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2015.05.22 19:56 Kaibakura onewordeach

Improv, one word at a time.

2011.03.30 16:39 HotDinnerBatman Things you wish you could say to them.

A place to write a letter you don't intend to send.

2009.05.03 16:57 michaelgmccoy Newz: the Global News subreddit

Global news subreddit with unbiased moderation.

2023.03.25 07:45 Rougeleu Gothic Art Deco in Melbourne by Marcus Barlow, architect. ManchesterUnity Building. 1931-1932

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2023.03.25 07:44 Radiant_Researcher58 i hate it got like this

honestly. this isnt easy. the journey ive been on has been hard. honestly i don’t know how i went from reading the bible everyday and talking to God at the beginning of my lowest point in my life to my lowest extending 5 years now with back to back traumatic situations to becoming so weary now to the point i cant even read the word anymore. all i do now is speak and cry to God with force bible reading trying to get the desire but depression makes me unmotivated to do anything… im always wondering how do i really become motivated again when all i feel is pain… all i want is the on fire for God me back when i first started going through the worst… I hate what this life did to me. everyday i just try. all i feel is empty
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2023.03.25 07:38 GodlyJugo 20 [M4F] #SoCal looking for a genuine relationship with someone older (30s-50s) let’s see where we go:)

If you’re an older women and looking for someone younger to chat and maybe have relationship with don’t be shy send me a message I’ll gladly reply and hopefully we could have something together. I hope you enjoy some who looks very young too😅Ive been looking for someone who could make my life a little better and enjoyable with their companionship. I’m sure someone is out there who would love the feel the same I hope. But of course wed have to know each other a little more and see how we connect. I’m only 5’7” hazel eyes and curly hair. I enjoy working out so I’d say I have an athletic body. There’s a sorta picture of me on my profile if you’d like to take a peak at it :) I would love someone who has good communication and at least able to handle a good conversation. love doing anything really as long as we’re both having fun, laughing and enjoying life together I don’t mind what else we try for the first time. I’m a funny, caring, loyal and hard working guy there’s a few more words I would describe myself as but it’ll make this description a little too long I know many to like to read all of it. I would enjoy going out and exploring new places with someone but don’t worry so much if don’t like going out much I enjoy indoors just as much. There’s so much we could talk about if you’re interested and if possible sending a picture of yourself would be amazing but not necessary unless you want to show later I will do the same :) I hope to hear from someone… PLEASE BE LEGIT
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2023.03.25 07:35 GodlyJugo 20 [M4F] #SoCal looking for a genuine relationship with someone older (30s-50s) let’s see where we go:)

If you’re an older women and looking for someone younger to chat and maybe have relationship with don’t be shy send me a message I’ll gladly reply and hopefully we could have something together. I hope you enjoy some who looks very young too😅Ive been looking for someone who could make my life a little better and enjoyable with their companionship. I’m sure someone is out there who would love the feel the same I hope. But of course wed have to know each other a little more and see how we connect. I’m only 5’7” hazel eyes and curly hair. I enjoy working out so I’d say I have an athletic body. There’s a sorta picture of me on my profile if you’d like to take a peak at it :) I would love someone who has good communication and at least able to handle a good conversation. love doing anything really as long as we’re both having fun, laughing and enjoying life together I don’t mind what else we try for the first time. I’m a funny, caring, loyal and hard working guy there’s a few more words I would describe myself as but it’ll make this description a little too long I know many to like to read all of it. I would enjoy going out and exploring new places with someone but don’t worry so much if don’t like going out much I enjoy indoors just as much. There’s so much we could talk about if you’re interested and if possible sending a picture of yourself would be amazing but not necessary unless you want to show later I will do the same :) I hope to hear from someone… PLEASE BE LEGIT
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2023.03.25 07:35 NOLAking1989 Catfish Long Term

Pick a celebrity and scenario
Send first message of DM to include number of the celebrities the letters of the scenarios And girl attitude your name and age in rp (18+) If you picking a older scenario use a older age
Pick 3 girls and 3 scenarios ( I don’t want to keep doing same scenarios with each guy). I will decide which girl and scenario I will do.
  1. Sarah Graysun (22)
  2. Loren Gray (20)
  3. Paige Mackenzie(20)
  4. Kendall Vertes(20)
  5. Kate Marie(18)
  6. Brooke Berry(21)
  7. Dixie Damilio
  8. Lauren Liska
  9. KaylaVoid
A. You are dad friend (40+)
B. You are best friend’sDad (38+)
C. You are Ex bf's Dad (38+)
D. You are former HS teacher (40+)
E. You are guy I babysit for (30+)
F. You are dad’s boss (38+)
G. You are my ex bf (20-22)
H. You are best friend bf (20-22)
I. You are current college professor. (44+)
J. You are pastor (50+)
X. Naive and goody
Y. Slut and wild
Z. Willing but not wild
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2023.03.25 07:30 47uw1mdmdg 5 Letter Words with O as the 2nd letter and E as the 4th letter – Wordle Hint

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2023.03.25 07:30 HectorCoptor1234 Four Strikes Short Movie Link and Script (Open to criticism)

Short Movie
Hello, I am the director, writer and editor of this short movie. With a team of 5 people, it took us around a month to plan, write the script, make costumes, film and edit. It was a very fun process and allowed for lots of learning. Since I live in UAE, it was optimum to be able to use the desert around me. If there is any critisism or points to be made to help me in my next short movie please let me know. The Script was 859 words long.
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2023.03.25 07:28 GodlyJugo 20 [M4F] #SoCal looking for a genuine relationship with someone older (30s-50s) let’s see where we go :)

If you’re an older women and looking for someone younger to chat and maybe have relationship with don’t be shy send me a message I’ll gladly reply and hopefully we could have something together. I hope you enjoy some who looks very young too😅Ive been looking for someone who could make my life a little better and enjoyable with their companionship. I’m sure someone is out there who would love the feel the same I hope. But of course wed have to know each other a little more and see how we connect. I’m only 5’7” hazel eyes and curly hair. I enjoy working out so I’d say I have an athletic body. There’s a sorta picture of me on my profile if you’d like to take a peak at it :) I would love someone who has good communication and at least able to handle a good conversation. love doing anything really as long as we’re both having fun, laughing and enjoying life together I don’t mind what else we try for the first time. I’m a funny, caring, loyal and hard working guy there’s a few more words I would describe myself as but it’ll make this description a little too long I know many to like to read all of it. I would enjoy going out and exploring new places with someone but don’t worry so much if don’t like going out much I enjoy indoors just as much. There’s so much we could talk about if you’re interested and if possible sending a picture of yourself would be amazing but not necessary unless you want to show later I will do the same :) I hope to hear from someone… PLEASE BE LEGIT
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2023.03.25 07:25 GodlyJugo 20 [M4F] #CA looking for a genuine relationship with someone older (30s-50s) let’s see where we go :)

If you’re an older women and looking for someone younger to chat and maybe have relationship with don’t be shy send me a message I’ll gladly reply and hopefully we could have something together. I hope you enjoy some who looks very young too😅Ive been looking for someone who could make my life a little better and enjoyable with their companionship. I’m sure someone is out there who would love the feel the same I hope. But of course wed have to know each other a little more and see how we connect. I’m only 5’7” hazel eyes and curly hair. I enjoy working out so I’d say I have an athletic body. There’s a sorta picture of me on my profile if you’d like to take a peak at it :) I would love someone who has good communication and at least able to handle a good conversation. love doing anything really as long as we’re both having fun, laughing and enjoying life together I don’t mind what else we try for the first time. I’m a funny, caring, loyal and hard working guy there’s a few more words I would describe myself as but it’ll make this description a little too long I know many to like to read all of it. I would enjoy going out and exploring new places with someone but don’t worry so much if don’t like going out much I enjoy indoors just as much. There’s so much we could talk about if you’re interested and if possible sending a picture of yourself would be amazing but not necessary unless you want to show later I will do the same :) I hope to hear from someone… PLEASE BE LEGIT
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2023.03.25 07:17 Sandybeaches806 Feeling suicidal for a reason NO one understands not even people with the injury themselves.

I broke my foot on January 17 but was told it was just a sprain go home.
So I did just that I walked on a broken foot for 4 weeks. I was concerned my foot wasn’t going down in size so I went to the doctors the doctor told me to get an X-ray , after that I got an ultrasound and CT scan on my foot.
Lisfranc fracture. I broke 3 bones.
I had surgery I’m 4 weeks post op. I just got my stitches out the other day and a new cast surgeon told me another 8 weeks non weight bearing and no walking.
I feel horrible, bored and anxious all day. I have nothing to do. Everyone says use a knee scooter or IWalk but I’m terrified I have awful balance. I heard about someone falling off his knee scooter and injured himself again.
How I get around currently? I use crutches and wheelchair. I don’t work but I was going to but I was volunteering I had to stop that. It broke my heart I was volunteering at an animal shelter.
So why am I suicidal. I’m inside all day I was a very active person I walked 5 miles a day, I hiked and loved the beach. I have two dogs who I love very much and I feel like I have failed them. At the moment my dogs are being walked by others but I want to spend time with them I want them to be with me.
I’m extremely worried about the long term will I hike again? Will I run? Will I walk miles in a day? Can I work with dogs ever again? Some dogs are strong at the shelter you need to be physically stable. What if I can’t , what if this is it for me?
I lose my dogs (not literally it’s how I feel). I lose my dream career working with animals I lose my mobility. What’s the point.
I’ve seen some people recover in 6 months yes 6 months I’m following someone on TikTok who has. Others complain about their pain years later. It feels like my life has come to an end.
I’ve spoken to people about my injury who have had it themselves they’re like yeah it suck’s but I wasn’t suicidal.
No one understands walking was my coping mechanism when you take someone’s coping mechanism away what happens? Its all I had. My dogs too. Not everyone loves their dogs as much as I do I see them as my friends, my reason to live my reason to keep fighting not everyone sees their dogs like that.
I can’t sleep at night because I have so much pent up anger and energy. I get frustrated and break things sometimes I wish I could stop but I feel like I can’t control myself anymore. I feel like I’m losing myself. No one can help.
No one can help. Those words sink in everyday. No one on earth right now can fix a broken bone in an instant no one. 8 billion people and not one single person can help.
I’m really struggling. I’ve been considering setting up a go fund me so I can get a power electric wheelchair that’s all terrain so I can still do things not everything but some things I did before. I have been considering it but don’t think it would be successful.
Anyway I’m just venting out everything because I’m lost , I’m confused and definitely bored.
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2023.03.25 07:10 Pitiful_Kitchen_6192 4 years ago I wasnt showering for months at a time, depressed, anxious and paranoid.

At the time I was sober going on 18, 19 years. I was, and am on disability since 09' for schizoaffective bipolar type disorder.
For the longest time, especially since sobriety, I've been overwhelmed with thinking. Space, time, behavior, tornadoes...whatever.
But, since my life was an unmanaged train wreck I had no confidence in myself as having any quality. It seems that feeling good about yourself comes from a well managed life.
My last job was as a janitor on the army base near by roughly 5 years ago. I couldnt handle the pressure. I was so dependant on others for everything I was asking if I was sweeping properly. Very bad mindset. A lady mentioned crying and it made me feel like crying. I didnt understand how that could be. It seemed like witchcraft, so to speak. That was my last day at my last job. It was my 4th attempt to go back to work since my disability badge acquisition!
I've been in therapy for 16 or 17 years ago I got into therapy from a mental health episode. During that visit at the crisis stabilisation unit in Virginia (Fredricksburg) I met a man that changed my life. He went by the name Bose Uncle. He taught me a breathing exercise. 3 in 6 out. You breath in deep for 3 seconds roughly then out for 6 seconds. Also roughly. Dont try to be specific like me and do it exactly 3 and 6.
On down the road, life and me under pressure and practicing my breathing because sufferage bleep blop bloop, pandemic. Overwhelming, unadulteraded pain in the brain from an anxiety I'd never expierenced before I saw a vision. It seemed to be the exact same thing that happened to Bill Wilson from AA. A wind blew through me. His words. My words on it are, I was no longer a bound up point in time and space holding on to the memories from the stimulation from the moment. I was free from the tension that came about from the fucking utter bullshit that exists. I let it go. The moment. I stopped holding and figuring.

It was like my being afraid got wore out. I remember specifiaclly saying to myself at the height of my pain in a ridgid bodily posture laying in my recline, "bullshit." I calle dbullshit on my old beliefs. That old fire and brimstone god. Intstead I chose "my concept" of life as my God. My ideas are good to. Changed life.
About six months later I nearly died from pancreatitis. When I got home from 6 days in the hospital I shared it on facebook. I received a good number of get well soon messages as expected. I did not get what I thought I would. People coming to visit, bringing me food...all that. I nearly fucking died. I know hundreds of people. What does that mean? My perception is fucked up, my beghhvior is fucked up, I need to change.
I did not think that way at first. At first I thought, "I fucking hate everyone." For a while.
Then 6 months later, I got diagnosed with autism. April 24th 2021.
6 months later after learning to relax, I rested on my heels for the first time in my life. This began the second chapter of my life. The taking my time portion. The I am the most impotant person in my life to me. You all come second. For ever. I no longer run to the kitchen, the bathroom, through the grocery store, drive fast, or move my limbs fast. I have even taken control of my eyes speed of movement.
Did you know that your body can control your mind. If you dont control your body your body will be controlled by your environment throught the mind.
You receive stimulus simply due to being a sensing being. This moves you. If you are not aware of it. Make yourself aware of this and take control of your body, the way you look, smell, move (behavior speed) amplitude of voice ...total bodily control and you can eliminate a great deal of your own suffering. I havew come off my depression meds and greatfully have finally been more aptly medicated with litium. Now I dont have to force myself into slow mo behavior but I do stay aware I think from a bit of fear.
You can control your thinking!
You can control your thinking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I could impress upon whomever needs it that the pause in conversation is ok. Moving the body oddly slow is not odd. Not speaking is an answer. And, you dont owe a motherfucker a goddamn thing if it stresses you out.
Peace in east!
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2023.03.25 07:08 StepwiseUndrape574 GTA 6 Launch Windows Possibly Outed By Take-Two SEC Filing, Here's What We Know

Video game publisher Take-Two has one of the biggest video game franchises on the market thanks to Grand Theft Auto. The latest game in the franchise is GTA V, which is still incredibly popular despite having launched way back in 2013. Recently, Take-Two filed a 10-K with the SEC that shows what the company plans to spend on marketing over the next five years. That form showed that in fiscal 2024, more money would be spent on marketing than any other fiscal year over the next five years.
The marketing spend for fiscal 2024 ending March 31, 2024, is $89 million, more than twice the amount for other years listed on the form. Analyst Jeff Cohen from investment firm Stephens believes that massive marketing budget will coincide with the launch GTA VI. In other words, the filing suggests the highly anticipated video game may be several more years out than many fans expected.
gta v planes Being a publicly-traded company, Take-Two is required to file a 10-K with financial details each year that outlines its marketing spending for the next five years. The last 10-K form filed in May 2019 showed a spike in marketing costs in fiscal 2023, but that spike has now been shifted to fiscal 2024. Many companies have delayed major projects by a year due to the coronavirus pandemic that forced workers to operate from home and shut down production across the world.
Cohen pointed out that marketing spending has been an accurate predictor of the launch of major games from Take-Two in the past. For example, a marketing spending increase was noted on the 10-K form during the launch year for Red Dead Redemption 2, well before that game was announced. GTA VI is expected to launch sometime between April 2023 and March 2024 according to the filing, assuming there are no further delays.
Past rumors suggested a 2021 launch date, so a launch no sooner than April 2023 is a long time away for gamers. With GTA V and GTA Online still incredibly popular, Rockstar wouldn't be in a rush to launch the new game. And a delayed launch would also ensure that the game is optimized for next-generation Xbox Series X and PlayStation 5 consoles.
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2023.03.25 07:07 naomiflora So disappointed with Logitech's bad after-sales support, $120 down the drain

*Heads up long post ahead* I used to love Logitech and I don't want to become negative toward those who love this brand, but the experience I had was horrible from their email support.
I posted here about asking for help since my retailers are difficult to reach/ cannot help me, or they did "help" me but when they returned the product to me, it's still broken after 3 weeks of "repairing".
A Logitech rep responded here in Reddit, I was happy I was finally getting help then we continued our discussion through email and the experience was unreal and unbelievably bad.
Our discussion started last March 9, they replied last March 10 to acknowledge the issue. March 11 - They asked me to send a video of my mouse issue with the ticket number and serial number, which is difficult to film since the mouse only occasionally malfunctions, but I did anyway to follow protocol
March 12 - I replied back with the video they requested, but no reply from them this day
March 13 - Passed into a new agent, Logitech replied with a generic message that they are reviewing my issue
March 13 - Followed up on the same day and gave the receipt for 2 broken headset and keyboard combo
March 14 - They acknowledge the receipts and copied the same generic message I had last March 13
March 15 - no updates from them
March 16 - no updates, followed up with them
March 17- Followed up since no response from them, they responded after a few hours, and they said to proceed with the refund for the keyboard-mouse combo I need to provide them with my complete personal information and also asked me to take a video AGAIN for the keyboard. At that point, I was a little pissed already but I complied and provided everything they need
March 18 - no response from them.
March 19 - Here is the best part, after all the waiting I did and their request, they said they could not give me a refund as I need to go to my retailers and request a denial letter, they said if I get a denial letter that is when they will review my case and get me a refund.
I explained to them that I they really read my concern in the beginning, I said I had an issue contacting or having my items repaired from my retailers hence why I asked for help in their email support. Up until now, I do not have a response from them.
Do not get me wrong, I don't have an issue with asking for a denial letter from my retailers if that is the protocol, but- - They should have told me 1-2 days after I emailed - It took me 2 weeks of emailing back and forth just to get denied - They took my personal information for NOTHING.
Besides that, supports just copy paste their response and I don't think they even back-read the issues before they reply back, my issue was passed to 5 different people and all failed to give me the right solution.
*Sigh* so they won't give me the refund sadly I am now stuck with 2 and possibly 3 (since MK470 mouse is acting up like the same issue as my MK345) broken items that I just bought 6 months ago. Back then I used to love this brand as they are really durable and can last up to more than a year sometimes, but I'm really disappointed as it should be under warranty but no one is helping. I guess I'll just accept the L here and throw them all away and start exploring new brands now, shame as I was even thinking of buying the Aurora series. Never again with Logitech.
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2023.03.25 07:05 Nell_9 Is my GP unethical?

Hello everyone. I hope this is okay to post here. This is a long story so please bear with me.
I am 28F. I have just been to my GP last week, initially only wanting to test my thyroid function and testosterone levels, as I've got a family history of thyroid problems and I struggle to lose weight (I am obese). I wanted these tests done because I suspected I have PCOS, due to thinning hair, increase in facial hair and irregular periods.
When I get to the doctor, she tells me that the testosterone test is unnecessary because she can "tell just by looking at me" that I have high T levels and the Testosterone test will be expensive. The first red flag is her overconfidence that I definitely have elevated levels without performing the proper testing. I also have consulted this GP for hair loss last year around November. I wondered why she didn't see fit to tell me she thinks I have PCOS then? Seemed quite weird to me. So, she tells me that instead of doing the Testosterone test, I should do a HbA1C test, which I consented to. I confirmed with her that I wanted my HBA1C and thyroid tested.
During the consult she also took my BP reading. GP told me I should do an ambulatory BP reading and I consented to that as well because she was saying it's the "gold standard" for testing. This is quite a bit of extra money I have to spend out of pocket, as I do not have medical aid of any kind.
I signed the required form for the pathology clinic to do the blood tests, and left the surgery. Everything seemed fine at first.
It quickly devolved after GP got the blood results and BP readings over the next few days.
She sent me whatsapp voice messages saying that my HbA1c came back as 5.6 and my cholesterol is 5.7. She says she "doesnt like that my sugar is 5.6, she wants it between 4 and 5". She intimated that I will have a heart attack imminently unless I lose 30 kg in 6 months, or start on meds. I am obviously scared at this point, because this isn't even what I went to the GP for. I wanted to know if I had PCOS. I understand that PCOS is a multifaceted metabolic condition, with high BP and cholesterol being signs or complications of PCOS based on what I read.
For backstory, I've been trying to lose weight since my teen years. I often skip meals or calorie count. More than once she has hinted that she thinks fat people are lazy or just eat bad food. I mentioned to her on whatsapp that I did not sleep when I had the BP cuff on as it was extremely painful and I generally have insomnia. I also didn't sleep at all the night before going to the GP because she makes me nervous (always talks about my weight, tried to push me to take ozempic last year and I found that she knowingly withheld the infamous thyroid cancer link after confronting her about it).
She then pushes me to take a statin even though I said I don't want to take it, that she has to prescribe me something else for cholesterol. GP says that there is an alternative but her only counter is that its more expensive than a statin. Keeps pushing me to take a statin. Then she says my BP is high and it spiked once during the bight to extremely high and she thinks I have sleep apnea. She sent me a picture of a business card for a lady at a sleep clinic. I didnt respond to her at that time. Without my consent, she sends my details (name, phone number, don't know what else) to some person at the sleep clinic. I don't know them and I am getting calls. GP didn't even tell me that someone would be calling. I take my privacy very seriously, and I made it known to GP that I take offense to random people calling me. She then said I got a call from them because she filled out a referral. Isn't it the usual practice to give the patient a referral letter, or the details of a referred doc and let that be the end of it? She just involved herself.
She seemed a bit cowed after I called her out, and I also brought up that I never consented to doing cholesterol testing that I'm now liable for. She tried to side step by saying that she sent a voice message explaining my cholesterol results in a previous message. I doubled down and said no, you did not ask me if I wanted that tested and my partner was in the room with me so I have a witness. GP basically told me it's my fault, that I should have looked at the form beforehand to avoid "unhappiness". I find it outrageous that I have to play police on a doctor. This has never happened to me ever and I've seen many docs in my life for bloods. I trusted her.
After much back and forth with her telling me I'm going to die of heart failure (she can't tell me if it will be a year or 5 years from now) because I said I can't afford the sleep study (it's almost equivalent to 1 salary for me and as I said I dont have medical aid). It's like she got upset that I wasn't prepared to do it immediately.
I start to question her integrity a lot by this time. She's basically ordered tests I didn't ask or consent to, then spun around and told me it's on me for not checking what she ticked. She also put another medication on my script that I didn't want, let alone talk about during the consultation.
I think this is unethical and is actually giving me major anxiety to the point I am scared to even go to sleep. The logical part of me finds this egregious especially because she even treated me for anxiety in the past, so it's not like she doesn't know my history.
Am I imagining things or do I have a case here? I want to report this GP because I think she is disrespectful of my wishes just doing whatever she wants on my dime, AND also seemingly broke confidentiality by getting someone from another clinic to call me without my knowledge.
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2023.03.25 07:04 KaristinaLaFae Long-time listener, first-time caller: How to get the gravel out of my voice?

I've scoured Google and attempted to use Reddit's unsatisfactory search function many times over the years for a variety of questions. I will only ever be an amateur at this.
Due to disability, I don't always have the ability to speak, so I need to use AAC sometimes. (Augmentative and alternative communication.) But I can talk most of the time, and I'm trying out the voice cloning services of Eleven Labs.
I set up a macro, based on a couple of tutorials I read, to run on audio I've recorded with my Blue Snowball Ice + pop filter, but I can't figure out if there is any combination of settings that can make it sound like my vocal cords aren't damaged by reflux.
No matter how much I clean up the rest of the vocals, the scratchy quality of my voice messes up the AI voice cloning so that it will render some text not as spoken words so much as mind-searing horrors used to summon the Old Ones.
Any suggestions? If anyone's written up a tutorial or something, that would be easier for me to follow than a video. Once they open up the professional cloning option, that needs 30 minutes of audio instead of just the 5 minutes needed for the less powerful tool, and I'd like to make it as clean as possible when I record the longer script.
If it matters, I'm a soft-spoken mezzo-soprano who sounds half as old as I am. (I'm in my 40s.)
Thank you in advance for any suggestions you may have.
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2023.03.25 06:59 Choice_Cow_27 Advice that actually works to cope with hppd.

I have hppd pretty severe. But I've learned how to live with it using certain strategies. I'm now at a point where 99% of my time I don't even notice it. If you dont notice your visuals, you are literally living as if you dont have it.. These strategies may work for you, they may not, but either way consider these strategies.
  1. Think about a health/mental health condition that a lot of people have. Specifically a condition that you think is worse than hppd. Reflect on how grateful you are that you don't have it. Example "A lot of people are blind and still manage to be happy. Im very grateful I'm not blind. Some people have severe tinnitus, I'd rather have hppd than tinnitus. A lot of people have Schizophrenia, I'm so grateful I don't have Schizophrenia, ETC ETC"
  2. Do exercises where you do something to make yourself uncomfortable. For me I will do things such as play annoying sounds on my phone and force myself to listen to it. The idea here is to train your mind to get better at dealing with annoying sensory experiences. You are increasing your tolerance to annoying sensory experiences. I'll sometimes intentionally where my clothes crooked to make them feel very uncomfortable. Again, increasing my capacity to deal with unpleasant feelings. This sounds stupid but has rather helped. If I start to notice my visuals I will treat them he same way I would the annoying sounds or the uncomfortable clothes. Those are just two examples.
  3. Common humanity. Remind yourself that lots of people have dealt with this condition as well and you aren't alone. I have a friend who has hppd. Back when I was extremely anxious about my hppd, being around him made almost all the anxiety vanish because I knew I wasn't alone. Reminding yourself of the common humanity can sometimes help relieve anxiety.
  4. Remind yourself that at this point it's out of your control. The purpose of anxiety on an evolutionary scale is to help prevent dangerous situations. However if you're anxious over something out of your control then the anxiety is pointless. Reminding yourself that it's out of your control doesn't necessarily make the anxiety vanish, but it can make it easier to at least stop experiencing anxiety at a conscious level.
  5. I'm not sure if others can relate, but ever since hppd I've noticed an ability to tune out other things that annoy me. An example, years ago I was at work and an alarm kept going off. I was annoyed by it at first but after a minute or two didn't even notice it because I already had so much experience dealing with annoying sensory experiences. Every single one of my other coworkers kept complaining about it and I kept telling them to just not pay attention to it. This is a situation where my hppd helped me. I treated the loud annoying alarm like I treated my visuals.
  6. Accept that sometimes anxiety over hppd is inevitable. It's gonna happen from time to time. Even I still get anxious about it sometimes. When anxious I Remind myself that even though I won't to completely eliminate the anxiety around it, it's okay to be anxious about. Rather than fighting the anxiety, Accept it. The only situation I can think of where hppd anxiety is helpful is when you're using it as motivation to stop doing drugs that could make it worse. One time I was around friends who had shrooms and I really wanted to trip, so I intentionally made myself feel very anxious about my visuals to keep me from tripping. In this case it was helpful, but unless you are getting use out of it, worrying is pointless because your visuals getting more or less noticeable is completely out of your control.
  7. Gratitude. Again gratitude is a wonderful tool here. If I get anxious about hppd, I'll specifically shift my attention to what I'm grateful for. "I still have 20/20 vision, I can still see colors, etc". The goal here, shift your mind into a more positive light. If anxiety about hppd is happening, this will at the very least replace some of that anxiety with positivity.
  8. Acknowledge that there's a good chance that your anxiety is not 100% coming from the visuals. Example, last month I noticed a new visual. Color flashes when I looked in my room. I started feeling anxious until I realized, there's no telling how long I've had this visual symptom, this is just the first time I've cinsciously noticed it. If the visual were a threat to my mental health, then why didnt it make me anxious all the times I saw it in my vision but didn't have an awareness of it? Often, for me at least, the anxiety comes from worrying about my visuals but not the visuals themselves.
  9. Don't use the word worse if you notice new or more I tense visuals. Use a more neutral choice of words such as "More noticeable". Let's say you smoke weed and the next day regret it and notice your visuals are "worse". By using the word worse you are only reinforcing to your brain that this is a threat that is a cause for worry. With the term more noticeable however, it's harder for your mind to take you to a negative place over it.
  10. Have a routine for each time you get anxious. Perhaps every time your visuals make you anxious you go for a run, or brush your teeth, or do push-ups, etc. Two benefits here.
    1. You are doing something positive for yourself and that allows less space for anxiety because at the very least you at least have some fraction of your mind now focused on a positive rather than a negative.
    2. After doing something healthy and positive for yourself every time you become anxious about hppd, eventually you'll start to associate hppd with something good. At least to some degree.
  11. Avoid horror stories on this subreddit. Lots of people with hppd also have anxiety. And while I'm not dismissing the very real struggles of people with hppd, anxiety does convince you that something is much worse than it actually is. Even with the horror stories of hppd, I fully believe that the people posting their horror stories are coming from a place of anxiety in and of itself rather than purely their hppd symptoms. Not to mention every time you read a horror story, you are further reinforcing to your mind that this is a major threat. Instead, focus more on success stories. Shift your attention to those who aren't as bothered by it. Shift your attention to success stories.
I've had hppd for years now. It used to cause severe anxiety, not anymore. Now I live life normally. If a notice a new visuals I'll acknowledge it without judgement and move on. Some of this advice may be bad, some good, but here tips have worked for me. Most importantly, if you are anxious about it, remind yourself that it's okay to be anxious.
Ovetime you're going to cope and even if your visuals never go away you'll eventually live a completely normal life.
For those of you struggling with deprsonalization I think it's important to remind yourself that depersonalization isn't permanent and many people struggle with it who don't even have hppd. Again this can be helpful because it can serve as a reminder that you aren't alone.
Best wishes. Hopefully my advice helps a little. If not don't lose hope, what works for me may not necessarily work for you but on the flip side what works for you may not work for me. There are hundreds of not thousands of potential strategies to get you through this. You're gonna be alright, I promise
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2023.03.25 06:58 CarbonatedInsidious Ever wonder why India rarely has A rated movies, while in the west its more commonplace?

I recently went down a journey to discover India’s A rated cinema, movies that were deemed to be suitable for adults audiences only. The Indian film industry isn’t known for its A rated films. In fact, less than 1 in 5 films rated A releases every year in India and these figures are from 2016. The number has gone down further since. Figures for the same for the US have also fallen but still remain much higher than that of India.
So why is this the case?
There are 2 reasons- CBFC and the Indian rating system

Reason 1: Central Board of Film Certification or popularly known as the “censor board”

As I continued to travel along my journey, I noticed something strange. The fact that even after the A rating, the film had bleeped out curses. Moreover, after checking the IMDb runtime of these films, I realized that some entire scenes were cut out altogether. If the film already had a mature content rating, why were these additional steps taken?
Here I was thinking that CBFC, like the MPAA of USA, just classifies and certifies the movies and does not actually censoremove anything. But as I could see very clearly, this was not the case. (I also realized that the abbreviation "CBFC'' does not actually contain the words "censor board". I genuinely thought that CBFC stood for censor board).
Turns out CBFC actually has the same job as the MPAA but unlike MPAA, CBFC holds the power to stop a film from releasing altogether. This was not the case until one particular case in 1970, K.A. Abbas versus Union of India , where Abbas had made a documentary film, A Tale of Four Cities (1968), which was granted an “A” certificate for viewing only by adults. He challenged the Cinematograph Act as he wanted his film to be viewed by all. The Chief Justice Hidayatullah upheld the law on the ground that films had an “instant appeal” and could “stir up emotions more deeply than any other product of art”.
From here on out, CBFC got the power to stop films from releasing until it was censored to meet the standards of the board on what they thought was good for the general public. CBFC’s own data shows that a greater proportion of feature films are being passed with cuts in recent times. About a decade ago, two out of every three Indian movies were certified without any cuts; now, that has fallen to one in every two.
Here is where the trouble of Indian directors and writers begin.
I think most people know most of the rest of the story. But here is how the process started to go for a film to get certified and released in India:
  1. Send a copy of the film to CBFC
  2. CBFC views it and decides on one of the three things- gives a U rating, gives a U/ A rating with suggested cuts, or gives an A rating with list of required cuts.
  3. Once a film has been given either of the three ratings, there is no way a film could go from A to U/ A or U/ A to U. The certification is permanent. So for a filmmaker who has received an A rating, they have to do the required cuts for the film to be released. Or they can go to the court and contest CBFC's decision. (more on this below)
  4. The film finally gets released if the filmmaker does the required cuts or it gets lost in the limbo forever cause CBFC's decision also applies to all physical media.
The final point is less damning now since OTT platforms do not come under CBFC jurisdiction so filmmakers can go direct to streaming, but before the streaming era this is what actually happened to multiple filmmakers. Most famous example- Paanch (2003).
If a filmmaker goes to court to contest the CBFC decision, they are bound to wait at least a year before the court makes a decision. This is not feasible for most production houses due to monetary concerns so all they can really do is edit the film as requested because the other option is dealing with the Indian legal system and most prefer not to do that. There are some filmmakers who have done this and the results they received were not appealing for other people to go and follow. For example, movies like Black Friday (2004) and Udta Punjab (2016) While the latter example had the benefit of being in a digital age and receiving support from the general public, Kashyap's Black Friday was blocked for release for 2 years while the production house battled in court for its release.
And after all this, reception by the public of said films remains lukewarm at best due to lack of promotion. Here too CBFC plays a role. While content shown on television (normal cable TV) does not come under CBFC, the promos and advertisements that are showcased do. So here again we see stringent censorship that often blocks or limits promotion of A rated films.

Reason 2: Indian rating system

Audience ratings is a fairly new thing in India. Before IMDb was popularized in India (and used by TV shows for promotion), there were only two metrics by which a person could know whether or not a film was worth watching- what critics thought of the film and whether it was a box office hit or a flop.
The latter played (and continues to play) a vital role in swaying a person. “Movie hit thi ya flop?” (Was the movie hit or flop) is a common phrase used by several of us when deciding whether or not we should see this film. If the movie gains money at the box office, it’s a hit. If not it’s a flop. Box office is everything that matters for everyone- audiences, production houses and critics. And herein lies another reason why A rated films are so rare.
On average, A rated films earn way less than a U or U /A rated film. This is true everywhere but its force is more immensely felt in India. Films that are loved by audiences and critics but fail to gain money at the box office are labeled flop and that title remains with it for the rest of life.
So how does all this lead to the current state of Indian cinema? Production houses became increasingly risk proof. They started giving money to safe films, films that were guaranteed to be certified and released by CBFC and that were controversy free. This gives us the infamous term "masala movies". Pick out any A-list actor, get about-competent screenwriters to write a script, get a director to make a film that looked similar to every other similar film released in the past decade and voila, you have a hit on your hands. We started seeing such movies everywhere and films that were riskier and tackled mature content became almost extinct for a while. Add into this the inherently nepotistic industry and a fundamentally flawed rating system and we are left with the current state of Indian cinema. A constant stream of mediocre content using the same old storylines that 90s love stories used. Oh and the monthly biopics (dont forget about that, industry just loves them).
Are there any signs of change? Well OTT platforms seem to be taking a few risks and with the rising popularity of rating aggregators people are starting to see what the general consensus of the above talked films are like. But overall reform still seems very far and doesn’t seem likely to change anytime in near future.
If youve reached so far, thanks for reading my thoughts and please share yours too.
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2023.03.25 06:55 raindropsonajeep My timeline as I near the end of the process. USAF, FTM, AD, 11 years TIS

Hey all, figured it would be good for folks to see another person’s transition process.
I hope this helps someone, feel free to ask questions if you have them or DM me.
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2023.03.25 06:48 NKI156 Rewards For Faithfulness

Rewards From Faithfulness
1 Words Of Commendation From Jesus Matthew 25v14-23
2 A Heavenly Reward For Faithfulness Ephesians 2v8-9 Romans 6v23 Revelation 22v12 Isaiah 40v10 Isaiah 62v11 Matthew 5v11-12 Matthew 25v21&v23 Revelation 21v1-4 Revelation 22v1-5
3 The Tragic Consequences Of Unfaithfulness Matthew 25v24-30 Matthew 25v12 Matthew 7v19-21 Matthew 24v45-51
4 Pressing On Toward The Goal 2 Corinthians 11v24-27 Philipians 3v12-14 1 Timothy 6v12 Romans 8v16-18 2 Timothy 4v6-8
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2023.03.25 06:44 Rainbow6SiegeCreator What If Legends and Canon Merged? Part 7: Superweapon Unveiled

As the months raged by on Kamino, Vader received word that another clone had survived. When Vader returned to the cell of the newest clone, he repeated the similar script he gave to the other clones that had failed him.
Vader: You survived.
Starkiller38: How much time has passed?
Vader: 13 days in Isolation. Impressive.
Starkiller38: The Force gives me all I need.
Vader: From what source?
Starkiller38: The Dark side, my master.
Vader then began to raise the platform restraining the clone out of the cell and he handed him two lightsabers that were similar to the ones the successful clone carried.
Vader: Starkiller's Jedi mentor has been captured.
Starkiller38: General Rahm Kota?
Vader: Yes. When your training is complete, you will go to Cato Neimoidia and execute him.
When the clone hears it, he begins to recoil from a memory aching in his head about when the original Starkiller dueled him above Nar Shaddaa. When the flash ended, Vader took notice.
Vader: You are still haunted by visions?
Starkiller38: Yes, Master. I… sometimes smell a forest on fire, I see the General falling, I feel the ground shake as a starship crashes around me,... and I hear… a woman's voice when I try to sleep.
Vader: They ate memories of a dead man. A side effect of the cloning process and the memory flashes used to train you. They. Will. Fade.
Starkiller38: And if they don't?
Vader: Then you will be of no use to me. Starkiller's emotions made him weak. You must destroy what he created, and you must learn to hate what he loved.
As Vader explained this to him, training droids similar to Proxy appeared taking the forms of Rebel soldiers and Juno Eclipse. His shackles were removed by the Force and the clone activated his two crimson blades. As he had tuned his powers and saber techniques, Vader was impressed, but only knew it would be a true success if the Juno projection was killed.
When the training droid that projected the image of Juno spoke, the clone hesitated and started to give into his memories.
Vader: Strike her down!
Starkiller38: I… can't!
Vader: You WILL! You were created to do. MY. Bidding!
After trying to absorb Vader's orders to strike down the image of Juno, his memories won out and he deactivated the blades and holstered them to his robes.
Vader was disappointed in this clone and began to strike down the image himself. The clone was about to check on it when the visage disappeared.
Vader: Then… it is as I feared.
Starkiller38: Why is this happening to me?!
Vader: The accelerated cloning process is still… imperfect. Your predecessors had succumbed to madness within months. I had high hopes that you would be the first success, but now you must suffer the same fate, like the rest.
Starkiller38: What will you do with me?
As Vader's saber activated, a memory flash had gone off in the clone's head, just as Vader had hoped for. Vader then slowly moved to execute the clone, he was forced to block a surprise torrent of Force lightning before he saw the clone escape the facility with sabers in tow, ready to rampage his way off of Kamino.
This turn of events, for Vader, had been going as he had planned. He then put together a double bounty for the escaped clone and Juno Eclipse. The quickest response to those bounties was from the bounty hunter that Vader, although refusing to admit to himself, has considered his favorite; Boba Fett.
Boba: From the looks of this, he has a very healthy head start.
Vader: Find the woman and bring her to me. That clone will follow.
Boba: I'm gonna need a squadron or two of stormtroopers. They won't be coming back alive.
Vader: The Empire will provide whatever you believe is required.
Vader then reveals what he had done with the failed clones of Starkiller to the bounty hunter. Most have been subject to unimaginable pain until the only ability they have is short range teleportation, small burst stun lightning, and cloaking. These are equipped with wrist blasters, metallic claws embedded into their skin, and a breathing mechanism embedded in their lungs. Other failed clones were hidden among the gold-armored saber guards who were able to block the clone's force abilities. The closest successes were made into unarmed combatants that are proficient with the Force to reinforce Imperial rule on former Separatist worlds. Even fewer have only their brains preserved and used for large droid bodies that looked as if it was a droideka with a gorilla-like body. One brain that Vader had in particular which was a failed experiment of merging two types of DNA was moved to a large Mantis like droid capable of handling larger threats such as walkers, turbolaser emplacements, and even groups of Jedi. What he did with the remainder of the clone corpse parts he used for smaller and more numerous spider-like droids.
Boba Fett saw these machinations and secretly turned pale. While the bounty hunter composed himself, he accepted the use of these types of troops.
When the clone took down a couple of AT-STs with ease, he made his way to Vader's starfighter with Vader on his heels. As the Dark Lord saw his fighter take off, he knew that he was going to save Kota. He then orders the successful clone to Mustafar until ordered back. When X1 arrived in the shuttle, the two boarded and X1 gave him a few lessons on commanding a ship. This destroyer that X1 has been rewarded with was known as the Avarice.
After two years of fighting in a gladiatorial arena on Cato Neimoidia, Kota still maintains his will and taunts the Imperial at the head of Cato Neimoidia's arena. This baron ordered his Neimoidian aides to send another beast to execute the captured Jedi. Seconds later, the baron hears that Vader's TIE was coming in for a landing.
Baron: Secure the landing platform and have the Acolytes ready for any threat that comes our way!
When the bridge extended to the floating landing platform the Baron walked between the ivory formations of troopers with his best posture and eagerness to impress the dark lord. When he saw another being in his place wearing a TIE pilot uniform, he then began to draw his personal blaster, concealing it behind his back, while maintaining his look of confusion and inquisitiveness.
Baron: I… was expecting Lord Vader.
Starkiller38: The Jedi; Where is he?
Baron: No need to worry. He is alive… for the moment.
He then suspected that this individual was going to rescue his most entertaining combatant in his arena, and that was not going to happen on his watch.
Baron: What are the security codes in this sector?
The clone knew that he had no knowledge of the codes and stood ready to activate his blades. After the Baron pressed the clone for the security codes again, he drew his blaster, followed by the Stormtrooper escorts and the clone activated his crimson sabers. As blasters rang out, shots were deflected and troopers were cut down. In the firefight, the Baron had alerted Imperial troops all over the city that another force user was invading and attempting to rescue the Jedi. As the clone fought his way through the city, the Baron had an idea about replacing Kota with him.
Baron: This city lives for the sport of gladiatorial combat. General Rahm Kota is the finest combatant we have had yet. His two-year winning streak has become a fan favorite story, but also a source of dried up profits of gamblers. In my opinion, I see more potential in you as a combatant. If you fight and kill him in the arena, I will forgive your destructive warpath throughout my city.
After fighting many Imperial forces, Sith acolytes, and even taking down walkers and a couple Imperial Gunships, he made his way to the arena, and saw the familiar, yet tattered, Jedi that stood exhausted.
The baron saw the clone enter the arena from the view of his box and hoped that the clone would see reason, but as the clone stood at his side, his anger began to surface. He ordered his aides to send out his most fearsome combatant yet; the Gorog.
Back in the arena, Kota felt as though his body was screaming to relax, but when he heard a familiar voice, those mental screams began to quiet.
Kota: By the Force, I knew you were alive.
Starkiller38: I just hope that I stay that way.
As the arena doors opened, a rancor emerged and the clone thought that it was gonna be an easy fight, and only activated one of his blades. All of that changed when a hand about the same size as the rancor, dragged the creature back into the depths of the arena. The sense of ease quickly faded from the clone as he activated his second blade. Starkiller got his comlink on and began to assess the very large and monstrous threat.
Kota: Please tell me you kept the same comm channel.
Starkiller38: Loud and clear, Kota.
Kota: About time, I didn't know if I could take any more.
Starkiller38: Speaking of time and being out of it, what is this damn thing?
Kota: All I know is that it's huge.
Starkiller: I can definitely see that, but what the hell can I do?!
Kota: I'm not sure on that front.
As the clone dodges every single massive strike from the massive gorilla like beast, he then attacks the restraints and forces them to move into place. Every time he did this, the arena rocked with every smash making the excitement of the spectators blend with concern with every blow the giant delivered. After stabbing his sabers into the head of the massive beast, the restraints began to fail against the Gorog's rage. With the evacuation of the arena underway, Starkiller had no choice but to jump to the highest points in the arena due to the Gorog breaking free and destroying the structure.
Kota: Since those restraints are destroyed, we need to take that beast out of commission!
Starkiller38: Isn't this perceptive? How?!
Kota: Since this place is a hanging city, see what you can do about the supports.
Starkiller38: Blast that, the whole structure will come down!
Kota: You got any ideas?
Starkiller38: Not so much, no.
Kota: I'm going after the Baron if you need anything else.
As the Imperials tried to restrain or kill the gorog, they also had to contend with the clone slashing them apart while the gorog destroyed the supports to the city.
As the Gorog destroyed the last auxiliary support, the clone joined Kota in taking down the Imperial Moff, but the Gorog grabbed the Baron like a toy signaling to the two Force users that they had to get out of there now. As they jump out the window Kota hits a remote as they fall and the Rogue Shadow flies below them to catch the two Jedi. As he did so, Starkiller then threw his sabers to cut down the last support of the arena, sending the structure, and the massive gorog plummeting to the planet sized abyss below with the metal, transparisteel, wiring, and electrical systems stabbing into the thick flesh of the beast. When the Rogue Shadow left Cato Neimoidia, the pair began to calm down from the adrenaline rush they had as the pair brought down an entire structure in a city with no explosives, ships, or massive Force feats.
When the ISD Avarice was ordered to jump to Dantooine, the dark clone and commander meet up with X1's second in command as they covertly deploy the terror troops within the rebel forces heading to the fleet soon to arrive. Many troops have snuck aboard the rebel vessels that stopped for refueling. When Crosshair finished overseeing the infiltration, he regrouped with his Commander. As the shuttle reboarded the Avarice, Vader's plan was set in motion.
On Coruscant, the chaos is absent, but the politicians who have become sycophants to the Emperor all held verbal and documented daggers behind their backs. One of these politicians who had continuously fought for the rights of Clones was Senator Riyo Chuchi of Pantora. With her was her protégé, Omega. When Clones were almost completely phased out, the select few who remained were part of the 501st Legion, part of the Royal Guard, or served as bodies needed for the Dark Trooper project. When the attack on Kamino was brought before the Senate, Rampart had disclosed the mission that the holorecording had showed the vast hall of hovering pods. As Senator Chuchi displayed the information, she cast blame for the loss of Imperial Resources on Rampart's personal agenda.
Chuchi: Tipoca City was destroyed on your orders, Admiral! This recording was from your Venator!
Rampart: This recording shows the after effects of the battle that was won and we had to make sure that the Kaminoans never rebelled again. The Kaminoans had promised us that they would refrain from cloning a military to rival the Empire, but they have done so by taking DNA as part of their "medical treatment." Here is the evidence from one of my trooper's helmets of the supposedly cordoned off facilities.
Rampart then displayed Crosshair's view of the active cloning chambers. When a trooper sat in the pod, it was one of the clone of a trooper who died on Naboo.
Rampart: I also have with me one result of the Kaminoans' treachery. This trooper if you look upon their face has a distinct set of markings under their right eye. These are not medical scars or medical wrappings. The real Imperial trooper has died while being treated and this was the result to appease us.
The trooper rose up and revealed his face, showong the markings of the kaminoan cloning of Imperial conscripts.
Chuchi: An entire city was destroyed on your orders, Rampart! If it is wiped from the galactic maps, that would be cause for your court martial and charged with genocide!
Just as the words exit the Pantoran's lips, the central podium rose from the floor to reveal the Grand Vizier, Mas Amedda, and the Emperor himself. The Senate gradually fell quiet and Palpatine began to speak.
Palpatine: In light of the allegations made by both parties, the loss of Imperial resources will take years to replenish. The destruction of Tipoca City as depicted in the evidence provided by the Senator from Pantora, is ruled as a battle, not a slaughter of innocents. The insurrection has been dealt with, but the response to such an insurrection was unjustified destruction ordered by a rogue Imperial Agent serving his own agenda instead of the Empire. As for the evidence in the cloned conscripts, there is another dilemma present for you, Senator Chuchi. Since you are an advocate for the rights of clones, are those created to replace the dead conscripts included with the veterans of the Clone Wars, as well, or is your advocacy only through words alone?
Chuchi: This is the first time I have been made aware of any clones outside of the last war, My Emperor. Nevertheless, whether the clone is a recruit, or a veteran, I will be their voice in the Imperial Senate.
Emperor: I admire your dedication, Senator, but a new challenge has approached you. I hereby rule that any conscript who is discovered as a Kaminoan clone will no longer be able to serve in the Imperial military. If they do not seek other forms of employment outside of our military complex within 30 days, they will be culled.
Many Senators had cheered for the ruling from the Emperor, and others were silent on the matter so as to not lose their seats. Chuchi realized she had lots of work ahead of her. Omega offered to assist her and the pair began to work on the employment forms. Rampart had been arrested by the Coruscant Guard and sent to a military Tribunal due to his actions. After a few days of hard work, the tired and stressed out senator decided to head to 79's; the bar designated for clones when they were relieved of their posts for the night, or even throughout their long campaigns away from base. When the clones saw her, they knew to make sure she was served right away.
Back with the Rogue Shadow, the Starkiller clone had just picked up Kota from Malastare and was about to jump to hyperspace towards Dantooine when new memories played in his head. When he looked at his memories, he began smelling a very fungal odor, he felt the ground shake as massive footsteps ran towards him, he saw a Jedi fall from a force choke by Vader, and he heard a female voice, but this time, it wasn't Juno. The voice came from a woman with gray skin, red horns, black hair, and yellow eyes.
Kota: What did you see?
Starkiller38: I remember a planet full of fungal trees, I felt as if a rancor was chasing me, and I heard a different voice than Juno's.
Kota: Don't you remember Felucia?
Starkiller38: If that's what I'm seeing, maybe I do, but that other woman, I think I fought her.
Kota: You rescued Senator Organa from that mess of a planet.
Starkiller38: The thing is, Kota, I have never been to Felucia myself. I have memories of that planet, but I haven't ever set foot in that system.
Kota: We'll figure it out later. Anyway, we're coming up on the fleet. I'll do the talking.
Starkiller38: That's fine, General. I have to meditate, maybe I'll see if I can reach Juno.
As Starkiller sat down in what used to be the training facility, he meditated and changed out the crystals of his lightsabers. When they continued talking about Starkiller being back, Kota was updating him on the rebellion's current capability in terms of fighting Imperial Forces. Even though Kota still refused to believe it, he then heard the clone say something that triggered a memory of his own.
Starkiller38: You have no idea what I went through on Kamino.
Kota: Kamino? What city did you escape from? We can put your power to use now that you’re back, and launch a full scale…
Starkiller38: NO! I… just want… Look, I need a place to think everything through, to meditate.
Kota: To hide?!
Starkiller38: Until I find Juno.
Kota: We’re at war and you want a quiet place to think?! Wasn’t your trip before you picked me up specifically for that?! The Alliance will be destroyed, all because you had to continue… finding yourself?
Starkiller38: So now you believe that I’m a clone?
Kota: Yeah, cause you aren’t the first clone of a Jedi I met. After I lost my sight above Nar Shaddaa, I fell into a deep depression and recieved a call from an old friend, he told me about a clone he fought alongside and his exceptional skill. I found him on Dantooine and he looked almost the spitting image of his father, my old padawan.
Starkiller38: What happened to him? Resulting in the clone?
Kota: When he was injured after a battle before the clone wars, we brought him to Kamino to get him some medical attention. When the Kaminoans were finished with thim, they took some of his DNA as payment for the work they did.
Starkiller38: How did he die? I’m assuming it was on Dantooine, right?
Kota: Yes. When the Empire attacked Dantooine, my old padawan was the target. The clone I found was there along with other clones who defected. After a noble defense, he was killed by the other clone produced from his DNA and the clone that I found, had survivor’s guilt and stayed there for about 15 years before I got there and pulled him out of his funk.
The starkiller clone then reached into his pocket and gave the blind Jedi general a pen like item that he snagged from his escape, showing the jedi general how resourceful he was under stress.
Kota: An encrypted code cylinder?
Starkiller38: Everything about the schematics and cloning facilities on… Kamino.
Kota: Oh, and for the belief if you are a clone or not, I don’t think that it matters.
An explosion rings out throughout the bridge and the Jedi make theri way to the bridge, fighting Imperial forces along the way. In the ensuing Chaos, Boba fett infiltrated the ship and snuck his way through the cruiser to the bridge. He ordered different squads of troops throughout the ship to eliminate the rebels and find the Captain for Vader. When Kota encountered some Imperial troops, a lot of them were the basic stormtroopers, and other specialized troops that had no enhancements. When Kota reached the bridge, he briefly reunited with Proxy and took control of the bridge. When starkiller saw the hall that was near the bridge, Boba Fett had captured her already. All the clone and Captain could do was share a glance before Boba dragged her away to the Slave I. After Kota managed every thing from the bridge, and Starkiller fought through vader’s troops and Experiments, he tried stopping Boba fett from taking her to no avail.
Starkiller38: Kota, They’re gone. Send the order to attack Kamino or I WILL GO WITHOUT YOU!!!
Kota: Already done. We’re fixing to jump out of Hyperspace in a couple minutes. Switch channels, there’s something you need to hear.
Both had switched channels and Kota gave the clone a bit of warning.
Kota: You know that Vader is luring you back to him.
Starkiller38: Yes, I KNOW, but he won't be expecting the entire rebel fleet!
Kota: I know. Let's hope we're right. We just got out of hyperspace and are nearing Kamino.
The clone then heard some creaks and groans of metal being moved and bent only to see a huge insect-like walker about to attack the reactor of the entire ship.
Back with Kota, he knew he had to send for help if his fleet was to last against the Empire. He told Proxy to get into contact with any of the rebel leadership so he can call for aid.
Kota: Proxy, we need to get in touch with the Alliance leadership. Our fleet is falling apart.
Proxy: Patching you through to Yavin.
Proxy then changed his form to that of Princess Leia Organa and Kota began to speak.
Kota: Princess, our fleet is near Kamino and our fleet is falling apart. My apprentice is back but he's occupied with Vader's experimental troops! What reinforcements can you send?
Leia: We can send only 1 transport ship to bolster the forces on your capital ships. It may take a while for the transport to get there.
Kota: Anything you can send! We'll hold out for as long as they can!
When the transmission cut out, Starkiller had recovered the reactor and destroyed the insect walker and made his way to the main cannon.
With the Imperial defenses, there were two star destroyers blockading the planet; The Avarice and The Ambition. Each of them have sent TIE Fighters to destroy any rebels attempting to take off. When the rebels' main cannon was fired by the escaped clone, the Ambition took the lethal hit and was split in half. X1 realized that on that ship was his special Unit. X1 then fell to his rage, another ISD, the Desolate jumped out of hyperspace and reinforced the Imperial blockade.
Back with the clone, The appearance of the Desolate made Kota realize that their chances of success have significantly dropped. He made announcements to the hangar bays about sending the Y-wing bombers to attack the new destroyer. When the Imperial boarding parties attempted to go into the hangar bays, the X-wings and A-wings intercepted them and blew them into the vacuum of space.
Kota: We can't hold out much longer! Reroute all power to the forward deflector shields.
Proxy: This ship is also going to pieces. We already lost decks 8 through 12.
Starkiller38: Head to the Rogue Shadow. I don't think those planetary shields can withstand a direct hit from a cruiser.
Kota was almost dumbfounded at the idea, but figured that since their options were limited, he had to give the order he dreaded for the longest time.
Kota: Abandon ship! ABANDON SHIP!!! Are we even gonna survive?
Starkiller38: We'll see when we make it to the ground. Just get to the ship.
When the rebels got in their ships and escape pods, the Starkiller clone began moving debris out of the way of the crashing cruiser. When the cruiser broke through, the ship began to burn up due to reentry. As the cruiser continued burning up, he jumped out of the cruiser and removed all the barriers to prevent any drag in the ship's descent.
When Starkiller landed in a familiar yard-like structure in the facility he had escaped, he began searching for Juno and Vader. When he encountered multiple types of Imperial troops, he merely regarded them as nuisances and turned them upon each other in every room he entered. When it came to the war droids, he used their fire and carbonite shots against them and destroyed them using their shields as cover and a massive projectile against other Imperial forces. When he finally reunited with Kota, they saw that fighters and bombers were flying about and Starkiller used the war droid shields to take out the fighters and bomber squads. As the two continued to fight the Empire, the clone made his way towards the cloning chambers, against the behest of Kota.
Kota: You don't know what else is in there!
Starkiller38: Juno is close, General!
Kota: So is Vader, boy, just stop! Don't go in there alone!
Starkiller38: I know Vader's there, but I'm not stopping.
Kota: We need you on the front lines!
Starkiller38: I told you a hundred times that I'm going after Juno!
Kota: Damn it, Starkiller! I'm coming after you when we finish up here!
Starkiller walked through the cloning facility surrounded by suspended animation pods filled with clones of him. Throughout his walk through the chambers, he had begun hearing Juno’s voice rejecting him, Kota’s voice belittling him, and Vader’s ominous and iconic breathing sending chills throughout his spine and stoking the flames of his anger.
Starkiller38: VADER!!! COME OUT!! FACE ME, YOU COWARD!!!!
At random moments, Vader would surprise Starkiller with attacks using the Force, or using his saber. When Vader attacked with his blade, Starkiller began to press Vader on Juno. Every time he broke the clash or his grip of the Force, memories of him past, present, and future flashed in his mind, giving Vader time to hide and prepare for his next strike. When the clone exited the dark cloning room, he saw Vader atop one of the stasis pod platforms looking down at the clone who had escaped his grip, according to his plan, unbeknownst to the rest of the Empire.
Vader: I knew it was only a matter of time before you returned. Now you will surrender to me, or you will die here, where you were created.
This had further enraged the clone as he met Vader on that platform and ignited his twin sapphire blades ready to butcher the being who saw him as nothing but a weapon, an experiment, and a being with no identity. Vader had continued jumping from platform to platform releasing more unfinished clones towards the one that opposed him, but the clone continued to use them against him and keep him distracted.
Throughout the fight between the creator and his creation, Kota had managed to find the Kaminoan doctors who he tried to help 3 years ago. The kaminoans were about to display their gratitude for their rescuers, but a rain of blaster shots came in from a jetpack wearing bounty hunter, the same one Kota had fought on this planet during the Kamino uprising 3 years ago.
Boba: Now I’ve got you Jedi!
Kota: You again? You’ll never take me to Jabba alive!
Boba: Don’t have to. Your corpse is also acceptable.
When more Saber guards, Jump troopers, and Terror spider droids showed up behind him, the rebels had to steel themselves and fight for their lives. As the bounty hunter and Jedi fought, the transport entered Kamino’s atmosphere and 6 X-wings came out to blast the Imperials away.
X2: General, this is Grey Leader! We arrive just in time?
Kota: Barely, Grey Leader! Make sure that the Kaminoans are secured on your transport before you go! I gotta get to Vader.
Grey 4: Roger that, General. Grey 5, There’s 8 TIEs on your left flank!!
Grey 6: We’re gonna have to wait on that, General! Air support just came in!
Kota: Copy that, Grey 6!
Kota had chased the bounty hunter with every attack he could throw whe it was throwing the bounty hunter with the Force, dodging his flame thrower, redirecting his rockets towards the Imperial troops, and even using Mind triks on the Imperial troops to fight the bounty hunter. When Boba fled the scene, the Rebels brought the Kaminoans to their transport vessel on one of the far platforms.
When vader lured the clone to an office like room with a large transparisteel pane window, Vader had no saber ignited and faced the clone knowing that his use of Dun Moc was working wonders on him, perhaps too well.
Starkiller38: WHERE IS SHE??!!!!
Vader then stepped aside to reveal Juno Eclipse ound in the same shackles he was in when he began the penultimate test of his training. As the clone was about to embrace the blonde captain, Vader lifted her into a choke with the Force.
Vader: Bow before me, or she dies.
Vader was inching closer and closer to cracking her neck when Starkiller gave in and deactivated his blades.
Starkiller38: Wait, wait! I… will do your bidding. Just let her go.
Starkiller got on his knees and hung his head as if he was about to lose the single most important thing in his life. As Vader attemtped to control the clone once again, Juno crawled on the ground beneath the focus of both Force users and snag one of the clone’s blades.
Vader: You will find and kill General Kota. If you refuse, the woman dies. You will return to me and give yourself to the Dark side. If you resist, she dies. And when your training is complete, you will hunt down and execute the rebel leaders. If you fail, she dies!
A saber ignited and Juno began swinging at Vader, and the dark lord treated it like it was child’s play and threw her out the window with the Force, knocking her unconscious, unbeknownst to both Force users. Starkiller began to scream as he attempted to slash Vader to ribbons, but Vader prepared for it and threw him out the same window to the adjacent platform where the weather and rain had gotten worse throughout the battle. Vader leapt onto the same platform and Starkiller had begun radiating energy from the force as he began to barrage Vader with many quick dual bladed attacks. In the moments where the sabers clashed, Vader had continued using Dun Moc on the clone, stoking his fear and anger. As the fight progressed to even greater displays of the Force Kota and the rebel troops were coming up on the platform and saw the clone use the lightning from the electricity in the light poles and the storm Kota and the rebels stayed back until the dangerous displays of the Force subsided. Vader was taking a huge surge of lightning from the combined voltage of the storm, the electricity powering the poles and Starkiller’s raw potential with Force lightning. As Vader knelt in defeat with his dueling hand severed and his breathing apparatus malfunctioning, he goaded the clone to finish him.
Starkiller38: You’ve taken everything from me!
Vader: Your feelings for her are not real.
Starkiller38: They are real to me!
Kota: Wait!
Starkiller38: You want him dead as much as I do.
Kota: Yes, but not yet. Not until he’s told us the Empire’s secrets!
Starkiller38: You want to take him prisoner?
Kota: To a hidden rebel base where we can interrogate him, put him on trial for crimes against the true republic, and then we’ll execute him to show the galaxy that we don’t need to fear him any longer!
Starkiller38: If I let him live, he’ll haunt me forever.
Kota: He’s the only one who knows if Starkiller really survived. He can’t tell you if he’s dead.
The clone now had a choice to make, execute Vader for the trauma he has put him through, or let him live to serve the alliance’s purposes that had no benefit for him. The perfected clone had been hiding in an Imperial shuttle above the planet waiting for the go ahead from his master to attack the rebels and execute Kota and complete his final test. Boba Fett, meanwhile, was on and adjacent platform in a sniping position, ready to execute Kota and the clone on Vader’s orders. When Starkiller deactivated his blades and walked away, Kota began ordering his men to restrain Vader. In the midst of loading Vader onto the Rogue Shadow, the apprentice had acquired his master’s mechanical hand, and told the pilot to reboard the Avarice and set course for Dantooine after overhearing the conversation on the platform above.
When the clone saw a droid tending to Juno, he recognized it and started running to the pair.
Starkiller38: Proxy?
Proxy: Master?
Both: I thought you were dead!
Proxy: It’s quite a long story, possibly for a later time and place, but right now, I can’t revive her, she’s….
The clone then almost began regretting making all the moves he did throughout the galaxyand held the body of Juno Eclipse and began to pull her into an embrace just as the flashes had reminded him of such a moment.
Starkiller38: I should’ve stayed here.
As a tear flowed from is face and landed on Juno’s cheek, the clone began to kiss her, and when she began moving to reciprocate, the clone was almost overjoyed. When the kiss was broken, it was a surprise both of them.
Juno: We’re alive.
Starkiller38: I’ll explain my part later.
The two had shared a moment in each other’s arms before Juno had Proxy take the form of Princess Leia.
Leia: What’s your status?
Juno: We’re alive and we have captured Vader.
Kota: We also got another jedi back in the fight.
Leia: What’s your plan for moving him?
Juno: We’ll send a dozen small freighters in all directions. Even if the Empire knows we have him, they won’t know which ship to follow.
Leia: Excellent. The security detail?
Kota: We will have it covered, Your highness.
Juno: We’ll keep you informed en route to Dantooine.
Leia: Great. This will definitely be a turning point for the alliance. May the force be with you.
As Leia’s visage disappeared, Juno and Proxy were about to board the Rogue Shadow, but the clone was walking over to the restrained sith lord. Starkiller had a few words for the man/machine that took almost every bit of humanity from him in hopes to deliver the pain that his sabers could not.
Starkiller38: I let you live. You tell me that I’m just a clone, but I chose to spare you the pain you have inflicted on my predecessors. Maybe Kota is right. This might be just some ruse to make me forget who I am and make me your weapon again, but despite what you have done to me, I. Let. You. Live. You no longer have and sway over my actions or control over me.
Vader: As long as she lives, you will always be my slave to control, manipulate, and sway any way I please.
With that, Starkiller had left the dark room that housed the restrained dark lord. He then went to the cockpit where the love of his life was at the controls.
Juno: Prepare for lightspeed.
When the hyperdrives kicked in, the Rogue Shadow made is way to Dantooine, and one ship that had appeared from the debris in orbit emerged and followed them.
On Yavin, a Group of rebels had stolen an Imperial shuttle and were going after the Death Star plans, and they knew that they needed the reinforcements, so Chirrut Imwe lead the strike team due to the squadron’s belief in the Jedi as capable leaders, and Rogue Squadron’s ability to sneak into the Imperial base on Scariff As soon as their cover was blown, the rebels had fought every Imperial wave that came their way. These rebels knew that they were in for a fight.
Back on Dantooine, Kota volunteered to stay with the garrison and keep watch over Vader. Outside the prison, Crosshair activated the beacon and saw an Imperial light cruiser launch a TIE Advanced fighter and when it landed a good distance away from the rebel prison, the perfected clone climbed out and had Vader’s severed had with him. During the night, he snuck to a rendezvous point where he met another Imperial trooper, clad in all black armor with a green lens. Both of them stopped when the clone had his blaster raised. Crosshair: Show yourself.
The perfected clone then raised himself up and removed his hood.
StarkillerC: I have a gift for my master who is imprisoned here.
Crosshair: I see, thank you.
StarkillerC: Good luck trooper. Against the jedi, you’ll need it.
Crosshair: I’ll be on my guard.
As the apprentice reembarked on the TIE, he reboarded Vader’s flagship and began to search for a ship to take him to Malachor.
Boba Fett had found the clone and the captain moving Vader to the deepest and most reinforced cell in the prison. Before he can take the shot, the clone gets the sense that they were followed.
Juno: What’s wrong?
Starkiller38: Juno, get back to the ship. We’ve been followed.
Juno: I’ll pick you up after you deall with our tail.
When Boba Fett finds that his target was running, he begins to slowly hunt the jedi clone and just as he was about to find the Jedi’s thermal signature, he becomes engulfed in Force lightning to the point where the jetpack sends him on an uncontrolled flight path and knocked him into a nearby tree. As Boba recovers, he sees the figure approach him with twin sapphire blades, and just as the clone was about to deliver a lethal stab, Boba rolled out of the way and retreated back to his ship, then felt himself get lifted off the ground with a look of fear beneath his helmet and the Jedi spared the bounty hunter by throwing him back to his ship. This defeat against a Force user then burned a rule, almost literally, into his mind for any future bounties, that he will put to the forefront upon any contract he takes.
Starkiller38: Juno, I’m at the landing platforms.
Juno: Copy that, Starkiller. Vader is secure and Kota’s volunteered to guard him.
Later the following night, Crosshair began getting a holocall. This was coming from his direct superior, X1. he then found a spot away from the Prison where the beacon had been activated beneath the surface.
Crosshair: Yes, Commander?
X1: We have responded to your beacon and are ready for an assault. Did you receive the package?
Crosshair: I did, Commander. I’m going to sneak into Lord Vader’s cell and repair his hand. When he is freed and slicing his way through the rebels, block any that exit. There is also a jedi that may occupy him. As teh rebels retreat from Lord Vader, attack them, and leave the jedi for him.
X1: Excellent plan, Captain. We’ll send a company to free Lord Vader.
As Crosshair had finished repairing Vader’s hand, Vader then ordered Crosshair to inform him of what the escape plan is.
Vader: CT-9904, what is the escape plan?
Crosshair: Commander X1 is sending a company of stormtroopers to your rescue and the rebels will be flanked in the firefight.
Vader went along with the plan and remained restrained until the following day when Kota would report to Vader’s cell.The night before, after Kota was relieved of duty, he recorded a holomessage reserved for a bounty hunter friend who had joined the alliance because of Kota.
Kota: Shara, if you are seeing this I’ve left the rebellion. I need to focus on myself as a Jedi and how my life will be affected if the Empire succeeds. There is a clone I want you to fight alongside. He fought in the clone wars and has his own squadron. If you met my padawan, he is the spitting image of him, he is a clone after all, hehe. Anyway, I’m assigning you to Grey Squadron and as an advisor to the unit. May the Force be with you. Always.
Back on Coruscant, Senator Chuchi and Omega had given many clones the occupations outside the empire, but not all of them survived. Some have abandoned life within the Empire and joined the Rebellion, others were given work in service industries, manufacturing, and retail, as well as trade, and the few that couldn't be reached were culled by the Empire. Chuchi and Omega were both haunted when the cullings began. They used it to fuel the passion to fuel clone rights initiatives in the Empire. One night after a session, the two colleagues had said their goodbyes for what would be the final time unbeknownst to them.
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2023.03.25 06:42 TheDollarstoreDoctor Nervous about bringing up medication changes to my doctor, remission from hallucinations, and disorganized thinking: a vent

My initial diagnosis was paranoid personality disorder, back when I was a teenager so before schizophrenia typically manifests (according to my medical records I had early "warning signs" like thought blocking/poverty of speech/word salad, intense depersonalization & being generally very withdrawn/isolative). Honestly, my memory of those years are very hazy but I've always been an extremely skittish/timid person.
I moved nearly 2 years ago to a different state and started seeing a new psychiatrist. Due to trauma from past psychiatrists, I'm generally wary of doctors, but I really feel comfortable with my current one (to the point where I still go to them despite being out of network with my new insurance). About a year ago (maybe more? Now 24, this was when I was 22 about to turn 23) I asked for a re-evaluation because on top of PPD, I also was diagnosed with bipolar several years ago and I felt that wasnt accurate because i never experienced mania or hypomania. I also started to have more auditory and visual hallucinations, I'd usually hear a crowd of voices (too many to know what they're saying), or a man with a transatlantic accent saying random words & numbers (sounding like a radio transmission from the 50s). I'd usually see huge spiders in my apartment, or shadows looking at me through the window. My paranoia also got to a point where I ended up locking myself in the bathroom and screaming in complete terror because I was convinced NY OMH agents were going to track me down on the other side of the country to take me away or inject me with drugs, I was so hysterical my husband had to break in & bearhug me to keep me from hurting myself from how much I was thrashing around. I fully believed my job at the time was pumping poisonous gas into the office to slowly kill me. I was at the point I made no sense whenever I spoke. There was a few times I'd be out in public and I'd think people were attacking me, I'd see them with knives or once when someone asked me for directions I instead heard threats of violence.
So, after discussing my past history, current symptoms, and worsening symptoms, my doctor agreed that he did not believe I had bipolar. He diagnosed me with schizophrenia. He increased my seroquel 600 mg and vraylar 1.5 mg. I was medication compliant for a while. And then I just stopped taking them. The seroquel made me so so dizzy. My limbs would feel so heavy, I have fallen before. At first it didnt, the 600 mg was working fine until it wasnt, and I feel like if I say "it was working then it wasnt" it will sound like a lie. I've already tried so many antipsychotics in the past, they all just make me feel so weak. Not as in exhausted, but head spinning dizziness. I think maybe it's that I've had the most luck with seroquel out of everything I've tried in the past, just for it to start giving me terrible side effects, that makes it harder to admit that it's not working because it's worked so well so why would there be an issue? I havent taken my medication (other than adderall, lunesta, and when needed xanax) in several months. But I havent had any hallucinations. I know it's wrong to be dishonest. Please dont mistake what I'm saying as me saying it's ok to do what I did, I know it's not. I just dont want to be terminated as a patient for being noncompliant and losing access to the other meds I'm on that I need to function. I did mention it was making me too tired and he lowered it to 300 mg 2 months ago. I've been breaking them in half to atleast try, but even that has been making my limbs feel 500 lbs heavier. I'm just so afraid of being caught in a lie. And I have been so much better, I feel like a completely different person than when first diagnosed, despite not taking all my meds. But my thoughts feel so disorganized. Especially at work, I try to keep my sentences coherent, and for the most part I'm able to get away with just sounding a little bit awkward, but I notice people sometimes have a hard time understanding me.
Now that I'm typing this out, I realize its silly to be nervous about bringing up trying a different medication. I just have felt that I'm doing fine since I feel safe. I've hadn't been hearing or seeing things. I dont feel like anything is after me, or that I'm in danger. I even started to doubt I had a problem at all, but I know that's not true even if I am much better, there still are a few traces of my diagnosis, and maybe it can hide for a long time and still be there. But the disorganized thinking is getting to me, trying to form words feels like trying to hold soup in my hands. The "positive" symptoms are pretty subsided, but the "negative" feels like they're consuming me.
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2023.03.25 06:42 StepwiseUndrape574 Huge GTA 6 Leak Claims Rockstar’s New RAGE9 Graphics Engine Is Incredible

Besides offering up chaotic open-world action, one thing that Rockstar's games have done ever since Grand Theft Auto III is push the envelope in terms of technology. This is somewhat debatable up to Grand Theft Auto IV, which stunned audiences with its mix of macro-scale simulation and micro-scale detail. GTA V and the newer Red Dead Redemption 2 have continued this tradition, and both are still capable of putting the hurt on modern PCs. That's largely thanks to their forward-looking design that integrates features that contemporary systems weren't really ready for when the released.
gtaonlinerain GTA V can still look startlingly realistic at times.
The thing is, even though it just got a re-release on the current-generation consoles, GTA V originally released in 2013. The game's still fun, of course, especially the online mode that has seen continual updates over the years. The technology behind the title is getting a little dated, though, and fans of the series are understandably chomping at the bit for a new release. Rockstar has confirmed that GTA VI (or at least, the next GTA game) is in the works, but as usual, the company hasn't released any information about the title, nor mentioned a release window.
The leaks and rumors that we've heard so far place a hypothetical "GTA VI" at the end of next year, or even in 2025. That's a lot of development time, even if the company only moved into active development in the middle of last year, as is supposedly the case. In a time when almost every other development house (from Square-Enix to CD Projekt Red) is moving to the Unreal Engine, it seems like Rockstar will thankfully stick with its own in-house tech, known as RAGE.
That bit of information comes from a tweet by Chris Klippel, who is among other things the creator of Rockstar Mag, a French-language gaming news site that focuses on topics surrounding Rockstar Games and its releases. You can see the tweet above. Chris says that he has been in touch with people who have seen the latest version of RAGE in action, and that its graphics engine is "assez incroyable." Chris describes the latest version as RAGE9, which is interesting; Rockstar doesn't talk about RAGE as a separate product from its games, likely because it doesn't license the tech.
gtaonlinearcade The arcade area added to GTA Online would look amazing with ray-traced lighting.
It's not hard to imagine what sort of features the game engine might include to warrant that description. Heavy usage of ray-traced graphics will go a long way toward impressive presentation, but based on what we've heard in the past about GTA VI, it seems likely that the latest RAGE might be more impressive in its ability to scale content from infinitesimal details all the way up to gigantic cityscapes. We've seen demonstrations of similar technology in Epic Games' Unreal Engine 5, and given the nature of "GTA", such capability would be perfectly suited to the games.
Another impressive characteristic in GTA VI might just be the NPC AI. Historically, Grand Theft Auto's NPCs have been extremely simple stand-ins mostly intended to give the scene a realistic look without having much in the way of personality or believable behavior. That could all change in the next GTA game, based on a patent filed in October 2020.
From what we've heard, the next Grand Theft Auto title will be set in Vice City once again, so look forward to exploring the city's tropical environs. No word on the chronological setting, though; it could be set as far back as the Cuban Missile Crisis, or it could be set in the modern day. We also don't know necessarily what platforms the title will appear for, but based on Rockstar's history, we'd expect it to be available for the PS5 and Xbox before it appears on PC later.
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