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The Rising of the Shield Hero ● Tate no Yuusha no Nariagari ● 盾の勇者の成り上がり
2014.11.08 02:33 naofuni The Rising of the Shield Hero ● Tate no Yuusha no Nariagari ● 盾の勇者の成り上がり
Official community for the suffering adventures of Shieldbro (The Rising of the Shield Hero). Also known as Tate no Yuusha no Nariagari.
2012.09.27 02:50 spanktruck Guild Wars Dye Job
This is a hub for all things Fashion Wars. Share your character's current look, your wardrobe achievements, the newest fashion trends, and everything in between.
2021.09.27 14:00 EsotericN1nja EscapingPrisonPlanet
This community explores the possibility that Earth could be a prison planet and that we're all unknowingly stuck in a reincarnation cycle, since there is plenty of evidence indicating that this could be the truth. Evidence suggests that after physical death, human souls are memory wiped and sent back to Earth to live another physical life, for reasons that do not benefit us. Earth may not be a "cosmic school" like it has been theorized, but a prison planet camouflaged as a "cosmic school".
2023.06.03 00:25 AntidoteAlt 2 hours and 30 minutes of the best chill newage rap. Sit back, light up, and enjoy.
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2023.06.03 00:25 Melatonin_ate_my_cat Y'all - I love you
I think I'm going to try to delete reddit for good. I've had several accounts, and always end up deleting them before creating a new one half a year later. I love this community and I love all of you, but I think reddit generally is bad for my mental health. More specifically, I think that I'm spending the time I used to spend self harming, doom scrolling on this site, which isn't really how I want to spend my time, and the concerns of someone IRL potentially finding my account creates a lot of anxiety for me. There's no guarantees that I won't create another account in the future, but I'm going to say goodbye. You are all wonderful humans, and will forever hold a place in my heart. Goodbye y'all
<3 i'll miss you
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2023.06.03 00:24 SarahWhisper Good luck on tomorrow's exam!
Here are some mindful and motivational mantras! Use them before your exam tomorrow!
"Knowledge is power, my mind is my tower."
"I've learned, I've grown, now it's time to own."
"No test can best me, for I am ready."
"Strength in mind, answers I'll find."
"I'm prepared, I'm not scared, success will be declared."
"Study is my tool, calm and cool, ready to rule."
"Wisdom is my light, shining so bright, ready for the fight."
"Every question, a lesson, leading to my progression."
"Confidence inside, with each stride, let my knowledge guide."
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2023.06.03 00:24 AcanthocephalaWide89 Why have Josie, Michaela, & Tiffany been able to congratulate Jed, the Jed who just got done shaming his sister Jill on her book release, & cannot similarly give a post like “praying for you” for Jill? They did for Jinger’s book. Why do they want to cozy up to Jed and those within IBLP?
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Seriously? Jed coordinated dropping these at the same time as the docuseries to distract from Jill. Jed liked posts shaming Jill, the other day, after she announced her book. Josie and Tiffany can like Jinger’s post about her book but can’t spare a nice thing to say to Jill? submitted by AcanthocephalaWide89 to BringingUpBates [link] [comments]
2023.06.03 00:24 NikitaGAMERvide Charlie should die painfaully
Im season 4 ep 10, and I think Charlie should be gutted and put on a pike. She killed Nick, and the way Alicia BONDS with her is outrageous. Charlie is the worst fckn character I hope they die as painfully as humanly imaginable. I dont care they were just a child manipulated into bad actions, I dont care they'r slightly likeable. Nick was too good of a character, and Charlie is just a disgrace to all the show. I would never bond with the killer of my BROTHER, NEVER. Alicia bonding with her is straight up bs.
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2023.06.03 00:24 Andrei22125 The original quote is about rabbits
2023.06.03 00:23 Funny-Photograph-437 Red Planet
One of my favorite episodes, where Kenny Roger's chicken moves in and Kramer can't stop the red light.
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2023.06.03 00:23 gothamstudios Capturing Success: The Power of a Professional Photo Shoot for Work
2023.06.03 00:23 MaxPCgamer HP wants me to pay $800+ dollars to replace bad DDR4 sticks on L30 Omen LOL
Literally got off the phone like a minute ago, since their online services is trash.
Both of the RAM sticks that came with my L30 Omen went bad, 16x 2 (32GB) HyperX Fury sticks OEM to HP. Tried contacting Kingston, they said nothing they can do as these sticks are technically HPs, told to contact HP.
Bought this PC in Dec of 2021, HP says PC is out of warranty and it will cost me $825 dollars to replace them.
I said no thanks and hangup.
The guy literally made me wait for 30 minutes after I told him serial number.
Does the oven trick work on ram?
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2023.06.03 00:23 quagmirecentral [US-NY] [H] Paypal [W] Bulk, Paying 12 per 1000 commons, 14 per 1000 rares, 65 per 1000 holos
ALWAYS BUYING BULK!!!
The bulk has to be lightly played to near mint condition (English only). I do buy in quantities less than 1000, the payment proportion stays the same. I cover fees you cover shipping.
The most cost efficient way of shipping cards is by packing it into a Large Priority Mail Flat Rate from the United States post office. Using this method you are able to ship 7500 cards at a cost of around $22. (https://store.usps.com/store/product/shipping-supplies/priority-mail-large-flat-rate-box-largefrb-P_LARGE_FRB
Some local post offices have them out so you can just grab them(they are free to take and use, you pay the shipping cost when you actually ship out the item).
Thanks for looking.
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2023.06.03 00:23 sliuoa Looking for a slight upgrade from my GTX 1050 PC for Valorant.
1. What will you be doing with this PC? Be as specific as possible, and include specific games (ex: resolution, FPS, settings) or programs you will be using.
- I mainly play Valorant on my PC. My current PC runs it at almost max settings (only details at low, everything else at high) at around 140 FPS but I have a 165 hz 1080p monitor. I would like to get it to 165 at max settings. I believe just the GPU may need to be upgraded?
2. What is your maximum PRE-TAX budget before rebates and shipping?
- My budget is $800 if I were to build a whole new PC but I would prefer to just replace parts on my current build for much less if possible.
3. When do you plan on building/buying the PC? Note: beyond a week or two from today means any build you receive will be out of date when you want to buy.
- I can buy the parts now or wait for a better deal down the line if recommended.
4. What, exactly, do you need included in the budget? (ex: toweOS/monitokeyboard/mouse/etc)
I believe I just need a new GPU. I'm willing to upgrade my RAM and SSD as well if needed. I don't know if the RAM and SSD I have right now are good. I am satisfied with my monitor, mouse, and keyboard.
5. If reusing any parts (including monitor(s)/keyboard/mouse/etc), what parts will you be reusing? How old are they? Brands and models are appreciated.
- I'm keeping my headphones, monitor, mouse, and keyboard as they are less than 1 year old.
6. Will you be overclocking (ex: CPU/GPU/RAM)? If yes, are you interested in overclocking right away, or down the line?
- No, I don't even know how to overclock things.
7. Are there any specific features or items you want/need in the build? (ex: SSD, Wi-Fi/Bluetooth, VR, VirtualLink, tensor cores, large amount of storage or a RAID setup, CUDA or OpenCL support, etc)
- One thing I found weird is that I have a wifi thing attached to a long cable that I have to attach to the PC to get wifi. Maybe something to get rid of this? Do I need to get 2 exact same SSDs to get maximum benefits?
8. Do you have any specific case preferences (ex: mITX/mATX/mid-towefull-tower sizes, styles, colours, window or not, LED lighting, etc.), or a particular color theme preference for the components?
- I really don't care about RGB. Just something cheap that will fit everything.
9. Do you need a copy of Windows included in the budget? Note: some post-secondary students can get Windows 10 for free.
10. Will you be upgrading this PC in the future (ie: will you swap out better parts later on or will you build an entirely new tower later)? If so, when?
- I will upgrade if a great deal comes around but unlikely once I replace any parts this time around.
11. Do you have a brand preference? (ex: AMD/Intel for CPUs, AMD/NVIDIA for video cards, etc)
- No preference. Whatever works best.
12. What are the specs of your old PC / laptop? Do you want to see if it can be upgraded instead? If so, paste its build from PCPartPicker here.
- I bought my current PC used last year for $450. I would prefer to upgrade parts if possible.
CPU: Intel(R) Core(TM) i5-8500 CPU @ 3.00GHz
GPU: ASUS GTX 1050
RAM: G. Skill 16 GB DDR4-2400 (1200 MHz)
Storage: Samsung 960 PRO 512 GB + Samsung 850 EVO 256 GB NVME SSD
13. Extra info or particulars:
- Replace this text with answer.
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2023.06.03 00:23 Primary_Wish660 Can someone please pass the salt?
I have been having a lot of fun running a Golgari fight deck, basic stuff, get Obliterator out and force a fight. Sometimes works, you're screwed against control and Atraxa 5-coloureanimator most of the time, that sort of stuff - but against Knights/Soldiers/RDW/Monowhite/Enchantments/etc... then you're usually in for some fun.
I would, however, love some more Standard decks/ideas that cause a lot of... let's say pain... because it's Friday, and I'm feeling peckish for some salty rope.
I have also been using a Painful Quandry deck, however as it comes mid-game, it live up to it's name trying to get it set up, and not have already stabilized/have other options close like Breach - it does work against aggro more than most, control if you can ever get it down, and had hoped with Invoke ban it'd see more use - it's great against Atraxa though.
Can anyone recommend any other saltiness in Standard they've been using, that can usually pop off in the current meta? Also have a Landsmash deck I run in Historic - because I'm an awful human being.
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2023.06.03 00:23 quagmirecentral [US,US][H]Paypal [W]Bulk, Paying .01 per c/uc($10 per 1000), .04 per rare($40 per 1000), .04 per reverse c/uc($40 per 1000), .04 per reverse rare($40 per 1000), .05 per holo rare($50 per 1000), .50 per V, .50 per GX/EX, .75 per VStar/VMax, .75 per break, .001 per energy($1 per 1000 energy)
ALWAYS BUYING BULK!!!
I would like most of the bulk to be lightly played to near mint condition (English only). I cover fees you cover shipping.
Also buying Trainer Gallery Cards for 20 cents each, 75 cents each for the black and gold Trainer Gallery cards, Radiant Rares for 10 cents each and Baby Shinies for 25 cents each.
I am willing to sort bulk myself, I will deduct $2 per 1000 cards to sort/count/discard damaged cards.
The most cost efficient way of shipping cards is by packing it into a Large Priority Mail Flat Rate from the United States post office. Using this method you are able to ship 7000 cards at a cost of around $22. (https://store.usps.com/store/product/shipping-supplies/priority-mail-large-flat-rate-box-largefrb-P_LARGE_FRB
Some local post offices have them out so you can just grab them(they are free to take and use, you pay the shipping cost when you actually ship out the item).
Thanks for looking.
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2023.06.03 00:22 ijustwantabookplease Hi! Any good romance book with male demon main character(s)?
Any kind of rec will be checked. I just love demon boys 🥺 YA is OK, any level of spice from 0 to 100 or over, no matter how dark or light. As a reference, I will name "Her Soul to Take" by Harley Laroux and "Demonized" by Annette Marie.
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2023.06.03 00:22 MouniaDeMa 24(f) broke up emotional abusive relationship, ADHD, low self worth; how did you find love for yourself even though you think less of yourself?
I am not a native english speaker, apologies in advance!
I am sorry i believe this communtiy is great!! always brings a smile on my face. This is an impulsive post haha i will probably delete it later. i typed this in one go, a bit impulsive and i am sorry if I come off wrong.
It is a really long text so I am already grateful for just posting it here. It is almost impossible to go through this illeterate english bible chapter haha so i understand.
Thanks again this forum is great! You guys are my inspiration; being proud of who you are, and seeing ADHD as something to embrace.
Well, The relationship lasted six years from ages 19 24. Despite his flaws, my partner was kind, patient, and loving when he didn't have anger issues.It was my first relationship, and I had never been in love or had sex before.
I always knew deep down that his actions were not okay, but he would confuse me with moments of kindness.
Now, in a moment of clarity, I realize how easily he made me feel like I was wrong and how it affected my self-esteem.I feel weak, embarrassed, and insecure after years of being with him. At the same time, I am really grateful for all the happy moments, and there is a part of me that feels like i am wrong for saying these things, as it is not "truly" him. I feel so weak, i tried therapy, but even my cogntive behavioral therapist literal words were "you have no identity" during hard topics you switch the subject, ask for validation. I spoke later with a counselor from school, who told me it is unproffesional and therapy can take a long time, so I should not be disencouraged.
However, I blocked out many negative moments because of the positive ones and realizing now so much more, such as these examples:
- He sometimes displayed anger issues, including pushing me against a wall, mimicking me when I cried, breaking objects, and verbally abusing me.
- He often blamed me for his anger that "I made him do that" or "if you werent like this/or forgot that than I woudlnt have.." .for even small things like leaving cabinets open or misplacing items, calling me "a child" "dumb" "dramatic" , or to expressing my feelings, as he called it "complantingand i was pretending to be sad/ ADHD is a choice. I am aware it is not an excuse! It is an explenetation. i am just hurt that he would call me lazy, dumb, unwilling, careless, a child, stupid that i decide to feel like i do. he waited for me after i got diagnosed that day.. he held my hand, we sat at the table watching my results with my mom, holding my hand.
- There were instances where he embarrassed me in front of others, from screaming in public or when I was having a night with my girlfriedns at home, when he visited his family abroad, we had bottle of wine food, just moved into a new neighbourhood and our numbers got added to the neighborhood WhatsApp group: he called my up angry, claimed after leaving the house for one week, i am already busy with boys... i did not understand; he knew some people in the group, we had dinner with one neighbour before, I cried and felt embarrased in front of my friends, especially since i had not seen them for months and we had such a great time; these things happened more often when I would go out.
- or while shopping with my mom (he said he wanted to come) there was an irritation and he walked away in front of us
- He sometimes made hurtful comments and engaged in aggressive behavior, including suggesting I deserve to be fucked by other men, telling me I would regret everything, and speeding up the car during arguments. that he regrets ever talking to me, i am not worth it, i am never there for him, he will never talk to me again. At the same time he told me to believe in myself, supported me with my studies (while also telling me to drop out). He is verbally really strong and I am just confused. I was just happy when things were good, cause I loved him and wanted to hold on to that; without the anger i could have not wished for more.
- He broke up with me many times, told me afterwards he just said it out of anger did not mean anythinh.
- Last argument when my mom and sister went on a holiday (i have a thesis to write right now) he told me: no one wants you, even your family doesnt want you on a holiday with you. We facetimed a lot during that trip, they even bought gifts for my boyfriend and I. I just think right now it is so cruel that he said that.... cause it made me feel acutally at one point that it is true. actually somehow i still do that their life would be better without me in it.
- He would often leave me alone during arguments, even when we were abroad visiting his home country, leaving me feeling scared and isolated.
- screaming at me in public
- left me many time abroad alone; throwing a bike at me and telling me to get the fuck out, i was alone, no idea where to go, used google maps to find the nearest beach and bawled my eyes out at the shore. one time he even left me when my battery was low, so i had to wait for him to come back and i felt so weak.
- The last incident involved him leaving me alone in a restaurant while intoxicated, causing a scene, , i had to sit down and expressed that i wasnt feeling good, he screamed at me to stand the fuck up, and left me for a while. two women asked to help me and stayed next to me. He walked towards me and said in his native language to them that i am just crazy. I followed him home, he was marching in front of me saying it was over; i told him after all those years, how can we treat each other like that? He pushed me away and told me to go, and at home pack my bags. In panic, crying , searching a flight i stood at the door; he cried and asked to come back.
- There were still TWO DAYS to go; i stayed, even went to a museum with him, bought a book as a gift. my heart was broken; he said that he wanted to respect me as when he felt that we hugged i needed time, I was just relieved somehow that it was over; it wasnt. When i didnt want to have sex that night..we argued again and the broke a chair
- The next morning he walked out of the door and did not say a word when i tried to talk( in the meantime when he left, i walked to the kitchen and talked to his roommate, a girl that offered me her number in case i need help, hit up if she is in my home coutnry, just i thought). i saw it as a nice gesture, girl talk.
- when he came home with the flowers in his hand, and he knew that i talked to his roommate, he gave me the flowers angry; he asked me to not engage with "these people" but i told him it is nothing. Later i was unappreciated cause i was confused about the flowers and his anger. He told me 'i wanted to give you flowers and have sex' you disrespect me, you do not have to be kind to her, but to me'. i was utterly confused and sad. he screamed, (threw something again everybody heard and i felt embarrased). when i walked into the kitchen again i did not even dare to look at her when he was making sandwiches.
- That day i had to fly home, i brought the flowers, even held his hand in the buss, he made me a sandwhich for on the way which i thought was nice. I was still incredibly sad about everything that happened; but i felt bad for him somehow. I even send him a pic of the flower in the plane, i bought his favorite comic book at the airport so he could read it when he visits me next time. Now i feel so stupid, i dont know how to feel about it.
- One time he stepped out of the car in front of a traffic light, i had no drivers license, i pulled him back,
- I am really embarrased for thine one ... that same day of the traffic light, he caught me at my collar and grabbed me shaking, i was so scared i statched his neck and pushed him off me. he walked out of the car, the alarm went off, no idea how to close it, had no keys, i looking for him around at night crying. I hated myself seeing the scratches in his neck, i still feel so bad for this day. I remember every time i saw it i cried, walked out of the room, i felt so sad for him, when he smiled at me the next moring at the breakfast table, he was calm, holding my hand. we did not talk about it, never
- Now i realize: why did he touch me? Why dont i stand stiill with why I felt unsafe? I know it is no exccuse what i did. but i feel weak for never bringing it up once again. I suffer from heavy eczema since a child, scratching myself at night. These motngs are worse and i somehow think i deserve it cause of what i did to him
He had many good qualities and gestures, such as driving long distances to see me, planning romantic outings, being great with children and animals, and cooking for me every single day cause he liked to do so, plannign surprise birthdays for my mom, driving my mom to the hospital, he could be very positive overall and joyful; people, everyone around me loved him and would say; it is easy to love him
Now lisrening back to the voice messages i send (yes he gave me the world he did a lot what i am not mentioning here) but i notice once i brought up the fact that the arguments were not okay, he told me he doesnt deserve that, i should find somebody else, that i cannot reapeat this a thousand times it is not true. I supported him throughout the years, i told him that he doesnt deserve to feel this way in his anger and I am sorry for him and with help we can overcome this. He ironically joked"youre gonna pay for my sessions"?. He spends 400 euros in the month on weed (i am cool with smoking, i do it too sometimes, but than i am a bit sad that he does not want to (as he has the money) and never saw the point.
At the same time, he told me during the break up that i can call him, i should date other people (after one week), and he was serious since he wanted to build a future with me, house, baby and all. He even gave me a diamond ring, which could be symboliic seen he said as a step he said.
I dont think he has any idea......
I am angry at myself for tolerating this behavior and not recognizing the signs earlier.
I always felt guilty for small mistakes and felt like something was wrong with me.
The relationship had a negative impact on my mental health at the same time i never felt so happy in those good moments, so loved, , and I now question if he played a role in my increased sadness and depression.He made me feel like I was on top of the world while kicking me down, and I feel like a failure.
I have a study delay and an unfinished thesis. he graudated before me and found a job in the meantime, drove every weekend two hours to see me. he wanted to move abroad with me.
i was not feeling so great in my skin, and i expressed that i wanted to be more strong, independent, before moving together abroad; i always ignored that deep down I was afraid of not having enough backbone in arguments, and i was afraid abroad in case if i would be alone, plus somehow i still feel like i am not good enough. I am still not graduated (thesis in two weeks to deliver help and i am typing this impulsive text).
Despite his claims of putting more effort into the relationship I realize that I never felt safe enough and always wanted to proof myself. Hoenstly I still want to, for my fam, for him, myself. I just want to be worth.
I apologized repeatedly in voice messages, reminiscing about the good times and questioning what I could have done differently.
I tried to talk about with my mom before about this topic, we never talked about feelings growing up, she had her past too. But I see from her face that I upset her, I ask her for advice, she was watching a show she asked me to put if off cause and she was going upstairs. I apolgized a lot and said i was sorry again, that she could keep watching i ran upstairs and now I am here. it feels wrong to talk. And in an impulsive moment that I do open up, i always regret it.
Before bed she came to my room and wished me goodnight. both laying in bed in another room, i tild her i was sorry that i talked about it and i should have not done that, she had a nice glass of wine, watched a show, i was not considerate to talk about these things. she replied that she is the one that needs to apoligezed cause i havent talked about it with anyone and she is a bad mom. of course i said it is not the case, she is an amazing mom and i love her more than anything. Now i feel even worse, knowing that she feels bad. it reminds me again that talking does no good somehow, although i want to, doesnt mean other people want to talk about it or listen, it can make them upset. so here I am haha . i regret it deeply.
I don't know what to feel. I cannot name one single positive thing about myself. I feel like a failure really. When i look in the mirror i dont like what i see. throughout life i always stumbled, with no explaination why. i have alwats felt like i was not good enough, and probably because i think so, nobody will ever feel that.
I remember growing I up, i could not remember something someone said to me "i was a liar" or "i am not willing to listen" , I forgot my keys "You are stupid" , my dad throwing my clothes on the street in front of the whole neighbourhead because my room was a mess again, or got hit. these years, going though a divorce of my partents, living in an isolated trailer park for a bit with my mom and no drivers license made it hard to go out as there was nothing nearby, (my mom is amazing and worked her ass of to have a home now, i am super proud of her)i had no drivers license, heightened my loan and rented an appartment with my boyfriend together during covid (great times but lots of downs too), now i am failing myself, relationship, school, no job experience besides an internship. i am literally a failure
(this story is going to sound like bullshit maybe but i want to express confusion)
My sister and I also had a difficult time. The last argument i had with her is once she moved back after her studies failed (she is starting again she is really strong and resilient!) I visited new schools with her to check them out. while she stayed here, we argued about literally a pair of pants; i could borrow pants one day, the next morning i wore them too to go to visit the shop (she is really invested in clothes/ huge warderobe) and she got so angry, i apologized but she claimed i had no respect for her that she told me, things got heated, i cried and i walked to my room to sit on my bad, she stood in the doorway and told me "i should take more ADHD pill cause I am obviously crazy and she would rather live with my (ex-abusive) dad than with me". I yalled how can you say such thing, you dont mean it. she literally packed her suitcase and got out. My mom told me it was my fault because i wore this pants that morning.. my mom of course being sad, i tried to talk about it , i felt so alone.
I know it is wrong of me, the pants are her boundaries, she told me i could wear them the day before, without thinking i stood up the next morning, picked them up from my chair, and moved without thinking. i tried to bring up why it made me feel so sad and i believe the actions/words are maybe a bit drastic what she said: "please are you gonna use this against me for how long". I still feel upset about it till this day. After she moved, she would still come home to watch tv during the day and acted like nothing happened. of course we never talked, i stayed in my room, went to the library or took a walk.
My sister broke up with her boyfriend right now and therefore we of course immediately forgot about any past tensions. I also wanted to make it alright for my mom, always. i smile, but it never felt the same, i am still upset. Luckily now things are a bit better. i love her a lot, i just hope she is happy.
Espeically now with the study delay of two years, i feel like i am not going anywhere.
i was trying to be hopeful looking for jobs with no experience needed, to give myself some hope. i know it is stupid, i have to weeks to deliver my thesis and with everything going on i cannot seem to focus, i will try my best, My fam told me that "which job are you gonna do actually , is there something that you can do ". I laughed it away as a joke, i thought it was funny, but actually hurted me deeply because it wasnt a joke. They expressed it before.
Why does it always feel like i have to take ten extra steps to each a destination?
I recently reached out to my school counselor again: we used to talk more at school but i dissapeared for a year. i reached out, we talked for more than one hour on teams, crying my eyes and it was okay, she is amazing. she could remember what i said the first year of school walking through her doors. She told me that she never forgot about me especially since she opened up her personal life (we went through similar things in life) and she saw herself in me. Now she emails me with positive messages, always expressing that if i need to talk, even after i finish school she is there! I am really grateful for her in my life actually. I want to stay in touch i have to try my best. Even though it are small moments, they mean everything to me,This has really been a light point recently, it hit me when she told me that i need to stop thinking as she used to say to herself, that I don't matter, that there is no space for you, that i can say how i feel, i can say no, that i am worth to exist.
Anyways i dont want to self pitty myself, i am grateful to have a roof on top of my head, a family that loves me, food on the table, i am healthy, there are so many blessings.
I am sorry if i come off like i am not grateful. i am sorry if i come off unconsiderable.
I just dont know what to do, what to feel, what to think.
It feels like i am standing still for so long... It is my fault cause i allowed all these things.
I havent seen my friends for more than a year. One week ago a friend came for dinner , this already makes me happy that it is a step in the right direction !
I really dont like who i am. why cant i be more strong?
honestly it feels that i am doing something wrong, speaking so badly about him. I feel guilty and embarassed of myself. He was really kind and loving. I wonder if I would have been more strong, maybe he wouldnt disrespect me like that. Maybe I allowed him too, and I did. So it is my fault.
Still doesnt make it alright.
I hope one day to love myself. Especially before a raise a daughter of my own, Maybe if I ever did, this wouldnt have happened. I am so sad
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2023.06.03 00:22 Drakolf TftM- Rabies:
To say the Hedron was segregated implied a level of injustice that, really, only the Humans really understood culturally and historically. It was more that vast sections of the station was pressurized in different ways, filled with gasses that exactly matched homeworld conditions, and even incorporated plants and some animals to accommodate. They were usually prey animals, a handful of predators, all properly socialized and carefully vetted for long-term sustainability on the station.
Grahim and David lived more in the center of the Hedron, with the rest of the Council- well, they lived apart from them, in David's suite that he had rented out with his Doctor's salary before the Council footed the bill since Grahim was living with him. Even so, the duo often visited each other's biosphere within the Hedron, though David insisted on getting the relevant vaccines and booster shots before entering. "To be safe." He said.
Grahim never understood his Human Companion's paranoia, every creature was carefully vetted for habitation, there was no possible way for any form of disease vector to get onto the station. Nonetheless, he suffered through his companion's paranoia, mostly because he greatly respected and cared for him.
Terran atmosphere was slightly thicker than Grahim was used to, a slightly different combination of gasses, a slight head rush as a higher amount of oxygen meant a slightly more sluggish movement. He took a hit off his atmospheric stabilization inhaler, kept his mind as sharp as he could under these conditions.
Grahim liked Humans, and as the Human children surrounded him, he felt no lesser for kneeling down and letting them get their fill of petting him. David laughed, it was the kind of good-natured laughter that accompanied most shenanigans that children got into.
"I think they like you." David remarked.
"Of course they do, your species conditioned yourself to find anything fluffy cute and pettable." Grahim replied.
During the Caniti-Human War, the Canicians had learned never to harm Human children, it was an indelible sin that even other Humans could not get away with. While the war was in the past, before Grahim's time, the elders had spoken of how the Humans they fought had abandoned their rules of warfare the moment children began to fall.
They had been overwhelmed instantly, and the terror in that elder's eyes signified that this was a warning to take to heart, and so Grahim was gentle.
That was when he heard the growling. The children were startled, first looking at him, thinking perhaps he had been growling, but as it continued, they moved away from the sound.
A canid superficially resembling a Canician was growling at them, white spittle foamed around its mouth, eyes dilated. Grahim recognized a threat. The canid ran straight at Grahim, barking viciously, lunging at him, clamping its jaws on his arm. Grahim grabbed the beast by its throat and slammed it against the ground.
"Run!" He barked. "I've got it pinned! Take the children and run!"
Grahim was startled to see David not running away with the children, but approaching. He was still commanding them to run, which they did, and then David did something that shook him.
Grahim insisted on David carrying a sidearm for his protection, being the companion of a Councilor, it was important he be protected at all times if possible. David had agreed to this, especially after the incident with the trio of hunters. David pulled out his sidearm and shot the canid.
Three times, and the beast went limp.
David let out a shuddering breath. "It'll be fine." He said, mostly to himself. "We took our boosters, we know it works on Canicians." Those words were more concerning to Grahim than any others he could have uttered. Boosters, implying a viral threat.
David pulled out his communication device and spoke into it. "This is Dr. David Holt, we've got a dead rabid wolf on the station and a Canician who was bitten. He has had his booster shot within the past few days, but medical attention is mandatory. I repeat, we have a biohazard situation on-" David glanced around. "-Section A7, Subsector B5. Subject is neutralized with one Canician bitten, but known to have gotten a booster shot."
Grahim tried not to panic, he dislodged the fangs of the canid from his arm. He breathed, the canid had torn up his arm badly, enough that he definitely needed immediate medical aid. David- always prepared, had his medical kit out. He scanned the wound, used some nanites to heal the worst of the wound, and used gauze to wrap it up- this meant surgery. Then David pulled out a device Grahim had never seen before.
"I am going to inject you with a combination of an antiviral agent and an immune system booster." David stated. "Lyssavirus- Rabies- is a pathogen that infects nervous tissue. You've had your booster shot, so you should be safe, but I am absolutely not taking any chances on the off chance it's not enough."
"Do what you need to." Grahim stated. The injection was painful, but Grahim trusted his companion. Human authorities arrived within minutes, some had guns trained on Grahim, which concerned the Canician greatly.
"Stow your gun, you idiot!" David snapped. "It takes far longer than a few minutes for rabies to cause any significant damage!"
"You heard the doc!" One of the Humans, their captain, most likely, snapped. "And next time listen to the debrief! This isn't a fucking zombie apocalypse. Goddamn rookies..."
Grahim was soon transported to the sector hospital, the doctors here showed much less concern than David, indicating his companion's fear had mostly been the possibility of losing him. They chastised him for being overcautious, and causing undue pain to a patient, David calmly asserted, "When it comes to a member of the Council, any of us would have our asses handed to us if we didn't ensure their safe recovery."
"Regardless, the vaccine and booster is enough to combat the infection, with your unneeded addition, all he needs is time and rest, and a little surgery to remove damaged tissue and regrow it.
"I trust my companion." Grahim stated. "He would not do anything to me that was completely unwarranted, even if it was born of a paranoid desire to see me completely healthy."
The doctor sighed and deigned to not complain. It wasn't like he was also a medical professional- albeit one that dealt more with Humans than not. "In any case, you will need to be confined to the hospital for the time being, just to be on the safe side- not that you'd be able to leave the sector while the quarantine is in effect. They'll need to round up every animal, euthanize them, follow up on any incidents in the past regarding animal bites and keep the people under close observation."
Grahim was startled. "Is that not extreme?" He asked.
"Rabies takes a long time to show symptoms, yet wasting time also limits the options one has to combat the nerve damage it causes. Nervous therapy is expensive, I doubt the Council will approve the money necessary for covering every potential victim-"
"Write me a report in plain terms, and I will present it to the Council." Grahim stated. "If this is dangerous enough that you need to euthanize every animal brought into this sector, then it is imperative that the Council be made aware, and vetting processes revised to accommodate."
The doctor looked surprised, he clearly hadn't expected Grahim to take him seriously. "I- will do that." The doctor replied.
Grahim was prepped and taken to surgery, to have his arm healed, and then, he sent formal requests to have a holographic stand in prepared for future council meetings. After all, he was on the Human side of the quarantine, and that was reason enough for his absence...
The incubation rate of rabies can vary between one week to a year, but is more typically between two to three weeks. These words, along with the news that the Human Sector of the Hedron was under quarantine shook the station.
It wasn't Humans who vetted the animals brought in, that task had been handled by others in spite of the Humans outright demanding that they be the ones to check. The Council had tossed aside their complaints as just Humans demanding special consideration, rather than anything approaching sensible concern.
The Human Councilor, Graham, silently stared at the stone-faced Council as Canician Councilor Grahim gave his account of the situation, including how he'd been savaged by a Terran canid- a wolf- while protecting Human children.
"It is the opinion of the medical staff in the Human Sector that every animal brought into the sector be euthanized, and that vetting processes are revised to accommodate Human standards." Grahim had finished. The hologram looked toward Graham. "Councilor Gra'am-" The Canician still wasn't used to pronouncing his name correctly, but it was an adequate attempt. "-I trust you already have the vetting revisions available?"
Grahim damn well knew he had the revisions, he'd been trying to push them every chance he could without pissing off the rest of the Council. Maybe if he'd pushed harder, this wouldn't have happened.
"Ladies, gentlemen, other." Graham stated. "This situation is our fault." The other Councilors flinched at his words. "Mine especially, for not pushing this harder than I should have." His words were heavy. Some of the guilt was affected, laid on thick to get his point across, nobody- not even the Gixx who was currently reading his mind- doubted the sincerity of his words.
"You are asking that we leave the vetting process of animals to Humans." The Latra Councilor stated.
"Terran animals." Graham didn't bother to hide his anger and frustration. "It has always been about Humans handling animals from our biosphere!" He looked at everyone gathered. "Let us not forget how the Council has ignored requests from Councilor Grahim out of petty revenge for their past warmongering, nor how you've constantly and consistently spoken over me every single time I raised this issue!" His anger was under tight control, he let it loose like a tightly leashed dog. "I personally think this extends beyond mere revision of vetting procedures, but the fact of the matter is there is an entire people in that sector who have been forced into quarantine because your chosen people got sloppy!"
The words stung, but nobody begrudged the Councilor's words. He was right, after all.
"Let us hear your proposal, in full." The Vagraxi Councilor stated.
"Essah-Tuvant, you can't seriously think-!" The Latraii Councilor interjected.
"My people have done their fair share of damage to the Humans, Councilor, be at peace knowing they haven't declared war on us yet."
Yet. That one word hung in the air. Humans had, in their own ways, perfected the art of war. Having spent generations killing each other, it was both their creativity and restraint that taught the Council that Humanity was reasonable- and it was their willingness to ignore their own rules of war in response to 'war crimes' that they also knew Humanity could be far more vengeful than any angry God.
The Council allowed Graham to speak, and to their surprise, the request was very straightforward, they understood if they had bothered to let him speak his piece, yes, this entire situation could have been avoided.
They had not been fair to the Humans, or the Caniti, for that matter, and the fact of the matter was that this mess couldn't be anyones other than their's.
Humans, unaugmented, can live up to one hundred years. Augmented, they could live twice that, and those who chose to upload their brain into a machine, or join the Gixx mindworld were effectively immortal, at least until they decided a cessation of existence was all they really had left to do.
The quarantine came and passed, the Humans took to it without too many complaints- those who refused to abide by it were removed from the station entirely, put on a ship, and told to waste someone else's time. Of over ten million Humans, only seven began to show symptoms of rabies, and those who did, who couldn't be recovered through nanite therapy, were given the choice of brain uploading, or a mercy kill.
On the rest of the station, a thorough sweep, a vaccination initiative, and careful observation only revealed approximately four non-Terran pets who had contracted the disease, and even then, they had been discovered long before they displayed any symptoms, or were even contagious.
And Grahim, of course, suffered through his ordeal with little more than boredom and the occasional worried glance from his companion, who was by his side at much as he could be, on top of taking on shifts at the hospital under the credit of the central hospital.
And the year without wildlife in the sector only brought in a newfound appreciation for them when animals raised in captivity were brought onto the station, all of them thoroughly vetted by Human zoologists.
Grahim was okay with a few extra months of observation, just in case.
It was during lunch with Graham that Grahim talked about his experience. "After my initial stay at the hospital, David and I stayed with his family, we were planning on visiting them regardless, so it was no issue."
He spoke of how the family welcomed him as usual, and even being notified that he had been bitten by a rabid wolf didn't stymie their kindness and concern- more for his well being than any fear on their part.
"The children I saved visited me almost every day. They brought me a lot of candy." Grahim chuckled. "I couldn't eat most of it, but it was the though that counted." An entire year surrounded by only Humans, giving progress reports on the show gathering and euthanasia of every animal in the sector...
"They had done a sort of ceremony in honor of them." Grahim remarked. "Like a mass funeral. It was... strangely breathtaking."
On top of this, he was also invited to various celebrations the Humans had, the oddly secular holy days, the traditions that varied from family to family, from culture to culture. Exciting, exotic.
Many of these details were shared with the Council as well, mostly to give them an idea of how Humans handled quarantine- which was to say, very well. Graham had chimed in, "We learned from our last mistake with conoravirus." He had stated, but didn't go into detail.
By this point, the Council had unanimously agreed that it was worth listening to the Humans more, as their response to the crisis had not only been effective, but had actually minimized casualties beyond the scope of what the finest minds among the other species expected.
So, when another outbreak happened- this time in the Vagraxi Sector- the protocols were followed almost exactly the same way, and aside from some resistance from those who thought it was a deliberate attack from Humans- at least, until a culprit was found who refused to admit their pet had been bitten on a visit to the Human Sector- the situation was handled a little worse than with the Humans, but not to a devastating degree.
Finally, after little over two years, the rabies virus was removed from the Hedron, and hopefully, it would never find purchase there again.
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2023.06.03 00:22 snowmoneynoproblems 45M looking for an anti-penpale Female penpal with guts
Three years ago, I fell in love with my pen pal. We crossed the ocean several times and had amazing adventures but, alas, it didn't last. She wasn't PC. She didn't care about all this gender racism stuff yhat wveryone is so obsessed with. She was a bit older, and was an insane librarian who wore the most stunning outfits. You don't find people like this every day.
Our relationship was just about figuring life out and trying to be happy. Oh, and devouring amazing books. And sometimes each other. She hated that I listened to metal. No, not Metallica, but the dark shit. But I'm also into Ray of Light era Madonna. I am a dark romantic, sorry. NOT sorry.
Anyway, I took some time off from being close to a woman. I had to heal after going so deep with someone. Now I'm healed. And improved.
I am opening to a new pen pal. No, I don't want to talk to dudes. I enjoy feminine energy. Maybe it evolves, maybe not. I just want to be curious and see where it leads.
Yes, I'm imperfect and weird in some ways. I talk a lot. I say the wrong things sometimes. But I'm not an asshole. And I avoid politics, because they are boring. There's bigger problems, like how to make good pasta and kiss well in the rain.
Are you ready to tell me your horrors and triumphs, bella?
DM me before someone bans my posting. Ciao.
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I remember this book was smaller and square, had a light blue cover with pink accents, I want to say there was a purse on the cover. and the title was something with handbook or guide in it.
it was a kind of cheesy book about romance advice, I remember alot of the print inside the book was pink. I don't remember much else other than it had sections or chapters on everything from flirting, the chase, dates, sex, relationships, commitment, and breakups, things like that.
in one chapter it talks about how hot girls wear red polish on their toes and that's the only kind of quote I remember.
I got it at a yard sale when I was younger and I can't remember the title or author to save my life, spent hours searching online for it too.
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