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i cut off my Nmom. now what?

2023.05.30 06:49 Icy_Ad6842 i cut off my Nmom. now what?

i've lurked on this subreddit for years. reading everyone's experiences makes me feel both seen but also alone.
i'm twenty years old. i've been mentally and emotionally abused all my life; physically too when i was younger, before i got the balls to fight back. a lot of my memories are blurry, a mix of adhd, c-ptsd, and drug abuse. i know what i went through was abuse, but sometimes i question how bad it actually was. sometimes i question if i was as much of a victim as i think.
sometimes i'm certain my family are full of narcissists. my earliest memory is my mother beating me for spilling a can of paint when i was four. all my life, i was conditioned to put my family and their image and needs above my own. it hurts to think about because i also know they sacrificed a lot to raise me and my brother, immigrant family and all. they say they did their best, but if this is their best, why am i so fucked up? why do i have a panic attack every time someone raises their voice? why do i have so much trouble asking for help? why do i feel like i'm always holding my breath when i interact with people, waiting for the moment the world crumbles down on me because i said the wrong thing?
sometimes i think my family are all monsters, but they are my family, and i unfortunately am also a monster.
i have a lot of fleas. it's the way i learned how to survive. that's part of the reason i feel so alone on this subreddit. yes, i'm a victim, but i never took it quietly. i never let myself get too hurt without doing some damage back. i stopped caring for them, i stopped viewing them as people. i knew how to attack them where it hurt and i gave them none of the power to hurt me. a combination of gray-rocking and back-and-front verbal-sometimes-physical violence for the last six years have left me with a lot of guilt, inadequate people skills, and the inability to open up and be vulnerable.
the last conversation i had with my nmother was her telling me i was abandoning her like my father did. it rolled off my shoulders. after that, i just cut into her for fun. because i could. because i was leaving already and burning this bridge so i might as well add kerosene because it's not gonna matter.
i told her her lack of self esteem was obvious and she was a leech who drained the life out of every single person she came across because of how truly empty she was inside. i told her she failed as a mother and if this was her best then she was pathetic.
she didn't even fight back. she had nothing to say except that she wished me well and that i found whatever peace i was looking for. she tried to tell me that if i ever needed anything that she was there, and i said that i would rather cut off my arm than ever need anything from her again, because anything from her came with a price. even things like food and shelter. i would never feel human being under the same roof as her. she used to make me feel like such a burden that i would starve in my room for days just to avoid seeing her in the kitchen.
she cried. i didn't care. i couldn't find it in me to care anymore. when you hit a dog, you shouldn't be surprised if it bites you. taking the high road doesn't satisfy me. what's satisfying about just taking whatever beating or insult or guilt-tripping for the sake of some moral high ground?
i'm being extremely emotionally volatile already but being around my family, particularly my nmom, makes my fuse 10x shorter. but it was honestly relieving. instead of just bottling up my anger and having imaginary arguments in my head i could say that shit out loud. and i didn't have to worry about what happens after because i'm FUCKING GONE.
i'm my worst self around my family. i want to hurt them the way they hurt me. and that makes me feel so alone on this subreddit. i feel like to be a "real victim" or whatever, i just needed to take their shit forever. but no. i hurt my family a lot. we were all terrible to each other. we were the four most incompatible people ever put under a single roof and we dehumanized the hell out of each other. my father left when i was fifteen and i hate him for it, but honestly? he had the right idea. it's lonely being a bad victim. i feel like a rabid dog that needs to be put down.
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2023.05.30 06:34 Lukas-Reggi Why Are Noahs so stupid?

I'm talking about the entire scene with Roads math homeworks. Aren't memories of Noahs atleast 7000 years old? During those 7000 years no Noah was able to learn math for a 15 years old?
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2023.05.30 06:30 farmer_giles91 12 Days Honeymoon in Tokyo & Kawaguchiko with tips and observations

I just had my honeymoon (originally scheduled for Jun 2020). My wife and I are in our early thirties. It’s my wife’s first time in japan while it’s my fourth. I’ve benefitted immensely from stalking Tokyo travel reddit and would like to return the favour. I’ll provide some of my tips and observations to the end (skip to the end if the itinerary doesn’t interest you), some of which I think haven’t been mentioned before.
Thank God pretty much everything went to plan, and my wife thoroughly enjoyed the trip. We spent 12 days in Japan, most of it in Tokyo and 2 nights in Kawaguchiko. Many people were surprised to know that we’d be spending most of our trip in Tokyo, but I thought it was just fine because Tokyo had a lot to offer. My wife and I aren’t big on visiting shrines or tick tourist hotspots off a checklist. We don’t shop much, but we did a lot of it simply because it’s Japan and we bought lots of quality-of-life items (not fashion) for ourselves and others. Given how much my wife really enjoyed the trip, I think others with similar interests could find something helpful too.
Pre-trip planning
Planning during the trip
Day 0 (Wed) - Arrival at Shinjuku Airport- Arrived in Haneda late, about 11. Clearance was quick but baggage took 30mins. I had no choice but to cancel my airport limousine and take the metro to our hotel in Shinjuku.- I tried Apple wallet’s Suica at first. It worked seamlessly but felt that a physical metro card was just faster so I eventually switched over.- Reached after midnight, so do let your hotel know in advance if you anticipate arriving at odd hours.
Day 1 (Thurs) - Shinjuku exploration- Originally planned to visit Tsukiji on day 1, but given that we arrive late the previous night, agreed with my wife to change the plan and spend the first day doing the Shinjuku itinerary.
Day 2 (Fri) - Kappabashi St., Fabric Town, Akihabara
Day 3 (Sat) - Cooking class in Shinjuku, Shibuya
Day 4 (Sun) - Komazawa Church, Harajuku, Shibuya
Day 5 (Mon) - Tsukiji Market, Ginza Muji/Uniqlo, Tokyo station
Day 6 (Tue) - Tokyo National Museum, Fabric town revisit, Akihabara revisit, Ochanomizu
Day 7 (Wed) - Shinjuku Gyoen Garden, Mori Museum, Ginza Wakamatsu, Shinjuku
Day 8 (Thurs) - Kawaguchiko
Day 9 (Fri) - Fuji Q Highlands, Shimoyoshida Honcho St, Batting Cage
Planning for Fuji Q & Morning Jog: I didn’t plan to go to Fuji-Q highlands before the trip. Always felt it a bit of a waste to visit amusement parks overseas. That’s until I realised that Fuji Q had some of the most exciting, (I mean world-record-holding) rollercoasters in the world. Perhaps not anymore, but that intrigued me enough, because most amusement parks only had 1-2 coasters. Problem was that wife is terrified, and she said cycling on the streets of Kawaguchiko was like a coaster ride for her. So I decided I would reach at opening time, and buy time by paying for the fast passes and try their top three coasters. The night before, we felt that we had to make decisions on our itinerary as it was our last day at Kawaguchiko. If Mt Fuji wasn’t visible, go to Oshino Hakkai, if it was, we could try going to Shimoyoshida to get a nice picture.
Day 10 (Sat) - Kichijoji, Ghibli Museum, Kichijoji Jazz bar
Woke up before sunrise for a run and to attempt to catch a sunrise picture of Mount Fuji. Streets were completely empty. Even ran to the famous Kawaguchiko Lawson for a picture. Headed back for an onsen bathe (note: we never used the hotel bathroom, and always went for an onsen bath throughout our stay in Kawaguchiko). Took a 7am bus to return to Shinjuku.
Day 11 (Sun) - Tokyo Sky Tree, Shinjuku, Back to Kichijoji, Shibuya
It was a crazy day where we simply hit the places we wanted to revisit regardless of proximity. Headed to Tokyo Skytree in the morning to check out another Ghibli store. If you’re not going to the Ghibli museum, this is probably the best store available. Headed to Shinjuku to try curry udon, then to Kichijoji to try satou beef balls and dangos and to make some purchasing decisions on some sports equipment. Then we ended up at Shibuya (my favourite place!) to the mega Don Quijote and Tokyu Hands to shop for gifts for others. It was a lovely end to our trip!
Day 12 (Mon) - Back home
Best trip ever, says my wife.
Tips for travellers
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2023.05.30 06:25 dontknowifim21 Would a 17 year old need a license to ride an electric bike on the road in virginia?

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2023.05.30 06:25 yomommawearsboots $90k budget 4 door what should I get?

What car should I get? Budget is around $80k-90k and needs to be 4 door for work. Looking for: -fast, sporty, good handling -very luxury -CarPlay. -mid sized sedan -manual preferred but good automatic is fine. -would prefer lightly used for best value but less than 5 years old. -not terrible depreciation. -good looking/timeless design. -responds well to mods, won’t to go crazy but simple bolt ons/tune. Want to keep it reliable. -exhaust sounds good. No hybrids, 4 cyl, or EVs.
Current cars: -2012 CTS-V sedan manual (DD) -2014 Porsche 911 (fun) -2001 Honda S2000 (fun) -2020 Lexus LX 570 (family/dogs).
Background: I have owned BMWs and I am comfortable DIY, I do all my own maintenance and repairs. I would be planning to sell my CTS-V even though it kind of kills me. I want something a little nicer and more modern inside. Massaging seats would be awesome.
I’m in the south so don’t need awd but I would appreciate being able to put the power down without crazy tires/drag radials.
I’m kind of leaning F90 M5 Comp, G80 M3, or the CT5-V Blackwing manual but the G80 is so ugly and the Blackwing is real hard to get in manual and seem like they are over $100k even used. Also the Blackwing doesn’t look great IMO but better than the M3. Also I am a turbo guy…my current V supercharger is great but I just love turbos.
Also kicking around used Panamera Turbo S (cross truismo is sweet), Mercedes E63s, Audi RS7, or RS5 (but never been a fan of Audi, they are boring styling IMO). I would love an RS6 avant but seem way too expensive for my budget.
I love the look of the F90 M5 but depreciation will proly be brutal knowing my previous BMWs.
If I didn’t need a 4 door for work reasons I would order a Lotus Emira but they waitlist is insane I’ll proly never get one.
I only drive like 10k miles per year and love driving in the twisty mountain roads nearby.
Thanks in advance!
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2023.05.30 06:22 backupburner-one Just so alone lately (long post)

Hi, so...
I'm gonna talk a lot. It took me an hour to type this on my phone, apparently... 😅 But, if you just want the meat of my rant, skip to the very bottom, the "where life has me now" part. Or, better yet:
TL;DR - I have no friends anymore, my ex was my best friend and now I have no one. I've had a rough few weeks what with everything that's gone wrong (one after the other, thanks 2023), and I just don't have anyone to process it with. I miss my best friend...
Backstory, I guess
I was in a poly relationship for 7 years with this girl. Primary partner. She sometimes had other boyfriends but none ever stuck. I saw a few other people too but never even got to the point of calling it another date. It worked out more like we were open/ENM rather than poly, but anyway, just setting up some color to the backstory. We were all but married, owned a house together, raising her step-kids together, got pets together... all that. "Married" but not married.
We were both friendly with this guy we knew from community theater. She got close to him almost a year ago, they started seeing each other. Grew feels. We were poly so I was excited for her. Yay!
The decline...
After a few months, she reveals that he is monogamous. Ugh, not the first time she's dated a mono guy, but he wanted to chat with me and I did too, so I was hopeful we could understand each other better.
She started pulling away from my touch, trying to avoid contact with me so as not to upset her new boyfriend. Uhh... anyway, he was constantly busy and never had time to chat with me, and then she at one point asked if I would even care if she broke up with me. Obviously, lol, why wouldn't I be upset about it? Of course I would care!
We kept fighting over little things more and more for the next month, until I snapped and suggested we break up since she seems so sure I'm awful now.
When we talked about it a few days later, she said she's ready to be done with me, doesn't think she'll ever feel romantic for me again, didn't want to even try couple's therapy (unless it was necessary to salvage our friendship), and that she had these issues with me for years so it's not even new. (My takeaway from this is that she was convincing herself that I was worse than she remembered in order to feel less shitty about breaking up with me for her new boy.)
She had said when/before we broke up that she would take a break from her new boy too. Naturally once we broke up, she changed it to "just a break" with me, but no break with him, because "that wouldn't be fair to him" and "the heart wants what it wants".
Whatever... I still held out hope.
The break
So, for the next four months, we still lived together. At first we were okay with sharing the bed and just made it a point to not touch. Sometimes we'd sleep on the couch but usually just split the bed.
She continued to see him, sometimes 2 days out of the week, sometimes 6 days of the week. I kept making dinner and hung out with her two kids (13 and 15). Oh, I forgot to mention that I work full time and am also in college classes nearly full-time, so I'm always busy with homework too. No matter. The point here is that she's not around much, which is fine but feels like a lot at times.
I did reach out to her a few times after two months, asking to get some time with her, check in, hang out, whatever. She kept having plans already, so I'd shoot for a week or two out. She'd halfway make plans, then the conversation would die. When it would come around, she would blow me off, "oh they needed me for a few extra hours at church, sorry!". (I believe her, but it's clear I ranked lower in priority than anything). Other times she "could be home after lunch, which happens at 11"... but then "after" was apparently 5pm. (She goes to bed around 7:30, and doesn't usually want to do anything this late in the day.) After a few tries like this, I gave up.
I finally asked her if we were done. I wanted to have the conversation in a park or restaurant or something... she refused and instead we had it with her sitting in bed with her PJs on, practically hiding under the covers. I told her I had about 40% desire left to see us fix things, that it has been dwindling since she keeps acting like I'm a stranger, but there's still hope. She just repeated that she doesn't see us ever being romantic again, so when I asked her to put it to a number, she said 0%.
So, that's it. Done.
Moving forward...
That was about a month ago? We still live together while we work out the house. I want to move, and I'd rather sell altogether. She can't refinance to buy me out, but she wants to stay. Ugh... so we might work something out to where we split equity on sale later down the road.... that's a whole 'nother headache that I won't even get into just yet, because I've got other problems right now.
We split the room up a little... I now have a cot in here, so we sleep separately. For the most part we do okay as roommates I suppose, but it's still awkward as fuck living with my ex. I still consider the kids mine too, but it feels weird when they're all hanging out together. I guess it should, though. Hrm.

Where life has me right now

I haven't been great about keeping in contact with friends. I was friends with her friends, though, but while we rarely see them anymore anyway, I feel like they're even more unavailable now. (She actually told them not to hate me on her behalf, that she still wants some friendliness between all of us... but, whatever. It's dead.) So, I'm alone.
The kids are teenagers. I still feel familial with them, but there's always been a little bit of step distance between us. One of them just came out as trans.
My bathroom skylight has a hole in it. First people I brought out tried hard-selling me a whole new roof. Yeah, that shit was a horrible experience. Anyway, next guy who came out just quoted me for a skylight. Pfft. It's always something though right?
My old car has been leaking everywhere for the last few months, and finally stopped starting (intermittently). I suspect it's a head gasket, but I'm not a mechanic so idk. I've been considering car shopping anyway, so maybe now is the time, especially since the mechanics looking at my car have pointed out two sensors to start troubleshooting with for $580, and aren't sure if that's the fix. That's a little expensive for troubleshooting what could be a head gasket... so, cue car shopping under duress.
We talked with a lawyer this week about the house and splitting the equity on sale when she moves out, because again, she doesn't want to move (because of the kids), and I do. That turned into an argument where she thinks I'm the bad guy trying to evict her kids because I won't accept so little, and me standing my ground saying I deserve more than just what the current equity is right now because at minimum I should get interest on it since I'm unable to touch this money for 4 years (per the current plan), much like a loan.
Anyway, we talk and eventually she cools down. She lets me borrow the car for the weekend at least while she's camping with her boyfriend. Cool.
I realize I picked too high of a monthly commitment for the car I want, so I spent the long weekend re-budgeting to see what I can afford, and where I need to cut back on my spending.
I've been looking at cars and shooting a few to a coworker friend and an old friend who is also going through a divorce that I chat with sometimes. Both respond here and there but aren't engaged with helping me. I don't blame them, they have lives too, but it leaves me feeling like I'm on my own here. Fine, I can't expect people to help me make financial decisions anyway.
Go to the dealership by myself this evening... The dude I work with... It feels like he's misread me, like he thinks I want some hot new car, rather than something functional and cheap. He seems to be annoyed that I'm taking my time to look at things, and didn't fall for his lease pitch. We bargain, I get some good numbers, so it was all around fine... but it's clear we both want to be done with each other for the day. He mentions they're closing up shop, I take my leave to think about it for a day.
Anyway. Now I'm home again. On my cot.
I just want to decompress and process my day with someone, but I just don't have anyone to talk to. I mean, there's people I can talk to but goddamn I don't feel like I have anyone I can just level with, at least not when I need them.
Goddamn I feel so alone.
I lost my best friend, and the shell of her is sleeping one bed away from mine.
I... and, maybe I should get out more, but first I need a car, and my house fixed, and free time separate from school, and not worry about coming to an agreement with the house, and maybe it would be nice to have moved out so I can finally mentally move on.... Maybe then I'll have free time for making new friends. Idfk. Is this just another excuse? Am I just not a social person, and now I'm suffering for it during my most challenging period of life?
I hate this.
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2023.05.30 06:16 twofacedflyer Ranking the TD 2023 Characters Day 5: Evil Dawn

12th: Lauren AKA Scary Girl

Ohh this one might strike a nerve with a few people but I promise I can explain myself.
Okay so anyone who followed this series back in the day remembers as I went through each season my biggest problem with what show as it went on was that it started to lose all semblance of reality. Now yes this show is a cartoon and as such is always going to be ridiculous(I mean the very first challenge was something that no real person could really survive unscathed) but it was still somewhat grounded in a form of reality most importantly with the characters who above all else felt like people you could actually know irl. This season actually does a good job of harkening back to that style instead of making the characters weird pop culture jokes or insane maniacs the reboot focuses on having a relatable and more grounded cast, well with one pretty notable exception.
Lauren(Which is her actual name don’t forget) is introduced to the Island and immediately sets herself apart from the rest of the cast, not only is she dressed in some weird goth doll outfit that looks like Amy from Soul Calibur having a bad day, but she has a crazed slasher smile and a love for pain and violence that’d make even the Joker say to turn it down a notch. She quickly earns the nickname Scary Girl(A name she seems to take in stride) due to the fact that she’s kind of terrifying, given how she never seems to drop her creepy perma smile and takes immense joy in the suffering of others including the members of her own team. On top of that she may be the franchises first supernatural character and that’s beyond the standard iron bodies that every competitor seems to have(Except when they don’t apparently which I will get to down the road). She can turn her head around a complete 360, can apparently mess with the lights and the camera in the confessional without doing anything and has superhuman strength to the point she can punch out a bear like it's nothing(Although this one is something a few other competitors have shown they can do). Because of all this her team mostly tries to keep their distance from her, but in spite of that she proves to be a half decent competitor even clinching victory for the team during the relay race challenge due to her apparent superhuman abilities. Despite this though she proves to be her own undoing, as during the very next challenge she finds a jackhammer and just says screw it, forgets about the challenge and actually just straight up tries to murder people including her own teammate Damien. After losing the challenge the Trout make what is probably the most sensible decision in TD history and vote out Scary Girl, though not before she promises revenge on them for this so let’s see how many of them make it through the next season alive because this girl strikes me as the kind who follows through on threats.
Scary Girl feels like the writers took all that energy and strangeness that went into some of the more outlandish 2nd and 3rd gen characters(Max, Scarlett, Mike, Dawn, Leonard) and instead of spreading out so it infects the whole season ala PI just funneled it all into one character turned up to 11. Scary Girl sticks out majorly among the cast because she’s pretty much the only straight up cartoon character among them if that makes any sense. Every scene she has is completely over the top and insane but unlike the more annoying gimmick characters of old this works better because there's an actual contrast. You have all these mostly average teens with dynamic personalities and here’s this psycho goth girl who speaks in a weird sing-song nursery rhyme voice and just actually wants to kill people with zero ambiguity. She’s pure comic relief naturally with her gags of gleefully fawning over all the pain she sees and even purposely inflicting it on others just cause she can, plus her confessionals which all seem like lost Arkham Asylum patient tapes of her mad ramblings one things for sure this is a character you won’t forget. I personally have never been a fan of the super gimmicky characters like this and Scary Girl is by far the most gimmicky of all(With only Max and Leonard coming anywhere close) so naturally I have mixed emotions. I do think some of her scenes are pretty funny(I remember the hiding a body confessional getting a big laugh out of me due to the absurdity) and she doesn’t really overstay her welcome going out 4th so I can’t complain that she got too stale or outlasted more interesting characters. On the flipside, while I do like some of her scenes I also think the character is a bit too much, she pretty much defaults to a single joke(Creepy girl who likes pain and murder) and that joke can be a bit tiresome after the first few goes. I also think she’s too over the top to the point where it feels like she was transplanted from a completely different show given how heavily she clashes with the season's tone. All her scenes just feel so disconnected from everything else going on and kind of take me out of it whenever she pops in for a random bit. Even Izzy who’s probably the closest to her character wise still had moments of lucidity and reacted like a normal person to somethings, but Scary Girl is always in her default insane mode and doesn’t show any kind of depth or dimensions as a character which is generally what I like in my characters comic relief or otherwise. The character could work better if they toned her down, you know how I know that? Because that’s just the Goths from RR and both of them are great characters who are unique without becoming too over the top to the point where it becomes irritating. Hopefully they take some cues from them for the next season when it comes to Scary Girl because I think it could really help make her more interesting and less one note
Now don’t get me wrong, I do think her character has value especially with how she interacts with other characters.Scary Girl doesn’t get much in the way of interactions due to her relatively short stint on the show but what she does get is good. The main one is her weird “Friendship” with Pryia that happens entirely by accident and out of fear on Pryia’s part. It's fun for what it is and is the one bit of fun mostly from Pryia’s end as she tries to not suffer her wrath(and I’ll talk more about Priya maybe soon or maybe later who knows???). Who knows maybe they’ll revisit this or come up with some fun new interactions next season.
Scary Girl is an anomaly of a character in the season. I won’t deny she is entertaining for the most part and the fact that she’s the only insane gimmick character of the season means she stands out in a more positive way. However I personally found her to be a bit draining and far from the season's funniest character as well as just being a type of character I’m never really all that fond of. She has her place and doesn’t overstay her welcome too much but to me the 11 characters above all have something more that makes me feel they’re better so she sits in a respectable spot here(although admittedly i did go back and forth with the next ranked character but that’s a discussion for next time).

\"Give her a baseball bat and I bet she'd make a killer assassin(100 points to anyone who gets this)\"


16th: Caleb
15th: Nichelle
14th: Axel
13th: Ripper
12th: Scary Girl
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2023.05.30 06:13 Ozzy_Matt Letter Written By Elmer F. Burdick during World War 1

Letter Written By Elmer F. Burdick during World War 1
This letter was written by Private First Class Elmer Frederick Burdick on September 22nd, 1918 while serving in France with the American Expeditionary Forces during World War 1. Elmer was assigned to Company C, 131st Infantry Regiment, 33rd Infantry Division. The letter was written to his sister, Flossie Mae Shores. It reads…
“France Sept 22 1918
Dear sis,
Yours of the 21st received, sure glad to get some. You can tell grandmother I attend services whenever possible. We sure will have some blowout when I get back all right. If you mean me by some one else, it surely will be some happy day. H. Anderson is in the same regiment as I, have seen him several times. Saw him at that last stunt at Chipilly Ridge, was sure fat as he says. No, didn’t get pictures of the kids and Uncle Bill and of Cunningham but mail sometimes passes other mail written before it on the road, so I think I will before long. (Erased) When I get back, scratch this out if others read this, you know, censor. Glad grandmother can enjoy a few auto rides now and then. Glad Leslie is doing well with his music as you know I love music, altho can’t play a note. Ruth also said Elmer Lindroth was a Major, his outfit is in our division you (?) at present they are about half a mile from us. Got a letter from (?) yesterday. Won’t ans as don’t know where he is now located. You told me about Rose’s baby, said she wanted me to write her but don’t know her address. Suppose Nelsons think Ross is better than a few million other men in the AEF. Sent out a field card with today’s mail, got the 4th program all OK. This is some smeared with grease from the bully beef can I am writing on, and also some crooked as the day is cloudy and the light somewhat poor in our dugout as owing to the difficulty in obtaining gasoline. We have not started our lights as yet the bleeding cooties are sure busy this P.M. Confound the pesky brutes. Anyway they sure make a man forget his early training. They got horns like a needle, hypodermic at that. Well I guess this is about all the news at present. Tell grandmother and Pearl I’m writing to them. Also I’m sure fine and fussy and going strong for an old man. I was planning a walk this evening but it’s now raining so I guess it’s all off.
Yours with love, Pink American E.F.”
On October 10th, 1918, Elmer would be gassed on the east bank of the Meuse during the Meuse-Argonne Offensive. He developed pneumonia while recovering in a military hospital and passed away on December 14th, 1918 at the age of 26. He was buried in the cemetery at Rimaucourt, France. In 1921, his body would be brought home aboard the USAT Wheaton and he was buried in Greenwood Cemetery in his hometown of Rockford, Illinois.
The last 2 photos on this post are envelopes from letters written to Elmer by his sister, Flossie. Sadly, Elmer died before these letters could reach him. Stamped on the front of these envelopes are the words “Deceased verified by Statistical Division A.E.F”
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2023.05.30 06:06 RyuuAraragi Kevin takes a joyride

I was listening to Reddit stories on YouTube, wondered about whether or not I had a story to share, and remembered this story of my old coworker.
For a bit of backstory: I manage a small restaurant under a larger company. Sometime in early 2022, one of my coworkers receives a company car, nearly crashes it into another car on the way from the dealership to the restaurant, and gets traumatized by the absolute chewing out he receives from the older lady he almost hit. It goes without saying that he currently avoids driving like the plague. So now, we just have a car sitting in our tiny parking lot. It's a shame, since it was a pretty nice looking car, a Hyundai Elantra I believe.
Around this time, I'm getting into basic car maintenance, such as changing oil, headlights, coolant, and spark plugs. Consequently, I also own one of those little bluetooth code readers that connect to my phone to tell me if there's something wrong with my vehicle.
Now to introduce the star of the story, Kevin. He describes himself as "street smart, not book smart." He's a nice guy to a fault, but lacks a great deal of common sense as it will be apparent later. Kevin longs to own and drive a car of his own, but has yet to make the steps towards getting his license. At this point, he's failed the written exam a couple times and has not progressed on to the actual road test. I give him rides from time to time, such as when he misses his bus.
After the whole debacle with the car, I decide that it'd be essential to install a rearview camera so that anyone driving it would at least feel safer doing so. I've done the installation job before on my own car, so how hard could it be? I buy an okay looking rearview camera kit off Amazon, wait a couple days for it to come in, and quick Google search, and I'm quickly removing panels and wiring the camera to the company car's brake lights in the restaurant's parking lot after work. While I'm at it, I figure that I should check this car for any trouble codes. It's a used car, so it's probably got some issues on it, right? I pop in my code reader into the car and wait for it to spit out data. I finish the camera job and check my phone for any issues. Two trouble codes catch my eye: low battery voltage and a misfiring cylinder. Cool, I can just drop by the nearest auto shop to have the battery recharged and grab a spark plug for the cylinder. Two birds with one stone, easy.
Kevin, done with the restaurant closing duties, steps out to check out what I'm doing. I explain that I'm just installing a rearview camera for the car and making sure it's running properly. I keep in mind that Kevin also wants to own his own car one day, so I go into more detail into car maintenance, quickly explaining about batteries and spark plugs. I give him a little demo of how the rearview camera works. He asks me if he could sit in the driver's seat, and I oblige.
"Man, this car is NICE! I want a car like this," Kevin says. He plays around with the controls on the dash for a little bit. "Can I take it for a little drive?"
I immediately shut this idea down. "Kevin, you don't even have your license. What makes you think you can drive it?" I scold him.
"I can drive," he shoots back. "I've seen you drive before. I think I can do it."
You just asked me the about dashboard controls. As if.
We get out of the car and we get ready to go home. I have the next two days off and I want to spend them relaxing. "Kevin, the car has faulty spark plugs and a dying battery. Under no circumstances, do NOT touch the car while I'm gone. I honestly this this car is unsafe." I repeat this several times before we go home. Satisfied by his confirmations, I throw the keys in the register head home. I feel like you could already tell where this is going.
Fast forward a couple days. I'm just chilling at home and aimlessly reading my emails. My parents borrow my car to get groceries. It's quiet, and I'm at peace. Until Kevin FaceTimes me. Usually, when I get a call from my staff, it's a question about food or where certain items are in the restaurant. It's not often that it's an emergency. I sigh and pick up the phone.
Immediately I see Kevin sitting in the driver's seat of a car. Before he could even say anything, I blurt out, "Kevin, are you in the company car right now?" A short pause and he purses his lips like he's eaten something really sour. "Kevin, I'm not going to ask you again. Are you in the company car right now?" More sternly this time.
Dodging my question, all he can manage to get out is "I messed up..."
One of my kitchen guys told Kevin that we're out of cabbage. Since there's a supermarket about a 10 minute walk away, he decides to go there during his break. He considers walking but realizes that bringing back cabbage would be heavy, so Kevin concludes that he should take the company car there since it would cut his time in two and it'd be more comfortable. Note, we also have a staff member who can drive. Apparently he didn't think about it at the time. He thinks, instead, about how this will get him points for being able to solve a problem at the restaurant without me being around.
Kevin grabbed the keys from the register, turns on the car, and drives off. He makes it about two blocks before the engine starts to sputter and subsequently dies due to the misfiring cylinder. To his credit, he manages to maneuver the car to the curb and turn on his hazards. He immediately calls me right after.
"Kevin, I thought I made myself very clear that the car was off limits," I said slowly. He proceeds to mimic a Mickey Mouse laugh and say, "I made a littly f*cky wucky."
Head in my hands, I sigh again. "Kevin, I have no way of getting to you. You're gonna have to call around to see if anyone can help you out." We hang up the phone and I make some phone calls of my own. The first phone call went to the senior manager (SM for short). It's his day off as well, but it can't be helped.
"What's up?" The SM seems to be spending time with his family, since I hear his kid laughing in the background.
"Kevin apparently took the company car to go shopping for ingredients, the car broke down, and now he's stuck," I explained.
There was a long pause. "What the f*ck? Is he dumb? I thought he didn't even have his license."
"I already told him that he's not to touch the car under any circumstances, and on top of that the car is in need of repairs," I continued.
The SM tells me to call the vice president (VP), since he's working today and he's in the area. Honestly, I don't want to have to escalate this issue that far, but I have no choice. I know that the VP has so much on his plate already, but I give him a call regardless. The call goes more or less the same as with the SM, but the VP says that he's on the way. He's about an hour away, however. God dammit.
In the meantime, I call my friends in the area, explain the situation, and ask them if they could do me a favor and save Kevin. I'm not really sure if it's actually the spark plug, but I think they'd at least be able to give him some extra support while the VP is on the way. Nobody's able to help out, so I give Kevin a follow-up call. Keep in mind it's been half an hour since he called.
"Hey Kevin, did you get into contact with anyone yet?" I ask.
"No, not yet," he responds.
"Uhh, any reason why?"
A long pause.
Fed up, I strongly recommend he call the VP to tell him what he did. We hang up again and I go straight into bed and nap, just completely drained from the entire interaction. I'll follow up later.
I wake up from my nap and call the VP to find out what ended up happening. The VP caught up with Kevin and started up the car with no issues. The VP makes Kevin sit in the passenger's seat and they drive back to the restaurant in awkward silence. He has no words for Kevin, and instead tasks SM and I with scolding him about it. Fair enough.
The next time SM, Kevin, and I are all working together is in a weeks' time. SM and I agree to mess with him a little bit. I tell Kevin that SM wants to have a meeting about what happened. I hype this up throughout the week, dropping hints such as "ooh Kevin, you're gonna get it!" A week passes by in the blink of an eye, but it probably feels like a drawn out hell for Kevin. We let him fester and reflect about his actions. The three of us sit down at a table before the restaurant opens and I open my mouth.
"Kevin, never do that again."
I end the meeting there. Kevin, who's as white as a sheet, has the color return to his face and appear to have a huge weight fall off his shoulders. "Is that it?" He shyly asks. I confirm that's it. He laughs in relief, since he believes he'd be fired. I add that he's young and bound to make really dumb, stupid mistakes. If I tell him something, he really needs to listen. On top of that, since he's working for a business, his actions, noticed or unnoticed, are representative of the business as a whole. "And Kevin, for the love of all that is good, get your license."
TL;DR Kevin drives a car in need of repairs to the store without his license and it breaks down en route. He calls me for help, but I send him my boss' boss to him. We make him think for a week that he'd be violently punished for his actions, but we gave him a life lesson instead.
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2023.05.30 06:04 psichodrome I was today years old when i learnt you can instaplant new tree species on tree lined roads.

Just select a different type of tree, and left click on a road (that has trees built in already). The whole section changes instantly.
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2023.05.30 06:00 Dangerous_Grab_1809 3 day per week running program?

I have been getting back into shape. Former 20-40 mile trail runner, but now have kids and I am restricted to about 3 days per week training, mostly on roads nearby. I am looking for a running program, maybe one of the automatically calculated ones online. Here is some background info:
52 years old. Just self tested vVO2Max at 6:10 min per mile (treadmill, heart monitor). I used to be below 5 min. Have been losing weight, target is about 8% lower weight. Very good running mechanics, have never had a running injury. Usual shoes, Vaporfly. Pretty happy with them. Available nearby: flat quiet road, hills up to 12% grade, school track, treadmill that goes to 12.5 mph. Resting pulse 48, max 192. When in my best shape, resting goes to about 42. Can train very hard. Do not like long slow runs (8+ miles) unless excellent scenery.
My recent training has been only 2x per week (mostly time constrained). 6-8 x 200m sprints, 4 x 1 mile intervals. Thus, probably need to add one longer run per week.
My goal is to get below 5 minutes for a mile and about a 17:30 5k. I estimate about half of the improvement will come from weight loss.
Do you have suggestions for a running program that would fit in 3 days per week? I remember places like Daniels seemed think you had a ton of time available 5-6 days per week.
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2023.05.30 05:56 Direct-Caterpillar77 My husband(38M) doesn't think I(39F) love him

I am not The OOP, OOP is u/ThrowraHusbandDoesnt
(OOP has since deleted her account)
My husband(38M) doesn't think I(39F) love him
Originally posted to relationship_advice
Original Post May 22, 2023
For reference, let's call my husband Jack and my daughter Lily. Jack and I've been married for about ten years, dated for five, and have a four year old. Overall we've had an absolutely wonderful relationship Sure occasionally we hit a rocky spot but we always recovered stronger than ever. Most of our friends look at us as the ideal couple too. I've never doubted that he loves me and I've tried my best to reciprocate it, even when he wasn't home often during our first five years of marriage, he came back home after that since he got a promotion. We have great communication and I already am planning on how to approach this with him but a second opinion would be nice just in case someone else already dealt with something similar.
Yesterday he was doing some very acrobatic exercise in our backyard. He does this every day even when he's almost delerious from fever, which was hilarious to see. I joked that he'd leave me to become a monk. He just froze for a second and responded, 'maybe, after Lily grows up'. Sure this could just be playful ribbing but I had a bad feeling in my gut and kept poking at him. He almost fell down, which is very odd since he has excellent balance, made me leave so he could focus on his stuff. That especially made the feeling even worse.
The rest of the conversation happened at dinner. The gist of what he said is something like, "the signs are all there". He mentioned that we haven't been as romantic or intimate as of recent. He even said something about less attraction on my end, which isn't true. Then mentioned 'weeks of silence', I don't remember this happening at all.
frequent absence, I haven't been going out much except with my friends for dinner dates. Which isn't often just four times a week for now. Something about initiation. The only one that somewhat made sense was how I was cutting couple time for friend time or game time, which doesn't happen all that often. I can only count two or three times last week where I did that and we still had an hour or so out of planned three or four to spend together so he shouldn't have an issue. What he aiad next honestly broke my heart and I almost started crying right there.
"I don't think you love me as much as I do you, but that's fine. We'll raise our kid, grow old and exist till we die. I already have a few hobbies that make me happy. I can't make you responsible for all my happiness, that would be unfair"
And he said that with the most deadpan expression ever, like we were talking about the weather or how our day went. I tried to make him understand that this hurt me but it didn't seem to land at all. He just kept staring at me blank faced and I honestly felt terrified. Afterwards we slept in the same bed after he put Lily to sleep and cuddled like normal which was so jarring to me. I've put a lot of work into keeping us together, so to hear this from him has hurt me deeply.
It's even worse because what he describes sounds exactly like his parents. They're two old bitter people who stayed together to raise him and still stay together for god know why. I've never seen them be loving towards one another and only once towards him. He was always very particular about that stuff and said he never wants to have something like that. A few years ago he said that he was so glad we weren't like that and that he was so lucky to have someone who actually loves him and won't spontaneously stop because folded clothes wrong. Which made me fall in love all over again to know how much I meant to him.
And then there's all that's tuff he said and I honestly can't remember soemthing like not talking to him or silence. But I remmeber how his mother used to forget things. Like she'd do soemthing wrong, get that wrong thing pointed our and then forget it ever happened. One time she was saying something about how my kind of people are less likely to succeed in business and should become a housewife, which is wierd because she's a lawyer and he certainly hasn't said anything like that and is very proud of my passive income stuff.
My husband called her out on it stone faced like yesterday and defended me, I didn't like that he said that I made more than him at the time cause I was afraid his mom would say something, but she backed down after that. She forgot about that incident a day later. Couldn't recall that lunch or what we did or anything sound that one hour period. He didn't want to subject me to that but I insisted since family is pretty important to me so we went back a few times. This same thing has happened at least two times, the target switching to him, I'm proud of him for standing up to her and she can't remmeber any of it. Eventually I got a begrudging approval from her, his dad didn't care too much and was, 'Whatever makes you happy,' from the start, which was nice.
I'm crying my eyes out at a friend's house, I wanted to take Lily with me this morning but she was in the middle of some class with Jack helping her do some activity the teacher gave them so I just went on my own. I feel so heartbroken right now and I don't know what could have happened to make him think this way. I've been having a great few years since he's been home the last five or so years and lightened th e load on taking care of Lily.
What happened? Does anybody have expeirence dealing with something like this? This is a complete breach of my trust and I'm hurting so much from what he said, any advice is helpful. I plan on returning at lunch and dinner for Lily's sake but I'll try to talk to him after I've settled for a day.
Tl:dr Husband of 10 years doesn't think I love him anymore and we have a 4 year old. Has anyone dealt with this before and how did you deal with it?
Edit 4hrs in: I've cancelled my plans for this week and told my friends nothing about why. One of my close friends who is very friendly toward any husband, asks for him every time I go to their houses, and spoils and plays with my daughter then suggested it was my Husband and said he was controlling and other things. I told to stop but she didn't and nobody in the group did anything to stop her. Some even joined in.
I've cut them all off, can't believe this. .
. Edit 5?Hrs in:
Working on what to say tonight, also working on replacing friend time with date nights. Somebody said I have to "Make him fall in love with me again", that's a goal.
. Edit 7 hrs in: Went back home, mostly finished the list of things to say. Found him repeatedly smashing his shoulders into a tree and actually denting it. Lily was watching and eating ice cream. She seemed tired but didn't want to go inside yet.
I'm making dinner tonight.
Update May 23, 2023
Screenshots of since deleted update
This went better than expected. I wish I could say there were tearful embraces and we spent a passionate night rekindling our marriage in record speed like in a lifetime movie. But no. Still, this is what I'd say is one of the best case scenarios.
Firstly, I'll clarify from the other post on a few things I've noticed that people are getting blatantly wrong. Most seem to think that I:
Are gone without him several nights a week - 2-3 times max four was a unique case and I mistated that.
Don't initiate sex - I'm the only one initiating and I get turned down half time time which, as you can imagine, is doing wonderful things to my self worth. I literally have to spend minutes 'convincing' him to get any more than 3 times a week.
Cancel plans with him regularly for friends - I want to say no but I'm beginning to doubt my own judgement.
He isn't invited out that often to friend night - He is invited to every single friend night, he just prefers not to come.
Affair - I'm not going to parties or clubs or anything like that,that a hard boundary I set for him as well, the get togethers and dinners are usually held a few houses down at my former friend's house. A ten minute walk away.
Are seemingly disinterested in him, his interests or your family life. - I don't even know how to respond to this I'm tired.
Why are you laughing at him being delerious and still having the will to train? - I was next to him with a towel, a inflatable fall bed and water. He would literally drag himself with his fingers to train if he could, I think I'm entitled to a little chuckle after that much safety prep.
Now onto the update
That could've gone better but I can say with confidence that I've done everything I could when it came to yesterday.
Dinner was very good Jack and Lily loved their meals and afterward I did what a commenter suggested and asked Lily
"Do you love mommy?", she answered yes.
"Do you love daddy?" the yes was bigger.
"You think daddy loves mommy?" another adorable yes.
"You think mommy loves daddy?"
I felt like I got slapped. I'm not sure if it showed on my face because Jack immediately came between us and rubbed her hair. He gave a very loud, boisterous 'Of course she does,' picked her up and carried her to bed while tickling her.
Pretty sure I was still reeling from that revalation but I snapped out of it. Weirdly enough he seemed annoyed when he got back, which is strange since he rarely ever shows something like that. Anyway I remembered my points and pretty much unloaded everything in a half blubbery mess.
I said that I was sorry for everything. That I got too caught up with old friends and I was blinded by all the activities and catching up and get togethers that I didn't realise how much time I was cutting from our plans and our time and family. I was sorry for leaving thud morning and trying to make this about me when he's trying his best for our daughter. 'I've been a bad partner I know.'
I told him that I really appreciate that even if he has doubts he's still willing to be true to me and I'm proud of him for having the courage to communicate because it really needed to be said and how I couldn't imagine how hard that was for him.
That I wouldn't be associating with that group again because I realised what they really thought of him and that I was stupid not to have realised it earlier.
That I know I hurt him and broke his trust and I'm sorry he had to go through all of this and that I never noticed because I was too caught up in my life when I should've been caught up in our lives and I'm sorry. That we should be a team and that I don't only want to stay together for Lily but I want him. If he had anything else to say or any doubts to please say it because I'll geniuinely listen this time and won't get defensive.
Cue handholding over table
That I do really care for him and I was so so sorry that I haven't shown it recently and to please just give me a chance. Just one chance, that's all I needed. To give me the the opportunity to show that I love him.
He just took a few breaths and said general issues that I pretty much initially dismissed. The intimacy was because I apparantly rushed it every time and it felt less like making love and more being a living, breathing dildo. That hurt a lot, I swear I felt chest pain right there and I don't understand what I did to possibly make him feel that way. He mentioned how little I spend on Lily as well and that he'd been trying to get us together more often, only to have me come home tired half the time.
He also said that it would be a while before he trusts me enough to say anything that might "send you running to your friends", which hurt considering the fact that I gave them up for him but I mostly understood where he was coming from now that I wasn't feeling attacked by what he said. It sitll hurt when he added, "You'll change for a week or two then change right back and forget it ever happened."
I told him that was fine and all he had to do was let me show him how much I care.
All in all that was great. All the planning paid off and it felt like a weight was off my chest. I even did the small gestures of comfort stuff during it like holding hands and meeting eyes. I could almost see a little change in his expression, mainly the eyes. He was blank faced throughout the whole thing but I could tell he was fighting to not break down since he rarely trembles. One of his tells is when his fingers start to spread out like some silly claw shape, that certainly didn't happen before. I knew there was hope!
I've already booked a babysitter on his free day and have a reservation for a fancy restaurant that he likes. He agreed to go out with me with a small nod and I honestly felt ecstatic. I immediately hugged him and even though he was a bit stiff at first he returned it! It's been a while since we've felt together now that I think about it and the feeling is different and bubbly.
We went to sleep in the same bed and got excited when he held my neck and brought us closer and stared my eyes while touching foreheads. Then disappointed when he just went to sleep there.
I know it'll be a long road and if everything goes well I'll touch on how my needs could be met a bit better. Sex seems to be off the table because as a commenter said, "you pestered him while he was stressed so much that it's a chore to him now and forcing it will only cause resentment". If he initiates, great, I'll try every now and again and not neg him if he doesn't seem into it. I've realised that my ego really took a hit when he refused when I initiated and that I had to beg him other times just to feel loved by the only person whose opinion matters when it comes to my body. We both have work to do, expecially when it comes to communication and I'm already looking for a therapist or counselor who fits our criteria. Also got the books recommended to find our love languages and making this work.
Since this morning I've tried my best to initiate regular cuddling, which he seems to prefer over sex at the moment, also little hugs from behind whne he's cooking or kisses and pecks make him jolt him sometimes. I don't know how I could've missed this. He even turned his cheek to the side one time but that might've been by accident. He's been very receptive otherwise and our daughter seems to be happier for it.
Might update one more time at the end of the week and that should be it. Thanks for everyone who helped me come up with points and what to do.
And to all those people who say he should leave me. Seethe. It isn't happening.
Tl:dr Second chance!
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2023.05.30 05:51 solidus061979 Did a little exploring this weekend. The RAV handled old logging roads like a champ even with the tires it came with (michelin primacy a/s)on.

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2023.05.30 05:48 nornz Cat's best friend keeps visiting

My cat had a best friend who lives across the road. He would come fetch him everyday for play time. My cat passed away 4 weeks ago today, and his friend keeps coming over to check if my cat is around. It breaks my freaking heart each time. This neighbour cat won't have anything to do with us (scared of people), I think he must be very loyal to his owners and found a friend in my little guy. I just feel so bad for him, his play mate is gone with probably no explanation! I'm venting here as I feel like my friends are all sick of me sharing my grief all the time, haha. I wish I could make everything make sense for my cat's old companion.
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2023.05.30 05:46 Longjumping-Play6685 Teach them how to drive a manual transmission

Teach them how to drive a manual transmission
I don't think the price will ever outweigh the value. I have my kids driving my 1990 ACTY around my property. They are terrified, then excited, then brave, then back to terrified. But, they are learning. Doging trees and brush. Kepping it on the driveway. Killing it. Burning rubber. Seriously learning what it means to feather the pedal while also not spending too much time looking at your passenger because you must look at the road in front of you i learned on my dada old truck, time to teach our kids. If you are in the market for an acty on the east coast, lmk.
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2023.05.30 05:46 Rand0mness4 NoP: Trails of Our Hatred Ch. 4

Special thanks to u/SpacePaladin15 for allowing fanfiction and giving us Tilfish. The man gave us a canon art of the bugs, and they're rad!
I'm surprised I got this motivation in my to write this part so quickly. I think the fine comments I got motivated me pretty well. Now, I'd appreciate your thoughts and opinions on this. If its flow is smooth and feels right, let me know, I'm not usually good with dialogue.
Also, Feenstra, thank you for your kindness and support. I don't know how to respond to it, honestly, but you're a cool cat.
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Memory Transcription Subject: Marullo, Tilfish agricultural practitioner.
Date: December 2, 2136
I gripped the fabric over the side window and pushed it aside, spotting a Tilfish on the other side of the door instead of a cluster of predators. He appears rather calm, even though he's alone out in the open. My grip tightened on the blind before I tugged the door open.
"Visiting hours are closed." I stated curtly, my antennae twitching outside of my control. Formi I'm still riled up, and I want this man gone so I can dig a hole in peace. I eye the visitor sharply, not seeing any garment or air to him that would tip me off if this was a visiting politician. He's too soft to be a farmer, and I know for a fact there's no appointments he could be attending.
"Oh, uh, is this a business?" I don't even bother with a reply and give the stranger a long look, waiting for him to either acknowledge the massive emblem on the wall right above us or get on with it. He fidgets in awkward silence for a long few seconds. "Uhhh... okay, okay. Off on the wrong feeler here. I'm concerned, is all. I could hear you yelling for the past hour."
My antennae dropped slightly. "What?"
"You uh, your window was open." The stranger explained, mandibles clicking slightly in concern as I shut the door behind me and scuttled down the steps into the yard. I felt my chitin warm around my skull as I looked at the aforementioned window.
Don't tell me I broadcasted that entire conversation to the world.
Stupid sand spitters. Stupid sand spitters!
"I... am sorry for disturbing the peace." I hissed. "I had to wrangle some insubordinates into line. How much did you hear?"
"Not much. Just a lot of yelling. We could hear you from the apartments."
I dipped my head at the mention of the living block. The Regional Agriculture Advisory building was on the edge of the business and government district, and down the road was the start of a residential area. Towering buildings loomed over there, and on occasion they provided a nice view from my old office window with the setting sun reflecting off their many windows.
I was lucky that the masses were too nervous to be out and about in this sector. There was an infestation of predators in and around the capitol building, and even more outposts spread through the surrounding sectors. Being on the streets wasn't popular any more, so the normally lively road we were on was all but abandoned the past several days.
Oddly, I noticed that this stranger was very much alone. There was no swarm to keep him safe, and no vehicle in sight. On the far end of the road leading into the residential sector was a hastily erected barricade that still stood untouched by the predator's roving patrols, comprised mostly of furniture and scrap wood and metal. Looking towards the other end of the road leading towards the capitol building was a more firm barricade that surprisingly still stood, but the filthy tire tracks that cut over the sidewalk and through carefully maintained gardens and lawns told me how the predators got by. There was still nobody else in sight.
"It won't happen again. I had to enforce who's the new boss."
"The predators?"
My mandibles clacked and the stranger flinched at my snap, but stood his ground as I side eyed him intently. "No, me. I'm in charge of this operation."
"Did the predators tell you that yesterday?"
You tar sucking wretch.
The airy accusation made me clench my mandibles and feelers, and my antennae grew still. It must've encouraged the stranger to keep going.
"Because replacing our leaders with more traitorous Tilfish won't work. We're not the Venlil."
So that was what this was really about. Okay.
"You're mistaken," I began smoothly, ready to cut down this wretch with words alone. "My daughter got into trouble while I was working, and was returned to me. I've been terribly busy as you've heard in the old Advisor's place, with everything ongoing. Their visit yesterday did not pertain to my office, and any insinuation to the contrary will not be taken lightly."
"There was a boy as well. He seemed unnaturally comfortable with the beasts."
I will bury you underneath my garden.
"Your vision must be failing, because I assure you I saw no such thing under my roof."
"Good, good. We cannot have the diseased among us, no matter the times. I was wary of calling the exterminators prematurely, so I'm glad I checked in."
"The dead Exterminators?" I asked sharply, cocking my head. "Or the ones leashed to the predators?"
"..." The wretch stared at me for a long moment. "The dead ones, I suppose."
"What a shame about them, really." I drawled. "Anyways, did you have anything else on your mind you felt worth coming over this way to ask?"
"What happened to the old Advisor?"
"Dereliction of duty and cowardice. He's fled to a different system by now. For all the good that'll do him." The wretch's antennae flicked in irritation. "Now, the office is closed and I have work to do yet. Admittance is by appointment only. Good day."
The wretch didn't leave, apparently unsatisfied. We stared at each other a moment more.
"Is something else the matter?" I buzzed firmly.
"The swarm is more than capable of defending itself without the Exterminators. Don't think yourself above it's reach."
Something cold settled in my carapace. My claws itched. "Be very careful; threatening the Agricultural office is a high crime. I'm more than capable of protecting myself without the Exterminators."
A twitch from the wretch. "Is that so?"
"Don't come around my office again. Bounders are not welcome here, same as any predator."
His antennae lowered and he remained quiet, and I felt a faint trill in my chest. "Enjoy your day..."
"Eat sod." I responded sharply. I eyed the wretch as he retreated down the sidewalk, and something clicked in my mind.
Twenty paces. In twenty paces I could retrieve the gun in the lobby. You won't even see it coming.
A flicker of movement, and another Tilfish stepped out from some ornamental carvings in front of the filing office down the way, joining the wretch. I waited until the two were out of sight and long gone, arms crossed and feelers clenching my chitin as I waited even longer, before turning back to my abode and striding around to the garden.
"Marullo?" The voice above me is hesitant, and I bury my tool into the soil and look up. Tugal is above me at the lip of the hole, and I realize that I've dug way too far down. My arms hurt. My legs hurt. I don't feel like stopping, but I might hit a gas line if I keep going. I feel a flash of pity at my brother's distressed state.
"What... what happened while I was asleep? Holywood and Aegan are fighting over burning the last of our food- those Nectar Pods the predator touched. I thought we threw those out, but somehow they're back. Muttart climbed up the wall and left tracks everywhere, and he won't come down because he's still mad about last night. Cleo's locked herself in the bathroom and won't stop crying and vomiting. She searched the net for something and nobody can get through to her now. She mentioned the predator wanted something terrible from you, but that's all I could understand through the door. And you're out here destroying the gardens?"
"I was in my office all day. Food distribution is back on track for now, but who knows how long that'll last. It was stressful, and this is how I'm handling it." I began. I clacked my mandibles and ran my feelers over my antennae.
Formi, I'm filthy.
"Why destroy the gardens? And the hole?"
"The old boss's taste in décor was tacky. I'm sprucing it up. Oh! The Head of Agriculture is still with us. He approved my promotion, so I'm now the new Regional Agricultural Advisor." I rubbed at my face, my antennae twitching aggressively once more now that I'm not putting my entire focus onto tearing asunder this pathetic excuse of a garden.
"I'm making a burrow in case we need to hide the kids outside the building. I've already made two others in case we need to retreat through the back and into the next property."
"What did the predator do? Are you okay?"
I kicked at some loose soil before stretching my legs and scuttling out of the hole. I pulled myself up and fruitlessly wiped at the filth coating my carapace. "I'm not okay. Nobody is okay, or we wouldn't be here Tugal. We wouldn't need to worry about predators, or pests, or starving, or the humans, or each other if we were okay. For once, our predator didn't do anything wrong."
Tugal became alert, his mandibles clicking quietly as he waited for me to continue.
"There was a Tilfish that left the swarm. He went into one of the predator nests to talk. They didn't hurt him- the humans are too patient to eat the first ones that come to them, but after he left some witnesses told the swarm about it." How I really felt about the matter was slipping through with every single errant twitch I couldn't control. We were not supposed to be the monsters in this story. We were not supposed to be so susceptible to our wicked past. We were civilized!
I lowered my voice. "A group took him away from the city and tore him apart while he was still alive. They tried to feed him to Bark Saws, Tugal."
"Are you certain the story wasn't deception?" Tugal whispered back. "It's what they're known for."
I flicked my antennae in confirmation.
"Maybe... maybe they were defending themselves. Don't look at me like that, how they did it was sick. I hope they're screened and dealt with properly; we can't have people doing that in these times. It's no excuse. I'm just trying to understand it." Tugal stated, making my innards twist. "But these predators we're facing hunt through social deception. They're tricky, and the more of us they corrupt the more susceptible the swarm gets. That man, he could've done untellable damage. I just... I'm sorry you had to hear that. We have to stand strong against them, but we can't lose ourselves doing so."
Tugal watched me for a moment more, then gently prodded me: "...now, why the burrows? What else happened?"
I swallowed, my mandibles clicking repeatedly as I tried to reign in my thoughts. It was hard to speak suddenly, and I gripped my feelers until my claws started scraping into my chitin. "Where does that leave Muttart?"
Tugal flinched and his mandibles flexed. "No. Marullo, no."
"He's not afraid of them, Tugal!" I hissed quietly, feelers trembling. "He isn't! How do I help him? How long can I keep him here before he's too curious and sneaks out? What if someone sees him? What if Cleo finds out? He's not a threat: he's still a child!"
"Marullo, he'll be fine." My brother stated firmly, gripping my arms. "Nobody's going to touch him. We just need to talk to him- he doesn't understand what predators are capable of."
"And what about us?" I buzzed back. "What are we capable of? How can normal people do that?"
"It's fear, Marullo. Fear breaks us. You freeze when you're terrified. Others abandon the ones they love. Some... some fight back. Everyone goes crazy when threatened, and those people will pay for what they did."
Too many things flashed through my head at once. It felt like I was boiling.
"It's not just them, Tugal. Someone down in the residential area was watching the predators last night. He asked about him." My brother's feelers tightened on my arms, and he grew still. "They asked about me as well, and I think they believe I'm a threat. They're no different than the people that mutilated that poor man."
"How many? What did you say?"
"Two, at least. They didn't give their names. I didn't tell them anything about us. We can't trust anyone else to keep quiet. One word to the wrong person and we're all dead. Our chance at making this right dies. I told them off, but I don't think it'll be enough."
"They might come back because of that."
"What was I to say? Was I supposed to advertise that we're one of the last resistance networks left?"
My brother's grip loosened and he stepped away, antennae flicking with concern. "I can figure this out. We'll... I'll set up a watch throughout the day with the exterminators. If they're on hand if a mob shows up, one of them in their gear should dissuade any further action. They won't get to you or Muttart. You did good. Can you- please rest. Go clean up, you'll scare Holywood and Muttart."
I twitched my mandibles a few times, looking at the ruins of a once barely acceptable garden. "Let me tidy up back here. I have to order flowers and a few trees, and work on other gardens in the public view. I guess that part can wait." I tacked on quickly, trying not to flinch under Tugal's sharp gaze.
"I'll go out to the market and pick up food afterwards. We shouldn't need to worry about basic necessities."
"If you're up for it. Be watchful out there" Tugal warned softly. I appreciated his concern, and bobbed my head wordlessly. He paused a moment, and asked quietly: "How did the predator come across that crime?"
"I... I don't know."
Tugal sighed quietly. "How did it affect it?"
I paused, wondering why Tugal cared. Absently, I ducked my head in thought. "It's furious. I... I almost want to say bitter. We got into a fight over the Bark Saws, and it escalated. It's angry with me, and I need to figure out how to fix that before we lose it."
"We can try and-""
"No." I interrupt, surprising my brother. His antennae raise, and I continue. "Because I've been handing off the conversation to you and the others, we accidentally crossed it. If I had been the one to talk to it first instead of you, I could've avoided starting the argument with the Bark Saw. Cleo, Aegan, Zoil- they're hostile towards it and it believes I talk like that now. It feels threatened. I need to do this on my own and try and fix it. I can bring it back to us."
Tugal buzzed quietly, thinking. "Okay. Get yourself cleaned up first. Give it some time to calm down and go bring back some groceries. I'll talk with the others and get them back on track. I think our window to do this is closing, Marullo. If we can't get this human the risks we took will be for naught. Every other option will be riskier if this falls apart."
"I know. I won't let you down."
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2023.05.30 05:39 alurry [US] [Selling] Entire 4K SteelBook Collection (300+)

I am selling my entire personal collection. 95% of these were purchased new by me. Immediately after purchase I put them into the plastic protectors and haven't removed them since. None are heavily damaged (bending, major dents, multiple large scratches, etc.). There may be tiny dents, scratches, and the odd spine slash here and there. When you are ready to purchase I will let you know if I see any noticeable damage, however minor or major.
These are all used and opened and none contain the digital code or j-card. The vast majority contain all the original discs but a few might be missing the regular blu-ray. Most discs have never been played but I have watched a few once or twice. No issues while playing any of them.
I will ship for free via Media Mail. If you would prefer I ship using First Class or something else we can work out an extra fee. I would prefer to use PayPal F&F but will accept G&S if you insist. I will ship with the plastic protector (or with the slipcover that originally came with the SteelBook) and I will ship securely in a box with lots of bubble wrap (see picture below).
Prices are somewhat firm but it's hard to say what a lot of these are worth so feel free to make an offer. The more you buy the better deal I can give you. 10% off (possibly more) if you buy 2 and it only goes up from there. I would prefer to keep most of the collections together for now but could sell individually for the right price.
Proof (https://imgur.com/a/UOAZ2UL). If you want more assurance I have 224 transactions in DigitalCodeSELL (check my post history). I can also link you my eBay page if that is allowed. 3.6K items sold with 100% positive feedback.
Metal Tin SteelBook Collections (https://imgur.com/a/tzS3F1q)
Title Retailer Price
Game of Thrones Complete Collection (4K) SOLD
The Hobbit Trilogy (4K) Best Buy $100
The Lord of the Rings Trilogy (4K) Best Buy $125
Mad Max Complete Collection (4K) Zavvi $100
Monsterverse 4 Film Collection (Empty Tin) SOLD
4K SteelBooks (Collections) (https://imgur.com/a/3J3XUjU)
Title Retailer Total SteelBooks Price
Bad Boys 1-3 Best Buy 2 $45
Back to the Future 1-3 Best Buy 3 $100
Bond 1-5 (Craig) Best Buy, FNAC 5 $140
Cars 1-2 Best Buy 2 $40
Dark Knight Trilogy Zavvi 3 $130
DCEU 1-12 Best Buy + Amazon.es + Zavvi 12 $450
Equalizer 1-2 Best Buy 2 $45
Finding Nemo/Dory SOLD
Frozen 1-2 Best Buy 2 $75
Godfather 1-3 Best Buy 3 $60
Godzilla + Godzilla vs Kong Best Buy 2 $60
Halloween (78, 18, 21, 22) Best Buy 4 $165
The Hitman's Bodyguard 1-2 Best Buy 2 $40
How to Train Your Dragon 1-3 SOLD
The Hunger Games 1-4 Best Buy 4 $70
The Incredibles Best Buy 2 $90
Indiana Jones 1-3 Best Buy 3 $70
Indiana Jones 1-4 Best Buy 4 $55
Jack Reacher 1-2 Best Buy 2 $75
John Wick 1-3 Best Buy 2 $60
Jumanji 1-3 Best Buy 3 $55
Jurassic World 1-6 Best Buy 2 $70
Kingsman 1-3 Best Buy 3 $50
The Lion King (94,19) Best Buy 2 $50
Maleficent 1-2 Best Buy + Zavvi 2 $45
MCU 1-30 Best Buy 30 $1200
Matrix 1-4 Best Buy 2 $95
Men in Black 1-4 Best Buy 2 $40
Monster's Inc/University SOLD
Mulan (98, 20) Best Buy 2 $70
A Quiet Place 1-2 Best Buy 2 $50
Scream (96, 22) Best Buy 2 $40
Sherlock Holmes 1-2 SOLD
The Shining/Doctor Sleep Best Buy 2 $150
Sicario 1-2 Best Buy 2 $70
Sonic the Hedgehog 1-2 Best Buy 2 $40
Space Jam 1-2 Best Buy 2 $35
Star Wars 1-9 + Solo & Rogue One Best Buy + Zavvi + FNAC 11 $500
Terminator (91, 19) Best Buy 2 $35
Top Gun 1-2 Best Buy 2 $75
Toy Story 1-4 Best Buy 4 $100
Trolls 1-2 Best Buy 2 $35
Venom 1-2 Best Buy 2 $40
Wreck-It-Ralph 1-2 Best Buy 2 $45
Zombieland 1-2 Best Buy 2 $30
Mondo X SteelBooks (https://imgur.com/a/76drd4b)
Title Retailer Mondo # Price
Boyhood (HD) Best Buy Canada #002 $25
Nightcrawler (HD) SOLD
Ghost in the Shell (HD) Best Buy #018 $15
It (HD) Amazon.it #022 $30
Friday the 13th (HD) Amazon.it #023 $25
Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice (HD) Amazon.it #025 $50
Justice League (HD) Amazon.it #026 $25
300 (HD) Amazon.it #028 $25
Wreck-It-Ralph (HD) Zavvi #034 $30
Avengers (4K) FNAC #039 $35
Doctor Strange (4K) Zavvi #041 $45
Black Panther (4K) FNAC #042 $40
Captain America: The First Avenger (4K) Zavvi #043 $40
Thor (4K) Zavvi #045 $40
Ant-Man (4K) Zavvi #047 $40
Iron Man 2 (4K) SOLD
Blade Runner: 2049 (4K) FNAC #049 $100
Captain America: The Winter Soldier (4K) Zavvi #050 $40
Thor: The Dark World (4K) Zavvi #051 $40
Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 (4K) Zavvi #052 $40
Avengers: Age of Ultron (4K) Zavvi #053 $40
Avengers: Infinity War (4K) SOLD
Avengers: Endgame (4K) SOLD
4K SteelBooks (Individual Movies) (https://imgur.com/a/RvIWYiY)
Title Retailer Price
21 & 22 Jump Street Best Buy $30
300 Best Buy $65
3:10 to Yuma Best Buy $20
Air Force One Best Buy $25
Alien Covenant Best Buy $20
Almost Famous Best Buy $45
Animal House Best Buy $25
Apollo 13 Best Buy $40
Baby Driver Best Buy $30
Babylon Best Buy $30
Beauty and the Beast (1991) Best Buy $50
Beetlejuice Best Buy $40
Blade Runner: The Final Cut SOLD
Bloodshot Best Buy $30
The Blues Brothers Best Buy $45
The Bourne Complete Collection Best Buy $60
Boyz N the Hood Best Buy $60
Brave Best Buy $25
A Bug's Life Best Buy $45
Bullet Train Best Buy $30
Bumblebee Best Buy $30
Carlito's Way Best Buy $30
Cinderella (2017) SOLD
A Clockwork Orange Best Buy $30
Cold Pursuit Zavvi $50
Coming to America Best Buy $15
The Dark Tower Best Buy $15
Deadpool 2 Best Buy $20
The Deer Hunter SOLD
District 9 Best Buy $45
Downton Abbey Best Buy $15
Dracula Best Buy $25
Dune (1984) Zavvi $35
Dune (2021) Best Buy $35
Edge of Tomorrow Best Buy $55
Encanto Best Buy $40
Ex Machina Zavvi $40
Frankenstein Best Buy $30
Free Guy SOLD
Forrest Gump Best Buy $40
Gattaca Best Buy $25
Gemini Man Best Buy $15
Ghost in the Shell (1995) Best Buy $20
Gladiator Best Buy $100
Godzilla (1998) Best Buy $25
The Good Dinosaur SOLD
Goodfellas Best Buy $70
The Goonies Best Buy $50
Grease Best Buy $45
The Green Mile Best Buy $30
Groundhog Day SOLD
Hacksaw Ridge SOLD
Heat Best Buy $50
Home Alone Best Buy $40
Howard the Duck Best Buy $35
How the Grinch Stole Christmas (2000) Best Buy $80
The Hurt Locker Best Buy $30
I Am Legend Zavvi $45
Inception Best Buy $80
Inglorious Basterds Best Buy $25
Inside Out Best Buy $35
Interstellar Best Buy $65
The Invisible Man (1933) Zavvi $25
The Invisible Man (2020) Best Buy $25
It (2017) Best Buy $25
It's a Wonderful Life Best Buy $20
Jaws Best Buy $35
Joker Best Buy $40
The Jungle Book (2016) SOLD
Jungle Cruise Best Buy $25
Kick-Ass Best Buy $35
King Kong (2005) Best Buy $30
Knives Out Best Buy $50
La La Land Best Buy $20
Last Action Hero Best Buy $25
The Last Duel FNAC $85
Lawrence of Arabia SOLD
Léon: The Professional Best Buy $65
Lightyear Best Buy $25
The Little Mermaid Zavvi $45
Logan Zavvi $50
Looper Zavvi $45
Luca Best Buy $55
Mad Max: Fury Road Best Buy $55
Mary Poppins Returns Best Buy $20
The Meg Best Buy $15
Mission Impossible: Fallout Best Buy $20
Moana Best Buy $30
Moonfall Best Buy $25
Morbius Best Buy $25
Mortal Engines Zavvi $20
The New Mutants Zavvi $40
Nightmare Alley Best Buy $35
Nope Best Buy $25
The Northman Zavvi $55
The Nutcracker and the Four Realms Best Buy $15
Oblivion Amazon.fr $75
Ocean's 8 Best Buy $15
Old Best Buy $15
Once Upon a Time in Hollywood Best Buy $20
Onward Best Buy $60
Parasite Zavvi $35
Passengers Best Buy $35
Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales Best Buy $15
Pokémon Detective Pikachu Best Buy $30
Pulp Fiction (Brand New) Best Buy $35
The Princess and the Frog Best Buy $30
The Punisher Best Buy $40
Ratatouille Best Buy $70
Raya and the Last Dragon Best Buy $50
Rear Window Best Buy $35
Red Sparrow Best Buy $30
Requiem For a Dream Best Buy $40
Reservoir Dogs Best Buy $20
Robocop (1987) Best Buy $45
Rocketman Best Buy $15
Saving Private Ryan SOLD
Saw (2004) Best Buy $30
Scott Pilgrim vs. the World SOLD
The Secret Life of Pets 2 Best Buy $15
The Shape of Water Best Buy $55
The Shawshank Redemption Best Buy $45
Schindler's List Best Buy $40
Shooter Best Buy $15
Shrek Best Buy $40
Shutter Island Best Buy $35
Sing Best Buy $20
Skyscraper Best Buy $20
Soul Best Buy $60
Spartacus Best Buy $65
Speed Best Buy $60
Spies in Disguise Best Buy $20
The Spine of Night Best Buy $15
A Star is Born Best Buy $40
The Sting Best Buy $25
Super 8 Best Buy $25
Tangled Best Buy $65
The Ten Commandments Best Buy $25
Tenet Best Buy $20
The Thing Amazon.it $50
Total Recall Best Buy $35
The Town Best Buy $70
True Romance Best Buy $20
Turning Red Best Buy $20
The Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent Best Buy $35
Unbreakable Best Buy $40
Uncharted Best Buy $25
Unforgiven Zavvi $40
Universal Soldier Best Buy $20
Us Best Buy $20
Vertigo Best Buy $35
Wall-E Best Buy $100
War of the Worlds SOLD
Warrior Best Buy $20
West Side Story Best Buy $25
Who Framed Roger Rabbit Zavvi $40
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory Amazon.it $35
The Wizard of Oz Best Buy $70
The Wolf Man (1941) Best Buy $15
The Wolf of Wall Street Best Buy $15
Zootopia Best Buy $25
Regular Blu-ray SteelBooks (https://imgur.com/a/i8u4gnU)
Title Retailer Price
The Breakfast Club Best Buy $15
Cinderella Best Buy $15
Django Unchained Best Buy $15
Ex Machina Zavvi $45
Plaines, Trains, and Automobiles Best Buy $15
TV Show SteelBooks (https://imgur.com/a/CR27Ciu)
Title Retailer Price
Chernobyl (4K) Best Buy $70
House of the Dragon S1 (4K) Best Buy $35
Westworld S2 (4K) Best Buy $55
Westworld S3 (4K) Best Buy $55
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2023.05.30 05:36 B22marley What's to come...

I will be honest in saying this, I love total war warhammer as a trilogy, but looking at the current road map, part of me worries that it might not deliver on some chars/things that GREATLY need some love.
I stress...this doesn't mean these things could become possible with a total war warhammer: age of Sigmar or "the old world", but I have decided to make a list of somethings that I feel just won't come into play that really should.
  1. This is my biggest one and there is NO evidence of it coming to pass despite in game lore teases since TW2. NAGASH. Bluntly, the undead need a major rework (especially the vampire counts) to frankly poses anything more than an anoyance in the end game...and at the head of this should have been the GOD OF UNDEATH to be. Legitimately, nagash as a character is practically one of the most impactful chars in the end times as Archon, and as a legendary lord/hero frankly should feel as probably one of the most deadly and dangerous casters in the game...this could even tie into an idea mentioned in the next post.
  2. The progenitor vampire lords: the fact that nefferata, abhorash, and ushoran are not in the game with their own interesting vampire factions seems like a major missed opportunity. You could definitely make all of them interesting hybrid factions with nefferatas lamians having cathay/vampire count mixes, abhorash having vampires with empire and bretonian cavalry, ushoran could be just a monstrous case using some of the more monstrous units across all the undead rosters, and you could have nagash at the head of those whom follow him (forget what they were called in lore). Each could be flavored interestingly and have interesting mechanics to justify a dlc for them (asking to the lords of chaos dlc). Maybe also a Konrad von carstein legendary hero...mostly just for fun
  3. Thanqoul and verminlords: seriously, one is easily a cool legendary hero, but skaven should also have their greater demon of the horned rat most certainly as a legendary lord (one that is extremely limited/requires special conditions to reach) or as a monstrous end game unit.
  4. Explore a bit more into ind and maybe nipon. This is honestly just to fill out the map a bit more where things are not present.
Honest thoughts from others? Also sorry if this seems very, very pro undead...I feel they need some love though, especially as they generally should have their own "feel" of menace in the "end times" that is immortal empires.
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2023.05.30 05:36 dontknowifim21 Would a 17 year old need a license to ride an electric bike on the road in virginia?

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2023.05.30 05:36 grahamdanoob How did Apache Boulevard in Tempe bear the designations of 4 US highways (60, 70, 80, 89) many decades ago, but lose them all by the 1990s?

One time while I was riding the Tempe streetcar and noticed the history page printed on one of the stops (I don't remember if it was Paseo del SabeApache or Rural/Apache), I saw a mention that Apache Boulevard used to be a part of US highways 60, 70, 80, and 89. It seems odd for one road to have all those highway designations to begin with, and I wonder how they all happened to land specifically on Apache Boulevard. What happened to warrant all of that? Why didn't the other highways take other routes through the valley? Also, how did Apache Boulevard lose all those designations starting in the 80s? Why were US 70, 80, and 89 cut back (the former two no longer going to Arizona, and the latter being cut back to Flagstaff)? I understand the US 60 no longer going along Apache Boulevard, as it was too convenient to move the routing to the Superstition Freeway, though it's odd that US 89 was cut back to Flagstaff instead of being rerouted in line with the 60, and I wonder what happened with US 70 and 80 that did not warrant them going through Arizona anymore.
It's also strange to still see the ramifications of it being a former US highway despite all the redevelopment along the corridor that's happened as a result the light rail. I'm not sure if the history is more obvious east of Gilbert Road, as the furthest east I've gone along the corridor is the Stapley/Main Street light rail station, and it's odd to still see motels along the light rail line. I'm not sure if the old one just north of the McClintock/Apache Boulevard light rail station is still an actual motel, or if the owners allowed it to be used for other activities without getting rid of the motel branding, though there's a motel on the south side of the Stapley station that still seems open as a motel.
Also, if anyone has images of maps of those former highways, let me know.
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2023.05.30 05:31 Anastariana Doesn't seem very fair.

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2023.05.30 05:25 jaboy837 How can I focus on myself to the fullest extent when I feel like I'm doing everything I physically and mentally can?

I failed out of college my second semester freshman year back in '22 due to a combination of mental health and alcohol/drug abuse. I previously struggled in high school making friends and finding genuine connections with people in my class. I go through phases of weed and alcohol abuse that always begin as a coping mechanism for my loneliness, anxiety & depression. I usually start off buying vapes, which lead into weed carts - a couple months go by and I'm hitting a pen from the second I wake up until I fall asleep. I'm able to function, work a job, have responsibilities and be a normal family member, but these abusive-phases always end up accentuating my personal issues, causes new ones, and leave a nasty burnout/sober-back-to-reality mental adjustment where my brains not being blasted with THC every 30 minutes. Its nice to have the weed-pen thinking short term, its a break from reality and takes me away from my anxiety - until it wears off. That's why I've decided i'm not going to go down the same road anymore and I've been looking for ways to hammer positive habits into my life to replace the bad ones. I know for sure that I don't want to invite weed back into my life, I know it won't get me anywhere and will only serve to screw my life up long term - that's just me personally. I've been clean off weed for around 6 months now, and I only drink on occasion when the time is right and its usually just with my family.
I've been trying as hard as I can to follow "the path of self-development". I realize that as a person I am prone to "talk the talk, but not really walk the walk." I guess its just my personality, but I always say I'm going to do something or try this positive habit but when It comes down to the nitty gritty I'll take the route of least resistance.
However, for the first time in a while I have started to see some change. I've been going on 2.5 mile runs every 1-2 days for a month now where I'm continuing to push my PR. I go to the gym occasionally but lift at my home gym pretty regularly. I'm participating in as much self-help information-bomb-internet-education as I possibly can. I cut off old friends, who were all I had, but have put me down in the past. I've been seeing a therapist regularly for about 4 months now. I've deleted social media apps like instagram/snapchat that are toxic for my mental health as I compare my life to the highlights of others lives.
I'm back in school now as I've been taking online courses for a few semesters now at a local community college. This summer semester I'm set up with three courses alongside working 40 hours a week at a local chain restaurant. On top of this, my family has adopted a puppy which we are going to pick up in two days. I've been making an effort to fill my life up with as much habit-building positive reinforcing routines that will benefit me in the long run. I am constantly trying to foster positive new and old hobbies. I've been trying to take a step back from my everyday view of life and just analyze myself, who I am, and how I can get to where I want to be.
I'm a twenty year old guy living in my parents house on a rural northern lake. People move here to retire or when their kids have all gone off to college. But i'm still here. And I can't help but feel lonely, isolated, out of place, and like a complete failure. It doesn't matter how many miles I run, how good I'm doing at my job, or how many hours I spend reading the self-help book, doing my hobbies, listening to the audio-book - I feel like I'm making miniscule progress and I'm not where I should be. It doesn't help that the friends I grew up with are all either pre-med, direct admit to business school with 60 credits under their belt by now, and or have internships in big cities. I feel like an intellectual and emotional failure, and that I strayed off the given path, and now I'm trying to catch up to a 200mph bullet train on adderall while I'm running on foot.
Guys I know the right path isn't easy. But fuck dude I don't know if I'm doing anything right. What would I do if I didn't have my parents to bail me out of educational/financial failures? I've been actually thinking about these things now, and I kinda realized one day that I'm really all I have. Its kinda just me. I mean, its always been that way, i've just never accepted it or i've been bombarded with distractions my whole life. Now that I realize this is all I have and I have to make the best out of it, I don't really understand how I'm supposed to get to where I want to be. Ideally, saving up enough money to support myself on my own is my first goal here. I would like to not be reliant on my parents, and be mentally stable enough to make my own decisions that will support me in the long run. Therefore, I know I can't smoke weed, I can't overdrink, I know I can't be lazy and do nothing, I know I have to hammer down on my school, I know I need to keep working out, I know I have to keep trying new things and see what works for me and see what doesn't.
How can I be the best version of myself?
How can I socially succeed? I am so deadass when I say this: I have no IRL friends. It's so bad I don't think I've genuinely experienced it this bad in my life till now. Especially given where I currently live, literally the only thing I can think of is save enough money to move to a more populated area/get accepted back into college.
How am I supposed to find a partner? Am I even ready for a partner? Will I ever find a partner given my history of mental health issues?
Thank you to whoever has read to this point. I seriously appreciate any advice or anecdotes anyone can give.
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