Basic wiring to start an engine

Throughout finals week, I probably averaged 2-3 solid hours of sleep per night. Typically when I get home from school I take a nap, but I started pushing those back farther in the night (around 10pm) because I am afraid when I wake up I might just fall back asleep again.
I used energy drinks (starbucks double shot) to stay awake most of the night. Monday through Friday it was one final exam every day. Once it hit like 2-3am, once I get up, I feel unsteady when I walk around. It's like being slightly drunk.
When friday came around I wanted to take a nap and I absolutely couldn't. My roommate slept like 17 hrs but I couldn't even fall asleep. My brain was racing, I felt an alarm in my head going "what are you doing, you are supposed to be studying, you are wasting precious time you don't have".
It got better as time progressed, but this is something I went through for 2 weeks. And it did not help that I was waiting for a final exam grade that determined whether I passed a class. That was prolonged my symptoms because I didn't have that closure that the semester was over. And we only had the weekend to ourselves before IPPE started and it was over an hour away. I spent the entire saturday packing so I really only had sunday.
I passed PK with a 70.03. Literally I was one homework question away from failing this class.

This turned out to be a pretty long rant my apologies, i needed somewhere to just let it all out.
Ive always been ugly, but ive developed bdd over the past two years. Delusions have worn off and i can only face the reality.
Im unattractive from head toe. Features that are normal looking on even most unattractive people are ugly on mine.
For some reason my circle consists of relatively good looking people who have great lives. Im talking the adolescent dream life, vacations, dream jobs/majors, new friends, lovers, becoming even more attractive.
I truly hate living in this body and there’s nothing that can distract me from it. Everywhere i turn im reminded of how ugly i am.
I wish i could be delusional again. I love life too much to actually end it. I just dont like my own life. Its getting so bad that i resent my mother for giving me her godawful features, from her awful jaw to extremely unfeminine body and features.
I look disgusting in pictures and gag everytime i see my reflection. Theres nobody irl who can give me support for this because everywhere i go i will be ridiculed or gaslit.
I try to be positive and compliment my friends + listen to them rant about their insecurities knowing those dont eat them up inside like my insecurities do (dont @ me on this i know my friends well enough) but i cant take it anymore. I hate seeing my face in pictures i hate feeling fat and masculine next to everyone i effing hate it.
Growing up watching all the ugly characters’ mandatory glow up and all those transformation videos where its obvious they had potential from the start and then looking in the mirror only to realize thatll never happen to me and that ill never fit in.
Whenever i feel positive about one thing another insecurity pops up. My face, excessive facial and body hair, body shape, stretch marks on the most abnormal places, boy hands, ugly nails, how my genitals look (i know its ridiculous), my awful posture, all my medical problems my parents never cared to treat, my lack of proper development due to cptsd holding me back in so many ways, my newly developed bdd and probably an ed on the way.
I want things for myself, i want things in life. But i cant go an hour without getting triggered, without crying and i have been going to sleep with a heavy heart every single day since two years ago. Im completely drowning in self hatred. I cannot look at myself and fool myself into believing im attractive. I even start to look at my own family in disgust of how unattractive they are.
I have truly lost it and i hate that about myself. I used to not care but now i do and its at the worst moment of my life. And i still have to listen to people 10x more attractive and/or with a life 10x better than mine rant about everything.
Everything sucks, i really don’t know how to cope, this has got me in a worse state than my literal cptsd. Sh*t sucks

Contact me to get Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator by chatting me on +44 759 388 2116 on Telegram/Whatsapp.
I have Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator.
Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator course is one of the best products on how to start a marketing agency.
Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator includes over 50 hours of step-by-step training covering EVERY aspect of building an agency from scratch. This is almost a plug & play system with enough success stories to back it up! Signing clients, running Facebook ads, building out your team, on-boarding clients, invoicing, sales... this course has everything covered for you.
The topics inside Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator course include:

1. Agency Navigator course Core Curriculum
   
2. Custom E-Learning Platform For Agency Owners
   
3. Financial Planner, Revenue Calculator, Outreach Tracker & More Tools
   
4. Websites Templates, Funnels, Ads & More
   
5. Template Contracts, Sales Scripts, Agreements & More
   

The lessons in Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator will teach you how to:
- Starting Your Agency
- Finding Leads
- Signing Clients
- Getting Paid
- Onboarding Clients
- Managing Client Communication...
...and much, much more!
To get Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator contact me on:
Whatsapp/Telegram: +44 759 388 2116
Reddit DM to u/RequestCourseAccess
Email: silverlakestore[@]yandex.com (remove the brackets)

Contact me to get Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator by chatting me on +44 759 388 2116 on Telegram/Whatsapp.
I have Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator.
Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator course is one of the best products on how to start a marketing agency.
Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator includes over 50 hours of step-by-step training covering EVERY aspect of building an agency from scratch. This is almost a plug & play system with enough success stories to back it up! Signing clients, running Facebook ads, building out your team, on-boarding clients, invoicing, sales... this course has everything covered for you.
The topics inside Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator course include:

1. Agency Navigator course Core Curriculum
   
2. Custom E-Learning Platform For Agency Owners
   
3. Financial Planner, Revenue Calculator, Outreach Tracker & More Tools
   
4. Websites Templates, Funnels, Ads & More
   
5. Template Contracts, Sales Scripts, Agreements & More
   

The lessons in Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator will teach you how to:
- Starting Your Agency
- Finding Leads
- Signing Clients
- Getting Paid
- Onboarding Clients
- Managing Client Communication...
...and much, much more!
To get Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator contact me on:
Whatsapp/Telegram: +44 759 388 2116
Reddit DM to u/RequestCourseAccess
Email: silverlakestore[@]yandex.com (remove the brackets)

If you want Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator, contact us on + 447593882116 (Telegram or WhatsApp).
If you want to run a successful agency and wonder how, look no further than Iman Gadzhi's Agency Navigator course.
With over 50 hours of step-by-step training, Iman Gadzhi's Agency Navigator covers EVERY aspect of building an agency from scratch. It's almost like a plug & play system with plenty of success stories to back it up. From signing clients and running Facebook ads, to building out your team and invoicing, this course has everything you need to know.
Inside the Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator course, you'll find:
The Core Curriculum for starting an agency A custom e-learning platform just for agency owners Website templates, funnels, ads, and more Template contracts, sales scripts, and agreements With this course, you'll learn how to:
- Start your agency
- Find leads - Sign clients
- Get paid - Onboard clients
- Manage client communication
... and much more!
To get your hands on Iman Gadzhi - Agency Navigator, contact me on:
Whatsapp/Telegram: + 447593882116
Reddit DM to u/RequestCourseAccess
Email: silverlakestore/@/yandex.com (remove the brackets)

Basically reaching the point where it is time to start wading into the makeup area of this transition, but I have zero clue about products, colour, application - kinda useless at this point.
Have been thinking about booking a session with someone at Sephora or MAC, but I feel like it is such a shot in the dark as to who you will get in terms of skills & trans-friendliness... Alternatively have been looking into session(s) with various makeup artists who offer lessons, but again, without recommendations it is less risk on skills, but who is trans-accepting and hopefully has trans clients.
Does anyone have any recommendations for the Hamilton/Cambridge/KitcheneWaterloo/Guelph area?
(Figuring it out myself isn't a realistic option and would prefer to work with a professional to get off on the right foot)

I made a post earlier today about the evolving landscape concerning spec scripts. I read that I would need to write pilots more than already existing episodes.
I wrote my first script a few years ago about the troubled development of an in-universe TV comedy-drama. However, it is shorter than the standard half-hour TV episode. That and the potential it has as a pilot would for a series of about a show that is basically the TVTrope of "Troubled Production", but I fear that it would come off as plagiarizing 30 Rock, The Dick van Dike Show, or Shirobako (tough I only saw a few brief clips of each).
However, I was trying to think of one potential TV show that could be at least a mini-series with a cult following.
Here it goes: An architect's assistant, in her early thirties, peruses worldwide projects to avoid stagnating in an entry-level position (existential dread about minimal career prospects despite being undergraduate college educated).
I read the memoir Springfield Confidential by sitcom writer and co-producer Mike Reiss (of early Simpsons and The Critic fame). He talked about getting one of his first staff jobs on the1980s sitcom It's a Living, in which he looked down upon thinking that he could easily write junk. He did, but came to realize that the staff writers on the shows are anywhere near of his assumption as "hacks". This made him realize that the show sucks because its premise is not flexible/workable enough for a TV series. In other words, no amount of even the best staff writers could save a bad premise.
Speaking of that, I heard that good premises are actually brief and not convoluted, e.g. a chemistry teachers resorts to producing meth.
Would my basic premise idea have potential as a comedy-drama mini-series (for streaming)? I know that I would need a pitch bible, but I am curious if my idea can work from the very start. I need to know if it is one of these situations some think they have great ideas but literally no one else think their ideas are any good.

I mean it might be there already, but when we're a few years out from it, I firmly believe that this could be considered an all time, foundational title reign for AEW.
Think about the belt when it was introduced. Before OC, there had been one title holder, and sure, the 4-way to crown PAC was a lot of fun, but there wasn't that much fanfare with it. It was firmly the third most important men's title in AEW (fourth counting tag), not helped by the fact that PAC only defended the title 6 times in 3 months, half of which were not in AEW. Cassidy has not only defended 20+ times, week after week, but he's brought a ridiculous amount of prestige to a brand new title. It's surpassed the TNT, surpassed the tag straps, definitely surpassed the U.S. title, and there are even times when I care much more about it than either company's world title. To do that with a title that had effectively 0 lineage before him is unreal.
More than that though, the reign itself has just been incredible. Somehow, without basically any long term feuds (are the Kip story and the JJ/Lethal the only multi-week things he's had?), he's told one long cohesive story connecting the reign, while also making each individual match engaging and unique. We're watching him get more and more desperate, seeing more and more get taken out of him as the weeks pass. Injuries from old matches accumulate and stay consistent, and he's forced to find new ways of winning as opponents figure him out. Seeing the transition from winning with an Orange Punch, to multiple Orange Punches, to needing to pull out the mousetrap or other rollups, you can tell exactly where we are in his story.
And the matches themselves are all consistently great, to a kind of ridiculous degree. This man is being tasked with opening Dynamite basically every week, and somehow it's usually the most fun part of the show each time, in its own way. There's just so much variety to it. Wanna see him play babyface in peril to a monster? OC vs Big Bill. Wanna see him do a classic Memphis style match better than most? OC vs JJ. Wanna see him wrestle fucking Shibata with Mike Tyson on commentary? That's there too. What about a battle royale? Check there. Each one is different, each one showcases someone else and makes them look great, and each one is just so goddamn fun.
Who knows how it's gonna wrap up, or if we'll even continue to care about the IN title, but if it stays as AEW's workhorse belt, there's a great chance this goes down as one of THE AEW title reigns. Just think OC deserves his flowers for taking what could have been a nothing title and basically dragging it to relevancy. But I'm also an OC mark, so what do I know.

I'm a male in my 40s. I've forgiven my alcoholic stepfather for beating the hell out of me and mildly molesting me -- he used to hold me in a bear hug on his lap and kiss my neck and get a boner and wouldn't let me go for a long period, maybe 10-20 minutes each time.
I never told my mother about the boner and necking thing, but to this day she still insists that he was "just a stern disciplinarian" in regards to him beating me up. Maybe she never saw him insidiously punching me only in the stomach to take my wind, kicking me only in the stomach or asshole or tailbone and buttcheeks to avoid causing visible marks of bruising while inflicting lasting pain. Maybe he hid it that well. I don't know. As a kid I thought she knew and supported it, I thought everyone knew, so that's like 50 layers of onion to go through.
Due to his sneakiness that fucker almost got away with it until my father finally grilled me for flinching and/or pissing myself whenever he yelled at me in anger (he didn't hit me, so my reaction was suspect). I still remember CPS and the cops walking my stepfather out of the house in cuffs and him turning his head towards me and saying, "how could you do this to me, boy?" Shit, I felt bad about that one for some crazy reason until my late 20s. What a mind fuck.
My stepmother was just as bad, locking me in a small closet where I could only stand for hours while my step siblings and cousins played, or giving me just a bowl of lettuce for dinner when I was crying from hunger while everyone else got regular food, saying I needed to lose my "fat butt" (pictures from my youth show an emaciated kid, so no I wasn't overweight). She's dead now and hopefully standing in a small closet in hell with a bowl of skunk lettuce and hunger pangs.
I did choose to forgive them all for my own sanity, but it ain't always easy. The forgiveness dries out sometimes and I have to add water.
At 12 years old I finally snapped. I became ultra violent to make everyone afraid to mess with me. At home, in the neighborhood, at school, anyone showed the slightest bit of aggression and before I knew what I was doing I'd be swinging some blunt weapon within reach at their head (a pipe, a board, a brick, a desk, it didn't matter). I was trying to preemptively stave off any violence against me. It became a way of life, and before I knew it, it became my way of life. I had so much trauma-induced fear in my core that it didn't take much to flip my switch anywhere I went on anyone who aggressed me other than people younger or smaller than me, elders, or special needs folks. If you were substantial enough to be a physical threat, any aggression towards me was the same as taking a swing at me. I was basically just completely freaking out and had lost control from fear of being harmed more.
It took me till my 30s to undo what I'd become and to have some stability in my life, but I'm still fucked up from what I went through and from all of the fucked up things I did in my adolescence after I finally flipped out from the abuse. Most people think I'm a totally boring normal office job guy who can be an asshole once in a while, but I just learned to fit in and manage the damage for the most part. It's just the reaction to aggression that gives me away.
The way I explain it to my wife (who likes to badger me when she's cranky then gets mad when I react): in my childhood all of my skin was torn and cut and burned off of my body. In my young adulthood I grew protective scar tissue to allow me to function semi-normally in society. The scar-skin is very resilient overall, but when people are aggressive or passive aggressive with me it slices straight to the nerve. Any form of aggression has that effect...I can't endure it at all. I don't become violent anymore (I haven't thrown a punch since my mid 20s, which was self defense), but I do go into defense mode and my body language and voice show that I'm aggressively reacting.
This doesn't work well in society, because passive aggression and manipulation are considered acceptable behavior, and it's not acceptable to react to it aggressively. It makes the reacting person appear to be the aggressor and they become the asshole rather than the person who initiated the aggression. It's almost like a mental disability, honestly.
As a result of my aggression-thin skin, and it taking so long for me to get my life together, my aunts and uncles and cousins mostly think I'm a loser and an asshole. It doesn't matter that I put myself through college (yes via working and horrible loans), built a solid skill set and career for myself, and I support 3 well-adjusted and happy kids in a good middle class area. It doesn't occur to them that maybe my brother (who's in prison for murder) and I struggled as a result of our home life. To them, my brother and I are just bad apples, and our parents are sweet upstanding members of society.
Year after year, enduring that, especially with my stepfather being treated like a saint while I'm treated like an aberration, is very tiring on my soul.
Thanks for listening.

Hello everyone I have been delving and dabbling in Jung and psychology to improve myself and work on my shadows.
I have difficulty dealing with my anger. I either explode or repress it in order to not explode. Even as a child I have always been aware of this angeout of control temper, it was definitely one of my vices, as a child I was prone to terrible tantrums which would end up in my father beating me up to control me, as a teen I was never able to control my outbursts.
And now as an adult I have learnt to repress it and control it or express It better but I always live in fear that one day that I would not be able to control it, it would explode out of me and I might end up doing something I regret.
When I feel like my anger is justified and fair and warrants a reaction I don't hesitate to let out my anger and I work hard on trying to express it in a safe and healthy way, but this requires alot from me and I end up feeling very drained and tired.
Although I am dealing with it better now I have a lot repressed anger from the past with the men in my life - starting with my lovely father who used me as his personal punching bag growing up ( until one day he pushed it too far , I went into one of my rages (see what I mean?) and punched him back. I never spoke to him after that day until he died, he would visibly shrink and shrivel up the few times we came across eachother) two partners and brothers, cousins and a few business partners etc.
I have moved away , clapped back , stood up for myself, expressed my anger in healthy ways etc but I still feel like there is still alot of old resentment and anger that is always bubbling under the surface waiting to explode from all the times that I had to swallow my anger even when it was unfair, cause I am a woman. Cause I was a helpless child, confused teen.
Si I need to look for better ways to process my anger and face my shadow and better integrate this quality into my life cause I also feel like my fair anger when properly expressed and dealt with is one of the strengths that propesl me and makes me a powerful, strong woman. I want to feel my anger freely, revel in it and release it in a safe way. I want to be rid of this tight pain in my chest.
I have been in therapy for the past one year. My Dr tells me that I need to allow myself to feel the anger to be able to let go of it. But my fear that my anger if felt would be destructive always stops me from feeling it fully. Any suggestions of practices that I could do. A session I could do to release and feel this anger and be free of it would be helpful. Personal experiences and how you have successfully dealt with it is helpful too. Any insights on dealing with anger as a woman, anger as a shadow etc is welcome.

Contact me to get Iman Gadzhi - Agency Incubator by chatting me on +44 759 388 2116 on Telegram/Whatsapp.
I have Iman Gadzhi - Agency Incubator.
Iman Gadzhi – Agency Incubator course is one of the best products on how to start a marketing agency.
Over the span of 20+ hours, Agency Incubator has training that covers EVERY aspect of building an agency. This is almost a plug & play system with enough success stories to back it up! You name it... signing clients, running killer Facebook ads, building out your team, on-boarding clients, invoicing, sales... this course has everything covered for you!
The lessons inside Iman Gadzhi - Agency Incubator course include:
1. Foundations
2. Mindset
3. Systems & Processes
4. Finding Leads and Setting Meetings
5. Sales
6. Service Delivery
7. Operational Supremacy…
… and more!
To get Iman Gadzhi - Agency Incubator contact me on:
Whatsapp/Telegram: +44 759 388 2116 (Telegram: multistorecourses)
Reddit DM to u/RequestCourseAccess
Email: silverlakestore[@]yandex.com (remove the brackets)

Chapter 2: Mother Fuckin Dan
Dream had gotten a balayage at her hair appointment. She liked the way it looked but found the way that the hair dresser cleaned her hair to be too dry and immediately went home to add hair oils into her hair. Dreams hair was a lost cause, it's not that it couldn't be cleaned, it's that she didn't like the way it looked or felt when clean. Just like Angelafina's rotting teeth and Sky's snotty sleeves, this was a choice they made daily not to fix because they enjoyed these things about themselves. Some may see it as flaws but they saw it as normal and comfortable.
The girls had decided to go to the address the following day because Dreams hair appointment took so long and they all had to meet up with their personal trainer Kaela at her business "Fun Kicks" to do their training for soccer. Nikki, due to her extreme delusions also thinks she is a soccer star so her friends humor her and pretend to be her teammates for Nikki's tiktok videos where she pretends to be a professional soccer player and well, everything else. So they had found a personal trainer that they knew also had a lot of delusions of fame and status knowing she would be perfect to help Nikki think she's doing a great job. But in reality, all of the girls are terrible at soccer, especially Kaela the trainer.
The girls arrived at the museum and followed the signs leading them to the steps that go to the basement where the museum is. It was right under a metaphysical shop they had been to many times before but had never seen this museum under it. Maybe it was new, there is no way they missed it so many times before. After they enter they see a beaded curtain leading to a backroom with a red light emitting from the room. "Back there," Dream says nervously, "we need to go back behind the curtain". Angelafina, confused, asks Dream how she knows. Dream replies, "I don't know but I just feel like I've been here before and that's where we need to go". There was no one in the main part of the museum so they figured they might as well follow Dreams suggestions. As they walk through the beaded curtain they hear what they can only describe as 80s porn music playing and the smell of the men's cologne Drakkar noir. Between the red lighting, music and smell of cologne they immediately worried they had gotten themselves into a dangerous situation.
Suddenly the mysterious man walks out from the other room wearing his baseball cap and his porn stache looking great and faces the girls to say "Hello ladies, it's about time you showed up, I'm Dan and you are the midnight warriors". They all stood there for what seemed like an awkward amount of time in shock staring at Dan. Who is this mother fucking Dan and why does he think we know what the midnight warriors even are? "No we are Sky, Nikki, Dream and Angelafina!" exclaims Sky. "OH but you are SO much more than that, don't you ever wonder why you all love Greek mythology so much? It's no coincidence, I've been awaiting your graduation to tell you 4 to start your training" Dan says with excitement. "I just have one question" Nikki interrupts, "can I record the training to post on my tiktok? I'm pretty tiktok famous and this is so much more exciting than making a video of me writing my grocery lists and trying to tie my shoes and struggling to do so. " Dan seemingly irritated with Nikki responds harshly "This is what your biggest concern is after hearing this news? No you can not post our training it's top secret!". Nikki, now upset, looks up at him and says "you're lucky your hot or I'd be so mad at you mother fucking Dan!". Concerned, Dan looks to the girls and says "yeahh so that's another thing, please stop calling me hot, I am your father, all of you, I don't know how you've all not noticed how similar you look to each other before, the only difference is your hair but your faces are pretty identical". It wasn't until that moment that the girls looked to each other and made the realization he was right, how did they not notice they were all so similar looking before? Maybe it was because each girl was very narcissistic and only cared and focused on themselves. They were so beyond being self absorbed they somehow never noticed they all looked so much alike. "So what are we training for and how did we not know we are sister?" Dream finally asks. "I'm not calling you daddy!!" Nikki complains. "You abandon us our whole life and show up now to train us?" asks Angelafina. "I am training you to learn how to harness the power that is already within you, you were all born in a different realm than this, I am your father but you each have a different mother and you each have partial powers of your mothers. How you never realized that you all look so similar is beyond me. You all took after my looks not your mother's." mother fucking Dan explains to the girls. Sky thought about it for a moment and he really did look a whole lot like herself with just a mustache and hat on. "After tonight your lives will never be the same again girls, let me tell you the story of how you all came to be born and what your powers are first thing tomorrow so we can start your training." Dan tells them as they stand there still looking shocked. The girls agree to meet Dan tomorrow at a different location that he wrote on another piece of paper to hand them. As they approach the bus stop they turn back to look at the metaphysical shop again and noticed that the signs to the museum were gone. The place was never there to begin with? Are the girls losing their minds or is there something strange and magical happening here? "Mother fucking Dan...I can't believe he's our dad...I wonder who are moms are?" Dream says to the other girls. "I guess we will find out tomorrow!" responds Nikki. This was just the beginning of their very long journey and best believe Nikki is recording it and posting every moment even though Mother fucking Dan told her not to. I wonder what he would do if he found out.

My Girlfriend of 5 1/2 years was diagnosed with elevated prolactin. She began Cabergolin about three months ago .5mg 2x week. Over the past few weeks I have noticed drastic changes in her personality. She is becoming increasingly impulsive, deceptive and emotionally unstable. Severe mood swings that range from anger, anxiety, joy, sadness, sexually aroused,loving, apathy, etc. it’s a full range of emotions, and the mental state can flip in minutes.
This is causing an immense amount of stress and sadness for me, and putting our relationship through a lot of grief.
I’m wondering if anyone out there has experience in these side-effects and how did you and your significant other manage to get through/navigate this situation?
The past month and a half have been so different. I started to detect her lying about very trivial things. That led to lying about lying, and coming up with extravagant stories to support her lie.
She began spreading falsehoods about our relationship to her fiends. A friend told her to go on dating apps. She did. When I asked her why and to please delete profile, she said she didn’t really know and willingly deleted.
She is still very happy to receive my attention whenever I’m not doing work stuff. We live together, and I work from home. So we’re together more than not.
But that quickly evolved into her seeking constant male attention from her co-workers when I was busy working, or her at work.. On the days before her next dose of Cabergolin was when she’d have the apparent moments of clarity. She would cry and tell me she felt horrible for putting me through that, and that she doesn’t know how to control it or not act impulsively, wishes she could stop.
She is an honest woman at her core, which only makes the situation more frustrating and confusing. Does this sound like too high of a dose, or a negative reaction? Do these side effects diminish over time?
I promised I’d support her through her treatment, no matter what changes occurred. But at this rate, it seems things are going to get worse before they get better. I’m not sure how much more I can take, and don’t want to get hurt.

Hi, let me just say that I posted here yesterday about having just finished the show and I wanted to thank everyone for the comments and the conversations. I couldn't stop thinking about the show and I didn't want to leave these characters so, I started rewatching the show (in the background) earlier today.
How do you feel about Nate at his end? I understand if people felt he was just an asshole in Season 5 as in many ways he is. I feel, though, that he was truly just lost in life, and while he acted like a shit head he wasn't truly one. Throughout the show he was trying to figure himself out and sadly he put himself into situations where he was trying to force himself into being someone he wasn't. While it may be that he truly was meant to be a funeral director, the only thing I feel is absolutely certain is that he was happy being a father to Maya. You can see that in the ways he talks about her versus Brenda and Lisa in that he means it when he says she was the best thing that happened to him.
I feel Nate kept trying to make his first relationship with Brenda work because he didn't want to accept that they weren't good together. He wanted the happy "dream" relationship, but he didn't know how to get that. Not that anyone can knows how to achieve that, it just happens but instead Nate felt he could make it happen. Then with Lisa he wanted to make it work because he loved his daughter and he truly cared about Lisa. He felt that with time he could love Lisa beyond just as a friend and mother of his child. He was devastated by her death because he did love her but not in the way that one should love their significant other. I think he felt guilt for not making it work, but again, he was believing that he could "make" or force something to be that in reality was never going to work out.
I'm not sure if Nate would have gone back to Brenda if Lisa hadn't died. Considering he was starting to act on his feelings with Brenda before Lisa's disappearance indicates that he might have tried getting back with Brenda regardless of Lisa's death. Though he might have not ran into marriage so quickly if he wasn't mourning. Either way, since things with Lisa weren't working, he decided to try things with Brenda once more. I think that he believed his relationship with Brenda ended due to reasons other than incompatibility, so he felt that it could still work out between them. He was still blind to the reality of what a relationship should be and that he rushed into marrying Brenda because he thought that because he loved her, it must mean that they would be okay. Nate leaned to Maggie because he was once again realizing that his life wasn't what he wanted and that he wanted love beyond what he felt for Brenda.
While I'm not sure Nate wouldn't make the same mistakes again, I do think he learned something about why his life and relationships weren't working. Who knows if he and Maggie would work or even if they would try, either way his interactions with her opened his eyes to the fact he and Brenda weren't right for each other. He decided to end things with Brenda without there being some extreme circumstance, unlike their first breakup or when Lisa died. This time he chose to end it because he realized he couldn't force the life he wanted but that instead he would just have to one day find it.
Nate was an asshole in his treatment of Brenda durring their marriage and he was incredibly selfish in trying to drag relationships on far past when they should have ended. Yes, he did cause Brenda and Lisa and maybe other women's pain by stringing them along when in reality he should have just ended things. While he did this for his own wanting to have a relationship he also did this because he wanted to be the right person for the people he loved. He wanted to be the person Brenda needed or Lisa needed because he truly cared for them but in doing so he hurt them. I don't think he ever meant to hurt them or be malicious in selfesness. I think it was an equal amount of selfishness and love that caused him to act the way he did. While Nate absolutely hurt Brenda in his wanting to end things and his subsequent death, he was also freeing her by letting her go. Nate was an ass but he had a lot of heart and a lot of love to give but sadly he didn't have a chance to give it to the right person.
This is my opinion and thoughts and I would love to hear anyone else's thoughts about Nate.

I started exercising at 22 to get rid of a fluffy beer belly. Went in pretty hard and it was fun. At 25 I became ill and gained 30kg, exercised easy level to recover mentally and physically. At 30 I went to the gym once or twice a week to do something that made sense, to help my body last through the pandemic home office thing. Today I go there for a tough half an hour after work to help my mind shift focus. Doesn't really matter why I keep returning or for what reasons but obviously I do. Couldn't help notice it seems I grew a little bit of back while growing up.

it’s my partners card, it looks like a native american balbasaur but after doing a bunch of searches we couldn’t find anything about it not even a picture of it. could it be fake?

I've been riding an ebike for about 2 weeks now, and people keep expecting me to go when I'm decently certain I should be stopping. I'm starting to question my knowledge of the rules of the road here. Either that, or people are just used to cyclists being jerks. I'm decently certain bicycles are vehicles too...
A couple situations I've faced:
I'm riding on the goose trail and coming up to a road. There is a stop sign on the trail, no stop sign on the road, and some bushes blocking your view of the road. I stop at the stop sign and almost get rear ended by someone who tells me I'm supposed to pull off to the side if I'm going to stop. Stopping at stop signs is normal, right?
I'm coming down a hill with a crosswalk shortly after the bottom. As I'm coming down the hill, there is someone crossing the street towards me. I slow down enough that I should be able to go behind him, or safely stop if he's slower than I thought. He stops in front of the car lane beside me, and waves me through in front of him. Bikes still need to yield to people in crosswalks, right?
I'm on a road with no bike lanes. I come to a 4-way stop at the same time as a car. The car is to the right of me, so they should get to first. I stop to wait for him, and he waves me through in front of him. I thought the person on the right is supposed to go first?
I know the rules for bikes are slightly different than the rules for cars, but are they that different? I could just be dumb here, but I don't think they're different enough to mean blowing stop signs is okay.

In England
TLDR: I had a car accident. My medical licence has expired and my renewal has been with DVLA for over a year. Can I get prosecuted?
I have a medical license that expired in 2021. It’s been renewed once before, never revoked, never had any issues. I self reported my drug addiction to DVLA; I was clean and sober by the time I passed and needed to report my mental health conditions anyway, now I essentially need to piss in a cup every 3 years. (To clarify I am still clean and sober)
In 2021 I tried to renew and heard no response, and I kept trying to ring and couldn’t get through. Eventually I panicked, gave up and renewed again (everywhere said covid has screwed renewals so chalked it up to that)
This time they got the application but took literally months for my GP to do their bit (they called me and said they were fine for me to drive last year). However my psychiatrist’s office have been no use, but I haven’t been with them for years, DVLA don’t seem to care and say they need a statement from my psychiatrist.
I have recently started up with a new one but hadn’t got myself straightened up to call DVLA.
A few weeks ago I reversed into a fence post (I’d left it in reverse, like an idiot, and started the car without the clutch). No injuries to me or anyone else. No damage to my car. I’ve filled in the paperwork and sent it off to my insurers.
However now I’m freaking out. I read Section 88 and it said that my application must have been within the year for me to continue driving. I didn’t know this and thought it was just if it was with the DVLA.
I’m now terrified I’m going to get prosecuted for driving without a license. I have a young son and I don’t know if I’m catastrophising or being realistic! Is this a fine, points, disqualification, jail time??
I’m calling the DVLA tomorrow but for now I can’t sleep and my heart is racing.
Any information on this area would be great?

What’s good y’all?
I’m an amateur mixing engineer and was working with an artist recently on a song of theirs. They like how it sounds so far but they want me to make the vocals on the second part of this song linked below more aggressive. Working with his vocals are particularly challenging because my guy likes to move around a lot in the booth when he gets into it.
I already have a couple rounds of compression (1st VCA for peaks since it’s pretty dynamic, 2nd FET for shaping the tone) as well as some saturation using Nectar 3’s decimate saturation mode for the overall vibe. I’m thinking of adding some subtle distortion maybe as well as pulling back a little on the compression. What are y’all’s thoughts/feedback? Would really appreciate it.
Also - this is probably one of the most challenging mixes I’ve had to do yet when it comes to dynamic consistency. The two parts within this song are wildly different in terms of vibe and feel, which makes “mastering” pretty interesting. (No way this guy pays for a separate master). My approach so far has been to automate between a few pairs of stereo out compressors and limiters, one set for the first part that gets bypassed so that the second set of stereo out processing can take the stage in the second half. I do this in the interlude where he’s just talking to make it a somewhat smooth transition. Any advice on this front as well? Thanks again.
Here’s the song (no master bus processing): https://vocaroo.com/171ThkfTsz6Y