were going to raid the town for supplies. Druid pointed out we spent all our gold and I told him. "We are doing this for the good of the kingdom, we'll steal what we need and pay them back later. Lets get this thing!"
DM tried to gain control of her game back as we were going at a pace she couldn't handle, she said the captain was demanding we leave his ship alone and since it was the only ship he was sailing away and leaving us in the city, we couldn't have his ship.
The party was invested now though. Everyone was excited and having more fun then we had since the start. We reminded her that she stated no one was over our level so we would fight the captain and take his ship if we had to. Threatening him that if he didn't get off and leave the ship he would be dead. She relented and had the captain and crew leave. Cleric and I agreed we'd stay to guard the ship and get things ready on it while the party went to gather more things to kill the Kraken. People were looking at skills, abilities, and items. Looking through the book for anything that could help us and asking the DM if the city had it. Shop after shop the blood thirsty adventurers went demanding goods to fight off the threat. Never really telling the people why we needed it or what it was for but insisting there was a danger that would destroy the city, maybe the kingdom if they didn't cooperate. The DM wasn't given a break to process, when one question was answered another was asked. If we couldn't get something we got the next best thing. If we couldn't find a finished product we took the stuff to make it. She was having to improve on the fly and I could see it was taking a tole on her, where since the start she had a look of absolute authority and command, now she was a frazzled mess.
I would have felt bad, I should have felt bad, however from the rest of the players I heard something that I hadn't heard since day one, laugher and excitement. They didn't care I had told them it was impossible. They didn't care I had pointed out we would die and be on character generation. They now had a chance. Even if it was an impossible chance it was a chance to do something and try.
DM "Look if you do this you're all going to end up dead. You can't bet it at your level." She was trying to get us back to just running away and for a moment things stopped. Me "I hope my character doesn't die. I have a cousin in this down, he's a warlock too and he'd be so upset I think he'd go after the thing as well." Wizard laughed and joined in. "Oh yeah my sister has a shop here, if I died without saying hi to her she'd make that thing burn."
Druid and Barbarian got the message, we had all played video games. If we couldn't beat it with these characters we had a city with a population of 6000 possible back up characters to zerg rush it. So plans kept on going, players kept searching for a way to give us the best possible chance of doing this or surviving a couple of rounds because that would be an accomplishment in itself. We were making bombs, alchemical items, improvised weapons. Getting ready every spell and ability we had to try this. When gaming was called the DM and Bard left while the rest of us stayed around for probably a half hour more talking about the plan, joking, and just having fun. All of us left with a smile on our faces.
When I got home I had a message on my answering machine from DM informing me that I wasn't the DM and how dare I highjack her game. That I was a horrible player and I better fall in line because I had her crying. She made some threats about hurting herself if I didn't stop which I hope were lies meant to make me feel bad, and ended the message telling me if I called her back she would call the cops on me. A threat I wasn't going to test. I saved the message for proof later if I needed it and the week passed. When we all met at the shop the next week Bard said DM would be late. We were all still joking and having fun talking about our big plan for the TPK and making joke bets like "If we last three rounds your new character owes mine five gold." It was great.
Time passed though and no DM so we asked Bard what was up. He informed us then that she had texted. Said I ruined her game and she wasn't going to play with people who didn't understand the rules of dungeons and dragons. We broke out magic the gathering cards and played a few hands before heading home all a little disappointed that we couldn't see how far we would have gotten. A little while later I think a couple of months I was telling the story at the shop and Wizard kept making hand motions at me. I asked what was up and he face palmed saying "That's her older brother." Well I had already put my foot in my mouth voicing my displeasure so I figured one more question wouldn't hurt. "Sorry, but it was a bit of a mess of a game. This is my opinion as a player. I know she's family and all so hate me if you like but I am honest. I will ask though, how long has she actually been DMing."
The brother didn't mind and informed me that she had DMed 2 games for him, his younger brother, and their father when she was a child. That was it and they were both one shot things with their father doing most of the work. She never came back to the game shop and I think she moved states, I've never seen her since.

I just got back from a JSA tour on May 31st and thought I would relay the most current information. I used VVIP tour and we were scheduled for a 6am pickup near Myeongdong. The day before we received an email saying the pickup time had changed to 6:30am which we gladly accepted the extra sleep. One of the first things the tour guide spoke about was that the chaos that happened a few months back seemed to be resolved and tours would no longer be subject to the 4am scrambles to get to the DMZ in time to reserve their JSA spots. That said, JSA tours can be cancelled at any time for any reason by the military. The tour guide was first class, she's been doing this for many years and seemed to have personal connections with people that live inside the DMZ.
 
The dates that are available for the JSA are a bit random and appear on their website as they become available. I emailed them back in March asking about tour dates for June and they told me to check back in a few weeks. I checked their website the next day and June dates were posted. My advice to anyone that wants to go is to check their site daily as they randomly post them and fill up within a few days. The tour guide said best case scenario they get 4 random dates a month but often it’s only 2 or 3.
 
Traffic going back into Seoul was heavy and they dropped us off at another station that was a few stops away from our pickup address. I would recommend keeping a Tmoney card loaded in case they drop you off at a different spot on the way home.
 
Your passport will be checked multiple times while on the tour so don't forget to bring it.
 
Everywhere we stopped to get food or souvenirs accepted credit cards or cash.
 
There was an opportunity to buy postage stamps from North Korea as well as North Korean paper money. Who knows if they are actually real, but I thought it was a unique souvenir you could purchase.
 
I've appreciated all the posts you guys have made, hopefully this info useful for someone.

Im being questioned abt joining. What are the pros and cons of me joining and not joining?

Hello fellow Redditors,
I'm reaching out today because I could really use some financial advice for a significant upcoming personal expense.
Let me give you a bit of context. As a child, I sustained a nose injury which resulted in severe deviation. This has led to chronic breathing difficulties, seriously impacting my quality of life. The aesthetic issue has also been a constant source of self-esteem problems, something that has shadowed me throughout my life.
I moved to Canada with my parents in 2018 and worked various small jobs to support myself through school. I graduated in 2022 and currently carry around $6K in provincial student loans. I've been living independently since graduating, leaving me with minimal savings due to the cost of living.
Now, my rhinoplasty is scheduled for July and I don't have sufficient funds to cover the procedure myself. I find myself approximately $8K short and I'm contemplating different ways to make up for this deficit. Here are the options I'm considering:

1. I have a personal line of credit with an interest rate of 12.44%.
   
2. I own two credit cards, with limits of $15.5K and $10.5K respectively. Although the interest rates are considerably high, I'm considering financing some of the cost using these cards and paying it off in installments (e.g. my CIBC card offers 24 months with 9.99% interest on some “pricier” purchases).
   

As a sidenote, I have a modest emergency fund, my credit score is currently above 800, my car has been fully paid off, and I'm not planning to buy a home in the near future.
I understand that the ideal situation would've been to save up for this procedure well in advance, but given the circumstances, I'm now trying to make the best of the situation. I would be extremely grateful for any advice or insight you could offer on what the most financially prudent course of action might be. Thanks!

How do you avoid becoming discouraged when you see what so many Catholics are now promoting? This all started because I saw the University of Notre Dame made a pride month post on instagram. I know it’s been a while since Notre Dame was truly Catholic, but all the Catholics in the comments encouraging this makes me so sad. Jesus said he would never abandon His Church and I know this is nowhere near as bad for the Church as it has been in other eras in the past, but it seems like the Church is moving further and further from Him every day, both in the clergy as well as laypeople.
I know the pope gets a lot of unfair flack and I don’t believe he’s a bad pope by any means, but I find it really discouraging when he cares more about shutting down TLM than the Church in Germany promoting heresy. Jesus said the gates of hell would never prevail but right now it seems like no one in the Church except people on Reddit and YouTube actually care about preserving the Church’s teachings on sexuality. Honestly beginning to feel like non-denominationational Christianity is the best route; however I can never leave because I believe so firmly in the Eucharist. Part of me doesn’t know whether to give up or just keep living my faith and pretending like nothing is wrong.

I have been a rabbit owner for nearly a year now, but I've had prior experience with rabbits and heavily researched rabbit-care prior to adoption. For those who don't know, although rabbits are wonderful companions they are also very delicate, with improper care (or even with proper care) they can easily go into GI stasis, a condition that can be fatal. Since rabbits are considered exotic, vet care is not cheap either.
I have a friend who, a year ago, told me she wanted to adopt a rabbit. For context, she has a middle-class income. I sent her a ton of resources on rabbit care, even lent her a book on it, and she ended up adopting Nugget soon after. To her credit, she took him to the vet as soon as she got him.
I live far from this friend, so I don't see her in-person often, but I did go visit her a month ago. Nugget was a cute little ball of fuzz, but I noticed that she had Nugget in a hutch (not enough space), and that she was feeding him colorful "rabbit food" (not good for them). I gently dropped in rabbit care advice as we talked, I didn't berate or shoehorn, just let it happen naturally, in the hopes that she'd change up her care.
As far as I know, she did not.
A week ago she contacted me saying that Nugget had not been pooping or eating for a while, a sign of stasis, getting him help was critical. It was still early in the day so I told her to schedule a visit with the vet ASAP (maybe $60). She told me it was too expensive and she would wait it out. I was worried but I gave her some advice on how to give him massages and to try some baby Simethicone. She didn't respond.
Several hours later she texts me in a panic saying Nugget is lethargic and still not eating. I sent her the address of the nearest pet ER to her that accepts rabbits (about an hour drive from her place), she told me I was being ridiculous because it would be insanely expensive. I kept checking in on her, but she stopped responding. I later found out she did not take him to the ER.
The next message I got was "Nugget is gone". I offered my condolences to her. Yesterday she messages me saying she is considering adopting another rabbit. I was taken aback and asked, "Are you going to be changing up the care routine?" She responds "Why would I do that?" Then I just sent her a question mark in response. I realize this is rude, but at the time I was feeling heated knowing that she would not provide proper care for this hypothetical rabbit.
She finally responded with, "Wow...you're a stuck-up bitch" and blocked me.
Our mutual friend reached out to me today and said that even though I was technically right I shouldn't have talked that way to someone who was grieving and that it was wrong of me to "imply that she killed her pet". I wasn't really trying to imply that, but I can see that what I said easily could be interpreted that way.
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HEAVY FRAME .5 THICK WALL WITH EXTRA SPACE
This frame to hold up the ceiling and for safety to keep the basalt walls from collapsing on me. It can also help to hold up the walls of basalt sandbags or poly tubing and can help to keep it straight. It could even help to hold up the water layer and to provide a straight structure for that.
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ON THE OUTSIDE
3.17 wide
2.25 ft high frame
7.75 length 5.67ft long for height 1.08 ft for the 6.5 inch thick frame on either end 1fT for .5 thick basalt on either end
and theres a small doorway around foot end which gets filled in and then door is 1.6 high and 2ft wide I guess it gets filled in then other bags are in front of it and overlapping sides and top
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INTERIOR
25 inches wide 3.17 on the outside minus 1.08 is 25 inches the walls are 6.5 inches thick with a 5.5 inch 2x6 and two .5 inch pieces of plywood equals 6.5 inches per wall 1.08 total
height 1.51ft high 7.75 inches total almost .67 ft ceiling 7 inches thick a 5.5 inch 6x2 and 2 .75 inch pieces of plywood floor 1 piece of .75 plywood
length 5.67ft
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DESCRIPTION OF THE FRAME
I first described what I wanted to to my friend who knows about construction. He told me what the frame needed to be like to be strong enough for high level of safety.
I asked if we could make the part around the head strong since it needs to support 2ft thick of basalt and 1ft thick of water and the part around my body weaker and thin but he
said it will mess it up to build to different frames and connect them. He said its stronger just to build it in the same way with the same dimensions for the entire length of the frame.
Im am being forced against my will to build it with part of the material wasted on surrounding the bigger frame instead of providing thicker protection even though I think its overkill given
my extreme level of desperation and need to go faster.
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I think he said that the ceiling would be made with a piece of .75 inch plywood on the outside then 2x6 pieces of wood under it running perpendicular to the long dimension of the structure. The pieces
have the 2 thing part lying against the plywood of the ceiling and the 6 inch dimension sticks down into the box. The Walls are made the same way but with two .5 inch pieces of plywood around the 2x6 pieces.
The pieces stand up vertically. The 2x6 sixes are only either 2 or 4 inches apart I think he said? The floor is one piece of .75 inch plywood to help hold the walls in place to help keep them from shifting out of fully
supporting the ceiling and then stressing the joints more. He said we can build it with plastic bolts to avoid using steel nails or nails made of other metals. This is nice compared to a frame made of mortar and bricks
because we can move it to different places hopefully including for testing at better places. I guess well put holes in the side of the inner plywood walls and ceiling to increase how much air the structure can hold so I can
test it for longer periods. He says that plywood offgasses formaldehyde and I read you cant coat it or wrap it to stop that. So I guess its necessary to use more expensive formaldehyde free plywood.
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The shielded person can get on a piece of .75 inch plywood with 4 mill farmers plastic on one side and the floor has greased farmers plastic on it so that the person can be slid into place without needing enough room or
fitness to wriggle in. Someone slides me in without me needing the room to wriggle back and forth or up an down and with less chance of bumping my nose Or you could lie on plywood with thick plastic on one side or OSB which
has a slick surface and the floor would be greased farmer plastic. There is an outline on the plywood and I lie just in the right spot and they push me in.
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This design makes it 6 inches wider than my shoulders which I had hope would be enough to wriggle in without really any vertical room despite my body being somewhat messed up and not being able to get exercise.
Now im thinking this give me enough room to be pushed into place but I'm wondering could I get away with only 3 inches extra at the shoulders?
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There could be 2 plastic pulleys in the corners and I get pulled instead of pushed in so it's easier.
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This structure is supposed to totally surround me in water as well as basalt. Since the water containers wont hold up under the weigh of being underneath the basalt floor and ceiling as well the water has to be inside the frame
with me so that only my weight is on top of it. So Im planning on leaving enough room to have 2 layers of large fomenteck water bags. The two layers mean they will overlap at the seems. Im thinking that each layers bags will
also be stuck to each other with tape to keep them from separating and so they slightly overlap at the edges but without being thicker then the thickest part of the bags. If there isnt enough room for two layers somehow then
the small thinner fomenteck bags could create my two layers or just overlap the seems. The interior is about 1.5ft so two 4 inch thick fomenteck bag high floor will leave 10 inches minus the room for the plywood to slide in on.
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PLASTIC BOLTS
plastic bolts 10 for $9
https://www.grainger.com/product/GRAINGER-APPROVED-Hex-Head-Cap-Screw-Nylon-4AGR8
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amazon plastic bolt $6 for 10
https://www.amazon.com/Hard-Find-Fastener-014973168261-Piece-10/dp/B003PBA2FY/ref=sr_1_2?crid=33APW3CB2535I&keywords=HARD%2BTO%2BFIND%2BPLASTIC%2BBOLTS%2B2%2BINCHES&qid=1685717324&sprefix=hard%2Bto%2Bfind%2Bplastic%2Bbolts%2B2%2Binches%2Caps%2C114&sr=8-2&th=1
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THE BASALT LAYER
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So this is a a enclosure of basalt thats 6 inches thick for the ceiling, the floor, side walls and the front and back wall. Its a complete enclosure and doorway gets blocked up after Im in it. When I made it like this I was assuming that
there was no way to make a thinner floor anyway but with the poly tubing I might be able to make it 3 or 4 inches thick using a double layer of the smallest poly tubing and save some weight.
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CEILING AND FLOOR 32.32 cubic ft 4.17ft wide x 7.75ft long frame is 6.75 plus .5 ft basalt on one side and .5 basalt on the other is 7.75 total
SIDE WALLS 17.44 cubic ft 2.25ft high by 7.75ft long outside of frame is 2.25ft high and i'm defining the walls as the height between the basalt ceiling and floor which is the height of the frame. The walls dont include
the basalt that is over the wall but is above or underneath the level of the frame which can be defined as part of the ceiling or floor.
END WALLS 7.13 cubic ft 2.25ft high by 3.17 ft long The length of the end walls are the distance between the inner surface of the side walls.
say use 4 60lb bags to block the door thoroughly 3 to 2.4 cubic ft
TOTAL
SOLID WALL 59.3 cubic ft to 59.9 cubic ft 60 cubic ft is 2.4 tons tons at 80lb per cubic ft with a solid wall 3 tons at 100lb per cubic ft with solid wall this will really at least a touch less if I make it with bags because there will be some space between the bags
no matter what I do.
POLY TUBING WALL The round shape of the tubing means that the wall won't be solid and will have some of the space empty. Ill say that if I use the tubing it will only use 80 percent of what a totally solid wall will. So if I use two layers of 3 inch tubes of basalt
then the most basalt it can use is 80 percent of a solid wall I think.
Total 60 cubic ft with poly tubing at 80lb a cubic ft is 1.92 tons at at 100lb a cubic ft is 2.4 tons
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2.133 tons to 2.66tons depending on 80lb or 100lb per cubic ft REDO THESE or 2.55 to 3.2 tons if 8 inches thick

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BRAIN PROTECTION
theres .5 ft of basalt in every direction so Im adding extra basalt to reach the full thickness I want around my brain.
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BRAIN PORTECTION 1
ON TOP A 2X2ft square above brain uses 6 cubic extra ft adding 1.5ft thick total to make it 2ft thick altogether. is centered on forehead and the back and of it is about 3 inches away from the back wall of the whole structure.
BEHIND 2X2X2ft total uses 6 cubic ft extra adding 1.5ft thickness The top is level with the rest of the basalt ceiling the bottom is level with the bottom of the TIs brain and is centered on there brain from left to right.
ON THE SIDES 2x2 ft and 1ft thick total uses 4 cubic ft extra for both sides adding .5ft thick Is the same as the behind one but on the sides.
TOTAL is 16 cubic ft solid wall .64 tons at 80lb per cubic ft .8lb tons if 100lb per cubic ft using poly tubing uses .51 tons at 80lb per cubic ft and .64 tons at 100lb per cubic ft
GRAND TOTAL WITH STRUCTURE 2.43 with poly tubing 80lb a cubic ft or 3.04 tons with poly tubing and 100lb per cubic ft
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BRAIN PROTECTION 2
this is describing an additional outer wall that fits over the basalt box I already described to bring it up to 1ft thick for part of it.
CEILING AND FLOOR 15.75 cubic ft 5.25ft x 3ft
SIDE WALL 9.75 cubic ft 3.25x 3ft
BACK WALL 13.5 cubic ft 3.25x4.17
total 40 cubic ft added with poly tubing .8 tons at 80lb a cubic ft and 1 ton with 100lb a cubic ft
GRAND TOTAL 2.72 tons with poly tubing 80lb a cubic ft and 3.4 tons with 100lb a cubic ft
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BRAIN PROTECTION 3
brain protection 2 with 2x2x2ft above and behind brain total thickness .
GRAND TOTAL2.97 tons with poly tubing 80lb a cubic ft and 3.71 tons with 100lb a cubic ft
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HEAVY PROECTION AROUND BRAIN total is 63.5 cubic ft 2.35 tons at 80lb per cubic ft 2.94 at 100lb per cubic ft
4.5 ft high 5ft wide and 3ft long 67.5 total - 12 inside equals 55.5cubic ft total 2 to 2.5 tons roughly
plus 2x2 1ft tall on top and 2x2x1 on side for extra thickness 8 cubic ft total
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VERY HEAVY BRAIN PROTECTION
I did a calculation that was for protection around brain that was 4 or 4.5 ft long so my head and body would go into it 1.5 or 2ft.
The entire back wall was 2ft thick the entire celling was 2ft thick the side walls were 1ft thick. It was 4.1 tons but
. Then the section around the body would be reduced since it takes care of all of that part.
If that part is 1ft thick except for the floor which is .5 ft thick then it would weigh 2.5 tons. Total is 6.6 tons.
None of this was with poly tubing.
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THIS IS A CYLINDRICAL COMPLETE ENCLOSURE YOU COULD LIVE IN SLEEP OR WORK IN
8x8x8.5 outside
6x6x6 interior
2ft thick celling
.5ft thick floor
1ft thick wall all the way around
9.44 tons at 80lb a cubic ft
11.8 tons at 100lb a cubic ft
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LIVING ENCLOSURE WITH BACK WALL
has a 8x8.5x1ft thick back extra wall behind it for two ft thick protection in one direction
adds 2.72 tons at 80lb a cubic ton3.4 tons at 100lb a cubic ton
TOTAL 12.16 tons at 80lb per cubic ton 15.2 tons at 100lb a cubic ft
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Im guessing you can have basalt shipped to you or move it yourself for as little as $100 a ton or $200 a ton
The most you should pay even in the worst locations is about $1000 per ton I think
You can get cheaper shipping with bulk orders and perhaps cheaper if you have a buisinsess buy it for you.
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So with 15 tons it would take $1500 to $3000 in the best location and $15000 or less in the worst
with half of that at 7.5 tons it would take $750 to $1500 in the best location and $7500 at most in the worst
If a TI had enough money they could even double this protection in the best location.
You haft to figure out how to have it meet the right building codes for earth homes or whatever.
You might help it to stay up and protect it with fence posts cinderblocks and cement or bricks and cement.
If you have sandbags exposed to the sun put a heavy tarp over them to make them last longer.
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For the door perhaps you just take out a 18 inch wide 10 inch tall piece at the bottom and put some frame around it
to hold it up and then after you crawl in you block it up with sandbags of basalt. One thing you might use is basalt
blocks as the frame and you might be able to use some kind of mortar based on sand sized criva or to mix criva with mortar.
Solid basalt blocks havnt been tested yet.
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So I'm being forced against my will to use only 2 to 4 tons of basalt even though I have been planning on using 6 or 7 tons to get a full foot around my body and 2ft on the top of my head and behind it that takes up that whole surface.
So I can only make it 6 inches thick for most of it. Its a challenge to try and make close to six inches thick instead of a lot more or less than that. Its a challenge to have it overlap and to block the seams between the bags well enough
with only 6 inches thick. Iv heard that full size 14 inch by 26 inch long sandbags are about 6 to 8 inches thick when full. This already might make it much much thicker if it has to be 8 inches and I dont think they could be pushed together
well enough to erase the spaces between them. Im thinking that to block RNM possibly its more important to have a complete protection lass bad weak points in it then with physical attacks Its important for me thinking its a good test at
least ast his thickness. Use the mini sand bags in a double layer for the roof and floor but I'm still somewhat worried about blocking the cracks well enough and I dont know how thick it will be. Since I already ordered a ton of dust I need to
use that so Ill need to put it in large strong enough plastic bags and then put it in the mini sand bags. Or I could just put it in my 6x9 inch 4 mil plastic bags and tape them closed or use zip lock quart, half gallon or gallon bags from the grocery store
possibly. I could use other plastic bags. I could use small plastic bags and do like 3 offset overlapping layers or something. only one of my 3 or 4 tons is dust.
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I dont know how it will go for the side walls If i use the mini sandbags it will only be one layer thick and dont know if the spaces between then can be blocked well enough like that. The wall will be 3.25ft tall when you include the ceiling and the floor
as part of the walls height. My friend told me that's as high as you can build with round gravel and non round gravel you can build a 4ft high wall perhaps but that with normal sandbags not mini ones. I will have the plywood frame on one side and
can put water containers holding up a piece of plywood on the other side and stack them between them though. I dont know if this will work well enough.
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I had the idea of using poly tubing. This is a tube of 6 mill or less plastic that you can cut and then seal to create bags. You can just buy the roll though. So I could use to layers of 3 inch wide poly tubing running the entire length of the structure to
create first the basalt floor and then the basalt ceiling. They would be offset so that the second layer blocks the cracks in the first. I dont know if you can mush them or leave some out and then flatten them to cover the cracks better.
I could also use 3 layers of 2 inch thick poly tubing with perhaps the middle layer going crossways. Im thinking Ill put a strip of plywood sticking up 6 inches on either side of it so that it can hold in the tubing on the ceiling and keep it from rolling off the side.
Then I can put one extra piece right on top of the plywood divider to cover the gap between the side wall and the ceiling which end at the same height. I dont know how this would work for the walls. I might need the two pieces of plywood on either side. I dont know if
it would be strong enough especially if I use 6 inch wide tubing. I could fit in smaller tubes where two big tubes join each other. You can seal them with twist ties or a heat gun or a might use zip ties. I dont know what works. One benefit of using these is that
instead of a wall of solid basalt, if the tubes end up round then only 75 percent of the space will be full of basalt saving me weight. I dont understand how it isn't a problem to have any empty space in the wall at all though.
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If i put my basalt in poly tube bags and it forms a pretty non flexible cylinder then it might not matter much if I use smaller criva or 3/8 to 5/8 buttons in terms of the flexibility. Since part of my structure will only be 6 inches thick though it might be more important
to keep the rocks small and reduce the gaps between them. Also because im making a complete enclosure and trying to put thicker protection around my brain then your 1ft I I will I will hopefully be able to reduce the RNM and attacks on my brain more then you
can reduce your attacks on you head with your set up. Possibly with RNM and mental attacks blocking the cracks matters more I dont know.
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6 mil poly tubing different sizes dont know if its good quality
https://www.packagingsupplies.com/collections/6-mil-poly-tubing?msclkid=95131bb30bca15b91bc17fc492a9d4a8&utm_source=bing&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=Dynamic%20Search&utm_term=packagingsupplies&utm_content=All%20Webpages
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WATER SHIELDING
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Method One
This uses 1.25 wide 2.33ft tall 15 gallon cylindrical water containers. I'm thinking I need two layers so that I can offset the first with the second layer on the outside. Each container on the outside has its center blocking the spot where the two containers on the inside layer
meet. This makes a wall of water without weakness I hope. The wall needs to be 3.25f so it needs to be taller. On top of these containers on the inside layer of them is a single row of collapsible 5.3 gallons water containers.
I'm thinking Ill put a plywood between them and the containers underneath them so they can be pushed together and fit closely together and so the different diameter doesn't cause them to go off.
The top of the 15 gallon containers has a spot at the top where there's a gap thats a weakness. Im thinking Ill put 1 gallon water bag there perhaps partially empty to make it more malleable and the weight of
the 5 gallon container will hopefully mush it down so it fills in the uneven gaps in the top of the 15 gallon container. In front of the row of 5 gallon containers on top of the 15 gallon containers Ill put a pool tube to help block the weakness on top of the 15 gallon containers.
Ill overlap these pool tubes at the end in order to create a totally unbroken wall of water. Because the wall needs to be little taller Ill add large fomentek water bags at the top. The large fomentek bag has its top 6 inches lying on top of the 5 gallon container
and its held in place by a couple bricks wrapped in tarp or something temporarily. The bags hang down on the inside and overlap hopefully by 6 inches from bag to bag. Then you put 4 3x6x1.25 giant 140 gallon water bags on top of the structure lying perpendicular
to it. They overlap all the water walls by a foot. Then the pool tubes are put over the gaps between them. When there full you slide your hand under and remove the bricks from the water bags if possible. Or the top could be made of water bags.
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Method 2
You use 6 or possibly 8 140 gallon water bags for the main wall of water. There 3ft wide, 6ft long and 1.25ft thick. First you position and fill the 15 gallon containers. You put 4 on the outside of every water bag. They weigh 120lb each and the water bag weighs
1100lb. So with 4 on one side weighing almost half as much as the water bag and the basalt and frame wall on the other side it might keep them standing up well enough. They 15 gallons are 2.33ft high and the water bags are 3ft tall standing on there side so tall
enough to hold them up. Putting another 500lb of sandbags on top of the 4 containers might work well if the water containers arnt enough. You position a 15 gallon in front of the spot where two water bags meet and then put a 5.3 gallon container on top so its
as tall as the water bag. You can also put fomenteck water bags over the crack as well if you can make them stay in place. You could two to shield one end and then two each side. The two on the end extend way outside of the actual area your shielding.
The ones on both sides form a tight wall along with the two on the end but then extend of the other side somewhat. The width of the basalt structure is 4.25ft and the length of the water bag is 6ft. So you could push the two that extend from the side of the end over
.85ft each to make room to fit the final end water bag between them. You might be able to overlap the where the waterbags meet on the lengthwise sides as well. There are different sizes you might be able to use to make it fit better. The roof of the water shielding might
bend down .25ft to meet the wall or you could put fomenteck waterbags on top perhaps. Like with the first method you might need to put something light weight on top of the structure to help prop up the water ceiling that the top of the basalt structure is roughly
level with the top of the water wall. This is a nice method in that you be able to set it up quickly because there you dont have to postion a bunch of things carefully. They just start in the position and it will only take a small number of hours for a garden hose to fill all
the containers from what I read. Its also nice because you can keep better track of the small amount of cracks. You could also use 4 inch fence posts and fence post foam or concrete possibly to hold up the water bladders. You could dig it with a 3 inch auger attached
to a well powered drill instead of using a fence post digger, shovel or a real auger. To protect the fomenteck water bags and the 5.3 gallon constrainers the more delicate ones you could use 1 or two layers of heavy cheap moving blankets.
Hopefully this would block pretty decent air guns and stuff that gang stalkers might try to shoot at them and you could protect it with plywood from the most vulnerable direction. Can also protect them from any natural damage. Then you can put a heavy tarp
to help protect them from the sun. Poly tubing might also work for water shielding especially for the roof where there isnt much pressure on it or for shielding cracks but I dont know about how you close them so no idea if it works.
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The water shielding can act as an automatic sound barrior as you build I think and while you test the structure.
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HOW MANY 15 GALLON WATER CONTAINERS FOR A DOUBLE LAYER AROUND A 9XFT LONG 5FT WIDE BASALT STRUCTURE 6o of them about $10000
9 containers long is 11.25ft nearly long enough to the length of the structure 9 plus 2 containers which is 11.5
18 for first layer on sides
8 for first layer on ends since it takes exactly 4 to equal 5ft and fill in the space
26 for first layer
sides second layer is 22
ends second layer is 12
second layer is 34
total is 60 for double layer 1 heigh containers costs $1000
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15 gallon containers
https://www.thecarycompany.com/15-gallon-natural-tight-head-plastic-drum-reconditioned?utm_source=google_shopping&gclid=CjwKCAjw04yjBhApEiwAJcvNoT17vQCNe5vGlbW7CsZwLvpR_zIfcWKd_kqJI9DiGmnCwOBDVTTwOxoCj9YQAvD_BwE#specifications
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140 gallon water bags and other sizes
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0BL29YQKB/ref=ox_sc_act_title_3?smid=A1UJFOP8HLWSUN&psc=1
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large fomentek water bag
https://www.amazon.com/Large-Fomentek-Hot-Cold-Watedp/B00WVPNWZC/ref=sr_1_9?crid=336IIOOXN93R&keywords=fomenteck%2Bwater%2Btherapy%2Bbags&qid=1685220594&sprefix=fomenteck%2Bwater%2Btherapy%2Bbags%2Caps%2C84&sr=8-9&th=1
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large fomentek water bags in bulk cheaper
https://www.backbenimble.com/fomentek-hot-water-bottles.htm?msclkid=6459c66592211766d702a217101d5398
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1.3 gallon containers
36 Pcs 1.3 Gallon Collapsible Water Storage Bag Water Container Bag Emergency Jug Clear Plastic Storage Pouch Freezable Water Carrier Tank Foldable Bottle for Outdoor Sport Camping Hiking Backpack
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5.3 gallon collapsible containers not quite as big as they say for the ones I measured that i got from walmart after I filled them up to the absolute top. It was 10 inches wide 12 inches deep and 10 inches high or something.
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B09MVNJG17/ref=ox_sc_act_title_46?smid=AFACUH7IM17NK&psc=1
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pool water bag 10ft long and is it 1ft wide? $9 and free shipping
https://intheswim.com/p/10-single-water-bag-blue/72909.html#description-btn-div
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HIDING THE STRUCTURE
You could use a pop up gazebo or a more quickly set up greenhouse or possibly a soft storage shed wich is similar if there big enough. You set up the pop up gazebo and then build it inside of it. The gazebo is more respectable and accepted by
landlords and stuff then a big tent or tarp. Put a heavy tarp over the gazebo possibly to protect it from weather and other damage. If the amount of steel or aluminum in it is too much in the gazebo and messes up the shielding you might be able move it off of the
structure with a person or 4 wheeled doly on each leg ( just a random idea).
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IMPORTANT TO MOVE WITH URGENCY
The economy will get worse as far as I know and will possibly collapse. Gas prices will rise during the summer at least. Basalt and other materials and items might become less available.
The warm weather will end eventually making it a lot harder to complete a large structure. I certainly feel texteme urgency because of my rapid mental and physical decline and also these reasons.
Also as far as I understand it which is quite limited the world is getting worse and more controling, gang stalking will probably get more alot more empowered and there technology is getting better.
But the best way to move effectively is still to be smart and deliberate to test things as far as I know. It takes time to be smart so you should get started on it.
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QUESTIONS
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I didnt condense my questions enough i just tried to cover everything mostly even though I must have missed alot of things. I leave it to you to judge what information I need the most and to answer the questions and give other information
in the most helpful way you have time for. What I need urgently is to order my basalt and my water containers and I can figure out the other details as the stuffs on the way. So I need to be able to decide on a rough plan and on a type of basalt so I can order my
basalt. I need to know if water shielding is going to helpful for me and how much water I need.
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So I'm trying to block RNM because sinking up there attacks with my thoughts is an incredibly important part of the attacks. I want to block the mental attacks themselves but blocking the RNM will probably be enough to make that stop
by itself. I also need to block them making me feel emotionally numb, low energy, extremely depressed lack a void of happiness chemicals or something and making extremely unintelligent and cant form thoughts. These symptoms all vary at the
same time and seem parts of the same attack. Sometimes when its bad its also very hard to move and I can percieve my body as heavy and stuck and strange. My conciousness is compressed and receads as if I dont extist and I become detatched
Also reduces anxiety. Happened when I was writting this because speaking about it is a trigger for them and I had to wait for find the words. Other TIs talk about similar symptoms.
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an extreme amount in just a second since its artificial and they change based on triggers that hold an emotional charge and significance to my attackers.
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So i'm only trying to block them attacking my brain.
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How should the basalt be around my body compared to around my head?
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I think you said that you need it double thick above your head and behind it but in the pictures of your set up it showed 1 full crate above and 1 full crate behind the same as the full crate on either side.
Is it true that you need it double thick above and double thick protection behind while in a prone position?
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Why is that? Is above more important just because of the angle of attack or that part of the brain?
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Is this also going to be true with me whos not trying to block physical attacks? Will my forehead or face or top of head or both be more vulnerable?
Since all im trying to block are the RNM, mental attacks and perhaps nervous system influence ( just totally guessing about that last comment )
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In your photos you have pillowcases with basalt on top of the side crates and back crate covering the crack where they meet the top crate. The pillowcases only give you like 3 inches of protection. How does that actually work to block the crack?
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Why dont you need basalt to block the vertical cracks between the crates?
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I cant get a good handle on why you dont need 2 crates high 2 crates deep and 3 crates wide with one removed for your head to get the protection.
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Why dont you need basalt to block the vertical cracks between the crates?
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How much do you think the protection varies by thickness? If you double it or half it how much does the protection multiply or divide?
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What's the highest amount you think youve divided the attacks by and what was the weakness that stopped you from dividing it further?
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Could I divide it more than that and how?
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Do you think RNM and mental attacks will require more or less basalt then physical attacks. They seem to be able to intrude on my mind for reading or attacking to a
very unusual degree and none of my shielding tests have effected it at all for many years although I've done some wich might be very strong ones.
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WATER SHIELDING QUSTIONS
Do you think I need water with my basalt since it will cost me $1000 or $1500 to $2500? I think i've seen you say it blocks DC heavy pressure. Is that a single type of physical attack or an important aspect of electromagnetism?
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What are the chances they could use DC heavy pressure in a mental?
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Will all types of attacks be blocked with the combination of basalt and water if you have enough?
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is that the magic combination for everyone or just for your physical attacks.
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Whats the ratio in thickness of water to basalt for a full shield of water?
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How much do you think the amount of time I spend inside it will affect how well it works. Like will spending only 2 hours in it be a lot inferior then being able to spend 24 hours or a week.
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What do you think about how to build it?
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Do you think it would be ok to use small nail gun nails in the frame since the mainstay bags that you have metal on them?
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What are angles of attack and how does it make sense to set up my thicker protection
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I need any kind of help you can give me with this project. Iv been working on this plan and this post for 6 to 12 days where the marjority of my work everyday was on it. Then other weeks and months
on similar plans and research on making basalt shielding happen. So it takes me forevor to do anything even though I labor all day during the time im not recovering from it. It doesnt seem like Im capable of
taking in the information on what basalt shields and on the measurments and to figure out how to classify my attacks. I had to make a simple summary of the most simple aspects of using basalt and water
to understand it and that must have taken me a day or more of work to piece together different posts and to organize.

TL;DR**:** Hypergryph is relying way too much on Alters to give some much needed spotlight to some characters, when Alters shouldn't be a must to give low-rarity characters their own events or plots and if they continue that trend it will kill my hype for their stories, particularly in those cases where an Alter was simply not needed lore-wise before their event (A.K.A Silence Alter).

Welcome everyone to my heavily biased rant that no one but me might agree with and that will most likely be downvoted to oblivion. That's okay, you might have your own take, this is just my opinion. Feel free to disagree with everything I'm about to rant here like the madwoman screaming to the wall that I am right now.
With that out of the way and if you are still reading this, let's begin.

Alters on Arknights: A story-telling tool

...Let's talk about Alters, shall we?
Love them or hate them, they can be a tool for when an unit has potential and powers on their lore that aren't reflected on the original unit for whatever reason, or stuff that is foreshadowed on their lore that has a good reason to be relegated to an Alter unit (Texas having left the mafia for example, or Shining having made an oath to never use her sword again... whenever Shining Alter ever actually happens).
Something I liked going into Arknights is that Alters were rarely used solely as a money-grabbing scheme. They were that too, don't get me wrong, this is still a gacha game, but still... I got the sense that, unlike in other gacha games, Alters in Arknights actually had a narrative purpose, and it was one that wasn't deliberately engineered in a way that you could say that a certain event was just written in such a way to make an Alter happen (There's just 2 examples, maybe 4, of that happening in this game from what I counted, with only 3 of those released in Global right now, but we'll get to those ones in a second), but it was always born from lore that had already long existed before the Alter unit did.
With very few exceptions, all of the Alters we have gotten on Arknights actually have a reason to exist that was mentioned or at least hinted at long before their debut... Which makes those who did came out of the blue stick out all the more like a sore thumb.
To prove my point, I'm gonna list every Alter on the game so far with the exception of one, including the newly announced Executor Alter, and I'm gonna give a short summary of the lore that had been established for their existence prior to their actual release:
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• Lava the Purgatory, Kroos the Keen Glint, Hibiscus the Purifier and Greyy the Lightningbearer: Putting all four of these together because they share the same theme, and that theme is "Young/Inexperienced Operators growing up". With the exception of Greyy, all of these were 3 stars. The Op Reserve A1 Operators have some lore going on that has yet to be completely explored, and their 3 star selves being young gives them lots of room to grow. 4 star Greyy is a literal child, so it makes sense that when he shows up again, now older and a little more experienced, his rarity would reflect that. And while all of these, particularly Greyy's, may have less of a reason to exist that most of the other Alters on this list, that's more forgivable than say, Chalter, because all these four are either welfare or have a low rarity, with both Hibiscus Alter and Greyy Alter being rather niche 5 stars, which makes them unlikely to have been just a money-grabbing decision despite being gacha.
• Skadi the Corrupting Heart: Ever since her release, Base Skadi's files already described her as a "walking Catastrophe"... despite the fact that, prior to Gladiia's existence and the modules that would make the Abyssal Hunter niche a game-breaking team, she was actually considered one of the worst 6 stars of the game, and even today she's still rather mediocre at best without her faction supporting her, particularly when compared to other 6 star units. And even though the whole Ishar-mla sideplot wasn't introduced until her debut event, there were already hints of something Lovecraftian going on (Skadi's files, Specter's files, even Operators mostly unrelated to them as of this writing like Blue Poison's files and Deepcolor's... well, everything), with lots of lore readers predicting that something was going to happen, even on this very subreddit. And even though that something being a Bard Alter with a whole alternate universe Bad Ending storyline cop-out wasn't in anyone's predictions, it still had a lot more lore build-up to it than, say...
• Ch'en the Holungday: I don't need to repeat that lots of cans of worms got opened back when she released, but in case you don't know, here's an essay from two years ago about that whole drama. There's really not much more to say about her, she exists, moving on.
• Nearl the Radiant Knight: Base Nearl's files were already foreshadowing an Alter, what with them saying that "her current gear is somewhat limiting Nearl's combat utility". So when she got one in the Near Light event, I doubt anyone was truly surprised by it. Not much else to say, really.
• Specter the Unchained: If there were any doubts about Specter getting an Alter (or at the very least regaining her sanity during the Abyssal Hunter plotline), Under Tides and the second Operator Record that Specter got in that update, in which she became lucid again for a brief period of time only to lose it again after returning to Rhodes Island, should have been strong enough hints that HG was gonna do something with her in the sequel to that event. The only issues with the idea of an Alter, of course, being that any 6 star Alter would have felt redundant to what's quite possibly one of the best 5 stars of the game, and Specter Alter indeed had to get modules after her release to make her truly worth building. But gameplay aside, Specter getting an Alter made perfect sense with her pre-established lore.
• Gavial the Invincible: If Nearl getting an Alter was obvious, then Gavial might as well have had "I'm getting an Alter one day" tattooed on her tail. Her whole lore is that she is a warrior with excellent fighting prowess who just happened to chose to save more lives by being a medic instead. And even then, unlike Shining, her files and voicelines constantly have her willing to fight people herself... despite her 3 star medic self not having any abilities that would let her deal damage on her actual in-game kit. Like, at all. So if anything, Miss "I regret not giving them a few whacks with this staff here" not getting an Alter would have felt like a waste.
• Reed the Flame Shadow: Here's another Alter that was hinted at on the files of the original Operator long before their release. Even leaving the whole Victoria plotline aside, here we have an Operator who is described on her files as having Arts that are not mere pyrokinesis, but rather the manipulation of life itself**.** And that description was in the files of... a 5-star Charger Vanguard with just a 35% of Arts attack during skill activation, and that's with that skill having a full M3. Yeah... This Alter was not a question of "if", but rather "when".
• Texas the Omertosa: The case of this Alter would be on the same boat as Nearl's and Reed's if it wasn't for a funny little detail: I could be wrong, but I think that Base Texas and Lappland have been in the game since launch. That means that this Alter had been teased since Day 1. Let that sink in for a moment. But yeah, you all know the drill with this one: Mysterious past, mafia connections being mentioned here and there, Lappland mentioning that she "might try to bring back the old Texas", how she used to fight with two swords, ect... If anything, those who saw the hints early and liked what was being foreshadowed would have to wait a long time to finally get it, though HG made sure that those who had to wait no less than 2 years for this Alter to finally happen would be rewarded with a very powerful unit. Maybe a little too powerful in fact, but that's another topic entirely.
• Executor Alter (...what was the full name of this one again? I don't know Chinese): This one is similar to Skadi's case but without any non-canonical alternate timeline shenanigans (...I hope). Our good ol' friend Federico here is a very powerful individual, a true one-man army, or so his files have always said. There's even a mention that he singlehandedly prevented a war from happening (or nearly caused it himself? The way it is written is kinda vague...), damaged six buildings while on a mission, and killed a vicious beast with his bare hands. All that while still being a rather unremarkable (Not bad, just... unremarkable) 5-star spreadshooter sniper. So him getting a 6-star Alter is not that surprising.

Out of all these Alters, only Chalter was truly gratuitous in that she is only Ch'en with a modified water gun, nothing leading up to her existing prior to Dossoles Holiday. Other than her, only Greyy Alter and maybe Skalter could be criticized for coming out of nowhere, and even then they still have a decent enough reason to exist, with Skadi having already had a whole event and pre-existing lore prior to Under Tides, her Alter, and the whole Bad Ending stuff that came with it that would eventually lead to IS3.
...Oh yeah, there's also Yato and Noir Corne randomly getting Alters as part of the Monster Hunter collab, but other than my personal take on it and how I really hope Collab Alters won't be a recurring thing... It is just a collab, what did you expect? And even then, it could be argued that it makes sense for those Operators in particular to have been given the Alters, as they are both said to be experienced and reliable ops in their lore, but are held back from fully being that in-game because of their 2 star rarity.
My point is that, so far, almost all Alters had some lore reason to be that I could agree with.
And then... Silence Alter was announced.

Silence the Paradigmatic: One step forward, two steps back

When I first saw the Lonetrail trailer and saw Silence Alter, I was hyped. Silence was getting an Alter, and not only that, she was gonna be welfare? Could this be a sign that HG is finally gonna leave the trend of Limited Alters behind? My happiness was unmeasurable.
But then, after my excitement died down and I started to think, I realized something...
Go and read all the current Rhine Labs lore Including the manga. Including OG Silence's files, especially OG Silence's files.
Now, let me ask you a question: Did Olivia Silence, as a character, needed an Alter?
Was there anything on her files, or in the manga, or on some module or an Operator Record, that said anything about her character that would require her to be stronger in-game that she already was? Or something that would need to have her change her whole in-game class or kit?
Because, and this is just in my honest, humble opinion: No. No there was not.
Silence was not some kid or teenager like Greyy or the Reserve A1 squad. She wasn't holding back any "true power" cliché nor was she currently anything other than what she was in the past, like Gavial or Nearl. Silence was just Silence: A woman, a mother, a medic.
That's not to say that Olivia Silence didn't had room to grow as a character, I for one was very hopeful for a Rhine Labs event to touch on her strained relationship with Saria once again and I'm happy that Lonetrail seems to have gone there. But unlike, say, Texas or Reed, none of the character growth that was ever hinted at with Silence seemed to have anything to do with the possibility of an Alter. There was nothing on her files or she as a character that screamed "I need an Alter".
Olivia Silence and her whole character arc didn't need her to have a sudden 6 star Alter, just as she didn't need a 6 star Alter when she left Rhine Labs in her backstory, nor after the "present day" sideplot in the manga. Just like she didn't need one in Dorothy's Vision. There was nothing, no plot or event or sequel to the manga or whatever, that wouldn't had made sense with Silence just remaining her 5-stars Medic self.
Her class, her kit, heck arguably even her rarity made sense with her lore.
But now, she's an Abjurer supporter because... she went to space? That at its core it's not that much better than Chalter existing because Ch'en went to Dossoles and Tequila sold her a water gun there...
Okay, that was just me taking the piss, but still... Look, I'm sure Lonetrail is gonna be great and that I'm gonna love reading it once it comes to Global, and might give a good explanation as to why Silence Alter exists, but that still leaves this Alter with a flaw that, as I have exposed earlier, few of the Alters in this game actually had: There was little to no reason for this Alter to exist prior to the event it came out with. Whatever lore reason Lonetrail gives, it will be a self-sustained one because the Alter is already there.
You could argue than the pre-existing lore here is Silence's already established desire of curing Oripathy. But if that alone was the case, then a lot of other Operators at Rhodes Island should also get an Alter, starting with Sussurro. That alone doesn't feel like enough of a reason for an Alter.
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Character growth equals... Alter?

And that's when it hit me: I was not angry or disappointed that Silence was given an Alter with zero build-up to it.
I'm disappointed and a little salty because HG took a character arc I was patiently waiting for and then shoved up a good but still unnecessary Alter into it as if Alters were now obligatory, limited unit or not.
As if a low-rarity character can't have character growth or their own story arc without relying on an Alter. As if HG isn't confident enough on their own event stories without a shiny new Alter unit to help them promote them.
I like this game, and I love its characters, but I don't want to have to expect an Alter out of my favorite character just because I want them to finally appear on their own plotline. I don't want Andreana to finally appear on the next Abyssal Hunter event but as a weird Alter version of herself with the white hair and red eyes of the other Hunters like some people on this subreddit have suggested, not when Andreana's whole deal on her files is that she is her own thing: A gun-loving but normal woman who just happened to have been experimented on in the past, and giving her a more abyssal appearance or changing her class would erase that. I don't want Thorns to suddenly have a completely unnecessary Geek or Medic Alter just because I want him to have his own sidestory and have his past explored. Cuora finally regaining her memories... Okay, I guess an Alter wouldn't be so out of place there, but you surely get my point by now, do you?
You don't need Alters to tell a good story, and Alters shouldn't have to be equivalent to character growth.
"But that's just how gachas work!" Maybe. But that doesn't mean I have to like it.
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That's all. Thanks for reading my nonsense if you reached this far, thank you.

Hi all, I am LSW (one month until I test for my LCSW) with close to 3 years of experience in the field of social work. I have worked on ACT teams (1 year) , as well as worked as a therapist (2 years) specializing in TF-Psychotherapy, DBT, TF-CBT. I have phenomenal degrees from top R1's, diverse clinical experience, and have been lucky to receive incredible supervision to top it all off. January of this year I was hired at the VA. I have a very close friend there that helped me to get the position. I have no previous experience with the VA and did not intern there, I also did not interview and was a "direct hire" based on the strength of my contact there as well as high need to fill the role I am currently in.
Within the first four and a half months of my job, I have experienced more hazing and difficulty with me colleagues than I have anywhere else. Is this because I have no previous VA experience? Everyone on my team did internships, went through all the rounds of interviewing, and some even interviewed for several positions before being accepted into a role. In the time I have worked there, I am being put down on a near daily basis. Small (and I mean SMALLLLL) mistakes I have made have followed me for months. I even had a coworker message me on time that a case I was dealing with was "karmic" for a mistake I had made almost 6 weeks prior.
I have openly made comments about the culture on my unit, and that if we were to infuse some kindness and heart not only would we function better as a team and grow as clinicians, we would provide better care for our Veterans..... This was responded to by all of the members of my team going to my direct supervisor to tell him I was a poor fit on the team. Had a colleague of mine who I thought was a friend ask me to confide in her via our personal phone lines if I were struggling, because "It can be really lonely to come into the VA, and I want to support you any way I can." Well, a week later, she let my boss read through all the texts and stated I was "antithetical" to what needed to be represented within my role (mind you, my complaints were only along the lines of hey, we don't treat our fellow workers very kindly, and we are a team after all... no bashing anyone or the VA itself).
One of my other colleagues (higher credentialing than I, and in a different discipline) told me that my degree was only bits and pieces compared to hers..... I was so excited for this job, I'm part of a military family and I REALLY care about this cause, and yet.... I am dreading work every day. I have been directly told I am not allowed to use my clinical skill sets and need to stick to "discharge planning and case management only, because anything else would require an SOP" but recently one of my other social work colleagues (less experience than me) was allowed to start implementing clinical work on our unit, no SOP. Her first patient was a Veteran they took off my caseload.... assigned by the aforementioned professional who told me I only knew "bits and pieces."
I have faced homophobia, transphobia, etc.... I really want this to work, I want to be in this position, but I am being blacklisted by my team and I dont know what to do about it.
At one point my supervisor assigned us homework of a "do's and dont's" of our role to provide to other disciplines on the unit so they could better understand how to utilize the services us social workers offer. On one of my off days (I have an offset schedule, not M-F), my team decided this assignment was a "boundaries for the team" assignment and RAILED against me with a bullet pointed list of mistakes I had made. One of them even stated "dont pretend you are a realtor when you're actually a social worker" - I helped a client who was homeless with no dispo find an apartment he qualified for... When I reiterated what my supervisor said the assignment was, they all told me I was wrong. When I stated "Okay, so if this is boundaries for the team, can we find a time to work on it with all team members present?" and this comment lead them to go to my boss and tell him I "take things too personally."
I feel backed into a corner, like not a single thing I can do is right. I am being heavily monitored and vetted by my team members in a way that it feels like they are authority figures to me. They have all known my boss MUCH longer than I, and he is taking their word at face value. When they report something, he doesn't ask me a single question.... He goes "The TEAM states X," and begins to reprimand me. I AM A PART OF THE TEAM, TOO! Any time I have asked to meet with him individually about anything, he puts me off, tells me he's too busy. I've had 30 minute "check-ins" delayed more than a week. My colleagues have a request, and he jumps to help them. Puts aside things for their calls, etc.... I feel like I am drowning with no lifejacket and no one to turn to... My connection is good friends with my boss, so even the one "safe" person to confide in.... is not
I have also noticed there is also a "pay to play" culture on my unit. It is not uncommon for one or two social workers to feed the whole unit. I have personally witnessed one of our social workers spend a significant amount on a single catered lunch. While I think this is a sweet gesture, I do not believe it should be necessary for the success of the role. However, in the times I wasnt able to afford to help (private loans kicking my ass) I have been labeled as a non contributor and reprimanded for what I couldnt contribute. I just signed up for the AFGE in a last ditch effort that I may be treated fairly, but my hope is waning. When I asked the union, the rep told me "buy the muffins man." and that I would always be viewed poorly if I didnt participate in "traditions"
My team makes a point to constantly emphasize that I "dont know the VA like they do" because they interned. How am I ever supposed to progress here, if instead of being taught I am being shamed? Have any of you gone through and amended anything like this? I dont want to leave. I love this population and all the ways I get to serve, but I am so worn down and it's only been a few months.... I feel more than hopeless. I don't even talk at work anymore...I cry in solitude at least 3x a week... that's never been me. I feel like the role is changing me and I cant help but wonder if it's a change that will leave me worse off. I feel less confident in myself as a clinician with every passing hour in the building. I feel like I'm losing a skill set I spent the last many years cultivating. I am feeling fully, totally lost. I just had my 90 day review (5 1/2 months in) and got in trouble, with threat of disciplinary action or termination for using leave I had already accrued. My boss’ technicality was in the beginning, I had to use vacation time for an illness I was dealing with. He’s calling it leave abuse. I have my 6 month review in 2 weeks (not enough time to change anything) and he told me if it’s not sured up, I could lose my position. I feel trapped, and like I’m about to walk into a trap.
Any, and I mean ANY, advice/feedback/criticism is welcomed. I really want this to work.

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Hi all! I’ve read a couple of posts in this feed and let me start by emphasizing how thankful I am that this group exists and that everyone appears to be so open and welcoming and supportive.
I was hospitalized in March 2023 for several days where I underwent a video EEG and was diagnosed with PNES. The medical team at the hospital discharged me shortly after the diagnosis and recommended I follow up with a specialized clinic. They promised me I would be able to be seen within 90 days. It has been nearly 3 months, and I just received the notice they now are estimating that I will be able to start in November - another 6 months from now.
Right now, I seem to have these ‘episodes’ in bursts. I’ll go several days without them, and then have multiple episodes over the span of a few days. They mostly happen in the evenings, and I normally recognize my precursors with ~2 minutes warning. Sometimes I’ll have seizures, other times I’ll lose consciousness, and other times I’ll just start to feel really poorly and have tremors. I’ve noticed they can be triggered by significant changes in my hormones, such as when I’m on my period, really anxious, really relaxed, or ingesting intoxicants. Other than that, there doesn’t seem to be any really pattern. I’m a behavior analyst, so trust me when I say I’ve taken thorough data and can’t seem to find any common threads. And as someone with GAD, MDD, OCPD, and complex trauma - changes in my hormones happen often.
I have two incredible partners who have been super supportive, and my family does the best they can, but I feel like no one truly understands how difficult this condition is to live with. My OCPD shows up a lot in my need to control myself and the world around me, so having periods of time where I can’t control my own body has really wrecked my mental health. I feel like I’m burning out the people around me by talking about my ‘episodes’ all the time, but I live in almost constant fear of them. They’ve happened while I was driving, while I was in public, in the middle of the night, in front of my friends, etc. I work with children and one of my biggest fears is that I’ll have an episode with a client. It bothers me to the point where I’ve woken up from nightmares about this exact situation in a cold sweat. I feel like I have no control over my body or over my life, I feel like a burden to the people around me, and I’m constantly living in a place of fear.
Does anyone have any advice? I’ve tried looking up treatments online, but most of what I’ve seen has included a psychiatric service dog, CBT, or intensive work with a specialist. I’m trying to get in to see a specialist and I have been seeing a therapist. I love dogs but I don’t think a psychiatric service animal is in the cards for me - unless someone in this thread has one and finds it super super helpful, I’m not really going to consider that right now. I’m really struggling and sometimes I don’t know where to turn, so any support would be super greatly appreciated!

Seriously Mojang has this paper-thin understanding of environmental and industrial ethics, that they'll cut features that might be bad for optics but not change the game in an interesting way to reward sustainable or ethical building - or even make it possible. If you want to be successful late game, you basically have to build some kind of factory farm for food or build massive mines for blocks.
Some features that are way more unethical than anything Mojang has gone against recently:

• Locking villagers in cells forever rewards you with better trades and an iron farm. Same for farming animals and Piglins.
• Every plant-based food source sucks ass after early game - how hard would this honestly be to change? Beetroot Soup, Mushroom Soup, and Pumpkin Pie are way more resource intensive but worse than plain Steak. "But Golden Carrots and Apples!-" nope you need a gold farm to make these in meaningful quantities, which requires killing Piglins.
• Deforestation and leveling entire landscapes helps you, by decreasing hostile mob spawns. There's no incentive to keeping a natural biome alive near your home unless you're on a mushroom field where hostile mobs are disabled.
• There's no incentive to keeping spiders, or most animal mobs alive even though they're integral to many real-life ecosystems. This could be simple as causing fewer hostile mobs and more helpful mobs to spawn the more spiders are nearby, or increasing the rate that plants grow.

I'm sure you could find more but this is plenty to prove to me that Mojang is full of shit when they do stuff like this.